Authors Note: Hey you guys, sorry it took me so long for writing that chapter, but I was kind of devastated lately and work was keeping me pretty busy. Anyways I hope you´ll enjoy chapter 11 now.

Today would be the day Picketts wife died, the day Danny would want to kill Sawyer even if it wasn't his fault. The day Jack would realise why they brought him there, the day Juliet would lose all hope left. Why wouldn't they all just run away? Why wouldn't they just refuse to let it all happen again? Would it change something? Was it worth it? What was there to lose if they just left? That's what Jack thought, Sawyer thought, only Kate was the one doubting the idea of just running.

Although she was on the run her whole live, but now it was different. She was afraid, afraid of losing Jack and she knew she somehow would. If something would happen to him she would never forgive herself. It was just that strange feeling in the pit of her stomach, that bad feeling telling her to not change anything. To do exactly the same things they did 3 years ago. Something would happen, yeah something bad if they did. They would get caught one way or the other they would and she didn't want to be left holding the bag.

While Kate was thinking all night long, not able to get her eyes shut even once, Jack sat in his cell. Waiting. Waiting for Juliet to finally show up, even though there were still a few hours left. The night had been long, too long. Jack felt weak. He hadn't really slept in days now and he hadn't had the chance to talk to Juliet really. Sometimes she just wouldn't come. Maybe Ben got suspicious. Of course he was listening when he talked to Juliet. Maybe he was afraid Juliet would just let him down, giving up on trying breaking him (Jack) to make him trust her, to make him want to help Ben with his surgery.

Anyways Jack trusted Juliet fully and he had the feeling she kind of did too. Yeah it did seem like he somehow got to her. That was good, wasn't it? Maybe she would remember soon. He had noticed she was asking a lot of questions lately, questions she wouldn't have asked if she wouldn't remember things. She only did when he wasn't listening, watching. All of it wasn't making much sense to Jack but he wouldn't feel guilty for Juliet's death anymore. Although he wasn't showing much of that guilt to anyone.

Jack immediately got up as the door got pushed open on the other side of the glass wall and Juliet hurried in more than distraught. Wearing that white lab coat he knew so well, that wasn't so white anymore. There was blood all over it.

"Julie..." Jack started stepping in front of the glass, putting both hands to it. Juliet broke him off a single tear streaming down her left cheek.

"Jack you…you gotta help me. "She said with that vulnerability she used to show only then she was truly desperate. Her voice trembling, her body shook and fear reflected in her eyes. Jack gave her a compassionate look and then looked over to Tom that stood in the doorframe waiting for Juliet.

A few minutes later they stood in front of the washbasins washing there hands before stepping into the operating room to save Colleens live or at least trying to. They stood there in great silence, only the rushing noise of the water was filling the quietness between them.

"You ready?" he asked breaking the awkwardness.

"I-I…I´m ready when you are." She then said with a look of uncertainty.

"You scared?" Jack asked never leaving those blue eyes of hers. He knew she was.

"Hell, yeah." Jack smirked to himself. Juliet gave him that look of uncertainty again and he meant to see a few tears welling up in her eyes. So Jack reacted thinking about the once strong Juliet he couldn't find in that woman in front of him right now.

"It's okay. C'mere." He said quietly pulling her in for a hug. This was awkward. They stood there a few seconds, Juliet never touching him. Her shoulders were tense and her hands were shaking. Nobody had made the effort or had even tried to embrace her that way since Goodwin. She felt somehow strangely safe and secure and after less than a minute she calmed. Jack could feel her return his kind gesture, responding to his hug. Juliet laid her shaking hands on his back slowly closing her eyes before breathing in his scent deeply.

"What ever happens in there ….it's not your fault." He whispered into her ear. Juliet wanted to respond to this but she felt herself being at a loss of words when Jack continued. "You did a lot of good. You saved Claire's live and Sun and her baby's live, yeah even my live. And maybe you don't know what I´m talking about right now, but I think deep in there you know I´m telling the truth." She pushed him away from her softly looking him straight in the eyes.

