"I'll ride in the ambulance."

They both knew the risk of dating a coworker, yet they still proceeded to date on the low. So when he got shot and she saw Benson going towards the elevator she told her Sargent she would go. This was one of the many few reasons why coworkers couldn't date. Her partner, Fin, even warned her against it when her and Nick got into a nasty fight in public, in a bar. He knew something was up when she came to work late and pissed.

Nick was already at work and didn't even look up to tell her "Morning" like he always did. Even the new guy, Sonny, knew something was different. Fin knew better than to ask what happened in Nick's presents. He even stayed late just to ask what the hell happened. She scoffed and went on a rant on how ' ' tried saving her like his ex's. Fin gave her what you could call advice. Telling her, "One you can't take this job home with you. Two can't take anyone from this job home with you."

Then there was the time where Carisi caught them kissing just before he was able to come back to SVU. Nick, Carisi, and her had a brief chat about what he didn't saw anything and to keep his damn mouth shut. Of course he almost brought it up during a case which earned Carisi one slap from Amanda and threaten about spilling his secret about him seeing a certain ADA. After that he never mentioned it again.

The most recent was wehn Nick almost gave away for the second time that he was seeing Amanda to Benson during a night out. It was a couple of weeks before he got shot. Benson and him went for drinks; one thing led to another and there they were talking about relationships.

"So, Nick, who's the mysterious woman you've been seeing lately?"

"Oh, her name is Am- I meant... she'll remain anonymous until further notice. I'm not that drunk, Liv."

''Come on you gotta give me something."

"Ok, ok she makes me happy everyday. Even when we argue she's still beautiful as ever. Being with her makes everything clear; she's always had my back through the bad times. Honestly, I think I'm in love with her, but I can't tell her because she might not love me back."

"Damn, you must really love this girl. I should meet her one day."

"Yeah, when the time is right."

Everyone knew a little bit, but never confronted them. As if they didn't want to acknowledge their forbidden relationship. Now at this moment she no longer gave a fuck. She didn't know what she'd be like if she lost him. As she was thinking of the small moments they shared she realized that she might be in love with- No, she couldn't fall in love with him, yet here in the ambulance she did.

She was already in love with him, it just took that moment for her to realize. This wasn't suppose to happen. None of it was actually if she really thought about it. Them sleeping with each other, having secret dates, spending nights, making their relationship official, and falling in love. Everything they weren't suppose to do they did. Maybe this is what Fin was warning her about. Falling in love with the wrong person. Or just simply falling in love with a coworker either way it meant the same thing.

They finally reached the hospital to what seemed like forever. When she glanced at her watch it only took ten minutes. It only took her ten minutes to realize she loved him. It only took ten minutes for her to realize she'd probably spiral down if he didn't make it. She scolded herself and reminded herself to think happy thoughts. Like that one time when he took her out on their first date and he mixed up the reservations. It wasn't for another two weeks, he seemed so disappointed. They ended up in Colony Island for the night.

What interrupted her thoughts was her Sarg and Carisi asking on Nick's condition. She explained the emergency surgery; Carisi went on talking 'bout his knee. All it took was a glare from Amanda for him to apologize and get coffee. Benson looked her in the eyes saying that Nick was going to pull through. Maybe she saw the worry in her eyes and this was her way of comforting her. Olivia mentioned she called his mother, Cesaria. No matter what anyone said she needed to see for herself that he was going to pull through.

He finally got out of surgery four hours later and it took another half an hour for them to see him. The doctor pulled her aside explaining some medical terms she'll never understand. Then he also said that she was on his emergency list just in case something happened. He also mentioned that he'd pull her aside to explain everything. Other than that the doctor basically said he pulled through.

When she walked towards his room she saw Benson, Fin, and Carisi leaving his room. Benson asked her to stay with him until she can come back later which Amanda agreed without a problem. She entered to see his mother holding his hands. One glance said it all, Cesaria knew. She finally knew the woman who stole her son's heart. She said a few words to Nick in Spanish and left.

It was now just the two of them in his room. She pulled a chair close to his temporary bed and grabbed his hand. She couldn't hold it in anymore. Amanda let a tear fall down before she wiped it away. Nick noticed and wiped away the other. He was softly stroking her cheek as best as he could.

"Hey, you weren't going to lose me. What makes you think I'd leave you?"

"Nick, you didn't see yourself falling in and out of consciousness. I'm just happy you made it out without any problems."

"Just admit it, you were scared as hell Amanda Rollins."

"Of course I was, but it did give me some time to think and I love you Nick Amaro. So sue for being scared that I was going to lose you."

"I love you too."

By then she stopped crying; any signs of her crying were now gonetoo. She kissed him and didn't give a damn who saw. Nick brought his hand up to her cheek to deepen the kiss. She pulled away to catch her breath and gave him a quick peck on the lips before sitting back down in her seat. He tossed her the remote while saying an inappropriate joke that made her laugh. It was good to know that laying in a hospital bed didn't change his sense of humor.

tbc...

A/N: Next chapter will be the last chapter! I hate writing endings, but I feel like the next chapter should be the last. Once its up I'm gonna put all my focus to This Is Our Journey and maybe one shots here and there. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Review!