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Shit. I stared up at the church in front of me, invitation in one hand, suitcase in the other. Shitting shit. I couldn't do this. My legs turned and I began walking back down the road toward where the cab had left me fifteen minutes earlier. I could hide in the diner and wait for the cab to come back, I could just hide this out and nobody would know I had even come here. No. I stopped, I couldn't do that. I glanced at the invite and then at the dress that I was wearing, I couldn't just not turn up when Emily had put such effort in to get me to come, and Kyle, Kyle had tried so damn hard. No, I had to go. I had to go to the wedding and so I turned back and walked back to the front of the church and then I stopped again. The nerves in my stomach made me feel like I was going to hurl any second. Nope. I couldn't go in. I couldn't face them, any of them especially not him. God the thought of him made me want to scream in anger and confusion and every other emotion that was ever invented because he was so stupid and infuriating and I just, I couldn't go in. Nope. I was going to New York, or maybe I would go somewhere else, I had no money but I could probably make it to Seattle. I was leaving. This was stupid.

I turned right back and walked down the street again, the wheels of my suitcase made an annoying screeching noise against the concrete floor and my handbag that was full of my makeup, hairspray, perfume, purse and everything else I could fit in began slipping down my arm. This was stupid, I couldn't walk all the way back to Seattle with this lugging behind me; I was in high heels for god sake and if I hid in the diner the guys would find me within minutes. It was a miracle they hadn't spotted me already. I couldn't leave. I was being a coward. So once again I turned back and walked to the church, it was silent and still, no movement was happening inside but the wedding was due to start in twenty minutes so people would begin arriving soon and the guys, if they weren't already here. Oh god, the guys. I felt sick again. I felt scared, I felt angry, and I felt sad. I missed them but at the same time I was so god damn angry with each and every one of those stupid wolf boys who had stupid big mouths and were stupidly good liars. I was going back to Kyle. I at least tried to come back; I tried to be here I just couldn't do it. I was leaving, and so with that determination I began walking back toward the direction of Forks.

All the walking back and forth lugging the great big suitcase and handbag had made me hot, I was slowly beginning to sweat despite this place being as cold as what I suspected the Antarctic was, that was probably an exaggeration but I was in a sleeveless knee length dress for Christ sake, it was cold. Did Emily think she was getting married in the Bahamas? This was stupid, I needed to get inside but I had nowhere to go except the church and so with one more sigh I turned to walk back but I was halted in my steps as I saw a body leaving the church, Seth. Shit. I ran as fast as I could to a car that was parked beside me and I crouched down, his head turned toward my direction as the clicking of my heels and screech of my suitcase cracked through the silent air. I thought for a second he had spotted me, his eyes narrowed and his body stilled but as quickly as he had looked my way he turned back and watched the opposite direction.

My heart was beating a thousand beats per minute and I was certain that if he paid enough attention he would easily hear that he wasn't alone out here. I watched through the back window of the car as another car pulled up from the other direction, a girl got out, Leah. I had only met her a couple times but I recognised her. She was wearing the dress I had on and she looked around a few times before opening the back door to the car and offering her hand to whoever was inside. My breath caught in my throat as Emily stepped out, a floor length white dress clung to her slim body and her hair fell in curls around her shoulders like I had styled mine, she had a sparkling clip in hers pushing one side of curls back behind her ear, she looked beautiful. I couldn't breathe properly as I watched her let Kim climb out of the car, she too looked amazing. I had never seen Kim in makeup or with styled hair but her hair was in a loose plait to the side and she had just enough make up on to enhance her beauty. The three girls hung on for a moment before smiling at one another and turning for Seth who seemed to still be looking around suspiciously. I think he could smell me, or hear me, I wasn't that far away. I knew I should have moved or made myself seen but I just stood crouched against the car, completely frozen watching as the three girls and Seth walked toward the church and through a side door. I was a coward. I was a complete coward.

"What are you doing?" A voice chirped behind me and I screamed as I fell backwards hitting into the car so hard the alarm began sounding.

"SHIT" I yelled dropping my bag and hearing something crack inside, probably my perfume bottle. My eyes quickly found the source of the voice while my heart jumped to my throat and all heat left my body. Claire. Claire shitting Young, the child that loved to annoy me was stood in front of me with a frilly white dress on and big curls hanging around her tiny shoulders. She looked at me with confusion, then smiled a toothless smile, then frowned again as she waited for something.

"That's a bad word, Uncle Embry told me if you say that you go to jail" She nodded seriously as if talking to me was the most normal thing in the world whilst I was trying to regain myself from the mini heart attack she caused. The car alarm kept sounding, the noise making my ears hurt as it went. "So what are you doing?" She asked again when I didn't answer. I looked around, what was I doing? I was walking up and down the street like a looser. I was being a jackass.

