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Chapter 17: I Need To Heal You
Sara POV:
The knock on the door, the knock that made my heart stop. I look at Lizzy and Ronnie, they smile at me and I feel the butterflies in my stomach start to wake up. Ronnie walks to the door and smiles at me, right before opening it. She twists the knob and opens it slowly. Lizzy smiles and I look at the door.
"Is she ready?"
I hear Tegans voice, I smile and Ronnie nods. She steps to the side and the door opens slowly.
Tegan POV:
Shes beautiful, she's the definition of everyones perfect, her dress hugging her body perfectly, her exposed shoulders, her gentle cleavage, her make-up, dark maroon lipstick, long thick black eyelashes, she was beautiful. I slowly make my way to her, shes looking at me, biting her lip. As I walk, I don't take my eyes off hers, I needed to see them, they were the only thing keeping me sane at the very moment. I stand in front of her, and she smiles.
"You look amazing Tegan."
I look down to her body, taking my eyes away from hers, I look her up and down and then again, go back to her eyes.
"You look beautiful Sara."
Were the only words I kept repeating in my head, she blushes, and I bring my hand up to her face, cupping her jaw lightly. She rubs her cheek into my palm and I lean in, placing the most simplest kiss on her lips, yet pouring every feeling shes making me feel, into it. She wraps her arms around my neck, and for that moment, it was just us, no one in the room. We both pull away at the same time and look at eachother.
"We should get going."
I hear Charlie say, I nod my head and look down to Saras hand, her black painted fingernails.
"Ready?"
She smiles and I look at her eyes, trailing mines down her face, her jaw, and to her neck. Her bare neck, I lean down and kiss it. She moans softly and I smile.
"Wheres your necklace?"
I ask her, she reaches her hand up and feels her neck, she turns around and walks to the bed, grabing it. She walks back to me, and I grab it, I walk around her, so shes facing the mirror I unhook her necklace,and bring it around her, placing the cold metal onto her chest, I bring the hooks together and lock it. I look down, her back, so creamy, so smooth, I take my index finger and trail it down her spine, goosebumps starting to rise. I wrap my arms around her stomach and lean down, placing a kiss on her cheek, the smiles and I look at us in the mirror. Just like I imagined. I hear the door open and I look too my right, everyones grabbing their things and heading out the door. I grab Saras hand, and she smiles, following me out her room. When we get into the hallway, I see all the girls leaving their rooms, and walking to the elevator. Every girls is wearing a satin dress, with sparkles, blue, pink, green, red, orange, yellow, Sara was the only one who stood out, her maroon dress, a different material that didn't shine. I was happy to know that my girl was the one to catch everyones eye. She closes her door and I wrap my arms around her waist, she smiles and we start to make our way to the elevator, my arms never leaving her.
"Told you she looks beautiful."
I hear Paulie whisper into my ear. I look at her and nod. She clings back to Charlie and rests her head on her shoulder. I lean down and whisper to Sara.
"I have never wanted you more . . . than I do right now Sara."
She leans her head down, and closes her eyes, giving in to my presence, I place a soft kiss on her shoulder. We get to the elevator and press the button. I feel Saras hand run over mines on her stomach, she locks them together and I place a kiss on her neck. The doors open, and all the girls start to push us.
"Ay hold the fuck up!"
I hear Paulie yell, as she watches all the girsl push us, including Charlie. We step into to the elevator and move all the way to the back. The elevator fills up with girls and soon, were riding down and stopping at the first floor. All the girls step out and Saras starts to walk, with me behind her. We get to the doors and Charlie laughs at me.
"Are you ever going to let her go Tegan?"
Sara laughs and I shake my head.
"I can't."
Everyone laughs and Charlie opens the door. The rush of cold air hits the girls, as if on que, Charlie and I react. We grab our coats and take them off, putting them on our girlfriends shoulders. They all laugh, Charlie and I look at eachother and laugh too. Charlie opens the door again and we all walk out. We make our way down the stairs and Sara sighs.
"Thank god they put the tarps."
I look up and see the whole courtyard covered in blue tarps. I smile and grab Saras hand. I lead her across the field and into the halls. The sound of all the girls in their heels, ringing through the halls. I look down to Saras, she walks with so much sway in them, making her look like a woman. We turn the corner, and walk up to the gym.
