"God, damn it!" Hiei yelled. "Back the fuck off. I'm done with you!"

I tried to brace myself as Hiei punched me in the chest. Unable to do so successfully, I went flying back and into Hiroto. I struggled to get back up while Hiroto just jumped up as if nothing happened. He backed away like the coward that he was. Hiroto said something but I didn't hear.

There was a ringing in my ear. I didn't know where it came from but I did know that I was pissed. "I'm done with you!" Really? Really?! I know Hiei isn't the type to commit or anything but that was a low blow. I was not happy.

With anger running through my veins, I lifted my arms up slightly and tried to gather my energy so I could call both fire and water. I struggled to call upon water and fire so I could end them. Breathing heavily, I focused on the balancing of the elements. As I felt the charge increase I could have sworn I heard the guys yelling at me, telling me to stop. The fear in their voices helped me gather the energy. I fed off their fear. With the power running through my veins, I raised my hands up in the air before slamming my fists into the ground. Water and fire exploded all around me.

It took me a couple seconds to recover and when I finally had, I realized I was on my hands and knees. Panting, I looked around as the area began to clear from dust and debris. Drained of all energy, I struggled to stand back up. When I was finally standing straight I took a look around and surprised by what I saw.

Everything was gone. I could barely see the tree line anymore. After doing a quick three-sixty I noticed I couldn't see the guys. Although I did see Hiroto laying a few feet away from me. Judging by his appearance I could only assume that he was dead. Turning back to where the guys had stood a few seconds ago, I started to walk in that direction.

As I got closer to their general direction, I began to see the evidence of my power. When I saw Kuwabara's foot peaking out from under a piece of tree, I ran over to him. Gathering what little energy I could, I lifted the tree and threw it away from him. I was too late. I knew right away that he was gone. What have I done? I quickly looked around to see if I could find the others. They were all gone. I killed them.

Where was Hiei? I worked as fast as I could to try and find him. Please, please, please, don't tell me I killed him. It felt like eternity before I finally found him. I pulled him out from under a piece of the roof. My chest went tight as I saw him all bruised and bleeding. I placed his head on my lap and ran my fingers through his hair. As I looked down at him, I felt my cheeks go hot and wet. I quickly wiped them and found out that I was crying. What have I done? If I only didn't get angry. I killed them all...

"God, damn it!" Hiei yelled. "Back the fuck off. I'm done with you!"

I jolted and gasped. I quickly looked around to see Hiroto standing behind me and the guys standing back, close to the trees. What the hell is going on?

Hiei prepared to punch me so I did my best to block him. I flew back and landed on Hiroto. Groaning from the impact, I struggled to get back up. What was happening? Why did Hiei punch me like that? I quickly looked around to see the rest of the gang ready to attack. It was unsettling to see them looking at me like that. I opened my mouth to ask what was happening, but Hiroto cut me off.

"Oh, for fucks sakes!" Hiroto yelled. "Finish them, you bloody woman!"

I was about to give him a piece of my mind but before I had the chance I felt myself lifting my hands. A horrifying pain exploded through my head as my body tried to gain power. Gasping, I tried to my best to stop but I was powerless against it.

"She's going to kill us!" I heard Kurama yell. "Hiei, use your dragon to stop her!"

"Already on it," was Hiei's reply.

What? The dragon of the darkness flame? On me? Terrified, I tried to open my mouth to tell them no but I had no control over myself. I looked over at Hiei when I felt our energy mix in the air. All I could do was stare as he summoned his dragon. In a matter of seconds, I watched the dragon appear and head straight for me.

The last thing I could remember is seeing Hiei's satisfied grin and feeling the worse pain imaginable.

"God, damn it!" Hiei yelled. "Back the fuck off. I'm done with you!"

I quickly looked around to see that Hiroto was standing behind me and the gang standing in front of me, looking worried. What is happening? I wanted it to stop. Knowing what was going to happen, I braced myself even before Hiei got ready to push me back. I struggled to get up after falling into Hiroto. Just as I was about to scream out I heard Hiroto yell, "Oh, for fucks sakes! Finish them, you bloody woman!"

Wanting to give him a piece of my mind, I tried to turn towards Hiroto. I didn't have the chance to, however, because I found myself facing the guys while raising my hands up to my sides. No, not this again. I didn't want to kill them, I didn't want to die. Needing to try again, I tried to gain control. I had to. I can't go through with this again.

"Look," Kurama said. "I think… I think she's gaining control over herself."

I looked over at him and felt like I actually was. Balling my hands into fists, I tried to stop summoning water and fire. But I couldn't. I looked over at Hiroto and say that he was smiling at me. I was too late, I couldn't stop gathering the energy. No, I had to do something, anything.

That's when I realized there was one thing I could do. Taking a deep breath, I stopped trying to gather more energy and tried to control the energy that I had gathered. I looked around me at the water and fire and glared at it. They had to be stopped, now. So, instead of sending them towards the gang, I consumed them. I pulled my arms towards myself and crossed them at my chest. As I did so, the water and fire energy flew towards me and entered my body.