"Jack..." he cut her off

"Don't... You'll understand. You just need some help. And now I want you to count to five, inhale deeply and then we'll do this." Juliet gave him a confused look but she did what he asked her to do. Although she had no idea why. Count to 5, she'd heard that before. Voices were talking to her, whispering strange things to her.

"Do you remember the story I told you….?"

Why all those flashes, those noises, those voices in her head?Why did it feel like she knew him her whole live? Why was she having all that dreams about him? What was it that made him so interesting to her? All those things he told her seemed so ridiculous but sincere. Maybe he was telling her the truth she didn't know about, like she got a smash on the head and didn't remember a whole lifetime or he was just a good actor doing everything to make her trust him so she would let them go.

Juliet got pulled out of her thoughts when Tom stormed out of the operating room.

"JULIET. Her…her hearts stopping." He called out eying them suspiciously when he noticed their closeness. Jack and Juliet promptly jumped. Jack cleared his throat and Juliet looked anywhere but at Jack.

"Are you coming now?" Tom then asked desperately and Juliet just nodded and hurried in. Jack close behind her. Her eyes full of fear and uncertainty she looked over Colleen and then back to Jack. He gave her a warm smile and nodded. "Let's do this." She thought counting to 5 slowly, inhaling deeply before exhaling, doing what Jack told her to do. Watching every move, never feeling that concentrated before.

"I'm not a surgeon."

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Kate was sitting on the rock in her cage, Indian style, her eyes closed. Thinking. Sawyer just woke up now eying her little amused, trying to figure out what she was thinking. Usually he would have made a stupid comment but this time he put himself together clearing his throat slightly to get her attention. Kate opened one eye looking him straight in the eyes from the other cage.

"Hey." She said softly, closing her eye again, inhaling deeply.

"What, ain't gonna tell me what ya doin'?" he asked with a smirk, showing his dimples, although Kate wasn't watching.

"Well, how does it look like?" she asked finally opening both of her eyes and leaning back on her hands. Sawyer made a hand wave and shrugged, searching the ground for a stone he could play with.

"I'm trying to find my inner peace." Kate explained finally getting confused looks by Sawyer.

"Aha. So uh…did ya find it yet?" he chuckled.

"Stop makin' fun of me." Kate laughed. "At least I tried." Sawyer smiled sleepily showing those cute dimples. "Juliet would've said that too." Kate shook her head smiling lightly to herself; she felt herself at a loss of words as she opened her mouth a few times but closed it again. Sawyer cleared his throat again, finally feeling uncomfortable around her.

"So…you been thinkin' 'bout what've talked about yesterday?" Sawyer then asked fiddling with a tiny stick, sliding it between his fingers back and forth.

"All night long." She reassured.

"You didn't sleep?"

"Not really…anyways my answer is No. I´m not in on this."

"Why not?" Sawyer said almost a little angry getting up walking his cage up and down."

"Because I… What if we don't make it? They'll lock us up into those damn cages again and then? And what if ….if Jack gets hurt? What if they kill him because we tried to escape?"

"Damn Kate, stop whining. Seriously, that all you got? `Cause that ain't stoppin' me from getting out of here now. I just needa wait till they bring ass Picketts wife and then I´m out." Sawyer shook his head standing up.

"They've been here already." Kate said calmly as Sawyer glared at her. "What? Why haven't you woken me?" he hissed.

"I just think it's a stupid plan, okay." Kate stood up as well getting quiet furious at his sudden outburst.

"Givin' up then, huh? Kay…. Y'know go to hell, Kate" Sawyer shouted turning his back to her. He tried to put himself together but he was just too angry to calm and Kate knew by the way he called out her name he wouldn't be the right person to talk to right now. To explain why she thought it wasn't the best plan. She was tired and sick of it all. She wished to be back in 2007, back home. Back in the real world, instead she was trapped in damn 2004, haven't heard the slightest thing about Jack.

Sawyer then turned back to her continuing his speech, he'd thought about for quiet some time. "I-I mean why did yer come back after all? Jules and I were just fine an' you damn yahoos comin' back like nothin' ever happened destroyin' everythin' we've build for the last three years. An' damn I want that back. Ain't ya tell me we don't belong, 'cause I damn well know were I belong." There was so much more he could have added to his little speech, but he gave in, slowly starting to climb up the bars of his jail.

