Authors Note: Hey everyone, heres chapter 14, the start of some drama, and a mixture of fluff, I hope you like it. Im currently working on chapter 15, and trying to put a big shocker in it for you, so thats, that. Please ENJOY & REVIEW, I love reading reviews, they honestly make my day! Again, ENJOY (:
*Chapter 15 (Hopefully Tomorrow)
Chapter 14: Your My Definition Of Perfect.
Sara POV:
I felt Tegans breathing go steady and I knew she was asleep. I kept my hands in her hair, massaging her scalp. After a while of just hearing her breathing, inhale and exhale, I started to grow tired. With Tegan still between my legs, her head on my chest, asleep, I fall asleep.
When I wake up, Tegans still in the same position as she was when we fell asleep. I look down and smile at her, going back to rubbing her head. I look out of my huge window and notice the darkness, nothing but the moonlight shining in my room, making Tegans body slightly glow. I feel her start to stir and she rubs her face into my stomach. I giggle and she lifts her head up, looking at me through half closed eyes. I smile and push all of her hair out of her face. She has the red lines from my T-shirt on her face. I laugh and she crawls up my body. She hovers her face over mines, then suddenly drops all her weight on me, burring her face into my neck. I laugh and grab at Tegans back, my hands find their way under her shirt and near her bra straps. She groans and I kiss her neck, earning a light whimper from her. I trail my hands down her back and let them rest on her bum. I never felt Tegans bum before, its perfectly shaped and firm. She lifts her head from my neck and attacks my faces with kisses. I giggle as her hair tickles my nose, making me squirm under her. She places a kiss on my lips and I instantly calm. I place my hands into her butt pockets and she smiles, I do to and kiss her teeth. She pulls away and looks at me.
"When did you wake up?"
I smile and turn to look at my alarm clock on my dresser.
"About 5 minutes ago?"
She smiles and attacks my face again, sliding her tongue inside my mouth. I moan and bring one hand up to cup her jaw. She starts to pull away and I wrap both arms around her, not wanting her to leave me just yet. As we bob, our noses sometimes hitting, we giggle. She finally pulls away, and looks at me.
"We gotta stop . . ."
I pout and she smiles.
"4 day weekend remember?"
I groan in frustration. She laughs and places a kiss on my cheek.
"Is your dad home yet?"
I shrug my shoulders and she smiles.
"Okay, well Im gonna go to the bathroom, I'll be right back."
I nod and she climbs off me, and stands up. She walks to my door and opens it, disappearing into the hallway. I smile and place my index finger on my bottom lip, feeling Tegans saliva on them. I turn onto my stomach and look out my window, its dark outside,tomorrow we have to go back to school. I sigh and hear my toilet flush. I giggle and hear the bathroom door open. Her footsteps are light as a feather, making it very hard for me to tell if shes even comming or not. I feel my matress sink, and her hands on my back. Then I feel preasure on my bum. I turn my head around and Tegans straddling my bum, with her hands on my back.
"Wanna massage?"
She smirks, I bite my lip and nod. She giggles and I feel my shirt being pushed up, revealing my back. When her hands come in contact with my skin, I jump. I feel her hands dig into my skin, slowly working my tense muscles. With every dig, I start to relax more. She hits a huge knot and I wince.
"Did I hurt you?"
I shake my head and look back to her.
"Can you just work that kink out for me?"
I see her nod and I smile, placing my head back into my pillow. As she works out that knot, I think about the 4 day weekend, Im spending it all with Tegan, in her room, just us, no interuptions, alone. I smile at all the possibilities, how is she gonna set it all up? Is she gonna slowly seduce me, or is she gonna just get straight to it. I feel her dig into my back and I scream.
"Shit Im sorry, fuck!"
Tegan panicks, I feel her lips come in contact with my skin, slowly kissing the spot. I close my eyes again, forgetting about the pain. I feel her tongue slowly circle the sore spot.
"Is this better?"
She says, I nod and hear her adorable chuckle. I giggle, and feel her tongue go higher, right under my bra stap. She stops, and I feel her teeth, nipping at the straps. I groan and bury my head into the pillow, she smiles against my skin and I feel my bra being lifted up, then it snaps back down. I silently scream into my pillow, biting at it, as her tongue sooths the stinging. She removes her tongue from my back and I whimper. Then I feel her hot breath on my neck. I slowly turn on my back, her body hovering over mines. Her arms are at my shoulders and her hair is falling in her face. I place both of my hands on her lower back and pull her down onto me. She smiles and connects our lips, I let my hands roam under her shirt, this time I bring them around and feel her tight stomach. I feel her moan into my mouth and I move them further up, slowly teasing her. When I stop right below her bra, she moans into my mouth.
"Please."
I lift her cups, and place my palms on her breasts, for the first time. She gasps, and I smile. I never thought pleasing someone would set me off. Her boobs fit perfectly in my palm, making it easy for me to squeeze them. I slowly move my hands in circles and I can feel her nipples hardening under my flesh. I feel her hand roam under my shirt, trailing up to my breasts. When she cups my bare boob, I gasp too, at the feeling. We crash our lips back together, and I feel the familiar wetness in my core. I start to slowly grind myself into her. She shutters and I realize tonight is the night, whether she wants it to be or not, this is gonna happen. None of us can't tear away from one another, we need this. I take both of her nipples between my fingers and pinch them softly. She crys out and kisses my neck. I feel her lips trailing down, over my shirt. She sits up, and I detach my hands from her, letting them fall to my side. She pulls my shirt over my head and I lay back down, my bra messed up and above my boobs. She leans back down, and I stop her. I pull at the hem of her shirt and she smirks. She lifts her hands and I smile, I pull it up and over her head, droping it to my sheets. I look down at her chest, her bra is perfectly in place, her boobs not showing. I lay back down and she leans on me, taking my bottom lip betweem hers, sucking on it hard. I can feel my lip starting to throb and I can't help but thrust my hips into her. She grunts and I smile. I feel her hands again, slowly making their way up to my chest. She trails her lips down and kisses my neck, sucking and nipping. Her hand slowly palms me again, making my back arch into her. I turn my head to the side and moan loud.
