Authors Note: Just FYI, every Chapter will probably have an A/N. Hey guys, heres Chapter 4, just like I promised. Im starting on Chapter 5 right now, I just can't seem to get enough of writing this story. Just a little note: Im going to start them off as good friends first, then comes the relationship. I hope you guys like the chapter, Review and Enjoy :3

* Chapter 5, Im going ot try to post tomorrow.

Chapter 4: Not Meat

Tegan POV:

Oh god, I was really nervous. I felt myself rambling on and on, so I just told her I'll see her in 6th. Im walking away, mentally hitting myself at how stupid I probably sound. I see my table and sit down. Instead of sitting next to Molly, like I usually do, I sit next to Charlie, Out of everyone, Charlie seems to be the most understanding. But there is something that we all have in common, all our girlfriends arent gay, none of them fuck us. They all follow Molly with the whole "If you recieve your not gay thing." So basically none of us get some, except our "Girlfriends". I look over to Amber and she shakes her head.

"Why are you mad at Molly?" She asks me in front of everyone.

Molly looks away, pretending not to pay attention. I feel my body start to shake as I feel my blood boil.

"You need her to fucking speak for you? You have a mouth use it!"

I tell Molly and she looks at me.

"Oh fuck off Tegan! Your just mad cause I won't fuck you, get over it. Why can't you be like Charlie, or Romey, they don't get mad."

I start to laugh. She thinks Im mad because of that? Wow she really is stupid.

"If I was a guy you would be all over my fucking dick. You know what, thats not even why Im even mad!"

I shake my head and look over to a different table. When I lay my eyes on Sara, she eating Jello, talking with her friends, she looks happy. I smile as I see the side of her face, her perfect jawline.

"Don't fucking talk to her like that!"

I hear Abby, Monicas girlfriend yell at me. I turn back around and look at her.

"Who the fuck brang you into this, stay the fuck out of it, your not part of our whatever the fuck we are, so stay the fuck out of it."

"I don't give a fuck, you better have some respect for her!"

I look at Monica and she drops her head.

"Dood, control your fucking girlfriend please!Shes fucking nosey!"

I tell Monica and she shakes her head.

"Hey, don't say anything about her, shes just backing up her friend!"

I shake my head and laugh.

"You know what, I don't need this. If this is the way you want to talk to me Molly, through YOUR fucking friends, then Im leaving."

I stand up and start walking towards the door. I step outside and run to my safe place, behind the building. I get there and sit down on the cold cement. I bring my knees up to my chest and let out a deep breath. I rest my head back and close my eyes, letting the cold wash over me.

Sara POV:

When I finished my food, I looked to Tegans table, where I seen her earlier. I see every one else, except for Tegan, she must have left. When breakfast time is over. I proceed to go to my next classes, wondering whats going to happen today after school. The day goes by pretty slow. I haven't seen Tegan in the halls. Im starting to think shes's going to ditch me, like maybe she was playing a prank on me, just to embarrass me in front of Molly, and well everyone. Its almost time for 5th to end, only 5 more minutes. I keep watching the clock, making the time see oh so slow. Finally the school bell rings. I quickly get up, grabbing all my things. I walk down the hall and up the stairs to the 4th floor, where my 6th is. I keep smiling as I think about seeing Tegan. I have never felt anything for a girl before, or a guy. I wasn't one of those girls who started liking boys when she got her period, I didn't start showing my breasts to people when I finally got a pair, I was just a normal girl, one who didn't care what people thought about her. I've gotten asked by boys numerous of times, back in Canada, why I don't wear make-up, and why I don't dress slutty. I just tell them I don't want too, and they said the same thing each time. "Well you would look fucking cute if you did." I just started to ignore them. But like I was saying, I have never liked anyone, boy or girl. So this feeling I have is pretty new. Im not really scared though that she is a girl, sexuality is fluid, you love who you love. I get to my class and walk in.

"Hello Sara."