"I, I, ummm I'm just, umm, are you out here alone?" I realised looking around that Quil who was her usual shadow wasn't here. I didn't even know where she had come from. She shook her head and pointed a little further down the road to a small parking lot.

"Momma is unloading the car, she told me to go find Sethy but then I saw you looking like you were taking a poop behind the car" She went on and my eyes popped open, I was not. She mimicked the crouch position I had been doing and I decided to nod in agreement. That is what I looked like; I would give her points for that one. "So, why are you out here? You're supposed to be lost at sea"

"Lost at what?" I asked frowning and she frowned back, her lips pursing.

"Quil said you went on an adventure and that and that and that there was a big storm and you got lost in the big storm and couldn't find your way home and and and and that that that when the storm was over you would come home" She went on telling the story Quil had told her and it made me smile slightly, of course he would sugar coat it and make it exciting for her. He wasn't going to tell the apple of his eye that they had pissed me off and I ran away because I hated them all. He was good with her. She stood waiting for an answer from me, tapping her foot as she waited.

"I umm, the storm stopped" I told her nervously and she nodded, I had no idea what to say to that. What kind of story was that?

"So are you coming in with me? You're in the special dress that Kim and grumpy butt has on" She commented, grumpy butt was Leah; Leah had little patience for Claire and was often heard telling her to shut up or something equally as rude to a child. "You can walk in with me if you are scared" She held her hand out. I wasn't scared. I was just weighing up my options. I glanced at the church then at the road leading toward Forks and Seattle, leading anywhere but here. I could leave. Nobody would believe Claire that I was here. Or I could man the hell up and go inside. The car alarm cut off and I turned for the source, an old man was leaning out of the church door with his keys, he looked pissed.

I couldn't leave. This was my brother's wedding; I hadn't even met my nephew yet. I looked at her hand still held out toward me and I shoved the invite I was clutching into my bag before taking her hand. I had to go in. I couldn't keep running around out here like a lunatic.

"It's ok, I'm on your team, I'll protect you" She told me seriously and I shook my head in misunderstanding.

"From what?"

"Her" She scowled slightly as we came out from behind the car and I looked up toward the church as another body moved toward the door pushing a wheelchair. Rachel.

My body lurched, or at least it felt like it did. The sight of her spurred the jealousy and anger within me and I gripped Claire's hand so hard she squeaked. Rachel, of course she was here. Why did I not know she would be here? She was practically part of this stupid pack.

"She's always around, she's so annoying" Claire commented and began pulling me, the click of my heels against the silence made both Billy and Rachel turn to look and both of them seemed to freeze as they saw me. Billy paused for a second before smiling the smallest smile possible while Rachel went white, her eyes widened and her jaw hardened. I had the same reaction except I was full of hatred whereas she just looked shocked. Claire said she was always around, that meant that she had to be with someone to be around, she didn't know about the pack so why else would she be around unless she was with someone, him. There was no one else it could be. I felt sick. I wanted to turn around again but Claire kept pulling me until we hit the pathway the two people were frozen on. I stared Rachel dead in the eyes and she squirmed under my stare. This was awkward as hell and Claire must have noticed, she began swinging from foot to foot.

"Savannah" Billy broke the silence and I looked away from his daughter to him, he was in a suit with his long hair tide back under his trademark cowboy hat. Rachel was in a pink dress, stupid pink dress that showed off her stupid big breasts and her stupid wide stupid hips. I smiled at Billy as best I could and he returned it. "I had no idea you were coming"

"She didn't neeeevaaa" Claire commented pronouncing neither wrong and giggled at herself. "She walked up and down up and down"

My insides dropped, how long had the kid watched me before sneaking up on me? Her mom wasn't even walking here yet, was she unloading the whole wedding from her car or what? Billy laughed and nodded whilst Rachel remained stiff as shit.

"Well I am sure your brother and Emily will be pleased to see you, as will the rest of the guys, they missed you a lot" He commented and I nodded. What do I say to that? I missed them too? I did but I wasn't about to admit it to anyone. "Have you seen anyone yet?" He looked at me with interest and for some reason I think he meant one person in particular, Paul. I shook my head and he looked somewhat disappointed in my answer. "That is a shame, but a lovely surprise when they arrive. They won't be long, they were in the trucks behind us by five minutes" He commented and I went cold again, my eyes scanning the roads around us. Holy shit. They were on their way here.

