Authors Note: Sorry that I haven't updated in 2 days, I've been swamped with homework. Anyways, I hope this chapter makes up for it, if not Im sorry about that too. It took me forever to figure out what they can do in a dorm for 2 days. As you guys know, from my previous stories, I like to write about them having sex, im being honest, and its killing me. I literally was shaking when I wrote this, I wanted to write them having sex, but if I do, its going to mess up the plot, so I can't, not yet at least. So keep in mind, that again, these chapters are leading up to the big moment, but for now their only friends, who really like eachother. Anyways, Theres a new story up, by ALovelyMistake97, We are currently writing it together, so check it out, its a supernatural fic. So heres chapter 7, Review and Enjoy (:
P.s To the person that reviewed, saything they had a bad day, and they were sick, Im sorry T_T I feel horrible that I couldn't make your day better, but hopefully you like this chapter (:
Chapter 7: The Dream
Tegan POV:
Saras in her room, shes getting ready for today. The rain has stopped, but the clouds are still gray and gloomy, making where Im taking her, a beautiful sight. Right now Im getting ready too, Im gonna wear some skinny black straight legs, a gray t-shirt, and some gray converses. I quickly change and plug in my straightening iron. I can hear the sound of Sara walking out of the showers, back to her dorm. When I finish getting ready, I look at myself in the mirror. To be honest, I don't understand why girls even like me? Im not at all attractive, I look like a gender confused person. I walk to my closet and grab my maroon sweater, and my extra leather jacket. I pull my sweater over, then put on my jacket. I think for a second about wearing my beanie, it matches with my sweater. Maybe not, Sara might be tired of it already. I sit down on my bed and pull out my phone, scrolling through random things, trying to kill sometime while I wait for Sara. When I hear the knock on my door I smile. I stand up and open it. There she is, Sara, beautiful Sara. I look her up and down, shes wearing dark denim skinny jeans, a black V-neck, A maroon jacket, and a jean jacket over it. I smile at the colors and she looks down to her jacket and mines.
"We match."
I tell her. She smiles and reaches into her pocket.
"My ihome charged it."
She says, handing me my ipod. I completely forgot about it. I place it into my pocket and close the door. We walk down the hallway and she turns to me.
"Wheres your beanie?"
I press the elevator button and then mess with my hair.
"Your not tired of it?"
I ask her and she shakes her head. She starts to walk back and I turn around. I watch her as she walks down the hall and opens my door. The elevator door opens and I step in, holding it open for her. She steps out of my room, closes the door and runs back down the hall. She steps into the elevator and I let the doors close, pressing the first floor button. I turn over to her and eye her.
"What did you go and get?"
She remove her hand from her pocket, pulling out my maroon beanie. She smiles and puts it on my hair, fixing it the way I wear it. When the elevator doors open, we step out. I turn around when I don't hear her footsteps. Shes pulls out another one of my beanies, a gray one and puts it on. She situates it and walks back up to me. I smile at her, she looks adorable.
"I wanted to look like you."
She says, and giggles innocently. I laugh and nod, walking back down the hall. We exit the dorms and feel the cold hit us. I look over to Sara and shes looking at the ground.
"You okay?"
"Huh? Oh yea, fine."
I nod and start to walk down the stairs. As we get to the courtyard, I look at all the mud.
"How are we going to get passed this Tegan?"
I smile and reach out for her, she grabs my hand and I link our fingers together. She smiles and I guide us, almost slipping a couple of times, but laughing it off. Once we get back onto the cement, we wipe our feet off and start to walk to the hallways. As we walks down the hallways, the heat from the heat lamps radiate through the halls. I look over to Sara and shes still looking down. We get into the building and sigh in relief as the heat warms us.
"So where are we going?"
She asks me, I smirk and shake my head.
"Its a suprise."
She rolls her eyes and chuckles. I smile back and motion for her to follow me. One of the advantages of my dad being the principle, or dean what ever he is, is that I know where he puts his keys. I walk to the doors of his office and open them. I feel a hand on my back and I turn around.
"Tegan, you can't do that."
She says, whispering. I chuckle and speak.
"You don't have to whisper no ones here. Everyone goes home remember."
Thats not exactly true, the only person who stays here is a couple of security guards and the nurse, But they stay in the main building, the attendence building. She looks around and smiles.
"Fine, hurry up."
