I jump thinking I've slept way too long if the sun is already shining. I look around and the room is empty. I walk into Leah's room and she smiles and says good morning.

"No news?" She stops smiling and says no I'm sorry; Alex called about an hour ago to say he's there. "Where is Sam?" I ask her and she tells me he went out to get breakfast so I could eat before going back.

"I have to work today but Sam is going to stay with you all day." Leah just got a job at the diner about a month ago. She's trying to save up money so when she starts college she can find a decent place to leave. She took a year off to pretty much be a bum. "I'm sorry I can't stay."

"It's OK, I won't be alone. I will have Sam and Alex and Sean and Brady." I tell her and it's true. I will have plenty if not too many people around me.

"Hey, Seth really wants to talk to you. He's scared you're going to refuse to be a part of our family now. Can you call him?" I shake my head yes, where is my phone? She hands it to me and I call him and assure him that no matter what happens between me and Charlie he will always be my brother and I will always keep in touch.

Love you Bella he tells me and I tell him I love him too. And I realize I do, I love him and Leah and probably even Sue. I just can't make myself love Charlie.

I decide to get in the shower so we can leave as soon as Sam and Leah agree I've eaten enough. I take a quick shower, get dressed and when I come out he is sitting on the bed waiting.

"I brought you eggs, and chocolate chip pancakes and sausage. I hope that's OK." He tells me unsure.

"Yeah that's good I'm just not very hungry." I tell him and he tells me to just try to eat. So I try a bite and it turns out I'm starving and I eat it all.

"Can we go now?" I ask him as soon as I finish. So he goes to get Leah and we head off. He drops me off and the hospital and then takes Leah to work before coming back.

Once I get to the waiting room Alex tells me there is no change and there is really no need for me to be here waiting but I ask him if he's going to leave and he says of course not then sighs and gives up. I ask the nurse if I can see him and she says yes so I sit in his room talking to him. I tell him things I would never tell him if he was awake like how much I really like Sam and how I wish he was biological dad and how much I hate Charlie and how I think Leah wants to make out with Alex which creeps me out because he's a lot older than her but she doesn't care.

"Bella, do you need anything?" Sam asks from the doorway, I think just to let me know he's there.

"Just for him to wake up. What all did you hear Sam?" He tells me just about Leah and I believe him. He leaves telling me he will wait in the waiting room. I go back to telling Phil anything I can think of. My earliest childhood memory which is watching One Life to Live with my mom. And then I told him about every new school I went to. I tell him how I want him to be the one to walk me down the aisle when I get married and I want him to meet my grandkids. I tell him about the bakery Sam's mom wants me to run and how I don't think I want to go to college, just take some classes online. But if he doesn't like that idea I will do anything he wants me to do if he just wakes up.

"You're the most important person to me, you have to wake up. I love you daddy."

"Daddy?" I hear him whisper.

"Yes Daddy, I'm here." I tell him pushing the nurse button so they will know he's awake.

"I don't have a daughter. Why are you saying that? Who are you?" He asks quietly.

"It's me Bella." I don't know what else to say.

"Bella? I'm so sorry but I don't understand." He looks really confused.

The nurse comes in with the doctor and I tell her he doesn't know who I am. She assures me that it happens like that sometimes and asks me to wait outside. So I go to the waiting room and tell Alex and Sean and Brady and Sam he is awake but he has no idea who I am.

"I'm sorry Bella but maybe it is temporary." Sam says as I sit next to him.

After what seems like forever the nurse comes out and says I can go back in but to try not to upset him and if something is upsetting him drop it.

"His memory?" I ask her and she says sometimes memory loss lasts a couple of days or months or years and sometimes it never comes back and there is no way to tell what the situation is, just wait and see.

More waiting.

I go back in to see him and surprisingly he does believe me that I'm his daughter but he's upset that he doesn't remember. He asks me to tell him everything so I tell him about my mom and how he's been my stepdad for 6 years now but Charlie wasn't in my life so he's all I really knew until the last year.

"What do you remember, or how old do you remember being?" I ask him.

"21, I feel like I should be in college. How old am I?"

"31." I tell him and he says shit! So I just lost the last 10 years of my life. I tell him Alex and Sean and Brady are waiting for him and he asks for Alex because they went to college together.

"I will go get him. I know you don't know me but can I still be your daughter?" I ask him because in a way this is like a second chance for him. He can be free from me and not even miss me.

"Of course you can. I have a feeling I love you very much. We'll figure this all out Bella." I say OK and go out to get Alex.

When I get to the waiting room his parents are out there too, Alex and his mom go to see him.

"Bella, if Phil can't we will take care of you OK sweetheart? I know you have this new family now but you are my granddaughter and I will support whatever you choose. I love you." Pete, Phil's dad tells me and I cry and say thank you.

Then Sean tells me Alex booked the hotel rooms for a week so I have time to figure out what I want to do and he will reserve it for longer if I want and need him too. I ask Sam to take me to get my car so I can get back and forth and he can go back to living his life.

"I don't mind being here with you Bella, and my only real life is helping my mom with the bakery and she would rather me be with you than there right now. Let me take care of you."

"Why do you even want to?" I ask him.

"I love you Bella. This isn't how I wanted to tell you. I wanted to take you out and make it special but it doesn't matter where we are, it's just as true. I love you." He's looking at me and I don't know what to do. I've never been in a real relationship but I do love him. I figured that out when I was talking to Phil about wedding and babies and in my mind I was with Sam.

"I love you too Sam."

And he kisses me for the first time in the middle of the hospital waiting room down the hall from my step dad who has no idea who I am.

Life is crazy.