"I thought it was in a hall?"
She looks at me and I nod.
"The halls up stairs."
The building was huge, so big that they fit a gym on the first floor and above was the hall. I help her walk up the stairs and I open the door for her. When we get inside, all the guys are sitting around, waiting for their dates. As we start to walk across the gym floor to get to the staircase, I hear Ronnie squeel. We all turn around and see her and Rodney, hes hugging her and shes clinging to him, as if he were to leave. I look at Sara and shes smiles at them, Suddenly we see a guy walk up to Lizzy. She smiles and he hugs her tight.
"Guys this is Rodney, my date."
We smile at him and Lizzy smiles.
"And this is Josh."
Everyone smiles and I eye him, one mean thing to Lizzy and hes gone. We all keep walking pass the gym and go behind the stage, where the stairs are. As we climb the long flight of stairs, I turn to Sara and look at her heels.
"Your feet don't hurt?"
She shakes her head and I laugh. We get to the top and see the entrance of the hall, the crowd moving. We open the doors and my face lights up. The gym was covered with blue and sparkles, making it look like a winter wonderland. I look to my left and see couple taking pictures, couples talking, some dancing. I feel a squeeze on my hand and I look at Sara, her face looks like a kid at Disneyland for the first time. I wrap my arms around her waist again and she smiles.
"Ready to have fun?"
She nods and I kiss her cheek.
"Lets find a table."
I nod and suddenly hear the sound of the DJ putting on the first song of the night. I smile and take my girlfriends hand, leading her to a table. When we find one that can sit all of us, I look at Sara and smile.
"Your the most beautiful girl here Sar."
She blushes, and I rub my nose to hers. She looks around and places a quick kiss on my lips. I smile and she laughs. She brings her lips to my ear and whispers.
"You have lipstick on you."
She brings her lips back to mines and I moan, I could care less if a chaprone saw us, It felt amazing to kiss her. I place my hands on her thigh and slowly rub them up and down, she pulls away and rests her forhead to mines.
"Can you get me something to drink?"
I nod my head and kiss her nose.
"Tee, Im gonna get Paulie something to drink, wanna come.?"
Charlie asks me, I nod my head and turn to Sara kissing her cheek. I get up and Charlie nudges me. I laugh and we walk across the hall, to the snack bar. Miss B is standing their monitoring the food. I smile at her and she smiles back, I reach into the many buckets of drinks and grab 2 for Sara and I. Charlie does too and looks at me.
"Tegan."
I look at her and she smiles.
"Yea?"
"Last night me and Paulie we . . ."
I smile and shake my head.
"Whats new man, you always fuck he-"
Then it hits me, Paulie touched Charlie, for the first time. My mouth drops and she laughs.
"She?"
I ask in amazement. She nods and I look over the crowd and see Sara, talking to Paulie, smiling , laughing.
"Wow, how was it?"
I ask her, one thing me and Charlie didn't care to be bland with, was sex, we asked eachother straight up, always.
"Amazing, Paulie . . . she was amazing."
I smile and keep looking at Sara, my Sara, the only girl who stood out from the crowd wearing a dark maroon dress, the only girl who had my entire attention. I turn to Charlie and shes looking at Paulie.
"Wait this happened when?"
I ask her, she smirks and opens her drink, taking a sip.
"Last night."
I laugh and shake my head.
"Thats why she wanted to go to your room."
She nods and I nudge her.
"Well congrats, you finally have a girlfriend man."
I pat her back and she looks at me, holding up her drink.
"We finally have girlfriends."
I smile and look at Sara.
"I finally have a girlfriend."
Sara POV:
Im here at the dance, Tegan went to go get drinks with Charlie, so Paulie and I are talking. Paulie told me about last night, she finally touched Charlie, she said she was nervous, but it was so natural. It made me start to think about my weekend, but then I realized, if I keep worrying Im gonna fuck it up for myself, so I should just worry about right now. I take off Tegans coat and place it on the back of my chair, I feel a hand on my shoulder and I turn, I see Tegan, she hands me my drink and sits down. She leans into me and I lean into her, she brings her mouth to my ear and whispers.
"Are you going to dance with me tonight?"