I nod and walk into my dads office. I run to his desk and go to his spot where he hides the keys. I've done this many of times, after staying here for 2 years every weekend with no one here, you explore things. I feel the keys and grab them. I look up and see Sara looking at all the pictures he has in his office. I walk up to her and rattle the keys. She looks at me and smiles.
"Is that you and your mom?"
I look up at the picture, the pain already filling my heart. I smile and nod, memories of that day flashing by.
"Shes beautiful . . ."
She says. I smile and reply.
"Yea . . . but she doesn't look like that anymore."
I drop my head and feel a pair of hands wrap around my neck. Saras hugging me. She snuggles her face into my neck and I smile. I wrap my arms around her waist. Her arms squeezing my neck. She slowly pulls away and I look at her. She smiles and grabs the keys.
"Lets go."
I nod and start to walk out of the room. We walk down the halls and into the class building. We walk to the elevator, only for the special ed girls, but since I have they key, I can use it. I place the key into the lock and then press the button. The elevator doors open and I smile.
She steps in first and I follow, pressing the last floor, the 8th floor. As we ride, I sway side to side, she laughs at me and pushes my arm. I laugh and the doors open. We step into the hallway and she looks at me.
"What now?"
I grab her hand again and we run down the hall, all the way down till we get to the last door. I turn to her and she reads the sign.
"Penthouse/ Roof."
She eyes me and I smile. I grab the keys and open the door. We walk up the flight of stairs and into the large glass penthouse. I watch Sara walk in, she looks around, her mouth slightly open. They use the penthouse for documents now, they stopped using it as a class because my dad felt it was unsafe for kids.
"Wow."
She says, I walk down to the last door. I whistle and she looks at me. I motion with my head for her to come. She smiles and walks towards me. I grab her hand and lead her up the last flight of stairs. We get to the very last door. I push it open and walk out, her hand still in mines. She steps onto the roof and gasps.
Sara POV:
I look around and see everything. This view overlooks the whole school, and the town. I walk to the ledge and look down. I see the courtyard, I look up to the sky and see the dark gray clouds. I smile and walk back to Tegan. I see a little fort, how did that get up here?
I chuckle as I see her sitting under the little tarp. Theres two bean bags, one black one blue. Shes sitting on the blue. I walk up to her little fort and look in.
"Whats this?"
She pats the bean bag thats next to her and smiles. I sit down and instantly sink into it. I laugh and sit up straight. I look at her and she looks out.
"I made this about a year ago."
She says. I look around and see a small blanket. Wow she really must have been bored.
"You always come up here?"
I ask her and she nods.
"Yea, Its my little get away. I like to come here every weekend. I built it cause I just wanted to relax and watch the clouds. So I brought things from my room and WALLA"
She getures to the little fort and I laugh.
"Its pretty cozy."
I tell her and she nods. We sit there in silence. I watch the sky and feel at peace. She turns over and looks at me.
"Sara, can I ask you something?"
I move closer to her and nod.
"Yea, what is it?"
I reply and she looks down.
"Do you ever feel alone sometimes, like nobody can understand you?"
When she asks me that, I imediatley nod. Im always alone, this is the first time in two years that I have actually spent time with another human being, besides my mum and dad.
"Yea . . . all the time."
She nods and looks at me.
"I used to . . ."
I focus on her face, wating for her to continue.
"Until I met you."
I feel the butterflies in my stomach start to stir. They flap their wings, rising into the pit of my stomach. I slowly start to smile, I feel the exact same way.
"Your the first person who has actually gotten to know me, in just a matter of days. "
She looks back out to the sky and smiles. I look at her face and watch how its glows, her skin sparkling. She turns back to me and smiles.
"I want to thank you for it Sara."
I nod to her and she nods back. She drops her head and plays with her fingers.
"Are you going to winter formal?"
She says, her head still down. I look down at the ground and kick it small pebble. She looks at me and I shrug.
"If someone asks me."
I say honestly. She nods her head and I look back down. I hear the sound of smacking, I look at the roof floor and see the small water droplets, falling, smashing to the ground. I look at Tegan and she smiles.
"Wanna go back to the dorms?"
I nod my head, afraid to get caught in the rain. She stands up and I stand up with her. She runs quickly to the door and opens it. I run and make my way down the stairs. When we get inside the penthouse, we make our way back down the other flight of stairs. We step into the hallway and walk back to the elevator. We ride it in complete silence. When we get to the first floor. She leads us back to her dads office, putting away all the keys. We walk back outside, and into the hallways.
"We have to pass the mud again."