Kate looked at the ground, feeling guilt rising up in her again. How should she've known they've been fine? On the other side she knew she was being pretty selfish just like Jack. They just wanted to escape the miserable live, the unbearable daily routine they were living in slowly tearing apart, living a lie just like everyone else. Just like Sawyer and Juliet, except that they'd been happy and Kate believed Sawyer when he'd told her that maybe this whole Dharma thing had been a lie but his love to Juliet's the only thing he hadn't lied about. The once con-man finally had grown up, settled down, thinking that now his live had finally started. Believing he'd found his fate. Prepared to spend the rest of his live like that untill he died and he was fine with it. No new invention, he for sure missed sometimes in the 70th, like Nintendo would have held him from living that lie. That sweet seductive lie and that special, extraordinary beautiful woman he'd grown to love, made it more then bearable and there was no way he would have ever missed it.

"Sawyer ….I. What're you doing?" Kate asked as she was pulled out of her day dream, watching him, putting both of her hands on the bars of the cage. "You ain't goin', but I will. Not matter what." As Sawyer had reached the top and edged himself through the bars, he jumped all the way down getting up quickly, brushing the dirt away from his pants. He already missed their Dharma jumpsuits they'd left in the jungle earlier.

"So you're really gonna do this?" Sawyer nodded giving her that typical Sawyer glance.

"Sure you ain't wanna see the doc." He waited a few seconds before moving out of her sight; just then Kate quickly climbed up the bars and escaped her cage to race after him, forgetting about her doubts for a little while.

"Sawyer! Wait." Kate called out, a smile spreading on her face when her thoughts travelled to Jack.

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Juliet ran out of the operating room, pulled her blood soaked cloves off and threw them into a trash can. She was devastated, yeah more than that. Hot tears ran down her cheeks and she let out a shriek of anger. She wanted to hit something, maybe even hit someone. The blood boiled inside of her and she slammed her fists against the wall, turning around and she sank slowly to the ground. Juliet pulled her knees close to her body putting her hands over her eyes, sobbing quietly into them while she rocked herself back and forth slightly, like the little kids always did. And to be honest right now she wanted to be baby again, she wanted to be held by someone, wanted to feel save in someone's arms. She wanted somebody to tell her this all wasn't happening, that it all was just a bad dream, like the one she had last night. If it was a dream at all….

Three years, yeah three freakin' years she had lost every patient that had entered her operating room. There was not even one, not a single pregnant woman that survived the end of the third semester. They all died, all slipped away right under her fingers. She'd failed, again. Jacob had lied. Just like everybody else had lied to her. ..to save live, my ass, she thought.

Juliet began sobbing harder still rocking herself back and forth as a warm hand touched her shoulder gently. Juliet got startled, quivering lightly she looked up with tear filled eyes and looked right into Jacks green sad eyes that made her heart skip a beat. She wiped away a few tears directly giving him a blank look.

"What? What're you doing here? I thought they brought you back into your cell." She sniffed but didn't make the effort to walk away from him. Instead she stayed were she was looking up to him with ocean blue eyes, tears were sparkling in. "No they uh…no they didn't." He felt himself at a loss of words since he didn't know how to handle the situation and answered her barely over a whisper. He always used to get all shy about her due to the things he put her trough, even death. Jack sighed then and sat down beside her, leaning his back against the wall.

"I´m sorry, Juliet. I know how you're feeling now." Did he? Juliet shook her head and she would have screamed at him, would've told him about the horrible 3 years she'd lost all those people over and over again, but something inside her held her back. "…and like I've said…it's not your fault."

That sentence, that one little sentence caused her head to spin again. And flashes passed in front of her eyes. The voices came back and those blurry figures, like ghosts twirling around the inside of her head. The slight feeling of getting insane welled up again as she heard her own voice whispering from somewhere still far away.

"Are you just saying that to make me feel better?"

"I don't care about making you feel better."

Then suddenly the voices stopped and the blurry pictures disappeared. Something about that flash hurt her, though she didn't know why. A single tear escaped her eye making its way down her cheek dropping onto the cold stone floor.