"No!" I heard Kurama and Hiroto yell.

Screw the dragon of the darkness flame, this was much worse. I could feel my chest being crushed from this pressure. It was like I was swimming too deep into the ocean. It also felt like I was being burned from the inside out. I couldn't control the elements. I was too weak. They were killing me.

"Aly-Jay!" Kurama said as he kneeled beside me. "Stay with us. Take control."

I looked over to my side and saw Hiei drawing his sword. The last thing I saw was Hiei cutting off Hiroto's head.

"God, damn it!" Hiei yelled. "Back the fuck off. I'm done with you!"

No, please, not again. I looked around expecting to see everyone here, but it was only Hiei and I. After looking over Hiei again, I opened my mouth to try and talk to him. Since I wasn't able to talk to him before, I was a little surprised to find that I actually could this time.

"Please, Hiei. Help me."

"Help you?" he huffed. "Why should I help someone as weak as you?"

"But I don't have control over myself." Wait… was this still the case? I haven't been able to talk before but I can now. Does that mean I do have control?

"You don't have control because you were too weak to fight him. If you had only been stronger you wouldn't be in this mess."

I frowned at him as I felt this painful stab in my chest. Weak. After looking down at myself I realized I was weak. Wasn't I?

"I'm sorry," I whispered. "What do you want me to do?"

Hiei threw off his cloak. "I want you to realize just how weak you really are."

Before I had the chance to reply, Hiei began to summon his dragon. I could only stand there in stunned silence as I watched his dragon appear. Weak. I was weak. I couldn't even defend myself. Those were the only things going through my mind as I felt my body burn.

Screaming. Someone was screaming. I opened my eyes to the brightest light in recorded history. Someone placed their hands on my shoulders so I tried to hit them away.

"Aly-Jay! It's me, Yukina. Relax, you're safe."

I looked around and tried to catch my breath. That's when I realized I was the one screaming. I turned my head to the side and saw Yukina sitting next to me. With a groan, I tried to sit up but she quickly reached out and gently pushed me down. My whole body felt stiff so I let her, that and the fact that I had the worse headache ever. "How long have I been out?" Was I even awake this time?

"Almost a month. How are you feeling?"

"Almost a month?!" I almost shouted but my headache prevented me from doing so.

"Yes. Three weeks. How are you feeling?"
I could tell that she wasn't willing to give up so easily so I answered. "Honestly? Like I'm dying. I don't think there's a part of me that isn't hurting."

"Here," Yukina said as she handed me a glass of what looked like orange juice. "Genkai told me to give it to you when you woke up since you've lost a lot of blood." I raised an eyebrow at that. God, even that hurt. "Don't worry, it's fresh."

Since I could barely gather the strength to hold onto the glass, Yukina had to help me. I moaned the second the sweetness touched my tongue. It sure did taste fresh. And nice. And wonderful. After I finished the glass, Yukina went to fill another one. I was finishing my second glass when Genkai and Kurama entered.

I insisted that I was sitting up to talk to them, much to Yukina's dismay. It was a struggle to begin with but after I had the chance to crack my back, I felt so much better. I sighed with relief before I was able to face everyone.

"How are you feeling?" Genkai asked.

I'm going to have to get used to this question fast. "Alright, just… in pain."

"Do you remember anything?"

I had to think about it for a second. An image of that demon flashed through my mind. The memory made me jump slightly. I opened my eyes and looked down at my hands which had started to shake.

"I'll take that as a yes," Genkai said gently. "What's the last thing you remember?"

Without fully realizing it, I reached up and touched my neck. Kurama leaned forward and asked if he could take a look. After I nodded, he pushed my hair away to get a better view.

"Odd," he said. What? What's odd? "You seem to have healed perfectly. All your bruises are gone. But the bite mark is still there. It looks like a scar. I don't think it will go away."

My hand came back up to my neck again. A scar? I needed a reminder for all this? I felt myself start to panic. My chest tightened, making it harder to breath. Kurama noticed so he started to gently rub my back. When that didn't work right away, he made me put my head between my legs. That helped, a lot actually.

"Maybe you should rest a bit longer," he suggested.

"No," I said as I tried to push him away. "I've slept for a month. I need to get up and move around."

They seemed to have agreed because Kurama helped me up and move around. My muscles and joints were stiff. But after cracking a few bones and slight stretches, I was able to move around on my own. It wasn't long before we started to head back to our house.

"Where are the guys?" I asked as we walked.

"In town, visiting family."

"Do you ever visit yours?"

Kurama laughed gently. "I actually just got back from visiting mine."

"How's your mom?"

"She's good, actually. Thanks for asking."

There was silence for a second.

"And Hiei?" I asked, hoping he didn't think anything of it.

"He actually left for Demon World." I tripped at that. Did I hear that right? Kurama reached out to make sure I didn't land on my face. "Are you alright?"

