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Chapter 8: Hormones
Sara POV:
When I woke up, Tegan was gone, her blankets weren't on the floor niether was her pillow. But Lizzy is here, shes laying in her bed asleep, her suitcases near the door. I can hear the girls walking around. I pick up my phone and look at the time 10:36. I sigh and turn on my back. I place my hands on my stomach, I close my eyes, and for that time, I swear they were Tegans. I roam them up my body, squeezing the flesh, I feel that tingly feeling in my thighs come back. I stop when I feel something wierd. I look at lizzy and make sure shes still asleep, I get under the covers and pull down my pajama pants. I feel like I peed? I reach my hands down inside my underwear and feel a warm goo. It can't by my period, I always get cramps before that. I remove my fingers from my panties and place them in front of my face. Its clear, but shiny? Whats wrong with me. I place my hand back in my area and feel around, I suddenly feel a wave of pleasure once I keep rubbing myself. I hear a knock on my door and quickly remove my hand, wiping it on my pants. I pull the covers up and stand up. I walk to the door and open it. I see Ronnie, shes smiling at me. I laugh and move to let her walks into the room and laughs at Lizzy.
"She always sleeps when she gets home."
I nod and walk back to my bed. Whenever I step, and my legs rub together, I keep feeling the goo seeping from between my thighs. I sit down on my bed and get under the covers. Ronnie sits down next to me and smiles.
"So, when did you get back?"
I shake my head and reply.
"I stayed here for the weekend."
She eyes me and speaks.
"You should have told me, I would have taken you with me, I went dress shopping, I found the perfect dress, wanna see it?"
I nod my head and smile.
"Okay, Well I'll show it to you later, but you stayed here all by yourself?"
I think for a second.
"No, Tegan stayed."
She starts to smile and I smile, covering my face.
"You didn't!"
She says. I look at her and shake my head.
"No of course not! She doesn't even like me!"
"True."
I perk my ears up when Ronnie says "True."
"Why true?"
She looks down at the bed, then back to me.
"Well . . . me and Lizz, we were . . . We."
"What Ronnie?"
She sighs and looks at me.
"We thought Tegan did like you, because shes never hung out with anyone, except for Molly. So we asked her if she . . . if she liked you."
My heart starts to race, this is the answer I need. Does Tegan like me? I feel like a desperate teen.
"Well what did she say?"
She looks down and makes a sympathetic face to me.
"She said that your just a really good friend."
I feel my heart slowly break. I can literally hear the sound as it cracks. I feel a tear trying to form in my eye, but I blink it away.
"But its not like you like her anyways right?"
I shake my head and force a smile.
"Just friends."
She smiles and pats my leg.
"So, wanna get some breakfast with me and Lizz?"
I shake my head and again, force a smile.
"No, Im fine. Im just sleepy."
She looks at me and eyes me.
"Are you sure?"
I nod and she smiles weakly. She gets up and walks over to Lizzy. She taps her shoulder and I look down. Tegan doesn't like me. She said I was just a friend. Why would she hold me though? Why would she care so much about me?
Because Sara, your just a friend.
Tegan POV:
Im still laying in bed. I can hear all the girls in the dorm, showing eachother their dresses, some girl even yelled because she got the same dress as another girl. I haven't left my room though, and I have to pee badly. My bladder can only hold so much. I sigh and get out of my bed. I open my door and see all the girls. I roll my eyes and walk out of my room, closing the door and walking down the hall. As im walking, I see Saras door shut. I keep walking and make my way into the bathroom stalls. I do my business and flush the toilet. I walk to the sink and a girl looks at me.
"Tegan?"
I look at her and she looks kinda familiar, but I don't know her.
"Uhh yea?"
She smiles and I eye her.
"Um are you going to winter formal?"
I know where this is going.
"Uh Im not sure to be honest."
She nods and looks down.
"Why?"
She looks back up and shrugs.
"I was going to ask you if you wanted to come with me."
I look down and play with the hair on the back of my head.
"Oh, well im sorry. Im sure that a guy will ask you though, your a very beautiful girl."
She sighs and nods.
"I really am sorry though."
She smiles and looks at me.
"Its okay, thanks for being honest though."
I smile back to her and wash my hands, then walk out of the bathroom. I walk back down the hall, and see Saras door open now. I smile and walk up to it. I see Ronnie, and Lizzy. I knock on the door and they turn around. They smile at me and I smile back. I walk in and notice Ronnies dress, its orange, a shocking orange, it matchs with her hair. I laugh and she smiles.
