ALICE POV

I was going CRAZY. Ever since Bella told the band the truth I haven't talked to Jasper I tried calling him several times and it just goes straight to voice mail. It's been a week and I am a wreck. I could see it in everyone's eyes that they were worried about me but I didn't want their pity. Everyone thought that I was going to try and off myself like I did in high school but I was working through my problems like my therapist taught me.

Every minute of every day I had someone there as a babysitter and I hated it. I almost stabbed Paul the other night when he insisted that I needed someone to go to the grocery store with me. I was surprised someone hadn't called my parents yet to start an intervention or some shit like that.

My only problem right now was that my therapist told me when problems like this arise I need to work them out but that is impossible when the reason for my problems won't even talk to me.

I heard the front door open and lifted my head to see Edward walk into the house. "Bella?" "I'll be down in a minute!" He turned and waved at me but I just collapsed back onto the couch and turned back to the TV. "What are you watching?" I just rolled my eyes and ignored his question by asking him one of my own. "Have you talked to him?" Edward made his way around the couch and lifted my feet so he could sit and placed them in his lap. "No, he only answers his phone when Rose calls and then as soon as the conversation drifts away from work he hangs up. I know you know this but he is emotional and it takes him longer to get over stuff like this. Emmett can just suck it up and not hold a grudge, everything rolls off of Jacob but Jasper takes everything personal."

I sighed before sitting up and kissing Edward's cheek, "Thanks Edward." He jumped when a throat cleared from the doorway, "Should I leave you two alone?" He chuckled before he stood and ran over to Bella and planted a big kiss on her lips. I sunk back down into the couch because the pain in my chest was unbearable. Seeing anyone in a relationship was so too painful right now.

"Alice, are you sure you don't want to come with us?"

I took a deep breath, "Yes Bella I am sure. You and Edward go out and have a good evening. I'm just gonna sit here and watch some more cliché romance movies." She had a pained look on her face but nodded before they left me alone. As soon as I heard the faint sound of Edward's car leave the driveway I turned on my laptop and found the video on youtube that I had been watching nonstop since Jasper stopped talking to me.

It took me less than a minute to find it and I sobbed as soon as I saw us standing in the middle of the dance floor as the rest of the band played the song that Jasper wrote for me. I never did find out who was recording this video but I had found it as soon as they posted it. Rose has been paying me to keep tabs on any unauthorized internet articles, music, or videos on the band. As soon as this hit the site I was notified but since this video was recorded in a public bar there was not really anything we could do about it being online.

This video had at least 650,000 hits and I can guarantee that I had watched it at least 1,000 times on my own. Watching this video was the only way that I felt close to Jasper right now. The video ended with a zoom in on me and Jasper kissing at the end of the song.

I wiped the tears from under my eyes before I reached for my cell phone and pressed 1 on my speed dial. The phone actually rang this time after three rings someone answered the phone but no one spoke. "Jasper?" There was no response, "Jasper are you there?" Still nothing. "Oh my God Jasper that is amazing." Tears stung my eyes when I heard the squeaky voice of another woman giggling. I threw my phone across the room not even bothering to hang it up. I stood letting my laptop fall to the floor and ran upstairs to my room.

I threw everything that I had of his out of my room and over the banister and it all landed in the front hallway. I knew deep down I had no right to be mad at him since I was the one who forced the wedge between un by not telling him about Bella, but to actually hear another woman with him was killing me. Everything that my therapist had told me about keeping control and working through my problems went right out the window. I felt overwhelmed and like I was drowning in a sea of emotions. I screamed and broke thing but nothing was helping. I punched the mirror that was attached to my vanity and watching the blood run down my arm brought me rushing back down to earth.

I stopped and looked around me and saw the mess I had made in my room and left cleansed for a slight moment. The blood from the gash in my arm was dripping onto my jeans which would normally piss me off to no end but I just sat there mesmerized by the patterns it made. I knew I needed to get up get the piece of mirror out of the cut and apply pressure to the wound but I couldn't find it in my to care that I would actually bleed to death sitting here on the floor, that was until I looked over and saw a picture of all of us while we were in France.

Jasper was behind me with his arms wrapped around my shoulder holding me to him, Rose and Emmett were making out like teenagers, Jake and Paul were staring into each others eye lovingly and Edward and Bella, then Ben, were barely touching each others hands but you could see the love floating between them. Seeing how happy we all were in that picture made me want to get up and fix my arm, unfortunately when I got to my feet I was so light headed that I couldn't stay upright. I fell right back to the floor and crawled to the hallway. I knew I wouldn't make it to the bathroom but I was close enough to the phone in the hall. I pulled it down and dialed 911 before I blacked out.

3 Chapters in one day, PLEASE leave me some love, I promise I am already working on the next chapter and might have it up in a couple of days. I am really working on getting this story done.

~SAM~