"Ohh gooood!"
I feel her lips curl into my skin and she takes my nipple between her fingers and pinches them. I move my hands up to her breasts again, ready to take off her bra.
"Sara, Im home!"
I hear my dads voice and Tegans quickly jerks up. She starts to panick and so do I. I grab my shirt and hand her hers. She climbs off of me and sits down on the bed, quickly putting her shirt on. I put mines on as fast as I can, when I hear his footsteps on the stair case. I look at Tegan and she quickly fixes my bra, puttin my boob back into the cup. I quickly peck her cheek and my door opens.
"Hey kiddo, Tegan, how did today go?"
I try my best to slow down my breathing and I can tell Tegan is too. I smile and nod.
"Good, it went great. I bought everything I need."
He smiles and looks at Tegan.
"And you Tegan?"
Tegan POV:
I keep panting, trying to catch my breath.
"I bought a shirt, and shoes."
He nods and smiles.
"You two okay, seem a little riled up?"
I look at Sara and she smiles.
"No, were fine."
He eyes us, but steps back into the hallway.
"Well, Im gonna be up for a while, You two better pack up tonight, so tomorrow its not a rush."
Sara nods and I smile at him. He closes the door and I look at Sara. She grabs her pillow and covers her face, screaming into it.
"Are you seriouuuuussss!?"
I laugh and crawl next to her. I lay down on my back and she sighs.
"Everytime. . . "
I laugh and grab her hand, lacing it with mines.
"Its better though, in a couple of days okay?"
She nods her head and leans down, placing a kiss on my cheek. When Sara actually touched me, I couldn't help myself, I was ready to do it. If her father would have came home and hour later, Sara would have been dead asleep, tired from our night. The feeling was so new to me, the way she slowly pinched them and palmed them, I couldn't resist anymore.
She sits back up and grabs her phone from the nightstand. She looks at the screen and shows me the time. Its 11:24. I look at her she jumps off the bed. She grabs her bag and starts to bring out her uniform. I eye her and stand up straight.
"Im gonna go put these in the washer really quick."
I nod and she walks out of her room, and down the staircase. As her footsteps fade, I turn around and look at my duffle bag on the floor. I sit up and grab it. I place it on the bed and look throught it. I didn't leave anything out, everythings in here. I zip it up, after grabbing tomorrows clothes and toss my bag under the bed. I realize that I haven't changed yet, I grab my bag again and pull out some pj's and toss the bag back. I stand up and take off my shirt, throwing it to the floor. I put on my new shirt and unbotton my pants. I take them off and put on my pj pants. I lay down in the bed and rub my face into the pillow, smelling Sara all over them. I smile and get under the covers. How can I be so sleepy, when we came home and slept? I shrug it off and let my eyes close. I hear the sound of footsteps and then the sound of Saras creeking door. I listen to her, walking, placing things in there right place. When she finally climbs into bed, I open my eyes. Shes trying her best to get comfortable, so I reach my arm out, and she turns to me, smiling. She wiggles her way under my arm, and places her hands around my stomach, gripping me just right. I smile and look down at her. I feel one of her hands move up my body and stop on my collar bones, lightly stracing the structure of them. I feel my body shiver, and my legs start to shake. Then, she brings her face into my neck, lightly kissing my skin. I bite my lip and silently groan, she new exactly were to touch, kiss, rub, and suck, and it drove me wild. When I feel her tongue no longer on my neck, I look down and she smiles. I lean down and kiss her, a simple peck, for a simple, yet heartthrobing moment. As I pull away, Sara looks down to my hand. I smile when she brings it to her stomach, slowly lifting up her sweater and t-shirt. When my hand comes in contact with her hot skin, my hand trembles. She slowly brings it up, under her clothes, and then I feel her bare breast, no bra, just skin. She puts my hand on her breast, and I look at her. She smiles lightly, and leans down, again, buring her face into my neck. I thought it would have turned heated, but all Sara wanted, was for me to hold her, in a way she has never been held. I move my thumb over her nipple, and feel it stiffen under my touch, I want so badly to moan, but I can't. I rest my head on Saras and take in the smell of her Mango shampoo, driving my nostrils crazy. After a while, of me just laying here, I feel Saras heartbeat on my upper stomach grow steady, shes asleep. I snuggle into her more, never removing my hand from her chest, and let my eyes close.
I felt a small tingle in the pit of my stomach, when I felt something warm touch my skin, I opened my eyes. I looked down and found Sara, planting light kisses on my stomach. I smile and place my hand in her hair. She looks up at me and smiles.
"Morning."
I smile and grab her face, pulling her up gently over mines. She lays her body on mines and I brush away all the loose hair from her face. I lean in and place a gentle kiss on her lips. I feel her smile into the kiss and it sends the dragons in my stomach to a whole different level. She cups my jaw and I pull away, rubbing my cheek into her palm. She smiles and looks into my eyes. As I stare into hers, I see the whole weekend pass by, meeting her father, holding her in bed after she cried over me, almost going all the way with her, just everything. It's like we have known eachother for ever, and were just meeting eachother in person, now. I lean up and brush my nose up against hers.
"Why am I barley meeting you now . . ."
I see her lips curl and she smiles big, then I notice her eyes again, watery. She blinks and one of her tears fall onto my cheek, rolling down and falling to the pillow. She brings her forhead to mines and for that second, I knew exactly what she was thinking, she was thinking the exact same thing. I lean my head to the side and kiss her cheek, slowly caressing it with my lips. I feel her cheeks rise and I know shes smiling, even blushing. I lay my head back down to keep my eyes on hers. Her sparkling hazel orbs, getting lost in them with every blink, her lashes batting, I could look at them all day. I smile and wrap my arms around her waist.