"It looks good."
She thanks me and I finally turn over to Saras side. Her beds empty, the sheets russled with, and clothes in her closet are scattered. I turn back around and Look at the two girls.
"Wheres Sara?"
They look at eachother and Lizzy shrugs.
"She said she was going for a walk around campus."
I look back to her side but whip my head back when Ronnie continues.
"Its funny though, I asked her if she wanted to join us for breakfast, and she said no cause she was sleepy. Then a couple of minutes later, she was walking out the door, telling me she was going to walk around the campus."
I nod and head back out.
"By the way Ronnie, you did a good job with finding a dress to match your hair."
She chuckles and I walk back to my room. Maybe I'll go down to the courtyard and run into Sara. I get inside my room and quickly change. I throw on my famous beanie, knowing it makes her happy when I wear it. I grab my phone and ipod and walk out of my room. I make my way to the elevator and press the button. As I wait for the elevator, I turn to the side and see the girl, that asked me to winter formal. Shes standing in her dorm, looking at her red dress. I feel bad for being honest with her, but I might just ask Sara to winter formal. Im kinda thinking about it. The elevator doors open, and I step inside. I ride down to the first floor and step out. I walk down the hall, passed the main lounge where girls are studying, and talking. I open the double doors and step outside. The cold air hitting my face. The good thing is that the rain stopped. Its still gloomy though. I walk down the stairs, and look around. The courtyard is pretty empty, except for the athletes, their all walking around, and a couple of regular girls. I make my way across the courtyard and down the halls. Im not exactly looking for Sara, but im hoping to run into her. I get to the cafeteria doors and look inside, as I study ever girls face, I can easily see that none of them are Sara, especially for the fact that shes the only other brunette here. I walk down the hall and think, maybe shes behind the building, where I usually come. I walk to it, and start to smile, thinking shes there. I make my way around the corner, and stop. Shes not here either. I look around and keep walking.
Sara POV:
I got dressed quickly, I needed to get out of that dorm, knowing that she was in the same building as me made me want to cry. And I am, Im crying. Im crying as I walk down the hall, where my first is. Even though she might now be here, I need to talk to someone. The halls are empty, not a girl or adult in sight. The only sound I can hear is the sound of my converse, making their way across the tile. I get to the door and look at the letters.
Miss L History.
I knock on the door and pray, I pray that shes here. Suddenly I hear the knob being played with, and the door opens. I look at Miss L and she looks at me.
"Sara, is their something wrong?"
I nod, tears streaming down. She opens the door and moves to the side, I walk into the classroom and sit down at my seat in front of the class. I hear the sound of her sneakers squeeking against the tile. She walks up to my desk, and takes the seat next to me. I just sit there, staring straight at the wall. She places a hand on my back and I keep crying.
"Sara."
She says. I blink and turn to her.
"Miss L, I need to talk t-to you p-ple-please."
I feel like I can't breathe, my tears won't stop. I don't know why Im acting like this, Its like Tegan not liking me is killing me, and I barely know her.
She nods her hand and rubs my back.
"Just calm down first."
I nod my head and look down. After a couple of minutes, the tears are ending, but still streaming and my breathing feels better.
I look back at the white wall and speak.
"Miss L, I don't know who else to talk to."
She keeps rubbing my back and I see her nod in the corner of my eye.
"Its fine, just take your time."
I look at her and sigh.
"I really like someone. . . and I just found out that."
I choke on my words and she places her other hand on mines. She squeezes it and I speak.
"I found out that they don't like me back. but . . ."
"But what Sara?"
Memories. Tegan holding me in my bed, Tegan bringing me breakfast and dinner, Tegan placing her jacket over me to keep me warm, Tegan waking me up to walk her to the bathroom. Their all Im thinking about.
"But . . . they acted like they did Miss L. I just don't understand."
I feel the tears starting to come back but I fight them away.
"Well Sara, Boys are going to be like that, their young, they don't know."
Instead of correcting her, I just nod. I can't tell her its Tegan, what if she reports me or something. I just listen.
"Sometimes, they can use you, then just move on to another girl. But its nothing worth crying for."
I nod my head and remember this morning.
"Miss L?"
She nods and I look at her.
"I . . ."
"You what Sara?"
How do I say this, do I just tell her about the feeling?
"I get a wierd feeling when Im around uhh . . . him."
She smiles a little and I eye her.
