Regina was still feeling embarrassed about her mistake the previous day and also a little guilty that she had not spoken to Emma. Things would have been a lot smoother if she had just faced Emma rather than hiding away like a child. She knew that Emma was fine with things but she couldn't let go of the feeling that Emma would think of her as some crazy sex fiend. She decided to take the coward's way out and just avoid the blonde woman. She knew deep down she just needed to speak to Emma, build a bridge and move on but that had never been a strong point for Regina.
Emma felt conflicted, maybe sending the message to Regina had been too much. She had thought it was the best thing to do since Regina was already embarrassed, and if Regina was offended by her message then at least they would share their embarrassment and Regina would hopefully feel less embarrassed. That had been her thought process when she sent the message, however she was beginning to think that maybe she had upset the other woman as she never received a reply. This meant that Emma had a sleepless night with nothing but thoughts of the brunette filling her mind.
Breakfast was an awkward experience for the duo but the weird and awkward atmosphere didn't go unnoticed by Henry this time.
"Are you fighting?" He asked while preparing his next spoon full of cereal.
"What no!" Regina replied too forcefully.
"Well why are you being all weird then, you haven't even spoken to each other this morning." He said just before he shoved the spoon into his mouth.
"We have" Emma said defensively her face a little flushed as she looked over at Regina and spoke to her to prove a point.
"No you've not. And Mom you've not even looked at Ma once today"
"I have, I've looked at you haven't I Emma?" She asked making a conscious effort to look at the blonde with total focus.
"Erm yes sure she has kid, you're just being silly" the blonde replied distracted by the brunettes gaze.
"Oh I'm being silly, of course" Henry mocked.
Emma stood and leaned over the table to Regina and pecked her cheek "See kid perfectly normal. There are no issues we aren't fighting".
Regina could only nod in agreement, her face burning from the soft kiss.
The rest of the morning went by much smoother, they all got ready for the day before driving over to Epcot. The women sharing shy smiles with one another as they completed their morning routines. Emma was the least excited about her day at Epcot than all the other parks,
while Henry and Regina chatted excitedly about what they were excited to do 'around the world at Epcot'.
Their first stop for the day was Soarin. They stood in the queue ready to get onto the ride. When a pilot came onto the screen and started talking them through the preparation for their flight Regina started to fidget and get nervous. Emma took her hand in her own and ran her thumb over
Regina's hand to try and sooth her.
"You'll be fine. It's not like a real flight" Emma said sincerely. Her voice a little softer than usual as she gave the brunette a soft smile.
"I'm not scared" Regina responded defensively but soon softened when she saw the look on Emma's face "I'm sorry" She whispered quietly.
Emma dismissed Regina's apology with a bigger smile, making Regina aware that an apology wasn't needed. "I know you're not but I'm just trying to reassure you. The ride is nothing like a flight. You're going to love it"
"We shall see." Regina said with a smile, tightening her grip on Emma's hand.
Emma checked to make sure Henry was still focused on the video before placing a quick kiss on the brunette's lips. Regina smiled into the kiss before kissing back to make Emma aware that she approved.
They kept their hands locked together until the doors opened and the ride began to load.
Regina was amazed by the ride, the smell of oranges; the smell of snow, the smell of pine trees she thought was particularly exciting. It was amazing. It was somewhat similar to the Harry Potter ride she'd rode days before but much more calming and refreshing. Emma had been right and the ride had been nothing like a flight. It was clever, liberating and exciting.
"So what did you think?" The blonde asked as they exited the ride.
"I really really loved it." Regina said with a big grin as she pulled the blonde in for a kiss. A little more forceful than Emma's delicate one.
"Thank you for before, I know I said I was fine but I still appreciate your efforts"
"No worries" the blonde said was a sheepish shrug.
Test track was a favorite for Henry. He enjoyed the interactive queue and designing his car. Although Emma had argued about some of his design decisions Regina had offered her a gentle shoulder rub that distracted her enough for Henry to complete his design without Emma intervening.
Mission space was definitely Regina's least favorite ride of the day. The space simulation ride made her feel sick and light headed. She'd spent the best part of the ride with her eyes closed waiting for the ride to be over. She was relieved when the ride finished that she'd managed to get through it without being sick.
Once the ride was over Emma had been scared that Regina was going to vomit. She'd offered her a reassuring smile and put her arm around her waist as they exited the ride. While Henry went ahead playing with some interactive games by the exit.
"Are you ok?"
"That ride was horrible! why anyone would want to put themselves through that is beyond me!"
"I thought you were going to be sick"
"So did I"
"Well you didn't. Which I'm really happy about because it means I get to do this" the blonde said before placing a kiss on the brunettes lips.
