Hi, worlds worst writer here. I'm sorry for the delay, I keep loosing my writing motivation! I have however completed this story so will be posting the rest up over the next week or so.

I had a message from someone saying they are no longer reading as i have taken so long to update, this is the only story that is not completed and I have had a hectic time recently so I am so sorry for the time delay but I literally haven't had the time to sit and finish it! I hope others are still reading, I have completed this story and so the updates will be regular over the next week or so!

Thank you for being patient, I appreciate all of you!

My dreams had been haunted by those eyes, by the smell that currently engulfed me, the heat that my body had longed for hit me and for the first time in four months I was warm. He stared at me, his face pale, and his hair thinner than it once was, his eyes sunken and dull. It almost didn't look like him, not like Paul Lahote, because Paul Lahote was big, he was confident on the verge of arrogant, his face was hard and defined, his skin a glowing tan and his eyes a swirling grey but the man in front of me was smaller, almost as if he was a balloon that was slowly deflating. His skin was tanned but it held no glow, his eyes were grey but they were the grey I expected the sky to turn after a storm whereas they used to be the storm. Paul Lahote was no longer Paul Lahote but a shadow of him.

Had I done this?

His jaw that had been slack quickly clenched shut, the hands holding my arms let go and the warmth left me as quickly as it had come. His eyes travelled over me, taking me in but it almost felt like he wasn't registering anything. He could see me but he wasn't really seeing me, it was like he was looking right through me and it felt horrible.

"She's back" Claire sang as her shoes clicked against the old tiled floor behind me. Paul looked past me for a moment before looking straight back into my eyes, I don't know what I expected when I saw him but I wasn't ready for the blankness that he held.

"Seth let me in there" A new voice joined the silence of the church and the door to the room swung open before Emily let out a screech and a flurry of movement erupted behind me.

"You can't see her before the wedding, get out" Kim shrieked and I allowed myself a second to look away from Paul as Sam pushed pass Seth to fall into the cold room. He froze as he saw me, it was like he wasn't sure whether I was real or not and he actually blinked a few times before allowing a lopsided, slightly scared smile to split over his face.

"Savannah" He whispered and moved forward causing another screech from Emily somewhere behind me. "You're back"

"I'm back" I managed to croak out as Paul's body still shadowed over me forcing any calm I had to leave me. I tried to focus on my brother; I tried so hard my eyes began to water from the strain of not looking at Paul.

"You're back" Sam repeated not moving from his spot. "You're here, you're back here"

"SHE'S BACK NOW GET OUT" Emily screamed from behind me as Embry walked in behind Sam and repeated 'you're back' as he looked at me.

"What is all the screaming?" A new body flew in behind Sam, this time it was Jacob. He looked at me then at Paul then at me again. "Shit" He grunted and turned to the hallway behind him. "GUYS SHE'S BACK"

"WHO?"

"WHO DO YOU THINK?" Jacob yelled, I felt like I was in a preschool room, the messages were being shouted back and forth until one by one Jared, Quil, Colin and Brady popped their heads around the doorframe and all grumbled curse words and brief shocked hellos.

"Samuel Levi Uley you get out of this room right now" Emily screeched again but Sam wasn't even looking at her, he was looking at me.

"Why are you here?" He asked, it sounded slightly rude and I felt all the colour drain from my face. He must have noticed because he rushed forward shaking his head. "Not that I don't want you here"

"She asked me to come" I nodded my head toward where I thought Emily was but all I received back was her voice.

"Who did?"

"You did" I said again. Was she stupid? She had sent me this dress and a letter. She didn't reply, it sounded like she tried but Leah began saying about champagne and I heard a bottle pop. "Sam, I'm not here to argue" I started as Sam took me in, I half expected him to start yelling at me about him being serious when he said for me not to run back but instead he walked forward pulling me around Paul and into him.

"We'll talk later, right now I just, you're here" He whispered into my head as he embraced me, for a second I wasn't sure what to do and so I just let him hug me. But then I realised how much I had missed him, the smell of wood he always held and the way he was so awkward with his body. I hugged him back, nodding at his words. "Four months" He said pushing me away to get a good look at me.

"Yep four months, now get out" Kim erupted but Sam didn't move.

"I didn't think you would come back, why now?" He asked again and I felt myself frown, had I not just said because Emily asked me to? I didn't want to get into emotional detail, I didn't want to tell him because I secretly missed my family and life here, or because I realised I was a douche thanks to Kyle, or because some kid kissed me and I felt gross and I needed my life back.

"I needed to fix things" I said instead and without meaning to I glanced at Paul who at my glance gave a short breathy laugh and shook his head before turning and walking from the room.

"Unbelievable" He growled as he left and my body which was already cold grew colder.

Sam didn't watch Paul go, he focused on me. Emily finally stopped cursing behind me and I felt the atmosphere change from one I could bear to one I couldn't. Nobody said a word, Sam smiled at me but nothing else was said until a piano began playing in the background of the church and Sue Clearwater came in to tell Emily she had to go, she gave the scene a quick confused look but didn't say a word about me being here, or Sam being stood in front of me holding me in some sort of bear grip, her eyes lingered behind me but I didn't know why. With a bit of coaxing from Jared Sam finally let me go and began walking out of the room, although I could see he was in some sort of shock still from my surprise appearance.