"Like?"
I feel my cheeks go red and I look down.
"I get a tingly feeling between my legs. I try to push it away but it doesn't work."
I look back up to her and she smiles.
"Sara, when your a teenager, and you start to explore the opposite sex, you gonna want to . . . uh express yourself in many different ways."
I eye her and she nods.
"Have you ever?"
I look at her and she pops her eyes really quickly. Have I ever what?
"Huh?"
She chuckles and shakes her head.
"Sex Sara, have you ever had sex."
I start to laugh and shake my head.
"No."
She nods her head and looks at me.
"Good. But Sara . . . thats the feeling between your legs."
She says. I look down at my thighs and then back to her.
"I want to have sex?"
I ask her. She chuckles and nods.
"Yes, well remember your a teenager, many things happen. But that feeling, is a feeling of being . . ."
I look at her and she does the eye pop again. I realize it, Horny. Thats the word shes signaling. My eyes grow wide and she nods.
"Here, Im going to get you something."
She stands up and walks to the door. She turns around and smiles.
"Stay here, I'll be back."
I nod my head and she shuts the door. I sit in her class and look at my thighs again. Tegan, I've only felt that for Tegan, or when shes around. This morning when she was dreaming, and was touching me, I got horny. I shake my head and look down, closing my eyes.
"I want to have sex with Tegan?"
I place my elbows on the desk, and place my hands in my palms. All this time, I thought it was just me, but its been Tegan, I want to have sex with Tegan. I shake my head and hear the door open. I keep my head down, knowing very well that its Miss L. I hear the squeeking of her shoes and then I hear the chair screeching against the floor. She sits down and places her hand on my back. She rubs my back and I lift my head up. She smiles and extends her hand. I look down and see a book. She motions for me to take it and I do. I look at the title.
"Sex, Puberty, and All That Stuff: A Guide to Growing Up?"
I read it out loud and look at her.
"I know, I know, but it really does explain to you how it works. It explains that feeling that your having."
She smiles and I look at the book. I can't believe Im really this curious. She pats my back and I smile.
"Thanks Miss L."
I say low, grabbing the book. She nods and smiles bigger.
"If you ever need someone to talk to, Im here. I may not know everything, but I can try my best to help you."
She giggles and I do too. I stand up and she walks me to the door. I turn around and she embraces me. I stand there awkward at first, but then hug back. She was here to help me, She was the first person I came to when I needed help. I was thankfull for her. I slowly pull away and walk away. I make my way down the hall, looking at the book. I can't let people see me reading this. I turn around and look at the stairs. I look around the empty hallway and open the stair doors. As I climb up the stairs I keep the book to my side. When I finally get to the 8th floor, I catch my breath and keep walking. I get into the middle of the hallway and listen. Pure silence. I place my back against the un -used lockers and slide all the way down. I bring my legs up to my chest and place the book on my thighs. I open it to the first page and let out a deep breath.
"Huhhhhhhh."
Tegan POV:
I looked around the whole courtyard waiting to "Accidentaly" run into her, but I can't find her. I looked everywhere.I literally spent the whole day looking for her, it already nightime. Well its 7:45. Im walking down the hall to the elevator. Im hoping that Sara will be at Dinner, if not, Im gonna go crazy looking for her. Im riding the elevator with 5 girls, their all quiet. One keeps looking at me though, she keeps glancing from me to the floor. She whispers something to her friend and they both giggle. I roll my eyes and wait. The doors open and I rush past her and walk down the hall. As I get outside, its still cold. My app on my iphone said its supposed to storm bad tonight, its gonna start at around 10 tonight. I walk pass the courtyard and into the halls. I keep my head down and hope Saras there. When I get to the cafeteria, I look inside. All blonde, no brown. I sigh and walk in, I grab a tray and get my food, again getting Sara some red jello. I talk to Miss B really quick, asking eachother how are weekend was, then I head to the table,where I see Ronnie and Lizzy. I get to the table and they smile at me.
"Hey Tegan."
I smile back and sit down.
"Whats wrong?"
I look up and they both are staring right at me.
"Uhh nothing, just sleepy."
They both nod and look at their food. I look back down to my tray and stare at the food. I look at the red Jello, as it jiggles everytime some one moves the table, stomps on the ground or passes by. Memories of Sara pass through my mind, the first night I held her, the first time I saw her, now Im going crazy looking for her. Im thinking the worst, Im thinking someone, probably the same girls jumped her again. I look around and focus on the door.