I feel her breath on my ear and I close my eyes, trying to fight away the tension. She chuckles lightly in my ear and I open my eyes, I nod and rub my cheek up against hers. Suddenly, she grabs the back and base of my chair, bringing me closer to her. I giggle and she wraps her arms around me, we both look at everyone and smile.
"Ronnie, you look so beautiful."
Rodney tells her, she blushes and kisses his cheek. They were pretty adorable already, Lizzy on the other hand looked Horrible, Josh was on his phone texting away, not even paying attention to Lizzy. I sigh and turn my attention back to the dance floor, so many girls, so many different color dresses, I was the only one with maroon. Tegan squeezes me tighter and kisses my cheek.
"Wanna go take pictures?"
I turn around and smile big.
"Yea, right now?"
She smiles and I stand up, I grab her hand and lift her up, she looks at Charlie and Paulie.
"Wanna go take pictures with us?"
Paulie nods and looks at Charlie, Charlie stands up, and grabs Paulies hand, and lifts her up. Tegan grabs my hand and leads us to the picture booth. I look at the line and smile, its wasn't short but it wasn't long either. Tegan stands in line and pulls me to her, turning me around and wraping her arms around my waist.
"Im sorry, I just like holding you."
She mumbles as she places light kisses on my neck. I smile and giggle when she sucks on my pulse point.
"Its okay, I like when you hold me too."
She smiles and kisses my cheek. The line moves us, and I look at Charlie and Paulie. Paulie has her arms around Charlies waist, and Charlie has her arms around Paulies neck, kissing her. I smile and Tegan looks at me.
" I wish I could kiss you like that without ruining your lipstick."
She pulls me into her, placing her hands on my hips. I giggle and wrap my arms around her chest, our breasts pressed together.
"You can, just after the pictures."
She smiles and moves us more foward. I lay my head on her shoulder, and feel her place kisses on my head. I close my eyes and feel my body relax in her arms, making me silly putty in her hands, she had the power to move me, she had the power to let me go, and she had the power to keep me up.
"Sara, its out turn."
I hear her say, I look up and the photographer is looking at us.
"You have 5 frames."
I nod and Tegan takes my hand, she leads me onto the little scene with fake snow and a tree with christmas lights hung on it. She wraps her arms around my stomach and we look at the camera. We both smile and the flash blinds us. She laughs and I turn around, I wrap my arms around her neck, and she places hers on my waist, he takes it and we move again. This time I wrap my arms around her waist from behind and we hear Charlie and Paulie laugh.
"2 more."
We nod and I stand in front of Tegan, I grab her hands, and link them with mines, placing them around my waist. He takes the picture and looks at us.
"Last one."
We move around trying to find a new position, when Tegan and I lock eyes, staring right at eachother, as if she forgot everyone was hear, she leans in and places a sweet kiss on my lips, and I wrap my arms around her neck. The camera flashes and I pull away, that was our final picture. Tegans laughs and grabs my hand, leading us off the little scene. We watch Paulie and Charlie take pictures, they kissed in all of them. Suddenly I hear the famous song Just Like Heaven by The Cure come on. I turn to Tegan and smile. She laughs and I grab her arm, pulling us to the dance floor. The crowd moving along, I wrap my arms around her neck, and pull her close to me, she puts her hands on my lower back and we sway back and forth, like everyone else. Tegans leans her face to mines, resting our forheads together. She closes her eyes and resites the words.
"You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream"
I smile and brush our noses together. I knew she was saying them to me, and it made my heart slowly melt. Suddenly the songs starts to mix, I smile bigger, more 80's songs, and one of the best, Modern English's -I'll stop the world and melt with you. As everyones dancing gets a little faster, Tegan and I keep swaying, our eyes still closed, and forheads pressed together. When I hear the familiar part, I smile and resite her the words.
"Theres nothing you and I won't do, I'll stop the world and melt with you."
I feel her lips attach to mines and I kiss her slowly, taking our time, re-exploring each others mouths, like its the very first time. She runs her hands down my back and I feel my body shiver. The songs ends, and the DJ cuts in.
"Hows everybody doing?"
Everyone starts to clap and Tegan and I keep swaying.
"Alright, well, Im gonna play some 80's for you, then some 90's. Then Blackout 101 is gonna come and perform for you guys on stage."
