I was barely able to stay awake long enough for Edward to call and let me know he made it home and I actually fell asleep while on the phone with him. When I woke the next morning I was so nervous I couldn't eat anything and I felt like I could run around the world and back. Alice and Paul never came home last night so when I woke up to a quiet house I took advantage and just sat in the living room watching a King of the Hill marathon while I decided on the best way to reveal myself to the band.
Edward wants me to make a grand gesture and show up as Ben and rip my wig off but I thought that was stupid and told him so. I thought that I should tell Rose first and see where that leads us but I was more afraid of her response than anyone else. She can be very frightening when she is pissed and this was bound to make her mad. My biggest fear however wasn't what they would think or say to me but rather what would happen to Alice and Paul when the realized they knew the entire time.
The entire day was wasted on watch Bobby getting yelled at by Hank for what ever hair brained idea he came up with in that particular episode, before I knew it Alice and Paul where home and running around getting ready for our big night out. I was so nervous I thought I was going to pass out but I knew everything would work out in the end. At least I hoped it would.
When I decided to go get dressed I found that someone had laid out some clothes for me to wear. When I looked around I only saw Paul smirking at me. "I figured it would work for both Bella and Ben. You'll look like one of the guys as Ben but then look like some type of beach bum as Bella." He laid out a pair of black cargo shorts and a black wife beater shirt and a pair of flip flops. "Thanks, Paul." He came in the room and gave me a big hug. "Good luck tonight." I nodded my head before he left so I could change.
After I was dressed I twisted my hair up so I could put my wig on but I didn't have to secure it as much as I normally would since it would be coming off eventually. Once downstairs we all piled into a taxi and headed towards Funky Monkey which was the place where the band started playing at and Rose found them, the rest is history. Apparently going here after the tour is over is tradition.
Everyone else was already there and they were occupying a table in the V.I.P. section with no one else around. "Hey guys, did we miss anything?" Paul and Alice went to sit next to Jake and Jasper which left me a spot between Edward and Emmett. I took my spot and tried to not look stressed like I really was. Edward squeezed my knee under the table which calmed me just slightly.
The waitress came by to get our orders and flirted with me and Edward who were the only two who weren't wrapped up in conversation with our boyfriend or girlfriend. I clenched my fist under the table when I saw her trying to place her hand on Edward's thigh. I downed the first shot that was placed in front of me and started drinking my beer before I stood and went to the bathroom.
I splashed some water on my face and tried to calm down but it wasn't working. I took a few deep breaths before I left the bathroom. Before I could get out of the hallway I walked right into a human wall. When I looked up to apologize I saw Edward's bright green eyes. I was opening my mouth to apologize when he grabbed my face and forcefully slammed his lips against mine. We kissed until we needed to breathe and then Edward only pulled far enough to do so.
It took a moment to compose ourselves, "I'm sorry but everyone else got there hello kiss and I just felt so jealous." I blushed and looked down at the ground trying to hide it.
"Well I have to say that kiss was well worth the wait."
"Then this one should be even better."
He lifted my chin and placed butterfly kisses all over my face before he settled on my lips. Our lips had only been connected a few seconds before I heard Emmett's bombing voice, "HOLY SHIT!" When we both looked over to where the voice was coming all we could see was the back of his head leaning over the table talking to the group. "Rose I figured it out! Ben's gay!" Paul almost spit his beer all over the table but he covered his mouth blocking it from soaking everyone else.
Rose rolled her eyes at him, "And how did your little nut of a brain come to this conclusion?" He pointed over to me and Edward, "They were making out in the hallway to the bathrooms." Everyone looked at us waiting for us to deny what Emmett was saying but what surprised me was when Edward reached out and grabbed my hand giving me the courage I need to just rip this band-aid off.
"First, we're not gay," "Fine, bisexual, whatever." Rose smacked Emmett on the back of the head. "As I was saying we are not gay." I turned to look at Edward as he kissed my forehead and nodded at me. "I have to tell you all something and you aren't going to like it. I'm not really who you think I am." I squeezed his hand letting him know I was ok before I released it so I could take the pins out of my wig. I quickly removed it completely and let my long hair fall around my shoulders.
"What." Jasper said.
"The." Jacob said.
"Fuck." Emmett said.
"When I heard about the auditions you guys were only looking for a guy. Originally I just wanted to try out to be able to meet you guys because I loved the band but then you guys asked me to join and I couldn't turn it down, so I went with the lie."
"You mean this whole time you have been a girl pretending to be a guy?"
"Yeah Emmett."
"If you didn't want anyone to know then how does Edward know?"
"The bar fight before we left for the international tour. When you guys sent Edward over to get me for the party I wasn't dressed like 'Ben' and he could tell by the identical injuries."
"Where you ever going to fucking tell us?" Jasper slammed his hand down causing me and Alice to jump. "I was actually planning to tell you guys to night but Emmett kind of ruined that plan." He clenched his fist that was on the table and Alice tried to get him to loosen his grip but he just pulled it away. "You knew too and so did Paul?" She couldn't look him in the eye but she nodded. "I can't believe this shit." He stood so fast that his chair fell to the ground. Alice reached out to him but he forcefully shoved her hand away. "Don't fucking touch me. I can't even stand to look at you guys. You all lied to us, even you Edward. Let's go guys."
Emmett and Rose stood to follow Jasper but Jacob just held onto Paul more tightly and Edward pulled me so that my back was against his chest. "Paul?" He just shook his head in response to Jasper. "Fine." All three of them left without saying another word. When I looked at Alice she had tears in her eyes but none had fallen yet. "Alice I'm so sor.." "Don't, I knew what I was getting into by keeping this secret so don't apologize to me." She stood and left leaving just the four of us.
"Paul you're not going to freak out and yell?" he shrugged, "I get it, I lied for two years after I joined the band about being gay. Emmett was the one to freak out when they found that one out and Jasper was pretty cool. Just give him some time I'm sure he will cool off." We all sat down and took a shot, "I just hope he cools off before Alice gets hurt. She may come off as being an overly happy person but when she gets down she gets way down."
Jake looked down at Paul who gave him a small sad smile, "Alice tried to kill herself once. She got really depressed after her parents separated junior year and then she caught her boyfriend cheating in her. She doesn't handle disappointment easily." I got teary eyed when I though about that time. It was really hard for Alice and I felt partly responsible for her parents' separation. They seemed like the perfectly happy couple until after my parents died and then I moved in with them. Then suddenly her dad was gone all the time on 'business trips' and her mom was always so angry and I felt like it was all because of me even when her mom said it wasn't my fault.
We called it a night after a few more drinks and we all went our separate ways. When Paul and I got home Alice was crying on the couch. "He won't answer my calls." I grabbed the ice cream while Paul put in The Truth About Cats and Dogs. We could tell it was going to be a long emotional night.