I look up and see Miss H, smiling at me, a piece of Chalk in her hand. She turns around and writes on the board.

"Hi Miss H."

I sit down on my seat, placing all my things neatly on the floor. I pull out my phone and check the time, since Miss H doesn't have a clock, she believes that "Teaching does not have a time limit, nor does learning." I look at at the screen and the bell rings. I put my phone back in my bag and smile. I wait, as all the girls get into the class, I keep waiting. When the school bell rings, and I don't see Tegan in her seat I nod.

"I knew it."

I say to myself, as I drop my head onto the desk. I feel my eyes start to tear up. I quickly wipe them away and look back up. I look at Miss H as she teaches. Tegan played me for a fool, and I fell for her tricks, does she do this to all the new girls? I keep my head up, not exactly listening, just making it look like it. After 90 minutes, the school bell rings. I take my time packing all my things up. After I tell Miss H bye, I walk out to the hallway. I sigh as I make my way back to the dorm buildings. I walk across the courtyard, looking around for her, ready to just call her any name. I look around and see her "Click" but she isn't with them. Niether is Molly, Oh great their fucking in her room. I walk up to my dorm building and ride the elevator up to my floor. When I step out, I walk with my head down, not once looking up. Girls are pushing and shoving trying to get by. I get a couple of steps away from my door and finally look up. I see Tegan sitting in front of my door, on her phone. I walk up to my door and ignore her as she stands up and smiles.

"Sara?"

I unlock my door with my keys, and walk inside, leaving the door open. She walks in and closes the door.

"Sara, why are you mad?"

I dump my things on my bed and turn around to look at her.

"Where were you, we were supposed to walk back together, remember? It was your idea to hang out."

I sit on my bed and she rubs the back of her head.

"Oh, I uhh, got into a little argument with Molly, so I wasn't really in the mood to listen to teachers. I really am sorry though, I mean thats why I came here, to your room."

I look up to her and notice the sadness in her face.

"Oh, well are you guys okay?"

I ask her and she chuckles and shakes her head.

"I don't know to be honest with you."

I nod and bite my lip.

"Do you want to sit down?"

I ask her and she smiles.

"Yea."

She walks to my bed and sits down, looking at my wall.

"Wow, you like every band I like."

Tegan POV:

I look at all her posters, and notice that, Every single band I like is their, Pierce the Veil, Suicide Silence, Sleeping with Sirens, A Day to Remeber, and alot more. She smiles and looks at me.

"Uhh hows your hand?"

She gestures to my sloppy wrist wrap. I smile and shrug.

"Still hurts, but okay."

She nods and smiles. We hear the door open and we both turn to it. In walks a little blonde frizzy haired girl, braces and glasses. Shes about to speak when she sees me.

"Sara were go-."

She drops her jaw and smiles nervously at me.

"Lizzy this is Tegan, Tegan this is my roommate Lizzy."

I smile at her and wave. She giggles and waves back. I turn back to Sara and smile.

"Wanna hang out in my room?"

She smiles and nods. I stand up and head for the door.

"It was nice meeting you."

I tell Lizzy and she again giggles. I chuckle as I hold the door open for Sara, letting her go first. I close the door and I walk next to Sara. Were walking down the hall when we hear a scream from her room. I laugh and so does Sara.

"Shes got a mad crush on you."

Sara says through her laughs. I can't stop laughing, it felt good to actually laugh.

"She does?"

I ask her and she nods.

"Everyone thinks your a freaking god here."

She says biting her lip. I want to kiss her, slowly devour her lips, till she can't feel them anymore , but I resist. We finally stop laughing and we get to my door. I pull out my keys and place the key inside the lock. Im about to open it, when its swings open. I step back and see Molly, in my room, her eyes eyes grow wide and so do hers.

"Can we talk?"

She says through tears. Im still too shocked to move. I feel a hand on my back and I hear her voice.

"Umm, we can hang out tomorrow Tegan. I'll see you in class."