"So about yesterday" Emma tried tentatively.
"Emma please…"
"I just need to say something and then I promise not to bring it up again."
"Ok" Regina agreed reluctantly looking around to make sure no one was around and Henry was engrossed in a computer screen away from them.
"I don't want what happened last night to happen again. I hated not saying goodnight to you properly. I hated not being able to speak to you. I know you were embarrassed but really there was no need to be"
"But I…"
"Made a innocent… Well not so innocent mistake. The reason I sent you the message last night was because after you said… What you did I wanted you to know that you're not the only one having those thoughts."
"Emma I" Regina tried but Emma cut her off.
"No don't. We don't need to discuss this further. You can pretend it never happened and I'll gladly go along with it."
"But last night all I could think about was you. Both what you said and if I'd offended you with my text message."
"You have no idea the effect you have on me." Regina said with a flushed face.
"I think I do" Emma confessed with a smile. "Trust me I had the sweetest dreams" she said with a wink before taking Regina by the hand and dragging the flustered brunette along.
After two hours of standing in the queue to meet Anna and Elsa both Emma and Regina were beginning to get agitated.
"This is ridiculous! Why do you need to meet the fake ones? You know the real ones!" Emma huffed.
"Because I want to get a picture to show Grandma and Grandpa"
"Henry Dear it's been two hours now. Are you sure you wouldn't sooner do something else. You can get a picture of them in the parade and show them that?"
"It's not the same. I want to meet them!"
Another two hours went by and they were finally next in the queue. Henry went up to greet the characters while Emma and Regina held back watching their son interact.
"Moms" henry shouted over after having his picture taken. Gesturing with his hands for them to join him. Both Regina looked like deer caught in headlights. Regina whispered an annoyed "you've got to be kidding me" before walking over to join their son.
"Family photo" the photographer said before gesturing for Regina and Emma to join Henry and the 'fake' Anna and Elsa. Emma and Regina stood in the middle with Anna beside Emma and Elsa beside Regina. Henry knelt in front of them.
"Let's try something fun" the photographer suggested "Anna and Elsa cover your eyes, Young prince you cover your eyes. Now ladies how about a little kiss".
Regina looked like a goldfish as her mouth opened and closed a few times. Deciding she better take the lead Emma turned to face Regina and placed her hands on Regina's waist and turned her around to face she whispered "Relax" before placing a soft kiss on Regina's lips.
The second the camera clicked the kiss was broken and the family was ushered along.
The day in Epcot went by smoothly. Regina and Henry explored around the world as they walked around the world showcase watching shows and attractions in each section. Emma was less impressed and was a little bored, however sharing the day with her two favourite people automatically put it up there with one of the best days ever.
They ate dinner in the park before heading home and spent the evening together as a family on the balcony. They shared their favourite memories of their holiday so far and looked at photos together.
Regina had never felt more content than she did in that moment. She truly loved that she had finally found her happily ever after.
Henry said his good nights with kisses and hugs before he went back inside.
"I can't wait to show Grandma that photo" Henry said with a laugh as he looked down at his phone one last time and showed his parents the picture of them kissing as he, Anna and Elsa covered their eyes.
In that one moment Regina felt her whole life come to a shocking holt, her breath caught in her throat she felt as if the weight of the world had just been loaded onto her shoulders.
Snow. Oh my god Snow. Emma's mother. What would she think of this development. How could she have been so stupid. Snow would never allow her daughter to date The Evil Queen. What had she gotten herself into. How had she let this happen.
"Hey, what's wrong" Emma asked a catatonic Regina.
"I, I'm…" Regina tried to answer the blonde but she couldn't speak, she didn't have the word to say.
"Regina your scaring me, what's wrong?" Emma asked as she placed her hands gently on Regina's shoulders and looked at her with a confused and worried face.
"Please Regina,tell me what's wrong?" She pleaded again.
But Regina still couldn't answer. She tried but the words died in her throat and then her voice cracked and her tears fell freely down her face, her lip trembled and her body shook with small sobs.
"Regina! What the hell, tell me! You're scaring me" Emma tried again frantically.
"I'm sorry" she finally managed between sobs wiping her eyes and taking deep breaths trying to control her body.
"What for?" Emma asked completely puzzled by the brunette.
"This. Can't. Happen!" She got out between sobs.
"What can't" the blonde questioned completely confused by what was happening.
"You, Me, Us! This" the older women answered, gesturing between herself and the younger woman.
"Where is this coming from?" Emma raised her voice.
"You deserve more than me"
"I don't want more than you! I just want you. There can't possibly be more than you. You are all I need." the blondes lip began to tremble as she realised exactly what Regina was trying to say.
