A/N Hey guys! I was at the beach the past couple days so I actually had this crazy thing called a social life so I wasn't able to write. But now I'm back with a new chapter so PLEASE REVIEW! Disclaimer: I used a few direct quotes. Don't own CM etc. PLEASE REVIEW
Emily hesitated before asking Ashley the questions she knew it would be hard for her to answer. Was Ashley's dad still alive? Yes, there was no death penalty where he was. Did Ashley ever visit her father? No, she never visited her father, but he sent her letters. Ashley never opened them. They talked about serial killers having families.
"The truth is, I never even thought about them being fathers at all," Emily lied. She said what any normal person would. But Emily's situation-it definitely wasn't normal.
"No one does," Ashley answered, almost bitterly.
Emily nodded, then hesitated. "The letters... Do you keep them?"
Ashley was quiet for a minute. "Yeah. Is that wrong?" she asked.
Emily took a moment to answer. She thought about the ring on the necklace that Doyle had given her. That she kept locked up in that safe and just couldn't seem to get rid of. And she didn't understand why she didn't just throw it out.
"I don't think there is a right answer to that," Emily answered finally. She had asked Ashley the question more for her own benefit then she would like to admit. She wanted to know that she wasn't the only one to hold on to things that in a normal person's eyes, you probably shouldn't.
Because her feelings for Ian Doyle were muddled. And sitting there in the car with Ashley, the memories flashed back to her. In a sick way, Emily almost admired Ian for what he sacrificed to keep his son safe, but Emily had to remind herself that it was Ian's own fault that Declan was in danger. She knew, however, that Ian had no intentions of giving Declan a better life than him when he grew up. He was going to have his son help him, be a part of the crimes that he commits. And that's where her admiration for the killer ended.
Yet she still kept the necklace. Maybe because a part of her believed that there was really a good man inside of Doyle. And maybe he really did love her at some point in all that time she was undercover. But then she would remember that it wasn't her, it was Lauren Reynolds, an arms dealer, that Doyle loved. And she would hate herself for even thinking about him like that. He was a killer, a criminal. He didn't love her, and anything she said to him was simply to keep her cover.
After that, she knew she had to keep Declan safe. And instead of worrying about Doyle's feelings, she worried about Declan. She kept him safe. He became like the son she never had. She nailed Doyle, got out of her undercover assignment, and kept Declan safe. The end.
Yet she still couldn't get the assignment out of her head all these years later.
And she still kept the ring on the necklace.
A/N guys please, I need some non-Emily prompts. Please? And review? Thanks :)