Jack hadn't notice anything at all, he kept talking, although she wasn't really listening. Juliet rocked herself back and forth again, looking at him instantly as he called out her name to get her back to reality.

"..She was dead before you put her on the table." Juliet said barely over a whisper and Jack gave her a confused look. "Huh?" Juliet shook her head immediately. "Nothing."

"Anyway, I think we couldn't have done better. Sometimes things are just…supposed to happen, Juliet. It's fate. What ever happens, happens." Jack tried to explain never leaving her eyes. Juliet frowned. "Are you just saying that to make me feel better?" she then asked out of the blue, the answer still echoing in her head. The answer she wouldn't get this time.

"I'd lie if I told you I didn't but I also know that there was no way to save her anyways." Juliet gave him a blank stare raising one eyebrow slightly, squeezing her eyes suspiciously together. "You knew this!" she said pretty certain about the fact that he did. "I.." Jack began but she broke him off, getting up to her feet again and so did he. "I´m right, am I? You knew all this and you just hugged me for comfort because you knew this would happen. What kind of game is that supposed to be? Why do you wanna earn my trust so badly? What do you want from me?" she yelled at him not caring about the fact that she showed the vulnerable site of hers.

"Because I… ." he began angrily but when he noticed that he was almost screaming at her he lowered his voice immediately and continued softly with a frown. "..we need you to help us. Come with us, Julie. Trust me we're not bad people. We know eatchother for a long time even if you can't remember just yet. But it´s all coming back. I saw it in your eyes, you do remember some things and don't tell me you don't." She glared at him and he ran a hand through his short brown hair waiting for an answer. But Juliet kept quiet opening her mouth some times as if she wanted to say something, searching for the right words, but then she closed it again gazing to the floor.

"Please….Juliet. Come with me." Jack begged barely over a whisper and grabbed her hand but she pulled it back as if the dead himself came to get her. "I'm sorry, Juliet." a female voice said behind her. And then suddenly something hit the back of her head hard, a sudden pain shot through her head and all she could see was black when her knees buckled and she felt herself falling right into someones huge warm arms. "Got ya, Blondie." Sawyer said and Jacks eyes widened, when he saw Kate and Sawyer right in front of him. Jack smiled at Kate. "Jack!" Kate smiled. "Doc." Sawyer greeted Jack with a nod. "You okay? Did they hurt you?" Kate asked and threw herself into his arms. He gladly excepted her embrace and held her close breathing in her scent. "I´m okay. What about you?" Sawyer rolled his eyes and looked down at Juliet lovingly, still hanging lose from his arms. He scooped her up, putting her arms around his neck, her head gently resting on his shoulder.

"How did you guys get in here?" Jack asked looking between Kate and Sawyer.

"There're no cameras around that space soo.." Kate began.

"And what about Ben's people?"

"Who says violence ain't an option these days." Sawyer chuckled all anger forgotten. Jack shook his head with a smirk scratching his stubbles.

"C'mon let's get out of here." Kate said paniking slightly when the alarm went on. They had to flee, now. The three of them ran towards the exit, Sawyer a little behind with Juliet still in his arms. "Hell Freckles, couldn't ya be a lil' nicer to her." He asked rushing out of the hydra. "Sorry, but she wasn't going to cooperate with us, so we have to force her to her own luck." Sawyer laughed. "I'll forgive ya. But I'm ain't sure she's gonna be amused 'bout it." Sawyer chuckled giving Kate his typical Sawyer glance.

"Hey stop." Somebody then called out from near the cages pointing a gun upon them. Kate slightly startled shot the guy in the leg immediately with the gun she had knocked Juliet out cold previously. The man groaned with pain and fell to the ground holding on to his aching leg. "Run." Kate yelled and escaped into the jungle, before more of the others came up running in their direction. "Oh I was already missin' that action." Sawyer smirked while they were rushing through the bushes. "That´s not funny, Sawyer." Jack said angrily squeezing Kate's hand when he made fear out in her eyes. "So, what now?" Kate asked looking up to Sawyer and so did Jack while they were hiding in the bushes.

TBC

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