Authors Note:
I've been trying so hard to get a chapter out because I've been getting such amazing reviews. Thank you guys so much! This chapter isn't the best. It's more informative but I still hope you enjoy it. Holiday is coming up soon and I hope I'm not bombarded with work and school so I can write but more is coming.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Fifty Shade Trilogy

After about an hour of silence with Skyler, I decide to apologize to Teddy for my outburst. He didn't deserve that. He's scared, just like me. When I shift, Skyler tightens his grip on me. I smile.

"Are you okay?" He says into my hair with a soft whisper.

"I am now." I turn slightly to see him. His bright grey eyes vibrate throughout the room. I never realized how beautiful Skyler's eyes really are until now. "I like this." My voice is low and scared but I hope Skyler doesn't catch it. Being honest with him is my everything now. After all the secrets, I can't keep anything from it. It hurts too much. I won't do that to myself or to him.

"I like this too." We both smile in unison. I relax a little. "To spend every second of everyday making sure that you're okay is always going to be my concern. I won't change a bit for it and that included you trying to convince me otherwise." My heart melts a little.

"I'm glad my parents let you come with me. I really did miss you while you were away." I run my hand softly through his hair. He slowly leans into the touch and his eyes slightly close. I take that small moment to think. Does Skyler feel the same way? What if he doesn't and everything we ever had crashes into the dust. I can't lose him over my feelings. It's a reckless thing to do.

"I'm never leaving without you. My trip was horrid, all I wanted to do was come home. You're all I have left." I see the fear in his eyes. I can't do this to Skyler. I can't lose him.

"I'm not going anywhere. You've stuck by my side through the past day when I thought you would be running for the hills." A small smile turns on his lips.

"When are you going to learn that I am not going anywhere? I am here to stay. Whether you want me to or not. I'm going to be selfish and keep you all to myself." He hugs me tightly for a couple of seconds and slowly releases me. I don't want him to let go. This is where I want to be. In his arms, feeling safe.

"If it's anyone, it's me who's going to be selfish." We both laugh. "I need to go apologize to Teddy for earlier. But I also do want to know about this Hazel girl. Do you know how long they were together for?" I slowly got up and Skyler followed.

"I would tell you but I would rather you talk to your brother about Hazel. She's his girl, not mine." Skyler hesitates and his eyes widen. My breathing stops for a second. Hazel is Teddy's girl. Could I ever be Skyler's girl? The thought lingers in my head.

"Let's go. After I apologize, maybe we all can go out and get some fresh air. It's been quite a day and I'm starving." I finally get up and walk into the living to find Teddy standing in front of the floor to ceiling glass window. It's a beautiful view. "Wow." I quietly say behind Teddy, making him jump slightly. "You really have a view here, don't you?"

"Yeah. I do." Teddy puts his arm around me and hugs me tightly. I wrap my arms around his back and take the moment in. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Hazel. I was scared and I couldn't take the chance. I didn't know what else to do." He lets go of me and looks me straight into my eyes. "It killed me to keep that from you, Phoebe. You have to understand that." I can see the fear in Teddy's eyes. Guilt took over. How can I be mad at him for this? It's not his fault for being scared or wanting to keep his relationship a secret. I would too if I were in his position.

"It's okay. I understand. But I would like to know about her." We head over to the couch and I find a comfortable spot.

"What do you want to know?" I think for a second. How much do I want to get out of Teddy? All or some? I'll go for the all.

"Start from the very beginning. The very first time Hazel ever came into your life." Teddy is quiet for a few seconds and I know he's thinking about what to say.

"Summer before freshman year, I was volunteering for one of Mom's programs that she holds for kids who have a hard time reading. Hazel was one of the volunteers that I was paired up with and throughout the summer we were just two people partnered together. It wasn't until the end of summer when the programed ended and I had to say my goodbyes to Hazel when I realized that I didn't want to say goodbye. I wanted to get to know her better and build something because as we all know, being a Grey, it's hard to build anything with anyone. But Hazel was different." The last sentence make Teddy smile. Even if I've never seen this girl or met her, I know just being looking at Teddy that she means a lot to him.