Shes not comming
I turn back around and grab my fork. I stab at my food and eat. I usually like Cafeteria food, but tonight, right now, It just tasted so bland. It didn't satisfy me at all. After a while, I just felt awkward. I told Ronnie and Lizzy that I was going to go back to my dorms. They said okay and I left. Right now im in my dorm. The time is 9:45. Most of the girls have come back, but like usual, the rest of them will come running in when it starts raining. I haven't checked to see if Saras passed by, I haven't thought about anything. Im just staring at my ceiling, finding little pictures out of the sand like paint. I not relaxed, Im stressed, Im not calm, Im nervous. I can hear each girl, walking passed my door, tons of different voices, but none hers. I close my eyes, studying every voice walking by. I feel my body starting to relax, as the sound of thunder starts to roar, the lightening so strong it flashes through my eyelids. I hear the girls voices comming to and end. At 11:30, they stop. Every girl in her dorm. I stand up and change my clothes. I put on my plaid pajamas pants and a band t shirt. I lay back down in my bed and turn on the TV. I sit there and watch the previous movie, the one I watched with Sara. I sigh and watch the screen. In the middle of the movie, my stomach starts to growl. I grunt and get up. I look at my phone, 12:30. I open my door and look out. I look left and I look right. When no ones around, I leave my door open and walk down to the kitchen. I notice the dim lights and stop. I slowly make my way inside and stop again. There she is, sitting on the counter, looking through her phone, her knees up to her chest, a cup of water in her hands. She hasn't looked up or seen me. I scim her body, quickly checking for bruises, nothing.
"Sara?"
She whips her head and looks at me. I walk into the kitchen and her eyes grow wide. She takes her gaze off of me and looks at the floor. Shes acting strange. I walk closer to her and she flinches. I stop and she looks at me.
"Sara are you okay?"
She looks scared, She looks worried. I keep my distance and wait for her to answer.
"Yea, Im fine."
She states, still not looking at me. Why won't she look at me? Shes made because I left her without telling her this morning. I walk up to her and place my hand on her knee. She jumps and I quickly move away.
"Sara!"
She looks at me and drops her head.
"Sara whats wrong?"
She shakes her head and looks at me.
"Nothing . . . I just . . I don't feel good."
I hear her stomach growl and I know what she needs. I walk to the microwave and grab the key. I walk to the fridge and unlock it. I open the door and grab the red jello I saved for her. I close the door and hide it, wanting to suprise her. She keeps her eyes down and I walk up to her. She looks at me, and I bring the small bowl of jello to her face. She smiles weakly and grabs the bowl. I smile and watch her as she takes one of the cubes in her mouth. She looks up to me and I look into her eyes. Their watery, like she wants to cry, I search her face and notice that she does look sad. She blinks and starts to climb off the counter.
"Thanks . . . for the jello."
I don't say anything, why is she crying? Did I offend her? I didn't even say anything wrong. She looks down and walks away. I turn around and see her stop at the doorway. She doesn't turn around, she just stays there.
"Goodnight Tegan."
She walks away and I stare at the spot. Whats wrong with her?
Sara POV:
I sat in that hallway, on the 8th floor, for the whole day, reading the book Miss L gave me. It explained everything, every single one of my questions were answered. Not only did I know that I have a sexual attraction towards her, but Im also in love with her. In the book it said it was a crush, but I know its not. But the reason I cant be around her, or talk to her, is because I know she doesn't feel the same way. When she found me in the kitchen, I didn't know how to react to her presence. I was nervous and scared. Then when she handed me the jello, knowing that I love it, made it worse. Its these things that confuse me, she does things, but tells my friends that Im just a really good friend. I don't understand it. Maybe shes just toying with me cause of Molly, I don't know, Im just confused. I walk into my room and look around. The lights are off, Lizzy sound asleep. Im closing the door, when suddenly its stops in the middle. I look down, theres nothing blocking it. I look on the outside and see Tegan, standing there, her hand on my door. I look down and try to fight the "Horny" feeling away. She walks in and stops, her face inches from mines. I can feel her hot breath on my nose.
"Why were you crying?"
She whispers. I bite my lip and fight it away, I can't. I can't push away the feeling. I can feel myself starting to get wetter, as each breath hits my nose.
"Sara."
I look at Lizzy and shake my head.
"Im fine Tegan, just please go to bed."
I finally look at her and I can see the little crystal tear in her eye. I gulp and she staring at me.