Everyone starts to cheer and I keep my focus back on Tegan and her lips. Even while the Dj was talking, we didn't stop the kiss. When she finally pulls away, the next song comes on, Psychedelic Furs - Love my way. My parents played all this music when I was growing up, I know them all. I look into Tegans eyes and she brings her hand up to my chin, she looks at my jaw and cups it, pulling me back in, I kiss her again and sway with the music.
We hear two familiar laughs and pull apart, we see Charlie and Paulie smiling at us. Charlie motions to Tegans lips, and Tegan looks at me, I chuckle and see my lipstick smuged all over her lips. I bring my thumb to her lips and clean myself off them.
"Is mine messed up?"
I ask her, she smiles and shakes her head. She grabs my hand and leads me off the dance floor, we get back to the table and she sits down, Im about to sit down, when she pulls me onto her lap, I laugh and kiss her cheek. My maroon Lipstick leaving a perfect pair of lips on her cheek. I move my hand up to take it off when Tegan shakes her head.
"Leave it."
I smile and she kisses my cheek. I turn to everyone and see Rodney and Ronnie talking, and Lizzy by herself.
"Lizzy, wheres josh?"
She looks down and shrugs. Suddenly I hear Tegans low voice.
"Can I dance with her, shes alone Sar."
I turn my head back, smile and nod. She kisses my cheek again and I get off her lap. She stands up and makes her way around the round table, and squats down to Lizzy knees.
"Lizzy, wanna dance?"
I smile and Lizzy looks at me, I nod my head and her face lights up with the most joy yet. She nods to Tegan and Tegan grabs Lizzys hand, lifting her up and leading her to the dance floor. I smile and look around, even though at that moment I was alone, I felt so happy to be here with my friends. I turn and see Tegan and Lizzy dancing to Lime. I laugh and see Charlie and Paulie dancing with them. I smile and look at Tegan, she looks so happy, like she was probably the happiest girl in the world, I know Im the reason, not because Im cocky, but because I know that shes almost fixed. I laugh when I see Lizzy doing the stupid funny generic moves, the robot and the q-tip. Ronnie looks at me and smiles.
"Wanna come dance with us?"
I shake my head and Rodney smiles.
"Sure? I wont embarrass you guys I swear."
I laugh and shake my head.
"Im sure you won't but you two go on, Im fine."
They nod and stand up, Rodney grabs her hand and leads her to the dance floor.
Tegan POV:
As Im dancing, I can see Sara in the corner of my eye, watching us. Shes was sitting with Ronnie and Rodney but now shes alone. I look at Lizzy and she smiles.
"Go on Tegan, Im fine."
I smile at how nice she is for understanding that I want to be with my date right now. I look at Sara and shes fishing through my coat pockets, grabbing a littl mirror and her tube of lipstick. I slowly make my way to her and watch her as she fixes her lipstick. I sit down and she smiles at me, putting the things back away, a new coat of maroon on her lips. I smile and kiss her cheek.
"You okay?"
She nods and I wrap my arms around her, she snuggles into me and laughs.
"Are you sure you want my lips on your face for the rest of the night?"
She asks, I smile and lean to her ear.
"Thats all I want . . . every second of every day."
I look at her and she blushes bad, she looks behind me and smiles big. I turn around and see Lizzy dancing with a guy, who looks just like her, blonde hair, yellow vest, but it wasn't Josh. I laugh and turn back to Sara.
"Dance with us?"
She nods and we stand up, I lead her to the floor. I smile once I hear Lisa Lisa and The Cult Jam on. I lead us to our group of dancing friends, suddenly the poppy music stops and REO Speedwagon- Im gonna keep on loving you comes on. Everyone starts to clap and grabs their partners. Charlie and Paulie, Ronnie and Rodney, Lizzy and her new guy, and Sara and I. I place my hands on her waist and she grabs them, lifting them around her neck, and I smile when I feel her hands on my my butt, slowly making their way into my butt pockets, the roles reversed. She pulls me closer. As everyone sways, the chorus comes on and everyone in our group sings it, out loud.
"And Im gonna keep on loving you, Cause its the only thing I wanna do, I don't wanna sleep I just wanna keep on loving you!"