"You deserve your perfect fairytale ending"
"You are my fairytale ending. You, Me and Henry that's all I've ever wanted, to be part of a family.!" She managed before a sob escaped her lips. Both women now cried openly.
"I'm not right for you. You're too good for me. I'm the Evil Queen! I tried to kill you! I tried to kill your mother and father multiple times!"
"It's the past, I care about now, about us"
"There can't be an us Emma" Regina was unable to meet the blonde eyes as she uttered the words aloud.
"There's already an us, there's always been an us… What brought this on?" The blonde demanded.
"I just realised how much of a mistake we are making here…" The sad expression that Regina wore on her face was not missed by the blonde.
"I'm a mistake?" The blonde spat out with wide eyes and a hurt expression on her own face.
"No you're not a mistake, this last week has meant everything to me"
"Then tell me why this is a mistake!"
"I can't do this to her!" She spat out.
"To who? What are you even taking about, you're making no sense!"
"Your mother" Regina said in a quiet voice.
"My mother? What does she have to do with any of this?"
Regina just sobbed uncontrollably unable to answer Emma.
"What are you saying here! You and my mother? You and MY MOTHER! …"
"No that's not what I'm saying… AT ALL" she took a few deep breaths before trying to explain herself.
"I'm saying I hurt her too many times, I can't take her daughter from her and more importantly I can't ask you to choose between me and your family"
"You're my family too. You, me, Henry and my parents. We are a family"
"We are tentative friends at the most, but I'm ok with that. I don't even deserve that from your parents or you!"
"My mother loves you Regina"
"She tolerates me. Part of her must still hate me I took you away from her for 28 years!."
"She hates the Evil Queen. You are not her. You're Regina. You're the person who saved her life, who taught her to ride, who braided her hair." The blonde said with a sad smile.
"She told you about those things?" Regina was confused as to why Snow would even share those stories with Emma.
"She did. She doesn't hate you. In fact a few times I was worried she might have a crush on you herself" the small laugh that escaped Emma's lips seemed a complete contrast to the sad, tear stained face it came from.
Regina looked horrified at the blondes declaration.
"She doesn't, don't worry I checked."
"How exactly did you do that?" Regina raised an eyebrow in confusion.
"She may know how I feel about you."
"What?"
"She knows that I have feelings for you."
"How?"
"I may have accused her of having a crush on you!"
"What!"
"I'd been drinking. She wouldn't shut up about how wonderful you are, about all the amazing things you did together. I know it was irrational but I was jealous ok. So I may have suggested she had a 'big lesbian crush on you'."
"And then what happened" the former Evil Queen was completely taken by surprise that there was any chance that Snow White knew of her relationship with her daughter.
"She told me she was happily married to my father, had no romantic interest in you what so ever or any other women for that matter. She also suggested maybe I should take a look at my own feelings towards you"
"Was she angry?"
"No. She was amused."
"Amused?"
"She thought that my big lesbian crush on you was amusing"
"Why would she be amused?"
"Jesus Regina I don't know do you want me to call her up and ask her?!"
"what no! Don't do that!"
"This isn't about my mother! It's about you and me"
"But she'll never accept me and you"
"She already accepts me and you"
"How can she?"
"Because she knows the real you and she loves you"
"That's insane"
"I can't keep going round in circles with you so i think i should go…"
"Ok"
"Ok?, that's it! That's all you've got to say?"
"I don't know what you want from me."
"I want you to be honest"
"I'm scared"
"I'm scared too"
"I don't want to hurt you
"Then don't"
"I don't want you to hurt me"
"I won't"
Emma took Regina's hand in her own and led her to the bedroom.
"I'm scared"
"I know, but there's nothing to be scared of"
"Everyone I love dies"
"You…"
Regina eyes went wide as she realised her mistake. Emma noticed the other woman tense so decided to let the comment slip. She took the older woman by the hand and led her into her bedroom.
"Lay down" she said with a soft smile. Once Regina was on the bed Emma removed her shoes before removing her own and climing onto the bed behind her.
"No matter what happens you're worth the risk."
"I can't risk losing you. I wont."
"I don't mean the risk of me dying. I'm not dying, but anything else together we can face it like we always do. Like we always will do. We're a team. We are a family."
Emma had to bite her lip to stop herself from uttering those three special words that she wanted so much to share with the brunette. Instead she kissed Regina's forehead before wrapping her arms protectively around the brunettes small frame and held her tightly as they both cried freely until sleep took over them.
A/N
So the rating has changed due to the contents in the next chapter.
Thank you for reading :-)
