Over the next couple of weeks Phil improves and they release him, Alex takes him home to our Houston apartment and I make plans to fly out two days later. I wanted a couple of extra days to say goodbye to Sam and Leah and Seth since I'm not sure when I will be back. After a week at the hotel I did finally go home but things between me and Charlie are tense at best. Mostly we avoid each other and I spend as much time away from the house I can. I spend a lot of time with Sam and his mom at the bakery and I try to spend as much time as I can with Leah and Seth as possible, just not at the house.

Sam started his training to be a cop and after he finishes the 6 month long program he can work with Charlie's department or any other one in the state.

Phil tried to convince me to stay here, not because he doesn't want me there but because he's worried about me having to take care of him and him still not really knowing me like he did before. I just told him we will get back to where we were and I believe it.

Alex tried to convince me to stay too not wanting me to commit myself to taking care of Phil when he can hire someone and the team would of course help when they could. He promised he would come to visit me and I think he just wants an excuse to see Leah.

Charlie and Sue and Seth tried to convince me to stay. Talking about real high school and being taken care of.

Only Sam and Leah really understand me. They know that taking care of Phil is something I have to do. I'm his family and he took care of me when he didn't have to. But it's not like I feel like I owe him, I want to do this.

"Sue, I'm going out for a while." I call to her as I head out the door.

"Have fun with Sam." She calls back.

I drive to his house sadly. I hate to leave him but I know I have to, it's not like I had ever planned on living here anyways. I just didn't plan on falling in love. I mean I seriously never planned on falling in love ever. My mom finally ended up finding the right guy but that was only after screwing up with my dad and a billion other men. So maybe if I really thought about it I liked the idea of love, but it was always something I saw happening at like 30. Maybe if I skipped all the young love crap I could just do it right? But it's too late for that. I love Sam so much and I don't want to lose him.

I start to knock on the door when Embry opens it and runs right into me knocking me unto the ground.

"Oh Bella I am so sorry!" He holds out his hand and helps me out and I tell him it's fine.

"Where are you going Embry?" I ask him and he tells me Jacob's.

"Oh OK well if I don't see you then good bye. I'm leaving tomorrow and I don't know when I'll be back."

"Oh. Well I'll miss you Bella. And so will my brother. Don't stay gone too long OK?" He hugs me and I tell him I will try.

"You can just go in, Sam is in his room, and Mom is at the bakery."

"Thanks Embry."

I go in and up the stairs and knock on his door feeling dumb.

"Hey babe, come in. What's wrong?" He asks when he opens the door.

"Nothing besides me leaving tomorrow. I don't want to go Sam; I don't want to leave you!" I start crying and he just holds me.

"You don't have to go, you know that. You can stay here; get an apartment in 6 months. But I know you really do want to go. We're going to be OK. You know that right?" Sam asks me and I nod yes. "And you can come visit; you know you don't have to take care of him by yourself. Alex wants to help and I think he really wants to hire someone to help. You should let him babe."

"I love you Sam."

"I love you too and I always will."

We spend the rest of the day just hanging out and visiting his mom so I can tell her goodbye.

The day goes by too fast and before I know it I'm driving home trying not to cry. Crying and driving is not a good mix. It's late when I get home so I'm hoping everyone else is already asleep but when I get in Seth and Leah are waiting up for me.

"Hey guys, sorry I stayed out so late. You didn't have to wait up for me." I tell them.

"We wanted to see you and we know you have to leave early in the morning. I know you're doing to right thing Bella but we also know that you're not coming back for a while. We'll miss you." Seth tells me and Leah is actually crying.

"I will try not to stay gone so long guys. Phil needs me but I need you two and Sam. I love you guys both so much." Now I'm crying and we're a mess.

We stay up for about an hour and then I tell them I really have to go to bed, Leah follows me up. I have to leave the house at 4. Then I realize someone needs to take me unless my car is going to live at the airport.

"Leah, I hate to ask and I know it's early but can you take me in the morning? If I have to drive then I'm not sure what I'll do with my car." I ask her and she moans and says its fine.

Fine. It's so easy to say everything is fine. Just fine.