I feel her hand leave my back and It leaves a burning feeling on my skin, telling me I miss her touch. I blink my eyes and look at Molly.

"Why are you hanging out with her?"

She asks me as she grabs my jacket and pulls me inside my room, slamming the door. I walk to my bed and sit down on it. She climbs onto me, straddling my lap and hugs me.

"I don't want to fight . . ."

She says as my face comes in contact with her neck. I inhale her scent and pull away.

"Tegan . . . Will you be my girlfriend?" My eyes grow wide as I look into hers.

Why is she doing this now? Why ? Does she love me? What the fuck is going on!?

"Why are you asking me now, after you denied me for 2 years.?"

She looks down to me and grab a fistfull of my hair.

"Because."

Is all she says. She leans in and attaches our lips. I feel her moan into the kiss and it sends shivers down my spine. She pulls away and look at me.

"Yes or No?"

My brain tells me yes, but my heart is saying no? Im confused, I don't know what to feel. I shake my head and look at her.

"No, I . . . I can't."

She moves back and eyes me.

"Don't you love me? Isn't this what you wanted?"

What do I want? I close my eyes and see Saras face, her long straight hair, with her bangs sweeping across her face. Her beautiful jawline, her tight cheekbones, her natural face, no make up. Is she what I want? I sigh and open them.

"I just, I need some time to think Molly, don't rush me."

She bites her lip and nods.

"Can I have a kiss before I go?"

I nod my head, she closes her eyes and leans in, stopping halfway, waiting for me to lean. I slowly lean in and move my lips to her cheek. I place a peck on her cheek and pull away. She opens her eyes and nods. She stands up and walks out of my room, closing the door. I lay back on my bed and shake my head.

"Why now!"

Sara POV:

I was walking back to my dorm, when I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. I pulled it up to my face and read the caller ID. I smiled and placed the phone to my ear.

"Hey Kiddo, how are you?"

I walk to a window that overlooks the courtyard and smile.

"Im doing fine Dad and you?"

I hear him chuckle, that means he has good news.

"Im fine, guess what?"

I smile and bite my lip.

"What?"

"I got the job at Fed Ex."

I smile and laugh, knowing my dads happy.

"Thast great Dad, it'll keep you busy."

"Mhmm, well listen Kiddo, I have band news to tell you though."

I take a deep breath and gulp, expecting to worst.

"I have to go to Liverpool to pass a test or whatever its is, but that means I won't be able to stay home with you this weekend."

I hear him sigh and I nod, even though he can't see.

"Thats fine dad, I can just stay here, in the dorms."

I tell him.

"Really? They can let you stay on campus?"

"Mhhmm I'll just talk to the dorm advisor."

"Oh well then good, thats great, cause I didn't want you staying at the house by yourself."

"I know."

"Well go talk to them and text me or give me a call back when you get an answer."

"Okay, Love you."

"Love you too Kiddo."

I hang up my phone and sigh. I miss my dad, but I do like it here. I head back to my dorm and open the door.

"What are you doing hanging out with Tegan!"

I hear Lizzy yell and shes smiling big. I chuckle and close the door.

"We were just going to talk, but Molly was in her room."

"Oh god, what did Molly tell you, are her and Tegan fighting. How did Tegan start to talk to you!?"

Lizzy goes on and on.

"Lizzy were just friends okay? Calm down."

I laugh and she mumbles something as she opens the door and walks out, closing it. I lay down on my bed amd look at the ceiling. I have only been at this school for 3 days, and Im already having feelings for someone. I sigh and look at my phone, the time is 4:30. I feel my eyes start to get heavy, and I notice that my lids are slowly closing. I let them as I fall into a deep sleep.