She says. I shake my head and she laughs. We get to the courtyard and she grabs my hand again. We walk across the grass, slipping on the mud, but maintaining out balance. We get onto the steps of our dorm building and quickly run up the stairs and inside.
"This rain is never going to fucking end!"
Tegan POV:
My clothes are wet, my shoes are covered in mud, and my beanies soaked. I look over to Sara and shes laughing at me. I probably look rediculous right now. I start to laugh and we walk to the elevator. When we get to our floor, I step out and head for the kitchen. Sara follows me and sits onto the counter, like the time she caught me with the key to the fridge. I walk to to it and open the doors, I look at the contents and grab the two lunchables. I walk up to Sara and she laughs. She grabs the lunchables and smiles.
"Wanna eat them in my room?"
I nod my head and she jumps off the counter. She walks in front of me. I watch as her hips sway. They move side to side with each step she takes. We stop in front of her door and she walks in, she kicks off her shoes and takes off her jackets. I sit on the bed, taking off my jacket, and tossing it to the floor. I sit back against the wall and look at Sara. Shes looking through her closet. I smile as she turns to me.
"Im gonna change."
She says awkwardly. I sit there and eye her. She moves her head and I realize that shes waiting for me to turn around. I giggle and turn my head. I hear her zipper slide down and I get the urge to look. I catch myself moving my head but whip it back. Suddenly I hear a loud thud. I whip my head around and see Sara on the floor. Shes laughing, covering her face. I start to laugh and get up from the bed. Shes in her bra and underwear, her pajama pants at her ankles. I take in a deep breath and force myself to look at her face, instead of her body. I kneel down and grab her hands, I place them on her chest and shake my head.
"I don't know how that happened."
She says through her giggle fit. I laugh and smile. I extend my hand and she takes it, I help her stand up and she smiles. I smile back then look down, her body. Her creamy beautiful body, pale skin, slight goose bumps, only covered in a black bra and black boyshorts. I place my eyes back to hers and shes staring straight into mines. I gulp and try to contain myself. My breathing becomes difficult and I know she can see it. She looks down and blushes. I keep my eyes on her face and she grabs her elbow.
"Im gonna change."
She says it again, only this time nervously.
As she walks away, I let out a deep breath. I wanted to kiss her so bad, feel her lips massage mines, let my tongue massage hers. I watch her walk back to her closet, and bend down, giving my a full view of her butt. I bite my lip and she brings her pajama pants up her thighs. I look away and walk back to the bed. I sit down and she puts her shirt on. How can I resist? She walks to the bed and sits down. I look down and start to pick at my lunchables. We both eat them in silence, not saying one word. When were finished I grab them and take them to the kitchen, Sara stood in her room. I walk back to Saras room, quickly stepping into my room and changing really quickly. When I get in front of Saras door, she has my ipod in her hand. I get closer to the bed and see that shes traces over the M and T stickers. I mentally curse myself for leaving them there. I sit down on the bed again and toss the blankets over us. Im starting to get comfortable when she finally speaks.
"What do you see in her?"
I look at Sara and shes tracing the M. I look up to her face, she looks blank, like she has no expression at all. I look back to her fingers.
"I . . . don't really know. 2 years of history I guess ."
I tell her and she doesn't do anything, she just keeps tracing the sticker.
"Do you love her?"
Do I love Molly? I've put 2 years of my feeling into her. Does that mean I have to love her? I fiddle with my fingers and shrug.
"I don't know."
Its the truth, I don't know if I love Molly, Im just confused right now, I like Sara, but like I said before, Sara is Sara and Molly Is Molly. I look back up to her and she slowly nods. We sit there in silence, I don't know what to say.
Sara POV:
I keep tracing the M sticker on Tegans ipod. I can't get the words out of my head. "Stay away from her." As if Molly is in the flesh, repeating it. We've been sitting on my bed, silent for about 5 minutes. I don't know what to say or do.
"Have you ever been in love?"
She finally speaks and I turn around to look at her. I look at her face as she looks up at the ceiling.
"No . . ."
She smiles and looks at me.
"It not what everyone says it is."
I eye her and she continues.
"It sucks, someone always gets hurt. . ."
I look down and nod.
"Then why do people say it as the best feeling in the world?"
She drops her head and plays with a loose thread on my blanket.
"Because it is . . . its both. When your in love its both . . . you can hate someone, but still be completely head over hills for them. Someone can hurt you a billion times, but you still crawl back to them . . . because you feel like you don't deserve better. Its both Sara."
