Wedding season has finally passed so now it's back to normal at the bakery for the most part. So I'm home at a decent hour making dinner waiting on Sam and Embry to get home from a camping trip. They should have been back hours ago and it's weird for Sam to not call.

I try not to think about it as I make dinner but I'm really worried. The doorbell rings and I answer it to Charlie.

"Hey Charlie, come in. Sam's not here, I'm actually a bit worried, have you heard from him?" I ask as he comes in trying to ignore the feeling of dread that is hanging around like a bad storm cloud.

"Bella, I don't know how to say this. Um, well why don't you sit down?"

"Charlie where is Sam?" I ask him.

"I don't know. Embry was found unconscious and taken to the hospital, so one of the guys went out to look for their truck. We found the truck but we can't find Sam. I have men out looking Bella, we will find him." He leaves the part out about how he doesn't know if he will be alive.

"I don't understand." I finally say. "Was there an accident? Or was the car just there? Why do bad things happen to everyone I love in cars? Cars are supposed to be safe! Dammit Charlie! What the hell happened to him?" I'm screaming and crying and he's still just staring at me.

"The car was there, but it was dead. It was pretty far out so I think it died and they had no way back. I'm so sorry; we'll do everything we can. I really don't want you to stay here alone tonight. I've talked to Alex and Leah, she's spending the night there, I can drop you off there. I've also called Phil; he's going to get on the next flight here."

"Um yeah OK let me just, I don't even know. Dinner, clothes, I don't know!"

"OK I will take care of your dinner; you just pack a few things for the night and tomorrow. Someone can bring you back when you're ready to stay or just need some stuff. Once Phil gets in I imagine you'll want to stay with him." He stops talking and I somehow make it to my room, Sam's room, and throw some stuff in a backpack.

"You ready?" Charlie asks when I walk into the living room and I just nod my head yes.

We don't talk on the way to Alex's house but when I start crying he dials a # and hands me the phone. I look at him and he just says Phil.

"Daddy? When are you going to be here?

"Late tonight, I got a flight out in about an hour. You're going to stay with Alex and Leah right?"

"Yes. Daddy I'm scared. I don't want to lose him, I love him so much."

"Oh honey I know you must be so scared but I know that Charlie is doing everything he can. He loves Sam too. I love you Bella. I will see you soon. I'm coming to Alex's tonight though I will probably get a hotel room tomorrow if you want to stay with me."

"I love you."

"I love you too honey."

'Thank you Charlie, for calling him and taking me to Alex's." I tell him.

"I love you Bella, you're my daughter whether you want to be or not. But I know Phil is your dad and I want you to be happy and taken care of above anything. I love you but I've known since the first time you visited I would never be enough. Even after he lost his memory I knew you two would work things out. I'll always love you and I will always be there for you but so will he and I know he'll always be your first choice."

"I love you too Charlie." I whisper. He looks at me but doesn't say anything.

We get to Alex's house and he walks inside with me and talks to Alex while Leah leads me to the couch and sits down with me.

"How are you doing honey?" Alex asks and I just cry. I cry for what feels likes hours until I'm numb and then I just stare into space. I can hear Alex and Leah around me talking about me I think but I can't really focus on what they are saying and I can't make myself talk.

"Bella let's go to bed, you can sleep in the extra room, I can stay with you if you want." She's talking to me now but I still can't make myself talk so Alex picks me up and carries me to the bed and Leah lies down next to me. I want to tell her she doesn't have to stay but I can't find the words and really I don't want her to leave. I don't want to be alone.

I want Sam.

I fall asleep only to wake up screaming and Phil sitting with me.

"Anything?' I ask him after I fully wake up.

"No honey, I promise you you'll hear anything as soon as any of us do." He tells me.

"Thank you for coming daddy." I whisper.

"I'll always be here for you honey." He tells me.

If only that was enough.