"Im one of those girls . . . "
I look at her and she rests her head on my chest, leaving me wondering, until she speaks again.
"Im one of those girls . . . whos crazy about you."
Memories of girls talking to me, asking me out, the girl from the mall, Molly, girls at school, just all the girls in general pop into my mind. The girls at school were crazy about me, which like I said before, I never new why? I just new that I was the closest thing to a boy.
I place my hand in her hair again and gently smoothen it out.
"Your really crazy about me Sara?"
I feel her nod and I smile, why?
"I don't know why, im not all that . . ."
She lifts her head and and eyes me, shaking her head.
"What did she do to you Tegan ? . . ."
I look down to my chest, slowly rising and falling. Molly, Molly was the girl to mess me up, playing with my feelings, telling me Im no good, yet still needed a release. I don't even know what I saw in her, maybe the way she made me seem a little wanted, by needed me to be inside her, to fuck her. I guess that that just made me so insecure, made me wonder what people even saw in me, why girls even liked me, what they really needed from me.
She sits up and climbs on top of me, straddling my waist. I blink and suddenly I see Sara blurry, then I feel the tear slide down my cheek. She leans down and hovers over my face. I look at her, letting myself slowly fall apart, as she searches my face. I see her eyes, moving, scaning ever inch of my skin. She brings her hand up to my face and pushes my bangs back, out of my face.
"Beautiful."
She kisses my cheek.
"Caring."
She kisses my other cheek.
"Loving."
She kisses my chin.
"Smart."
She kisses my forhead.
"Sweet."
She kisses my nose. She brings her lips over mines and stops. I look into her eyes as she looks into mines. She leans in more and I feel her hot breath on my lips.
"Strong."
She kisses my lips and my eyes break, letting the tears fall freely. She cups my jaw and I wrap my arms around her neck, bringing her as close to me as possible. She brings both of her hands down to my neck, then down to my collar bones. She slowly pulls away and looks at me. She brings her hand to my chest, resting it over my heart.
"Tegan, Im crazy about you . . . because your perfect, maybe not everyone elses definition of perfect, but my definition perfect."
I bring my hand up to her face, she rubs her cheek into my palm. I have never had anyone tell me that before, tell my I was strong, smart, beautiful, or even perfect. Where has Sara been all my life? I trail my hand to the back of her neck and pull her down to me, buring her head into my neck. I feel her moist tongue on my skin and I lean into her, letting her get all of me.
"So perfect for me . . . that I think im in love with you . . ."
I feel my heart race, she really said that. After I don't respond for a couple of seconds, she lifts her head and looks at me, tears now in her eyes. She smiles weakly and bites her lip.
"Am I crazy because of that?"
I can't believe shes in love with me, me Tegan Hart, a girl from a broken home, whos been used her whole life, whos never had anyone love her. She was in love with me.
I let another tear fall and I shake my head, I wrap my arms around her chest and bring her down, our bodies smashing together. She buries her head into my neck and I can hear the quiet, hushed sobs escaping her mouth. I place a kiss on the bottom of her ear, then trail my lips to her neck, slowly carressing each spot. She turns her face into me and kisses me, her tongue making mines weak. She pulls away and smiles.
"Don't ever think your not good enough Tee, you are."
I smile and she bring her hands up to my cheeks, using her thumbs to wipe away all my tears. She smiles and leans down, placing two kisses on my cheeks. I smile and she leans back up.
"God, I hate crying!"
She laughs, I laugh with her, and place my hands on her stomach, under her shirt. I feel her warm belly, her soft skin, the small hairs. I rub my hands to her back and bring her down, I take a grip on her back, and flip us over, so Im on her, and shes on her back. She smiles and I lift her thigh, placing it around my waist. She brings my head down and connects our forheads.
"So I guess I can say I love you now. . ."
I smile at the words, letting them wash over me. She connects our lips, I deepen the kiss, taking her tongue, massaging it gently, making sure she feels my feelings for her. To be honest, Im crazy about Sara, shes the first girl that I have ever felt like this with, was I in love with her? Possibly. Was I crazy over her? Definitely. Was I ready to love her? Yes.
She pulls away and smiles.
"Maybe we should get packing, we have to leave in a little while."
I look at her alarm clock and my eyes grow wide, its 2:30, we have to be at school by 3:30. I nod my head and place a sweet kiss on her nose, she smiles and rubs her nose against mines, the sweetest of eskimo kisses. I climb off of her and she sits up, grabing my hand.
"I ment all of it Tegan ."
I smile and bring her hand to my lips, placing a kiss on her palm. I look down to her palm and close her fist, as if she was holding something I didn't want her to lose, and place her hand on her lap. She smiles and I lean in, kissing her cheek.
"Thank you ."
I pull away and she smiles weakly, I know she needs me to say those words back to her, but Im not exactly ready to admit anything yet. She gets off the bed and walks to her closet, grabbing her duffle bag and setting it on the bed. I sit down on the edge and watch her, as she collects her clothes, placing her clean uniforms into her bag. She smiles at me everytime she turns around, and it makes my heart flutter, eachtime. She walks out of her room really quickly, and I look down, her bag filled with all her things. When I hear her footsteps again, I smile. She walks into the room and closes the door, locking it. She walks to the bag and drops her bodywashs' shampoos, and other important things into her bag. She zips it up and smiles at me.
"Want me to help you pack up?"
I shake my head and open my arms, just wanting her to hold me, to love me.
"I packed last night, when you went to put your clothes in the washer."
She smiles and grabs her bag, dropping it to the floor. She climbs on the bed and lays down on top of me, resting her head on my shoulder. I smile and bring my hands around her body, locking my fingers together at her back. She snuggles into me and places her hands on my hips. I feel the my shirt being lifted slowly and then I feel her fingers, tracing little figures into my skin. I lean down and place a kiss on her head. We lay there, just like that, for about 10 minutes, until I hear my phone ring. I sigh and Sara looks at me, grabbing my phone from the sheets and handing it to me. I look at the screen and see the picture of my mother and father. I press the answer button and bring the phone up to my ear.