Has she felt this way before? She really knows what the feelings like. I watch her pull the thread from my blanket, bunching it up into a little ball.
"Sounds horrible."
I joke and she laughs.
"It is . . ."
We look at eachother and smile. As the days goes by, we wind up in Tegans room, watching movies. Tomorrow all the girls come back, and Monday school starts up again. Right now were walking back to my dorm, were gonna sleep in my bedroom tonight. We get inside my room and she sits down on my bed. Right now its 11:35. I start to yawn and she smiles.
"Sleepy?"
I nod my head and she begans to yawn.
"Yea me too."
I look at my bed and she gets off.
"I'll sleep on the floor."
I turn around and eye her.
"Why?"
She looks down at the floor and puts her hand on the back of her head, playing with her hair.
"Because, you should sleep comfortably."
I look at her and she smiles.
"Thats it?"
I ask her and she nods. She walks to my closet and grabs the extra blanket. I sit down on my bed and she sets the blanket down next to me.
"Im gonna grab my things, I'll be back."
I nod my head and she walks out of the room.
Tegan POV:
I run to my room and sit down on my bed. Last night when I slept with Sara, I had a dream about her, Im not prepared for it tonight. If I do, then I know for sure I'll wind up kissing her. So I told her I would sleep on the floor. She looked pretty shocked, but let it go. I grab my blankets and pillow, walking back to her room. When I get to her door, I see Sara still sitting on her bed, staring down at the blanket. I walk in and smile awkwardly at her. I walk to the bed and reach to grab the blanket. She shakes her head and sighs.
"I'll make your bed, just sit down."
She sounds irritated. Instead on denying, I sit down and watch her. She picks up her blanket and unfolds it, setting it on the floor. Without looking at me, she extends her hand and I give her the two ther blankets. She lays them down, and again extends her hand without looking at me. I sigh and hand her the pillow. She fluffs it, then sets it down on the blankets. She walks to her bed, completely passing me by and climbs under the covers. I look at her as her backs faced towards me. Shes upset, because I won't sleep with her. I sigh and get off of the bed. I turn off the lamp and guide myself down onto the floor. I bundle up under the two blankets, the hard floor already hurting my back. If only she new the reason I couldn't sleep with her, if only she would understand. I turn over on my side and try to close my eyes. I hear a choked sobbed and I turn around. I see Saras back moving. Is she crying? Im making her cry? Did I hurt her? I close my eyes and after 20 minutes of listening to them, they finally die down. I hear her breathing grow steady.
"Im sorry Sara."
Sara POV:
I feel a light tap on my shoulder. I ignore it, but when I feel it again, I open my eyes and look at the wall.
"Sara . . ."
I hear Tegan whisper. I don't know why but Im mad, Im was upset that Tegan didn't want to sleep with me in my bed. I spent a while just crying in my bed, because I thought that I did something wrong, something that I made her feel uncomfortable. Then my crys put me to sleep.
"Sara "
I hear her whisper again and I turn around. I see Tegan, the side of her face lit by the moonlight shinning in through the window. She stares at me and I yawn.
"Tegan?"
She looks at me, then down to the floor, than back up to me.
"Can you walk me to the bathroom.?"
She says embarrassed. I look at her body and notice that shes doing the pee dance, while on her knees. I uncover my body and sit up. She stands up, and so do I. She walks to the door and opens it. I follow her as she slowly walks down the hall. I think its adorable that she woke me up, just to walk her to the bathroom, but Im still curious as to why she won't sleep in my bed. We finally get to the bathroom and I turn the lights on for her. She rushes into a stall and closes the door. Since Im here might as well too. I walk into the stall and quickly do my business. At the same time, we flush the toilets and step out of the stalls. I look down and walk to the sink. I wash my hands, and wait for her. When shes done, I walk away in front of her and she follows. We get to my room and I climb into my bed again, curling myself back up against the wall. I hear the door close, and I close my eyes. Im not asleep though, I feel alone. I feel like I want to just shake her and ask her what I did wrong, but I can't. I stare at the wall for a while. When an hour passes by, and Tegans sound asleep again. I curl into a little ball. I feel alone, I have no heat, Im shaking cold, my blankets not doing me any help. I close my eyes, when suddenly I feel the matress sink. My body dips and I feel warmth. I snuggle into it, then feel an arm wrap around my stomach, lightly laying her palm on top of the t-shirt. I look down, its Tegan, shes in my bed. I smile and no longer feel cold, I don't feel numb, I don't feel alone. She shifts and I feel her breath on my neck. It quickly heats me up too and I sigh. I get comfortable on my pillow when she speaks.