"Get me up" Emily squealed and as I turned I saw why Sue had lingered on the scene behind me, Emily was led on the floor with an old church tapestry strewn over her hiding her dress whilst Kim sat on her hiding her face from Sam's line of view. It was the most bizarre thing. Leah was stood in the corner not meeting my eyes; she thrust a bouquet of flowers at me before marching toward the door.

The wedding in my mind didn't seem to happen, I walked down the aisle with Emily and I noticed the stares I got from people as I went but most of all I noticed Paul wasn't there. He wasn't in position beside Jared and Sam like I thought he would have been, nor was he in the church seats with the rest of the pack. In fact, he wasn't in church. My stomach swirled uncomfortably and I found myself staring only at my flowers as the wedding vows began being tearfully whispered beside me, I was cold, I was shivering so violently that a few petals from my flowers fell to the floor. Dread filled my chest and anxiety ripped at me, I felt sick, I felt weak. I knew why Paul had reacted like he had, he was angry with me, I knew why he looked the way he did. All because of me. Me. I had knowingly walked away from him, I hadn't expected to come back and him be falling at my feet, I don't think I had expected anything at all but that's what hurt, there was nothing. He had looked at me like I was nothing.

I glanced over the wedding guests as they clapped for Sam and Emily's kiss, my eyes fell on her as she sat beside her father, her perfectly made up face smiling a forced smile. She wasn't looking at Sam and Emily either, she was looking at me. Rachel held my stare for a split second before looking away, her cheeks flushing pink whilst my teeth clenched so loudly that I heard the grinding noise they made and saw the flicker of Embry's head as he zoned in on me. I was going to be sick, I could feel the insides of my stomach swirling and my knees began to give away, it was only Leah's arm looping into mine that brought me back into the moment and I managed to swallow the bile in my throat and follow everyone from the church.

"Sav" A voice called through the silence that drummed in my ears, I realised that I was stood on the lawn outside the church, confetti was falling in front of my face and a rough hand that wasn't Leah's rested on my bare shoulder, the heat scorching me uncomfortably. Embry was looking at me, his thick eyebrows knitted together. "Are you ok?" He asked, his voice sounded distant, like it was being shouted from a mile away. I nodded, and again bile rose in my throat. "You look like you are about to faint" He commented, his hand touched my forehead and I winced from his touch. "You're freezing, let me take you to mine"

I didn't resist when he began pulling at my hand, it was only when we reached the parking lot and gravel flicked at my ankles that I stopped.

"No" I whispered pulling against his tug. He looked around at me, his face that I knew so well giving me a look of pity and confusion. "I c-cant, I mean I need to see Sam"

"And you will, once you get some food into you and a jacket"

"I don't need food" I argued back and he let go of my hand.

"When did you last eat?" He questioned me and my mind began working overtime, I couldn't remember. "And that is why you look so pale, come on"

"I don't want to" I said again and he took my arm in his huge hand.

"And I'm saying you are coming with me"

Embry tugged at me and I fell to the floor, the gravel cutting at my knees as I fell. I looked up ready to shout at him for being too rough but I saw him being pushed backwards by a body far bigger than his. Paul.

"She said she didn't want to Embry" He growled as he pushed Embry against the side of Jacob's little red car. The coldness within me heated for a split second before freezing over again, Paul looked down at me, there was a slight flicker in his eye as if the sight of the blood on my knee hurt him but as soon as it came it went and the anger was back. "If she wants to starve herself to death then let her" He spat. Embry pushed his pack brother's hands off him as my heart crushed within my chest, the pain of his words lashing at me.

"Screw you Paul" Embry muttered in an attempt to defend me or himself, I wasn't sure which. Paul offered a harsh nudge into his friends shoulder before walking away and climbing onto a motorbike I had never seen before. I never knew he owned one but he filled the horrible silence with its roaring engine and sped from the parking lot.

We both stayed silent, I held my bleeding left knee whilst trying to bite back the pathetic tears.

"Savannah, I'm so"

"I'm here for the wedding Embry, so please do me a favour and take me to wherever they have gone" My voice was thick with emotion and tears, I sounded like a child but Embry didn't argue, he held his hand out for me and pulled me to my feet. I readjusted my dress and hair and let him wrap his arm around my shoulder as he walked away from Jake's car and back toward the main road with me. I had come back for the wedding but as we all fell out onto the road of the church my eyes found Paul racing away on the bike and I realised that I was going to stay because of him. Even if he didn't want me here.

Embry walked with me in silence, my heels offered the only noise along the quiet road. We kept walking through side streets and footpaths until we reached the harbour front, more importantly the Oceanside seafood restaurant where I saw fairy lights lighting a path toward the little restaurant that sat along the waterfront. Music and laughter filled the dimming skies and I could make out through the windows a bustle of people stood around holding drinks.

Embry let go of my shoulders as we entered the warm building, fairy lights, flowers and candles decorated the room and I looked around until I found the guys, all of them smiled at me except Jared, he looked at my face then at my leg which still had blood trickling down it, his brows burrowed together before his hand began to shake and he stood up and left through the back door. I didn't need to ask why, he had probably put two and two together, Paul was his best friend. Sam however was oblivious, he was smiling so widely and laughing so deeply that he wouldn't have noticed if I had walked in with a leg missing and I didn't mind that, it actually made me smile. I had to be here for him today, I could worry about everything else tomorrow.