We all laugh and Sara rests her head on my chest. I place my head on hers and take in her Mango shampoo, her smell taking me to a certain high. My eyes close for a second, when they open, I look forward and see Molly. Shes slow dancing with her date, her head on his shoulder. I sigh to myself, If I would have stayed with her, I would have been sitting at the table, watching her do all this again. I feel Saras hands shift in my pockets and I look down, this is where I wanted to be, with her. I place a kiss on her cheek and she looks up at me, she leans in and kisses me, another breath taking kiss. I gasp when I feel her hands gently squeeze my butt. She smiles and I do too. I twirl the loose strands of hair with my fingers and she pulls away. She smiles at the song, a very familiar song, she rest her head and I see her smile as she closes her eyes and sings the words.
"I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me."
The song she was listening to yesterday on my ipod, its on. She opens her eyes and looks at me.
"Tegan, I want you to want me. . ."
She says, I feel my heart race and I pull her into me, placing a kiss on her cheek, slowly frenching my way to her lips. She smiles and pulls away. She puts her hands on my stomach and its starts to growl. She laughs and grabs my hand. She pulls me away from the dance floor and we walk over to the snack bar. She grabs a plate and starts to put tons of food on it, my stomach growling just looking at it. I grab us two more drinks and she smiles. We walk back to the tabel and I sit down, pulling her onto my lap. She smiles and I wrap my arms around her body, she turns to the side so shes sitting across my lap and looks at me. She picks up a chip and I open my mouth, she places it on my tongue and I chew it, feeling my stomach starting to sooth with just the little bit of food. Suddenly all the girls come back and sit at the table. Their dates running to go get them something to drink. I look at Lizzy and smile.
"Whos the new guy?"
I ask her, she blushes and looks at him walk away.
"His name is Tyler, he came here alone, he started talking to me on the dance floor, we were wearing the same color too."
I smile and Sara looks at her.
"Thats good, is he nice?"
Lizzy nods and Sara nods.
"God Paulie can dance all night!"
I look at Charlie and shes fanning herself. I laugh and notice the light sweat on her forhead.
"Thats not the only thing she can do all night."
I wink and she laughs shaking her head.
"Got that right."
We all laugh and the guys and Paulie come back, handing their dates their drinks. Sara gives me another chip, and then brings my drink to my lips. She tilts it and the liquid runs down my throat. She puts it back down on the table and Rodney looks at all of us.
"Wanna play a game?"
Everyone smile and he nods. He grabs a napkin and places it to his mouth.
"The whole point of the game, is to pass the napkin around the whole table, with only your mouths. You can't bite it, you can only suck it in, and the next person has to breathe it in."
Everyone laughs and he taps Ronnie, She looks at him and he sucks in the napkin, she laughs and he moves his mouth towards her, she laughs and trys to suck in the napkin. We all sit their and laugh, watching as Ronnie trys to do it. She finally gets it and everyone claps, she turns to Lizzy and Lizzy starts to laugh hard, so bad she can't do it. Sara stands up and walks over to Ronnie, she leans down and almost touch their lips, Sara sucks in the napkin and runs over to me, everyone laughing at her. She sits back on my lap, turns around to me and moves her face into mines. I laugh and suck in the napkin, she smiles and everyone claps, I turn to Paulie and Charlie smiles. Paulie leans into me and trys to suck in the napkin. She fails and it falls from my lips. Everyone laughs and she gets embarrassed, Sara picks up another Napkin from the table, and sucks it in, she leans to Paulie and Paulie shakes her head, Sara nods and Paulie leans in, their lips touching through the napkin, Paulie gets it and Charlie claps for her, while everyone just keeps laugh at the tension of her dropping it again. She brings it to Charlies mouth and Charlie sucks it in easily, then lets it fall to the floor, crashing her lips into Paulies. Everyone cheers and I grab Saras face and push my lips to hers, as if it was a domino effect, everyone turned to their dates and kissed them, Even Lizzy. Sara smiled and grabbed my arm, squeezing eachtime our tongue crashed hard. She pulls away and I feel a vibration in my coat pocket. I reach back and dig through my pockets, grabbing the two cell phones. I hand Sara hers and she smiles, looking at her phone. Suddenly she looks up and looks around. She stands up and walks over to a guy. I notice hes holding hands with a boy, a tall boy. Sara hugs him and looks at the boy, introducing herself to him. She turns around and they follow her to our table.