"Hello?"
"Tegan, you on your way back already?"
I roll my eyes and bring my hand up to my temples, slowly rubbing them.
"Not yet dad, I'll be there by 3:30."
"Well, Tegan, theres . . . something I wanna talk to you about when you get back, nothing bad, just a little talk."
I sit up slowly, letting Sara sit up too and look down.
"About what dad?"
I can hear him sigh and it makes me wonder, did something happen.
"About me and Lucy."
I groan at the mention of my dads new girlfriend. I look at Sara and she shakes her head, asking me what happened, I shrug my shoulders and she nods.
"So come to my office when you get here, and we'll talk. I uhh . . . love you ."
I hang up my phone and drop it onto my lap.
"What happened?"
I look at Sara and shrug.
"My dad wants to talk to me about him and Lucy, his new girlfriend I told you about a while back?"
She nods her head and I do too.
"About what though?"
I shrug my shoulders and she gets up off the bed. She walks out of her room and down the hall. I lay my body back down on the bed, what is he gonna tell me? I rub my eyes and pray that its nothing big, I pray that he tells me that he's leaving her to go back to mom, and fix her up again. I hear light footsteps again, and I look towards the door. Sara walks in and closes her door.
"I told my dad to take us now, so lets just change and we can leave."
I nod my head and sit up, I grab my clothes from the nightstand and set them on the bed. I take off my shirt and drop it to the floor.
"Please don't let her be pregnant . . ."
Sara POV:
Right now were driving back to school, Tegan in the front, me in the back. The car ride has been pretty silent so far, except for the sound of my dads heavy breathing. When we finally pull up to our school, we see all the girls, getting dropped off by parents, or the school buses, their dresses in hand, suitcases next to them. My dad parks the car and looks at us.
"Ready?"
I nod and he smiles. He opens his door and I open mine. We all get out of the car and head to the trunk, grabbing our duffle bags, my dress, Tegans bags, and her new things. My dad closes the trunk and smiles at me.
"Are you sure you have everything you two?"
We look down to our hands and check everything.
"Mmmhm."
He nods and pulls me into a hug.
"I love you kiddo, I'll call you."
He pulls away and looks at Tegan. She brings her hand up and my dad shakes it.
"Nice meeting you Tegan, like I said, your welcome anytime on the weekends."
"Thanks ."
He nods and pats our shoulders, then walks back to his car. I watch my dad as he pulls out of his parking spot, and drives away. I turn and look at my school, I sigh and then look to Tegan. She smiles weakly and reaches for my hand, I smile and take it in mines, lacing our fingers together. We walk into the school and walk down the halls, all the girls, the same looks. I cling close to Tegan and we get outside to the courtyard, we walk over the slightly muddy field and get to our dorm building. We walk inside and head to the elevator, I look to my left and see all the girls in the lounge looking at us. I rest my head on her shoulder and she rubs it with her jaw.
"You okay?"
I shake my head and close my eyes.
"Their staring at us. . ."
I feel Tegans head whip to the side and I open my eyes, looking with her.
"Can we help you with something?!"
She yells at them, the girls all shake their heads and start to mumble things. The elevator doors open and I pull Tegan in. She stumbles and I catch her, wanting to get out of this situation fast. I press our floor button and look at Tegan.
"Sorry, I just couldn't . . ."
She nods and places a kiss on my forhead.
"You don't have to explain, Either way, I wasn't gonna let them stare."
She chuckles and I smile, I kiss her cheek and look forward. The doors open and I step into the crowded hallway, the one place where girls were to busy to even notice us holding hands. I smile and look at Tegan.
"Wanna go put our stuff away, then we can just hang out in either dorm?"
I ask her, she nods and kisses my cheek.
"Ill meet you back in your dorm."
I nod and detach our hands, and watch her as she walks to her dorm. She opens her door and enters her room, closing the door behind her. I sigh and walk down to my dorm, passing all the girls. I see my dorm door open and I smile, Lizzys here. I get to my doorway and see Ronnie and Lizzy, sitting on the bed, talking.
"Hey guys."
They both look at me and smile.
"Sara, you got your dress?!"
Lizzy stands up and smiles, Ronnie slowly gets off the bed and smiles.
"Can we see?"
I step into my room, and close the door behind me. I nod and walk to my bed, placing eveything down on it. The girls walk to my bed and nudge me.
"So how was your weekend with Tegan?"
I bite my lip and smile.
"Perfect, we went shopping, slept together in my bed, it was just . . . perfect."
I look at both of them and they smile.
"Thats so sweet, was she there when you picked out your dress?"
Lizzy asks, I nod and reach for my dress.
"Wanna see it on the hanger or on me?"
They smile excitedly and laugh.
"On you! Need our help?"
I nod and began to take off my jacket. After I strip down to only my underwear and bra, I grab the dress and take it out of the white bag. I hear them gasp and I look at them.
"What?"
"Sara, its so beautiful, hurry, put it on!"
I laugh and unzip the dress, I put my legs in first and pull it up my body gently.
"Can one of you zip me up?"
I feel a pair of hands go to my back, then the sound of the zipper being pulled up. Lizzy taps my shoulder and I turn around.
"Oh my god . . . Sara."
I smile and remember Tegan.
"Tegan said the same thing, is it really that pretty?"
They both nod and I smile.
"Oh, I bought some heels, hold on."
I turn around and grab my shoe bag. I take out the box and grab the heels, I place them on the floor and step into them. I grab my dress, lifting it up a little and turn around.
"Cute?"
They both smile and look at my whole get up.
"Sara, you look amazing, what about your hair and make-up?"
I reach back and grab the little bag with my necklace and make-up, I hand it to Lizzy and she looks inside.
