Bella's POV
Lisa is coming to pick me so we can visit Embry together. I don't want to go but I didn't want to tell her no more. She has one son in the hospital and one son who knows where. Five days. There are still searching but no one really thinks they are going to find him alive.
I still believe and so does Lisa and everyone pretends to believe it too.
Lisa shows up and we head off.
"How are you doing Bella?" She asks me in the car.
"I'm sure I'm doing about as well as you." I tell her quietly. "I don't think I can live without him." I tell her.
"You will Bella if it comes to that. We'll get through it together. You may not be married to Sam yet but you are still my daughter. But I don't want to think about that, not until they find him. Embry is slowly improving, he's talking a little but he can't really help with where Sam is which of course he feels terrible about. He needs to see you Bella, he's worried about you." She tells me and I feel bad.
"He shouldn't be worried about me." I tell her quietly.
"You're his family too." She tells me and I wipe the tears from my eyes.
We get there and walk to his room and he looks so terrible and I can't stop crying. If he looks this bad then how does Sam look after all this time.
We both sit next to his bed and Lisa holds his hand and she's trying so hard not to cry but I just can't stop.
"I'm sorry Bella." Embry manages to get out.
"You don't have anything to be sorry for."
"They'll find him." He whispers and I say yes they will. I know they will.
My phone rings and I look at before turning it off, no phones in the hospital. It's Charlie, who never calls me so I he must have information, and it must be important because he gives almost all updates to Phil not me. I tell Lisa I have to take this, I'll be right back.
"What is it Charlie?"
"They found him, he's alive but barely. They are taking him to the hospital but he'll have to be rushed right into surgery."
"I'm here! With his mom. Can't we just see him for a minute?"
"Probably. Find Sue, she'll help you. I'm warning you Bella, he's in bad shape, much worse than Embry. He's not going to know you are there, he's not going to be awake."
"OK I understand. I just want to see him just in case…"
"I know."
After I get off the phone I go back to tell Lisa he's coming now and we need to find Sue so she can hopefully help us see him before he has to go into surgery. She tells Embry she loves him and that she will update him as soon as we go. We find Sue and helps us find the head surgeon who agrees to let us wait with him as long as we see him and then get out of the way. I tell her thank you and then they wait.
I think about how much I hate this hospital. I think about if Sam makes it through this alive and functional and we have kids they will not be born at this hospital. I think about how good of a father Sam would be. I think how badly I want to be Sam's wife. I know I'm young but something that feels so perfect cannot be wrong. I think about my mom and wonder if she would be disappointed in me getting married so young.
Then the ambulance pulls up and they rush Sam off and they are running into the hospital and the doctor yells at us to follow. We follow all the way to the operating room where we are allowed to see him and touch him and kiss him and tell him we love him and we will see him when he gets out.
Then Lisa and I sit in the waiting room holding hands and we wait. Because that's what you do in hospital. You wait and you hope and you pray.
Leah and Alex and Phil show up to wait with us. I feel so bad for Lisa knowing that Sam and Embry are the only family she has. Well them and me. This time no one tries to get me to eat or sleep, they know it would be a waste of breathe and a source of frustration.
Charlie and Sue and Seth come to check on me but it's Phil and Alex and Leah that stay. They stay through multiple surgeries and multiple breakdowns and through me telling them they don't have to be here. I have Lisa, but they all know I need them and Lisa is just as bad as me.
A nurse comes out and we all look at her expectantly. I would hate to have this job. A job where so often you have to tell people that the person the live for is dead. I don't think all the delivered good news could possibly outweigh the bad.
"He's out of surgery. He should wake up in a couple of hours. The doctor will come out in a few minutes with more information." She tells us and then walks away.
Lisa and I are crying into each other with Phil and Alex there waiting for us to break down but we don't. I know he's going to be OK. I don't know how bad off he's going to be but he's going to be alive and that's all I need. The rest I can deal with. She goes to tell Embry, how is still improving daily and is expected to make a full recovery in the next few week, about Sam.