"I was pretty upset when the school year started and people were just all over me because I was a Grey. People were going to school with Christian Grey's son. I didn't know if people wanted to be friends with me because of me or because of my name. A week into school while I was heading to my locker, I accidently bumped into someone and it was Hazel. I couldn't believe it was her. I thought I was daydreaming or something but she was really there." It almost seems like Teddy still can't believe that it was Hazel. I've never seen him like this. Lingering onto every word that he's saying.

"She understood me and she knew that I was scared of the people who were around me. But she took that fear away. It wasn't until finals week when I realized that I wasn't going to see her about three weeks and that's when I told her how I felt about her. Luckily she felt that same way. We both knew without saying anything that we had to keep it a secret. And in a way, it helped our relationship. No one knew about us. No one had a reason to make up a rumor or try to start drama.

"I mean, it was hard for the both of us because we had to deal with people flirting with us while we were near each other and all that type of stuff but I just can't believe we made it that far. When Skyler found out, I was relieved because this small burden lifted from my shoulder but that fear came back. But he promised to keep it a secret and honored it. Don't be mad at him for this, Phe. It was being a friend to me and I knew it was hard on him to keep something like this from you but it was for me." In that moment, all the anger I have is gone. Skyler didn't tell me because he's being the best friend my brother always had from him. How can I be selfish to take that away?

"How serious were you guys?" Seeing Teddy like this gives me hope for Skyler. If he got through this, why can't I? If he confronted his feelings about Hazel to her then I should do the same with Skyler.

"We are really serious. We've been together for six years. Basically all of high school and the two years I've been in college." Teddy closes his eyes for a second and takes in his words. "She's here at Harvard and I asked her to move in with me and it scared her so she told me she wanted a break. She wanted to see if what we have is going in the right direction."

"Did you ever sleep with her?" The question escapes my lips before I can stop it. My eye widen with horror. I did not just ask my brother if he's ever slept with his girlfriend. I look over to see Teddy look to the ground with a growing smile and thats when I knew. I small giggle finds its way out and I hear him chuckle himself.

"Junior prom. The very first time Dad let me go somewhere without security because I was going 'by myself'. They knew I was going to the after party but I had other plans in hand." I see Teddy blush from the memory. I laugh at the view.

I'm surprised that Teddy asked Hazel to move in. What would he say to Dad? Or would he even tell Dad? "I think she'll be back. You guys have been together for six years. Theres no way she would want to throw all that away because you asked her to move in. If she's not ready, she should just tell you and you guys wait a little longer." With all this new information, I really want to meet Hazel. I want to get the first impression. Those are most important for me. I have to like her if she's going to be in Teddy's life and if I don't, I'll make it clear.

"Enough about my relationships. What are you going to do about yours?" I knew he was going to ask. I can never get away with things in this family. Even if they subside it, it'll come back up in time, guaranteed. I look behind me to see if the door is closed where Skyler is and it is. I turn back to Teddy in speak softly so Skyler won't hear.

"I'm scared. I don't want to lose him. I'm not going to do anything about it yet. It doesn't feel right. I want to tell Skyler how I feel but right now isn't the time. I can't stop thinking about if he doesn't feel the same way. I mean, if he doesn't, everything we have could be torn apart and I can't afford for that to happen." My voice cracks and I know my emotions are getting in the way.

"You'll never know until you tell him and I know it's scary but you don't want to regret never knowing." I know Teddy's right but I'm not going to do anything about it right now. I'm going to wait a little longer.

The thought of Skyler arms being around me keeping me warm and his lips on my skin, my lips, bring a shiver down my spin but I keep seeing the darkness, the emptiness of what I could be if he leaves.

I want Skyler... I've always wanted him.