"I should go see Emily" I squeaked and began stepping around his chair while Claire skipped beside me. I didn't wait for his answer or for another look at Rachel, I needed to escape. I didn't want to be here anymore. Claire led me to the side door Emily had gone through but I couldn't go in. Maybe I could hide at the back of the church; maybe I could be here but not see anyone.

"SAVANNAH IS HERE" Claire yelled as I weighed my options up, her words made my insides drop and my blood run cold. I was busted. There was no turning back as she opened the door to reveal Seth stood there staring at me.

"Shit" He commented taking me in, I slapped my mouth shut as the young boy swore and looked at me like I was a ghost.

"What did she say? Did she say" The voice of Kim began and then stopped and she halted beside Seth, her eyes fell on me and her next words came out in a long breath. "Holy shit on shit stool"

I had no idea what the hell she said meant, I don't think she knew what it meant, it made no sense but her face drained of colour for a moment before she turned bright pink and a smile etched over her red lipstick covered lips.

"You're here" She whispered, Claire was jumping around by my feet kicking my suitcase as she went and I gripped the handle harder, so hard it hurt my knuckles.

"What are you guys doing over here, is that Claire? Have they remembered my flowers?" Emily, holy shit Emily. I had to go. I couldn't see Emily but as I went to turn and leave she pushed her way past Kim and Seth, it only took her a second of staring at me before her face creased into emotion and tears sprang from her beautifully made up eyes. She was crying. "Ohmygodyourhereididn'tthinkyouwouldcomeohmygod" She let out a long ramble of words as black tears rolled down her face.

"MAKE UP!" Leah yelled from behind them all, she was ruining her makeup but she didn't care. She reached for me and I dropped my bag and case as I was forced into her hold.

"I can't believe you came, I just, I missed you so so so much" She cried harder and pushed me back to look at me before crying all over again. "And you have a dress, how did you get a dress?" She asked but before I could answer that she sent it to me Leah appeared dragging her away from me.

"I spent an hour on your makeup" She growled looking at the tear stained mess I had caused. It all happened so quick, Emily was crying into me and now she was being dragging back into the room in a hysterical mess whilst I stood outside with black tear marks on my shoulder whilst Claire kicked my suitcase and Seth and Kim stared at me.

"So" I commented when nobody said a word, Seth was in shock, at least that's what it looked like while Kim just smiled at me.

"So, I am so glad you are here. This is perfect" She reached for my hand and pulled me and Claire in whilst Seth stared at me in slight horror. "Seth, her bags" Kim barked at him and he nodded then stopped and looked at me again.

"But Pau" He stopped himself but whether it was because he heard the sudden change in my heartbeat or because Kim coughed in an obvious manner I wasn't sure. I wanted to know what he was going to say, it was about Paul. But at the same time I didn't want to know, I didn't care. He walked out to grab my things while I was dragged to where Leah was sorting Emily out. Emily was dabbing her face while breathing to regain control of her sobs, Leah was shooting me strange looks and Kim was holding my hand so tight it hurt.

"Thank you for coming, Sam will be so glad you are here, we had no idea" Emily talked as Leah began reapplying makeup to her. I frowned, no idea? She invited me.

"But you"

"So people are arriving we need to sort this mess out, why don't you go help Emily's sister with the flowers" Leah cut over me as she spoke to Kim and I in an overly loud voice.

"But" I began and she cut me off again telling us to go out and help. I didn't want to go out. I wanted to hide in here but I was once again being dragged to the door to where a woman was walking toward us with bunches of flowers in her arms. I had never met Emily's sister but I guessed this was her, she looked like Emily minus the scars, and she was a little wider in weight and taller in height. I began helping take the flowers, piling them in my own arms while she turned back to get boxes that were at the end of the pile. I gave a quick look to the road in front of the church, I saw them. My heart faltered as I locked my eyes on the group of guys piling from trucks. I didn't notice anyone in particular I just saw bodies of males too big for their ages, too handsome and tall. I turned quickly to walk in, not before noticing Sam on his way up the path, his eyes hit mine for all of one second and I saw something flash in them but I darted through the doorway so quickly I didn't know if he even knew it was me or not. My insides were going crazy and I felt like at any moment I would pass out.

I kept walking into the room not looking at where I was going, I heard voices speaking by the end door talking about being five minutes late because of makeup but I didn't register who the voices belonged to, that is until I went slamming into something causing me to drop the bundle of flowers in my arms.

"Sorry" The voice grumbled so low and so rough that every hair on my body stood on end, a roll ran through my spine and a heat wave washed through me. I glanced up despite my best efforts not to and I saw them, the eyes that had haunted every ounce of sleep I had got in the past four months.

Paul.