"Tell me whats wrong Sara please, im your friend, please Sara."
When I hear the word friend, I let the tear fall. She grabs my wrist and takes it away from the door handle. I start to cry more. Why is she doing this if she doesn't like me. Suddenly a boom of thunder strikes and I jump. Tegan quickly wraps her arms around me and embraces me tightly. The lightning flashes and I close my eyes, wraping my arms around her. I feel her start to pull me into the hallway. I look up at her and she looks down to me. Our eyes connect, my watery ones to hers. She pulls away from me and walks to my door. She closes it and grabs my hand. She turns around, her body facing me, and begins to slowly walk backwards. With my hand in hers, I have no choice but to let her pull me. As we walk, I look into her eyes, no expresssion on her face, shes just staring at me. We get to her dorm door and she opens it. She lets go of my hand and walks into the room, leaving me standing in the hallway. I see her hand raise, as her palm opens. I hesitate for a second, and she notices. She walks up to me and looks down, she grabs my hand and pulls me into her room. She searches my face, looking at every inch of my skin. I drop my head down and bite my lip, the tears still falling freely from my eyes. Another sound of thunder crashes and I jump, Tegan pulls me to the bed, and I lay down, getting into my usual form, against the wall. She lays down next to me and I look at her. As we lay face to face, Im questioning every move she makes. Why? Why did she hold me when the thunder crashed down, why did she bring me to her room, why did she lay me down in her bed, and why is she looking at me like this. Shes just staring at me, the tears in my eyes still streaming. She snuggles in closer, and I feel the safe bubble me. She moves in closer, and the heat she brings, washes over me. She moves in more, her face centimeters away from mines, and the feeling of me being alone leaves. I look into her eyes and feel her arm, wrap around me. A flash of lightening strikes and I bury my face into her neck. I keep my eyes closed as my body trembles in her hands.
"Im right here Sara . . ."
She repeats into my skin, over and over. Her grip around me gets tighter, as my body shakes more with each roaring thunder.
"Why?"
I finally speak, Why is she doing this. I lift my head up, the tear stains on my cheek. She looks at me confused and I repeat myself.
"Why?"
She pulls me into her more, making my face go back into her neck.
"Because I care about you Sara."
I wanted to feel mad, I wanted to feel upset, but I couldn't, not with her arms around me.
"How much Tegan. . ."
I say, barley even hearing it myself.
"Too much."
I choke on a sob and feel her hands rub my back. How can she do this, how does she have this affect on me? I move my hands from being scrunched up on my chest, inbetween our bodies, and slowly wrap them around her. I lock my hands together and feel her body shake. I sigh in relief. I feel okay again, my crying is slowly stopping. I don't know if what Im feeling is normal, but I just want to stay like this forever.
Tegan POV:
When she asked me why, I didn't have an answer, All I knew was that I was here because I cared about her. And so I told her just that. Then when she asked me how much, I told her the truth , Too much. I don't know whats going on, but Im not going to question it. Sara and I are cuddling, in my bed, just me and her. Im nervous to be honest, but im fighting through it. I know Saras scared of thunderstorms, but thats not why I brought her back to my dorm. I brought her here because when she looked at my in the kitchen, I new I had something to do with it, I didn't need her to tell me, I just new. So in my mind, I had to make it better, I had to make her better. We've been holding eachother for a while now, I don't know if Saras asleep, or if shes awake, but her grip is still tight. I notice that when I stop rubbing her back with my hands, her muscles become tense, so I haven't stopped. I can smell Saras shampoo, Mango. Its helping me stay relaxed. My chins resting on her forhead and her face is buried in my neck. Molly never liked to cuddle, she thought that was "Gay". I don't know how she could not like this, its a great feeling, the feeling of someone needing you.
I hear Saras breathing and remove my face from her hair. I pull back and look at her face. Shes asleep, her face so lifeless. I remove one hand from her body and push back her bangs.
"If only you knew how much I cared, you would never have to ask me again."
I whisper to her, I feel her hand pull me in more and I smile. I place my head back onto hers and kiss her head.I smile and let my eyes close. As I start to drift off Sara starts to stir. I open my eyes and look at her. Shes slightly twitching and shes whimpering. Shes having a nightmare. I wrap my arms around her tighter, letting her know Im right her.
"Sara shhh. Shh."