"Im sorry. . ."
She snuggles into me and I start to think again. She new I was upset, she new I couldn't sleep. I wait for her breathing to go steady again, not wanting her to be awake. I rest my hand over hers and smile, closing my eyes,
"Its okay Tegan."
I feel my eyes relax and I fall into a deep sleep. When I wake up, I look down and see Tegans hand, still on my stomach. I bite my lip and smile. I move my body into hers and feel her hands wrap around me tighter and she grunts. I hold back my giggles as she locks her hands around me. I lean my face into my pillow and smile. Suddenly I feel one of her hands slowly make its way under my shirt. My eyes grow wide, and I feel her hand on my stomach. She slowly inches her way up. I freeze, what do I do? Is she awake, no shes still asleep. She starts to whimper and I feel her grab the skin under my rib cage. I feel a shock spasm through my body and my eyes squeeze shut. She whimpers more and then speaks.
"Please Molly, just once asdfghjkl;."
The first four words were clear, shes dreaming about Molly. Flashbacks of them in the shower pass through my mind and I shake them away. The rest of her words were mumbles, and I couldn't make them out. I feel her hand go more up, almost near my breasts. I gasp and quickly turn away, laying flat on my stomach. She opens her eyes quick and looks around the room. I make it seem like im still asleep, my head burried into the pillow. I feel her lay back down and I stay the same way.
"Dammit, not again."
She whispers and I think , this isn't the first time shes had a dream about that. As much as it was wrong, i still can't shake the feeling of her hands roaming my skin. The trails she left are burning into my skin, missing her touch. I don't know why I moved, I should have just let her, its felt different. I feel her weight shift and then the matress, springs back up. I hear her blankets on the floor being messed with. I slowly turn around and pretend like Im shifting in my sleep. I go to the edge of my bed and peek through my squinted eyelids. I see Tegan laying on the floor, her back facing me. I sigh and turn back over. I reach for my phone and press any button, the screen lights up and I see that its barely 7:45. I toss it away and burry my head back into my pillow, trying to find the warmth that Tegan brought to me. I close my eyes and beg my mind to forget what just happened.
Tegan POV:
I did it again, only this time my dream started off with Sara and ended with Molly. I new I shouldn't have slept with her. Although, she did snuggle into me when I did. When I woke up, I went straight to the floor. I've been staring under Lizzys bed for about 30 minutes. Saras still asleep. What am I going to do? This is the second dream I've had about her in a matter of two days. The reason why I crawled into bed last night with her, an hour after she walked me to the bathroom, was becasue I knew she was upset, she probably thinks that Im uncomfortable around her, so I wanted to show her that I wasn't. But again, it turned out bad, because right now, im wet from that dream, this dream was different though. Sara and I were laying in bed, and she just climbed on top of me, and started kissing me, then when I opened my eyes from the kiss, we were both naked. As I was exploring her body, she suddenly turned into Molly, and I don't know I just couldn't help it? It felt so real though, like my hands were really on Mollys body. Then I felt Sara roll over in bed and woke up. I really can't sleep with her anymore, I just can't. I turn over and see Saras back facing me, her body curled up under the blankets. I stare at her, The way her curves slowly fall and rise, matching the beat of her breathing. I'm not sure how long I stayed there watching her without blinking, but when I felt my phone vibrate from its alarm, I new I had to leave. The girls start to arrive back at 9, its 8:20. I sigh and turn on my back. I get up and start to fold up the blankets. I set Saras in her closet and grab my things. Im about to leave her room, my hand already on the door knob, but stop. I turn back around and walk to Saras bed. I look down at her.
"If only you could understand."
I whisper very low, making it impossible for her to hear. I lean down and place a kiss on her shoulder, her only skin, besides her face thats showing. As I kiss her skin, I feel my lips burn, I quickly pull back and look at her shoulder. Her pale skin, her beaitiful pale, milky skin. The image of her in the shower pops into my head and I quickly close my eyes. I feel guilty everytime that happens, I feel like Im stalking her. I take a deep breath and head back to the door, I open it and before I walk out, I whisper to her sleeping form again.
"Good morning Sara."
I exit her dorm, and close the door. I walk down the hall and open my bedroom door. I close it and fall onto my bed.
"God help me."