Phil's POV

Bella doesn't eat unless we force her too. She doesn't get out of bed unless we force too. Leah finally had enough of her not showering and told her she either did it herself or she would have me or Alex carry her to the shower and Leah would wash her herself. Bella just laid there so Leah had Alex carry her to the bathtub where Leah stripped her and washed her. No response from Bella. It's been 4 days and each day those of us who aren't zombies lose a little more hope.

Sam's brother woke up but is so messed up right now he can't even talk so he's not any help. I ended up staying with Alex and Leah once I came in and saw how well they are taking care of her. Charlie and Sue and Seth usually stop by to check on her and Charlie gives us the updates if there are any.

"There has to be something to snap her out of this fog." Leah is crying into Alex and he just rubs her back and says I know. I have to admit I was kind of pissed when I found out he was sleeping with her. She's not much older than Bella but the more he talked about her I realized he really loved her and they seem good together.

"There used to be this CD she had. It always made her feel better. Too bad it's who knows where." Alex sighs but Leah perks up.

"A mixed CD? With boy bands and Britney Spears and some weird old people sounding music?" She asks and Alex says yes that sounds about right.

"It's at her house, Sam was working late one night and you were out doing something I don't remember but I went over there and she was dancing like crazy and scream singing. It was hilarious. So she told me she was pissed at Sam for being late again and I laughed because the last thing she looked was mad. She shrugged and said it's the music. Is this CD a big deal?" Leah asks and Alex tells her yeah it was something that her and her mom listened to when either one was upset.

I should know stuff like this about my daughter.

"Let's go get it!" Leah jumps up and grabs both our hands and drags us out. I ask about Bella and she says she's not going anywhere and she's right.

We get to her house and Leah goes through her stuff until she finds it then drags us back to the car.

"Let's listen to it!" She is so excited and I'm not sure why, this working is a long shot with the state she's in but Leah hasn't smiled since I came so I'm not going to ruin her hopes.

She puts the CD and Britney Spears Oops… I Did it Again comes on.

"I made her and Renee this CD." I say out loud but it's really meant for me.

"Yep you and…" Alex starts and I finish Brady.

Bella and Renee were fighting about Bella skipping school to come to some playoff games. Brady was sick that week, so after the games when we would all hang out at a bar Brady was in his room. Renee always got really jealous when I went out and while I still did it sometimes I didn't want to upset her even more than she was over her fighting with Bella. Renee was flighty and self-absorbed but she loved Bella more than anything. So I hung out with Brady and he said I should do something corny for Renee like a mixed CD so we started working on it but then I decided to put Bella's favorite songs on it too so they could enjoy it together. We worked on it all night because the next day was Saturday and they were driving to meet us. The 3 of us shared a hotel room as usual and they weren't talking at all. Renee was on one bed knitting or something and Bella was on the other bed reading a book. I put the CD on and the first song was one of Bella's favorites and she was trying to play it cool but by the end of the song she was singing. The next song was one of Renee's and she was exactly the same as Bella. Each song the tension in the room lessened and by the end of the CD Renee and Bella were dancing and singing together. My girls. After that anytime one or both of them were upset they would play that CD and it always made them happy if only for the length of it. After Renee died Bella listened to it over and over even after she found about Charlie and was so mad at her.

"Alex I remember Bella and Renee and everything. I remember how mean Bella was to me because she was scared to get close to anyone. I remember asking Renee to marry me. I remember Renee dying, holding Bella as she cried. I remember how happy Sam made her with just a text. I remember the team, the accident. Meeting Charlie, being so afraid I was going to lose Bella. I remember you Leah, really remember you." I ramble on and Leah is crying, happy tears I hope. "Are you OK Leah?"

"Yes! This is just so awesome. I know you and Bella are close still but I also know how much she hates having memories of the two of you together that you don't have." She says.

Poor Bella, this would make her so happy if her fiancé wasn't lost in the woods somewhere.

When we get back to the house Leah drags a CD player into the room and turns it on. Bella doesn't respond at first but after a couple of songs she sits up but is still staring into space. After a couple of more she's singing really quiet.

Finally she whispers I won't forget him.

"No one wants you to forget him kiddo we just want you to take care of yourself, he would want that too." Her eyes get really big and I don't realize why.

"You called me kiddo." She's still whispering.

"That CD made me remember everything." I tell her and she bursts into tears.

"Bella?" Alex asks cautiously.

"I'm so happy for you Daddy I am. But when something like this happens this first person I want to tell is Sam." Of course. I think about the fact that she used to call me Phil and I wonder when that changed. Probably when she thought I might die. Not that I mind.

"I'm sorry Bella but I am so happy you're talking." I tell her.

"I'm kind of hungry." Bella tells us and Leah tells her she will get her something. "No, never mind." She changes her mind really fast.

"What is it Bella?" Leah asks her.

"Sam is probably starving and freezing if he's even alive. I feel guilty wanting food." She starts crying.

They need to find him before we lose both of them.