"Guys, this is Tommy and his date Michael."
Eveyone waves at him and she looks at me.
"And this is Tegan."
I smile and reach my hand out to him, he smiles and looks at Sara.
"I remember her."
I look at him, I have never met this guy in my life, how could he possibly remember me. He looks at me and smiles.
"She was talking about you the night the boys came over, she couldn't take her eyes off you."
Sara blushes and I feel my heart melt, that was the night that I asked Sara to Winter Formal. I grab her hand and sit her back down on my lap.
"You couldn't keep your eyes off me?"
She smiles and bites her lip, shaking her head. I kiss her cheek gently and look at the boys.
"You guys wanna sit down?"
They shake their heads and smile.
"No, were gonna go dance, but thank you for the offer, have fun Sara, nice meeting you all."
We all wave him goodbye and I tickle Saras sides.
"Who was he?"
She turns to me and smiles.
"Member I said I was talking to a boy at the gym, he was in love with some guy, member?"
I think back and nod, the guy who was in love with the homophobe.
"That was him, he got a date, some guy asked him."
She smiles and I nod. I look at my phone and shake my head, its already 10:58. I show Sara and she fakes a yawn. I laugh and she feeds me another chip. We all sit at the table and talk, everyone getting to really know eachother, everyone laughing loud. We were having fun. Suddenly the lights go down and I look at the only spot of light on the stage. The curtains open and Sara squeezes my hand, I smile and watch as a band of 18 year old boys walk across the stage. They pick up their instruments and the girls start to cheer.
"Hello everyone, Im Chris Bowman, and we are Blackout 101."
They start to play their opening song, and the crowd on the dancefloor starts to jump up and down. I turn to Sara and shes watching the band. I study her face, her lipstick slowly fading from my lips caressing hers. Her mascara still keeping her lashes long and beautiful. I bring my hand up and move a piece of fallen hair behind her hair, she turns to me and leans her head down onto my shoulder. I craddle her in my arms and kiss her shoulder, placing kiss after kiss. As they play song after song Sara kepps her head on my shoulder, and I keep placing kisses on her shoulder.
"Alright everyone, were gonna hit you with a slow one, for all those couples in love, and for the ones barley realizing their in love."
The dance floor clears a little. Charlie and Paulie get up and walk to the dance floor, Sara turns to me and grabs my hand, she stands up and I stand up with her, she turns around and leads me to the dance floor. When we get their, the band starts to strum the first chords of the song. I place my hands on Saras waist and she wraps her arms around my chest, pulling me in and laying her head on my shoulder.
" When I hear her name it rings a bell
I look into her eyes, I just cant tell
if she loves me, like I love her
when I make her laugh it feels so good
feel like i need her more than any guy could
because I love her, but does she love me
And I feel high as a mountain when im near you
When I just cant find the words to tell you
And when she smiles it just lights up her face
and I cant stop staring ,eyes in place
because I love her, but does she love me
and she always says the darndest things
and I cant scrap the joy that it brings when she says she loves me,
but does she really love me
And I feel high as a mountain when im near you
when I just cant find the words to tell you
im always wondering what she thinks about me
and I know that I do, does she loves me
she makes a smile not worth a while and I just dont know what she wants
yeah shes driving me crazy she never ceases to amaze me
I feel high as a mountain when im near you
When I just cant find the words to tell you
Im always wondering what she thinks about me
And I know that I do, but does she really love me
And I feel high as a mountain when im near you, When I just cant find the words to tell you,
And I feel high as a mountain when im near you, When I just cant find the words to tell you
Maybe that I love you."
"We are Blackout 101, You've been a great Auidience, See you next Time."
The crowd starts to scream and Sara lifts her head, the song was a song about my feelings, everything in that song was true, Sara made me feel high as mountain, maybe even higher. I can't ever find the words to tell her just how much I care about her, that maybe I love her. I look into her eyes and the crowds starts to clear as the Dj gets back on the stage and starts to set up, I grab Saras faces with both of my hands and kiss her, She moves her tongue around mines smoothly and slowly, moaning at my taste. I smile and she pulls away. I rub my thumb across her cheek, feeling her light goosebumps under my flesh. I smile and grab her hand and lead her off the dance floor back to our table. I keep my eyes on her and suddenly bump into someone. I turn around ready to apologize when I see my father and Lucy. I stop and look at them, her arm hooked in his, her ugly pruple dress, my dads ugly purple matching tie. Sara places her hand on my back and he looks down to our hands, he looks at Sara and then to me.