Tegan POV:

Its 6:45, dinner in the cafeteria starts in 15 minutes. Since Molly left, All I have done is think. I still don't know exactly what I want, Molly is Molly, but Sara, well shes Sara. I feel bad though, I left her today first, then she had to leave when she saw Molly. I look out my window and notice that the rain has stopped, but it is dark. I get up from my bed and walk to the glass. I open it and feel the cold air smack my face. I quickly shut it, and walk to my closet. I grab a sweater and my leather jacket. I put them on, and top it off with my maroon beanie. I open my door and look down the empty hall. I lock up my room and walk down the hall, only to stop at another door. I take a deep breath and Knock. After 4 Knocks, I began to walk away, when I hear the door handle being tampered with. I turn back around and see Sara, her hair all messed up, her eyes half closed. She must have been asleep. I giggle at how adorable she looks.

"Tegan?"

She asks in a sweet little voice as she rubs her eyes.

"Hey Sara, were you asleep?"

Even though I know that answer shes nods and trys to smile.

"Wanna come in?"

She says and I smile.

"Yea sure."

She moves her body and I walk past her. I smile at the band posters again and she walks to the bed. She throws her body onto it and cuddles back up into the blankets.

"Sorry, I was just sleepy."

She says, turning over and looking at me, still with sleepy eyes. I smile and sit on the edge of her bed.

"Its fine, I was just comming by to see if you wanted to come down to the cafeteria and grab dinner with me, since our hang out session got interupted."

She smiles and then her face goes serious.

"What about Molly, won't she get mad and tell me something?"

I shake my head and smile.

"I won't let her."

I see her lips start to curl and she sits up, her face inches away from mines.

"Okay, just let my grab a jacket."

Her hot breath ghosts past my lips, but in seconds its gone as she gets up and walks to her closet. I look at her as she grabs a small sweater.

"Mmmm mmmm Nope, too cold, you'll freeze to death."

She laughs and nods. She reaches in and grabs a leather jacket, similar to mines. I smile at how she looks in it. She nods and I nod.

"Lets go." She says as she makes her way to the door.

I open it for her and she grabs her keys. I lock her door and close it, double checking it. We walk down the hall in silence, we get inside the elevator and ride in silence. When we get to the first floor, and I open the double doors, thats when she finally speaks.

"Sweet Jesus Its fucking Cold!"

I laugh and she pulls the door back, closing it.

"Wanna use my jacket?"

I ask her, offering her my sweatershirt. She smiles, but denies it.

"Why, your cold?"

I ask her again and she looks at me.

"I don't want you to be cold."

She says. I smile, thats the first time anyone has ever cared about my safety, not even Molly does that. I smile and open the door again.

"Run?"

I tell her and she nods.

She runs out of the doors, and I follow, the wind hitting our faces. We run passed the courtyard and into the halls. Once I see the heating lamps, I point them out to Sara and she smiles. We get in front of the cafeteria and see all the girls in there talking. As we walk in, she looks at me.

"So, I guess I'll see you back at the dorms then?"

I eye her and shake my head.

"Why?"

"Aren't you going to sit with Molly and your friends?"

I smile and look at her.

"Your my friend, I want to sit with you and your friends."

Her face lights up and she smiles.

"Okay then."

She walks and I watch her hips, as they sway in a cute way, not like those sexy girls, but like those girls that are just so innocent. I follow her and she hands me a tray. We both grab some food, when we get to the desserts, shes about to reach for her favorite. I grab it first, and place it on her plate. She smiles at her red Jello and I chuckle, she really is adorable. I grab the green jello and we get to Miss B. We swipe our cards and walk in the middle of the cafeteria.

She smiles at me and walks. I follow her as she sets her tray down and pulls out my chair. I look at the Red head and Lizzy. They both smile at me nervously and laugh. I sit down and look at Lizzy.

"Hey."

She giggles and speaks.

"Hi."

Sara laughs and looks at The red head.

"This is Ronnie, Ronnie this is Tegan."

Ronnie smiles and I smile back. I look at Sara and she smiles with her teeth, wide. I chuckle and she does too.

"So, back to Now Now, their comming in-"

"You like Now Now!?"

I cut Sara off and she smiles.

"Yea, we all do. Why you don't like them?"

She ask, putting a scoop of jello into her mouth.