"Oh, your definitely going to look pretty, look Ronnie."
Lizzy shows off my things to Ronnie and Ronnie nods.
"Yea, your going to look great, on wednesday night, we should try out our make-up, you know have a girls night?"
I smile and nod.
"Yea, I was gonna ask you anyways, how should I do my hair?"
Lizzy looks at me and smiles.
"Im thinking, curled, but pinned back, maybe the side hairs slightly curled but down."
I picture it in my head, my whole outfit, I nod and smile excitedly. I hear a knock on the door and Ronnie walks to it. She opens the door and smiles, moving to the side. Tegan walks in and stops, looking at me.
"Ohh god."
Tegan whispers again and they start to aww, I laugh and Tegan walks towards me. She wraps her arms around my waist and rests her forhead to mines.
"You look beautiful babe."
My stomach flutters when I hear my nickname. I smile and rub my nose against hers. She places a peck on my lips and looks at Ronnie and Lizzy.
"Hey guys."
They nod and tell her hi back. I turn back around and take off my heels, placing them back in the shoe box. Tegan sits down on my bed, and I turn around, signaling for her to unzip my dress. I feel her hands on my back, then feel the zipper being pulled down. My dress becomes loose and I turn around, facing Tegan. She grabs the sides, and pulls it down, I step out of my dress and Tegan zips it back up, placing it on the special hanger,and into the white bag. I put my shoe box under my bed and stand back up, grabbing my t-shirt.
"I was thinking, would you come with me to talk to my dad?"
I pull my shirt over my head and nod.
"Yea, will he let me though?"
She looks down and shrugs.
"If he doesn't could you wait outside for me?"
I nod my head and grab my pants. I step into them and pull them up, buttoning and zipping them up. I sit down on my bed next to her, and grab my shoes and socks.
"So Tegan, you think Saras gonna get all the guys the night of the dance?"
Lizzy says, I look at Tegan and she shakes her head.
"I know she is, but if they get to touchy, I'm gonna have to lock her inside my room, with me forever."
They laugh and I sit up, smiling at her.
"Thats not a bad idea ."
I smirk and Tegan does too, leaning in and kissing me. I cup her jaw and feel her hand on my neck, lightly griping it. She pulls away and I smile.
"It isn't."
She gives me one last peck and I go back to putting on my last shoe. She stands up and so do I. I look at Lizzy and Ronnie, I smile at them and speak.
"Im gonna go with Tegan really quick, I'll be back."
They nod and Tegan walks to the door, opening it for me. I step out into the hallway and she closes the door. We make our way to the elevator and press the button. I turn to look at Tegan, shes nervous, because shes playing with her labret. I take her hand in mines and she smiles, looking at the ground. I smile and the elevator doors open. We ride down with 3 other girls and stop at the first floor. We get off and walk to the doors, Tegan opens them for me and we walk past the courtyard and into the halls. I cling to her again and she wraps her arm around my shoulder. I feel like those girls in movies, the popular boyfriend, with his arm on her shoulder, cockily smiling, showing everyone what hes got, and it makes me smile, beacuse I love that feeling. We get into the main building and keep walking through the halls, I see the girls but ignore their faces, just focusing on Tegan and I. We get to her dads office, and she removes her arm from my shoulder.
"Im gonna be right here, okay?"
I remind her, she starts to play with her labret again and nods. I grab her jacket and look around,making sure no teachers or staff are around, when the cost is clear, I place a simple peck on her lips, and let her go.
Tegan POV:
I grab the handle and slowly open the door, I step inside, keeping my eyes to the ground. When they doors closes, I look up and groan. I see Lucy sitting on my dads desk, talking to him, and kissing him. I grab the door handle again, and open it a little, slamming it shut again. He looks at me, and pushes Lucys hands away. He motions for me to come and sit down. I slowly make my way to the seat, sitting down and looking at the ground.
"Tegan . . . look at me."
I keep my head down and look up.
"Tegan, listen to your father."
I look at Lucy and scoff.
"Your not my mom, you don't tell me what the fuck to do."
"TEGAN! APOLOGIZE RIGHT NOW!"
My dad yells, I shake my head and drop my head back down.
"Tegan, you make things so difficult, so Im just gonna come out and say it, Lucy and I are getting married."
My eyes grow wide and I shake my head.
"No . . ."
"Excuse me?"
I stand up and look at Lucy.
"Your not getting married!"
I say through clenched teeth. My dad stands up and looks at me.
"Tegan, that isn't your decision, were getting married, and I would love for my daughter to be happy and accept that."
"Accept it? Dad why can't you see that she doesn't even love you! If she did she wouldn't have cheated on you, fucking bit-"
"TEGAN!"
I jump back and hear the doors open. We all turn around and I see Sara. Half of her body is in the room, she looks at me and I look at her.
"Tegan? Is everything okay?"
I look at my dad and shake my head.
"If you marry her, your choosing her over me, your own daughter."
He backs up and realizes what I just said, I look at Lucy and she looks down. I turn around and walk back to the door. Sara looks at me and I feel my eyes start to water. I grab her hand and turn around, looking straight into his eyes.
"Sometimes I wish you would care about me . . ."
I open the door wider and step out, taking Sara with me. I lead us down the hall, going into the class building, as we walk the empty hallways, she doesn't speak, nowing I need her not to, I just need her to follow me. We climb up the 8 flight of stairs, and walk to the end of the hallway. I get to the penthouse door and realize that I don't have the key to go to the roof.I slam my fist into the door and breakdown, falling to the ground. I feel Sara wrap her arms around me, pulling my body into her. I cling onto her shirt and cry, I cry into her neck, letting her feel my tears on her flesh.
I feel her drag me to the wall, where shes rest her body against the lockers, she places her hands in my hair and rocks me back and forth.
"Shh Im here, Im right here."
I hear the words, and break down more. She wraps her arms around me tighter and brings her mouth to my ear.
"Shhh baby, tell me what happened."