I sooth her and she starts to calm. Suddenly I feel her nails dig into my skin over the shirt. I open my mouth and let them drag across my skin. I pull away from her and push the bangs from her face again. She goes back into my neck and falls back asleep. I bring my hand up and absentmindly play with her hair. I start to get sleepy again and let my eyes fall again. I start to doze then fall into a peacfull sleep.
When I wake up, Saras still asleep, her body molded comepletely with mines. We haven't moved from this spot at all. I don't know what time it is, but I do know that its morning, because I can see the light making the gray clouds gloom my room. Im starting to hear the girls getting up, walking around, getting ready for school. I just want to stay like this. Another advantage of having my dad the dean, is that I can call out of school, I can even clear Sara for the day, I'll just tell him we got food poisoning from dinner last night, and he'll clear us. So instead of waking up Sara, I let her sleep, just listening to the sound of her breathing. When she finally starts to stir, the girls are already gone, the dorms quiet. She turns around on her back and rubs her eyes. I smile at her and she yawns. She finally opens her eyes and looks at the ceiling. I wait for her to turn over and look at me, when she does, I smile.
"Good Morning."
I bite my lip and she smiles.
"Morning."
I stare at her and look down, her chest slowly rising and falling. I look further down and see her flesh, her shirt bunched up under her breasts. I see her turn over and so shes laying on her side. I look at her and she smiles. She wraps her arms around me again and I snuggle into her.
"Thank you ."
She mumbles. I smile against her skin and squeeze her tight.
"Im sorry."
I can feel her breathing on my chest, her breath making it warm.
"For what?"
She answers. I sigh and rub her back again.
"Its my fault you were sad . . ."
I tell her, not afraid of what she'll say. She sighs and removes her hand from my side, I shutter when I feel her hand on my chest. She slowly outlines my collar bones.
"You don't have to even tell me what I did, I don't wanna know. I just . . . did I make you feel better?"
I pull my head away and look at her. she looks at me and smiles. When she nods I finally smile. She sits up, and I turn on my back. She looks out the window and then back to me.
"What time is it?"
I shrug and grab my phone. I press the screen and see that its 10:15. I show her the phone and she leaps out of the bed.
"Were late, Tegan!"
I laugh and she looks at me.
"Why are you laughing, where late!"
I shake my head and she stares at me.
"I can call my dad, he'll clear it for us, I'll just tell him we got food poisoning last night or something."
She moves her head to the side and I unlock my phone. My finger hovers over the screen, my dads phone number under my thumb. I press it and place it to my ear.
"Tegan Rain, Where the fuck are you!"
I move the phone from my ear and then place it back.
"Dad, Sara and I got food poisoning from dinner last night. We've been up all night, and finally fell asleep."
I prepare for the worst.
"Is Sara okay, Shes had a pretty bad first week here."
I hold back my giggles and reply.
"Yea, shes fine now, her stomachs just sore, I promise we'll go to school tomorrow, but can we just sleep dad? You can even check up on us."
I hear him sigh and then I hear a couple of papers being messed with.
"Look Tegan, last time do you understand. I don't care if you have chicken pox, your not missing anymore. And tell Sara if she needs anything, to come to the nurses office, you too. Now get some rest, you two better be in class tomorrow."
I smile and give a thumbs up to Sara. I see her sigh in relief and I answer my dad.
"I promise, last time. We will. Bye dad."
He hangs up his phone and I toss mines to the bed. I smile at Sara and she walks over to the bed.
"So Im cleared too?"
I nod and she smiles.
"What do we do?"
I smile at all the possibilities. She eyes me and I pat the bed, her usual space. She climbs over me, straddling me for a quick second. I feel a shock shoot to my core and I hold back a moan. She crawls under the blankets and turns to me. I face her and look at her hands, laying on the sheets. She smiles innocently and I bite my lip. Shes beautiful, even when she just wakes up. I smile and speak.
"What are you thinking about right now?"
I ask her, hoping she says the thing Im thinking about most. She starts to blush and I smile bigger.
"I can't tell you. . ."
She giggles and so do I.
"Why not?"
I ask her and she shrugs.
"I'd have to kill you."
I chuckle and she smiles.
"Why, what are you thinking about?"
She asks me, and after the night we just had, I let my fears go.
"About kissing you . . ."
Her face suddenly goes serious. I take a deep breath and she moves in closer to me. I feel my hands start to shake and my body is trembling. I've never been so nervous about a girl being so close to me. She scans my face, her eyes looking at every inch of my skin.
"Then you should kiss me."