"I love them! Their my favorite band!"

I tell Sara and she laughs. I look into her eyes and she locks the gaze. I look down to her lips and lick mine, knowing very well no one likes chapped lips. Our breathing starts to get rugged as we look at eachother.

"Mmmhmmmm!"

We break our gaze and see Mollys figure standing right behind us. I look up and shes staring down at me.

"What the hell are you doing?"

She says, pretty mad.

I look at Sara and she drops her head, thinking that Im going to leave.

"Having dinner with some friends, what does it look like?"

I hear Ronnie and Lizzy gasps and Sara looks up.

"Their not your friends, we are."

Charlie says to me, I look at her and she shakes her head.

"Look, you guys were just having Lunch, can't you cool it with the whole Mean Girls, Plastic drama."

I look at Sara, when did she get balls, no one stands up to Molly. I smile at her and she looks at me.

"Excuse me, Look I'd like to talk to MY girlfriend, so stay out of it."

Molly grabs my arm and tries to pull me up, when I see Sara stand up.

"She isn't a piece of meat Molly, don't grab her like that."

Molly pushes my arm down and shakes her head.

"Who the fuck do you think you are talking to me like that?"

Saras about to speak, when Miss B walks up to us and places her hand on Molly's shoulder.

"Is there a problem ladies?"

Molly looks at me and shakes her head.

"No Miss B, we were just leaving."

Miss B nods and Molly and the girls walk away. I grab Saras arm and pull her back down on her chair.

"Where did that come from!?"

I ask her, she shrugs and we all laugh.

"Your the first girl to stand up to Molly Sara."

Lizzy says. I nod and she smiles.

"Well, she shouldn't grab you like that."

I feel my heart warm and I smile. As we continue to eat our food, we talk, we talk about bands, we tell eachother jokes, we tell eachother stories. The school bell rings and we all get mad. When we all realize were mad, we all laugh.

"Well, Im going to walk Ronnie to her dorm, We'll catch up with you later Sara, Tegan."

Sara POV:

As Tegan throws our trash away, Lizzy winks at me. I laugh and shake my head.

"No,"

I tell her and she smiles.

"No what?"

I hear Tegans voice.

"Uhh No because Lizzy wanted to borrow . . . my underwear?"

I look at Tegan and she eyes Lizzy. I start to laugh and so does Tegan.

"Sara!"

Lizzys yells and I mouth a sorry to her. I watch her walk away and when she does, she leaves Tegan and I alone.

"Ready?"

She asks me and I nod.

We walk behind all the girls, making us the last ones out of the cafeteria. We walk slow, lazily dragging out feet.

"Sara, I want to thank you, No one has ever stuck up for me like that before."

She says and I look at her. She smiles and I smile back, I drop my head and reply.

"To be honest, I was fucking scared."

She laughs and so do I.

"But still, you did it"

I nod my head and she again smiles.

"So Lizzy wanted to borrow your underwear?"

She eyes me and I burst out in laughter. I start to shake my head and she starts to laugh.

"No, I just didn't know what to say, it was something else . . . a secret."

I calm down when I say the word secret. She nods her head and nudges my arm.

"Well . . . I like secrets."

We get to the dorm doors and I smile at her, opening one for her.

"I bet you do."

We stay silent, until we get to our dorm floor. We stop in front of her room first and she smiles.

"I like how I said I wouldn't let Molly say anything to you, yet you stood up to her?"

I laugh and shrug my shoulders.

"So . . . I'll see you tomorrow?"

I ask her as I walk backwards to my door. She bites her lip and smiles.

"Yea, tomorrow, I promise I'll go to class."

I smile and bump into my door. I stumble and she chuckles. I smile and fiddle with my keys. I open my door and look back at her.

"Goodnight Sara."

I bite my lip hard and smile.

"Night Tegan."

I close my door and quickly fall onto my bed. I grab my pillow and squeeze it tight. The butterflies fluttering even more harder then when I was with her.