I shake my head just thinking about it.
"He wants to marry her- that fucking bitch."
I start to choke on my breaths and Sara kisses my cheek.
"Breathe Tegan, Breathe for me."
I catch my breath and bury my head back into her neck. After holding me for 10 minutes, my crys start to die down, but her hold never does, she kisses my cheek every second, letting me know shes right here. I turn my head up and look at her, shes looking down at me, my head now in her lap. She brings her hand up to my face and cleans all the tears from my cheek.
"Better?"
She asks, I nod and wrap my arms around her neck, bringing her down into a hug. Shes always here for me, when no one else is, she always knows what to say and what to do to help me, she knows the right amount of talking, she knows everything. I cling to her and she kisses my neck.
"I just need you to hold me. . ."
I whisper, she nods and hugs me tighter. I bury my head in her shoulder and take in her scent, the smell of Mango slightly calming me. I feel my muscles start to relax and the tears starting to finally end fully. She kisses my neck and I snuggle into her, I feel my hand start to throb and I unwrap it from her neck. She lifts her head and I bring my hand between us, the blood slowly dripping down my knuckles, some even on her shirt from me balling my fist in the material. She grabs my hand and looks at it, she takes off her jacket and moves me, grabing the hem of her shirt. She pulls it over her head, and drops it onto her lap. I see her shiver amd wonder what shes doing, she grabs her jacket again and puts it on, zipping it all the way up. She grabs the shirt and pulls me back into her. She wraps my hand up with her shirt and she looks at me and I start to sit up.
"Lets get you to the nurses office."
I look down and see the blood starting to show throught her shirt. I nod and she stands up, grabbing my arms and helping me up. She holds me up with one arm on my waist, and one holding the material around my hand. She opens the door and we walk back downstairs. When we get to the last floor, She opens the door and I walk out, into the empty hallway. She holds me again and we keep walking. We get to the nurses office and she opens the door for me, letting me go in first. I wait for her and she steps in, she sets me down on the bench and walks behind the counter. I lay my head back and bring my hand up, unwraping the cloth, I see the fresh blood running down my hand, I sigh and wrap it back up. Sara comes back with a lady, the woman smiles at me, and Sara points to my hand.
"Unwrap it hunny."
The woman tells me, I extend my hand and Sara gently grabs my arm and slowly unwraps the cloth. The woman winces and nods.
"Come with me."
Sara helps me up and leads me to the backroom. She sets me down on the metal bed and I look around, plain white walls, health posters everywhere. I look at Sara as she stands right next to me.
"So how did this happen?"
The lady walks up to me and starts to take off Saras shirt. I look at Sara and she already knows.
"She was playing around and accidently hit the wall Miss Meggie."
The lady examines it and sighs.
"Its not broken or sprained, but I am going to have to wrap it, and clean up the cuts."
I nod and Sara places her hand on my back, slolwy rubbing soothing circles into it.
"Miss Meggie, do you need some help?"
Sara asks her, Miss Meggie smiles and nods.
Sara smiles and looks at me.
"I'll be right back."
I nod and she walks with the woman, talking to her. I lay my body down on the cold metal, making me jump. How could my father love her, or even think that for a second she loves him back? Shes cheated on him, and he always begs her to come back to him, and she does. I know its because my dad has money too, my dad makes good money, and he buys her anything she wants. She doesn't love him, Its not because I think him and my mom are gonna magically get back together, I just know that Lucy doesn't love my dad. Thats why Im so angry, she thinks she my mom too, like she had me.
I hear mumbles and I look at the door, I see Miss Meggie and Sara talking, Saras holding everything. They walk to me, and I sit back up.
"Are you sure you know how to do this Sara?"
Sara nods to Miss Meggie and Miss Meggie smiles.
"Well Im in the other room if you need me."
Sara nods and looks at me. She sets the stuff down on the table bed and Miss Meggie walks out of the room. I look at Sara and she grabs my hand gently. She unwraps my hand and sets it down on my lap.
"You okay?"
I sigh and shake my head.
"No, but I'll live right. . . "
She grabs a jar filled with cotton balls, then grabs the little empty bowl and walks to the sink, pouring water into it. She walks back and grabs a couple of cotton balls. She places them in the water, letting them soak, then takes them out.
"This might sting."
She places a cotton ball on the first knuckle and I wince, she leans down and dabs at it, softly blowing on it trying to sooth me. I clench my teeth and she goes on to the next knuckle. I wince, every single knuckle hurting. When the cuts are all cleaned, with fresh band aids on them Sara smiles, grabbing the wrap. I hold out my hand and she begans to wrap up my hand.
"Tegan, you like to hit walls huh?"
I chuckle at the memory of her trying to help me, the day I socked the wall, and she wanted to fix it. I nod my head and look down.
"Its a different type of therapy, yea."
She laughs and shakes her head.
"Well, now you can just talk about it . . . to me. No more hitting walls, no more storming off, please?"
She lifts my head with her finger under my chin and looks me in the eye.
"Okay?"
I nod my head and she smiles.
"Good, now is it too tight?"
I look at my hand and wiggle it around, wincing at the soreness.
"No, its perfect."
She smiles and I lean my head onto her chest, Im so tired, Im tired of being tired. She places her hands in my hair and massages my scalp.
"Wanna stay with me tonight?"
I nod into her chest and she kisses my scalp.
"Okay, ready?"
I lift my head up and nod.
"Yea, thank you ."
I lean in and kiss her lips, she cups my jaw and pulls away.
"Your welcome, now lets get you out of here, these health posters are too colorful."
I laugh and she helps me off of the metal bed. She walks in front of me and I follow her through the hall, leading to the office. She tosses away the trash and leans on the counter and looks at Miss Meggie, whos sitting her desk, back facing us.
"Miss Meggie, were gonna go now."
Miss Meggie turns around and stand up, walking towards us.
"Let me see your hand."
I extend my hand across the counter and she looks it over.