I nodded. "I guess my muscles aren't as warmed up as I thought." I brushed myself off before trying to continue. "So he left, huh? Do you know why?"

"He mentioned something about getting a message from Mukuro. And that it was time he went back to see her."

I'm done with you!

Wincing from Hiei's voice in my head, I pressed down on my temples.

"Are you okay?" Kurama asked.

"Yeah, it's just my headache."

"Well it's a good thing we made it back to the house. Let me go get you some painkillers."

I took a seat on the couch as Kurama went to the kitchen. When he came back with everything, I looked up at him with a grateful smile. "Thank you so much, Kurama. I think I've lost track of how many times you've handed me this stuff. I don't know what I'll do without you."

We both laughed softly at that. But I felt like being alone. I couldn't get rid of this tearing feeling in my chest. So Hiei had decided to leave. He chose Mukuro. After thanking Kurama again, I got up and headed to my room. I really needed to lie down.

The second I entered my room Mizu meowed and rubbed himself against my legs. I took a seat on my bed and Mizu instantly jumped onto my lap. Thinking it would help, I laid back which allowed Mizu to crawl onto my chest. As he settled down and purred, I began to scratch his head.

That's when the memories began to flow. Almost all of it involved Hiei. I heard his voice. Please. She's weak, she can't handle her powers. Why would I associate myself with the likes of her? Weak. He called me weak. Back the fuck off. I'm done with you! And the way he fought back. It felt like he was actually trying to beat me down.

My chest tightened at that. He was right. I was weak. I'm this so-called legendary demon and I couldn't even defend myself. I got caught and used. I actually tried to kill the guys. Weak. I'm weak.

Tears began to fall down my cheeks. That only caused my chest to tighten even more.

Weak.

I closed my eyes tightly to try and help with the headache. An image of Kurama lying on the ground dead flashed through my mind. My eyes opened wide in shock. What was that? Kurama, dead? There's no way that's possible. Was it a dream? If that's the case, what was a memory and what was a dream? I closed my eyes again, and images of all the guys filled my mind. They were all dead.

I didn't deserve to be here with the guys. I don't have the power to measure up. Trying to fight back the tears, I looked over to the side. There was the chair that Hiei sat in when he first came into my room... I can't do it. I had to leave.

At that thought, I placed Mizu aside and sat up. Moving as quickly and quietly as I could, I grabbed one of my duffel bags and started to fit as much as I could in it. When I reached down for one of my books, something shiny caught my eye. I reached out to see what it was. It was my bracelets. I stood up and stared at them.

My chest didn't burn anymore, but there was still a pain. A different kind of pain. Without a second thought, I put them back on.

Once my bag was full, I pulled it over my shoulder. When I was finally ready to go, I grabbed one of my sheets and wrapped Mizu up so he wouldn't try and wiggle out of my arms. I peaked my head out of my door and saw the hallway empty. Trying to be as quiet as I could, I sneaked down the hallway. I paused at the stairs, trying to hear if Kurama was downstairs. It was quiet, so I slowly walked down.

When I finally got outside, I made sure Mizu was wrapped nice and tightly before I ran. I ran as fast as I could. Thanks to my training, I was able to move almost as fast as Hiei. That thought only made me run faster. I refused to cry. Not now. Not yet. So I continued to run. I didn't stop until I had reached the train station. It wasn't until I sat down on the train when I allowed myself to relax slightly. It didn't look like I was being followed.

Once I got off at my stop, I struggled to find some coins to call my mom. Thankfully I was able to grab some at one of my side pockets from my bag.

"Hello?"

The moment I heard her voice, I realized I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I let them fall, freely. And admittedly, loudly.

"Hello? Aly-Jay? Is that you? What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

I forced myself to take a few deep breathes so I could talk. "Can I come home?"

"What's wrong? What happened?"

"Can I come home?"

"Yes, of course. I'm here."

The moment the call ended, I walked until there was no one around. When I was finally alone, I began to run again. I didn't stop until I was knocking on her door.

She must have been waiting right at the door because it didn't take her long to answer. There was even tea there waiting for us. At first my mom tried to get me to speak. Asking questions to figure out what was wrong. She finally stopped asking when I started to cry even harder at the "Is it a boy?" question. When I finally cried myself out, my mom helped me into bed to rest.

I woke up the next morning feeling only slightly better. As I got up and started to head into the kitchen, I heard my mom on the phone. Debating if I should just return to my room or continue making my way into the kitchen, I paused outside my door.

"Listen, George." Dad? She's talking to Dad? "I know its last minute but I really think it would be good for her. I don't think she's having a good time here. She needs her friends. Her old life back. Please." There was a pause while she listened to him. "Yes I know. I wouldn't be asking this if I didn't think it would be the best for her. I really think she needs to go back." Another pause. "Thank you. I'll email you her arrival time."

I was standing by the kitchen door when she finally hung up. She froze when she saw me, unsure of what to say. I didn't think she needed to say anything. As I walked forward and wrapped my arms around her. I said the only two words that needed to be said.

"Thank you."