"Good job Sara, maybe you should be a nurse."
I laugh and feel the urge to kiss her, but remember who were in front of. I retract my hand and look at Sara.
"I am pretty good huh?"
I giggle and watch her smile.
"Okay well remember to clean the cuts, and if you need a new wrap, come here and I'll give you another one."
I nod and Sara waves at Miss Meggie.
"Thank you."
"No problem, bye Sara."
I push open the door with my back and Sara walks out. I walk next to her and nudge her.
"Your best friends with the school nurse?"
She nods and giggles.
"No, when I was in here that whole day, because of that fight, she kept me company. Shes really sweet, really she is."
I smile and giggle, she was so adorable. We get to the outside halls and Sara starts to shiver, the temperature freezing her. I wrap my arm around her, pulling her underneath my arm. She snuggles into me and we walk down the hall, across the courtyard, and into the dorm building. We walk to the elevator and press the button.
We ride to our floor and head down the hall to my room. We get into my dorm and I grab my cell phone, charger, and my keys. We head back out and go down to Saras room. She opens the door and walks in.
"Where have you two been, dinner passed an hour ago?"
I step in the room and close the door.
"Sorry, It was my fault, I held Sara up."
They both look at eachother and smirk. Sara shakes her head and lays down.
"No, not that way, we were just busy."
They both nod and Lizzy smiles.
"I saved you two our jellos?"
Sara looks at Lizzy and smiles.
"You did?"
Lizzy nods and walks to her nightstand, grabbing the two bowls. Sara smiles bigger and starts to clap. I walk to her bed and lay down. Saras on her back, I place my head on her chest, and she wraps her arm around my neck. Lizzy hands her one bowl and she places it on her chest. I smile as she grabs a red cube, biting a piece of it. She takes the other piece and holds it out to me. I open my mouth and she places it on my tongue. As shes about to take her hands out, I close my mouth and suck on her fingers, earning a cute smile, and lip bite from her. She wiggles them out, and kisses my forhead.
"More?"
I nod my head and she smiles. She feeds me jello cube after jello cube, making sure that I get most of them.
"Tegan, what are you going to wear to winter formal?"
I hear Ronnies voice and I turn around looking at her.
"Just a button up, and some black pants, and these new shoes Sara bought me."
I snuggle back into her chest and smile.
"You two are gonna look cute, are you gonna take pictures?"
Sara nods and looks down at me.
"Were taking pictures right?"
She giggles and I laugh, nodding to her.
"Of course, my treat. Hey what time is it?"
Sara looks at the girls and they answer.
"10:20, wow time went quick, I better go, before Amy has a bitch fit."
Ronnie stands up and walks to the door.
"See you tomorrow."
We all say bye and I look at Lizzy.
"Lizz do you mind if I sleep over with Sara, we won't do anything I promise?"
Lizzy smiles and starts to laugh.
"Tegan, as long as you two don't fuck while im in the room, its fine with me."
I laugh and turn to Sara.
"Well then we should just go to my room."
Sara laughs and sits up.
"Wanna change into some pj's?"
I nod and she crawls off the bed and stands up, walking to her closet. She looks through her drawers and pulls out some clothes. She sets them on the bed and walks over to me.
"I'll be right back, Im gonna brush my teeth."
Lizzy grabs her things and walks out of the room, closing the door behind her. Sara turns to me and I turn to her. She unzips my jacket and pulls it off gently, trying not to hurt my hand. She places my jacket on the edge of her bed and reaches for my shirt, she pulls it up and over my head, letting it fall to the floor. She grabs a white t-shirt and opens up the wholes, I place my head through the hole and put my arms in. She fixes it, pulling down. Then she lifts up my shirt, and reaches her arms around my back, undoing my bra. The clasps pop and the straps fall from my arms. I pull the straps down and she grabs my bra, pulling it out from under my shirt. She puts it on my jacket and stands up. I stand up with her, and she unbuttons my pants, then pulls down my zipper, I try my best to help her, but she says no. She pulls down my pants, and I step out of them. She grabs the pair of pj pants and places them on the floor. I step into them and she brings them up to my waist. I smile and she does to.
"Im gonna change now."
I nod my head and sit down on the bed, looking at my wraped hand. I sigh, today went from great to horrible, then to okay. I look at Sara as she changes, her smooth milky skin showing, in nothing but a bra and underwear. She puts a pair of shorts on, and a plain v neck. She walks to the nightstand and plugs in her cell phone.
"Oh can I charge mines too?"
She nods and extends her hand. I hand her my charger, and she bends down, pluggin it into the wall. I hand her my phone and she plugs them in. The door opens and In walks Lizzy, she smiles at us and puts her things away.
"Some girl is crying in the bathroom,shes locked up in a stall?"
I look at Sara and she looks at me.
"Who?"
Sara asks, Lizzy shrugs and lays down in her bed.
"But its pretty bad, I tried helping."
Sara walks to the door and opens it.
"Im gonna check, maybe she might be hurt, I'll be back."
I nod my head and she walks out of the door.
Sara POV:
I close my door and walk down the empty hall. Not a sound to hear, except for my light footsteps, hitting the thick carpet. I get closer to the bathrooms, and hear a little sob. I walk in and look under the stalls. I make my way to the second one, I lightly tap on the stall, and the girl speaks.
"Go away!"
I sigh and walk to the next stall, her cries getting worse by the second. I step on the toilet and look over the stall, my eyes grow wide. Its Tegans friend Charlie. Shes in her pajamas, just crying into her knees.
"Umm, are you okay?"
She looks back to the door and I clear my throat, she looks up and shakes her head.
"No . . ."
"I think I know someone that you can talk to."
I climb off the toilet and walk out of the stall, I exit the bathroom and walk down the hall. I open my dorm door, and look towards my side, where Tegans sitting, waiting for me.
"Tegan come here."
She looks confused, but gets up and walks to me.
"What happened?"
I grab her other hand and lead her out the door, I close my door and lead us down to the bathroom. When she gets into the bathroom, I take her to the stall, and she looks at me.
"Look over."
She eyes me, then walks to the toilet, she gets on the bowl and looks over the stall.
"Charlie!"
She freezes and I hear Charlie Whimper.
"Tegan . . ."
Tegan quickly gets off the bowl and walks to the stall, knocking. The door opens and she rushes in, quickly kneeling in front of Charlie.
"Charlie whats wrong?"
I start to make my way to the counter, giving them some alone time, but feel Tegan grab my wrist.
"Stay, please?"
I nod my head and make my way into the crowded stall, putting the toilet seat down and sitting on it. Charlie suddenly clings to Tegan and starts to cry harder into her. Its in my nature to comfort someone, even if I don't know them. I bring my hand to her back and rub soothing circles into her back. Charlie lifts her head and looks at Tegan.
"Pau- Paulie ended i-it . . ."
Tegan rocks her back and forth and I keep rubbing circles into her back. I look at Tegan and she looks at me, she sighs and Charlie sits up. She goes back to the stall wall and shakes her head.
"Why?"
I see Charlies fist clench and she looks straight down.
"Molly. . ."
I look down and picture what she could have done, all the possibilities. Tegans brings her hand to her mouth and shakes her head.
"What did she do?"
Charlie looks up and smiles weakly.
"Paulies not like the other girls Tee . . . shes gay."
I look at Tegan and she looks shocked, then I remember. Only the butch's were gay, Molly and the girls weren't. Tegan looks at me and I make a shocked face, just realizing.
"Then whats wrong?"
I look at Charlie and she has her cries finally under control.
"At the dance, some guy asked her, and she said yes. Of course it hurt me, but it's the deal right?"
Tegan nods and I look Tegan, wondering if she ever felt that way.
"Well, this weekend, we were texting and she said she didn't want to go with him, she wanted to go with me, as my date."
Charlie looks at me and I look into her eyes, shes really hurt, shes in actual pain.
"But when she told Molly today, that she was going with me, and not that guy, Molly got mad at her, telling her she had a date, she didn't need some fucking dyke."
I shake my head and look at Charlie. I climb off the toilet and sit next to Tegan.
"So Molly gave Paulie a choice, stay with the girls and go with the guys, or leave them and stay with me."
Tegan looks at me and I can see the anger in her eyes. I pat her back and look at Charlie.
"And she chose them?"
I ask her quietly, already knowing. She nods her head and I can't take it. I lean in and wrap my arms around her, when I feel her hug me back, I smile.
"Shes just confused . . . give her some time."
She shakes her head and looks down, pulling away.
"As long as Mollys with her, thats her answer."
I look at Tegan and she sighs. I grab her hand and lace it with mines, letting her know Im here to help is she needs me.
"Your together?"
Charlie says, I look up and Tegan does to. I fear this, I fear her answer. I see her smile at our hands and nod.
"Yea, shes my girlfriend."
Charlie looks up at me and smiles weakly.
"Your okay with everyone knowing? Your not ashamed?"
I look at Tegan and smile weakly.
"I could care less, shes what I want, why should I be ashamed."
I hear Charlie sob and I look back at her.
"I wish Paulie thought like that . . ."
I sigh and drop my head, I wish she did too, its obvious that Charlie is in love with her, and from what she just said, so is Paulie.
"Hey, stay with us tonight Char, then in the morning you can borrow some of my clothes."
I look at Tegan and she bites her lip.
"Her and Paulie room together, I don't think she'll want to see her."
I nod and look at Charlie.
"Yea, stay with us, I know I don't know you well, but Im here to help."
She looks at me and smiles.
"Thanks, I really appreciate your help, and that you brang Tegan."
I nod and Charlie looks at Tegan.
"What about my things? I need my backpack and phone?"
"I can get them for you?"
I volunteer and she nods. I smile and Tegan stands up, she helps me up, and Charlie stands up. Tegans gives Charlie and Hug and pats her back.
"It'll be fine, she'll come to her senses about Molly and you."
Charlie nods and pulls away. She smiles at me and hugs me tightly, I hug her back and she whispers in my ear.
"Thank you . . . so much."
I pat her back and she pulls away. Tegan grabs my hand and we walk out of the stall.
"So wanna go to my room instead then, so she can sleep on the bed, and we can sleep on the floor?"
I nod my head and look at Charlie.
"Come on."
I lead us out of the bathroom and to my room first. I open my door and tell them to wait out here, I grab our cell phones and chargers, and close the door. We walk back to Tegans room and she opens the door. We all walk in, and Charlie sits on her bed.
"God im so tired."
We all nod and I walk to Tegans closet, grabbing some blankets.
"You can sleep on my bed, we'll take the floor."
Charlie shakes her head and I shake mines.
"You need a good sleep Charlie, we'll be fine on the floor."
She sighs and nods, grabbing the blankets and getting under them. Tegan helps me lay our blankets down on the floor and grabs a extra pillow from the closet. She sets it down and I sit down and so does Tegan. I lay down on my back and she reaches on the nightstand, grabbing our phones and plugging them back in. She makes sure her alarms on and then sets it back down.
"Goodnight."
We hear Charlie and turn to her, her back faced towards us.
"Goodnight Char."
"Night."
Tegan lays down, and wraps her arms around my waist. She brings her forehead to mines and closes her eyes.
"Thank you for helping me with her."
I smile and kiss her lips.
"Your welcome."
She rubs her nose on mines and I giggle, I love eskimo kisses. I place my hand in her hair, slowly massaging her scalp. She sighs and I smile, knowing she needs to sleep. I take my hand away from her hair and reach down, grabbing her injured hand. I bring it to my lips and kiss it. She opens her eyes and smiles.
"Go to sleep."
She nods and smiles, I place her hand back down and put my hand back in her hair. She closes her eyes again and I close mines.