"Tegan, you two look . . . good."
I sigh and shake my head. Maybe I over reacted, maybe if hes happy with her, I should let him marry her, even though I don't like her, Im just gonna bite my tongue.
"Thanks dad."
He smiles and looks at Sara.
"You look nice Sara."
"Thanks principle Hart."
She says,unsure what to do. I look at Lucy and she gives me a smug look, I shake my head and look at their linked arms, I look further down when I see a familiar sparkle. My heart stops and I remember my mother.
Sara POV:
Tegan looks at theirs hands, after a couple of Seconds, I take a step to look at her face, she lifts her head up from their hands and I see a small tear slide down her cheek.
"Why is she wearing her ring?"
She says low and I feel her hand start to squeeze mines tight. Tegans dad looks down and Lucy has an evil smirk on her face.
"Its what Lucy wanted Tegan."
She lets out a sob and I squeeze her hand back.
"Thats my mothers ring! You know how much she loved it, take it off her!"
She says through clenched teeth. Her father shakes his head and sighs.
"Tegan, lets not do this here, we can talk on Mond-"
"TAKE IT OFF HER FUCKING FINGER!"
Lucy jumps back and I see people turn to us. I rub Tegans back and she starts to breath hard.
"Tegan, calm down, were going to talk about this Mond-"
She lets go of my hand and I see her run towards the exit doors. I freeze for a moment, Tegans dad gave Tegans moms, wedding ring to his new fiance. I turn to him and look into his eyes, I shake my head and feel my heart start to break.
"Do you like to hurt her?"
I ask him, he looks down and I look at Lucy.
"Go to fucking hell."
I turn around and run back to my table. I gather our things and grab Tegans coat.
"Where are you going.?"
Everyone yells over the music and I turn to them.
"Something happened, I have to go get Tegan."
I start to walk away, making sure I have everything, when I feel my hand being grabed. I turn around and see Charlie, she looks at me and I look at her.
"What happened with Tegan."
"I'll explain tomorrow, but I have to go find her."
She nods and lets go of my hand. I run to the exit and start to run down the stairs, I sigh and stop, taking off my heels and holding them I run pass the crowd and across the gym floor. When I get outside, I see the rain, splatting down on the cement. I prepare myself for it, I run down the stairs and look both ways. I run to the corner and turn it, leaving me in the halls. I see the dorm door close, and I quickly make my way, the rain not letting me run as fast. I get to the courtyard and make my way across the tarps. I almost slip twice, I keep running and get to the front steps of the dorm building. My bodys cold, wet, my dress is sticking to my body, and my hair is drenched. I walk up the steps and open the doors, the halls empty. I run to the elevator and press the button, holding it down, wanting it to go faster. After a minute, the doors finally open. I rush inside and press the 3rd floor button. The doors close slowly, the ride feels like years, but it was only 40 seconds. When the doors finally open, I quickly run down to Tegans dorm. I get to her door and twist the knob. Its locked, I lay my ear on the door, I listened to the quiet sobs, slowly choking out of her throat. I twist the door knob again and knock.
"Tegan open the door."
I hear her sob loud and I pound on the door.
"Open the door Tegan, please."
I wait for a couple of seconds, then realize, I have her keys. I dig into her coat pocket thats soaking wet, and pull out her keys, I try the first one and the door unlocks. I open it gently and step inside to the dark room, only light from the moon, shining right into her room. I look to her bed, and see her body bump under her blankets, covering her body from head to toe. I close the door and drop everything on the floor and walk to her. I pull the covers off of her head and my heart breaks, like my heart was a piece of glass, being dropped from a 20 story building. Shes curled into a little ball, her head to her knees, crying her eyes out. I take off her blankets and toss it to the side. I reach behind my back and try my best to unzip the zipper, I pull it down and start to peel my dress off my body, letting it fall to the floor, the chill air hitting my wet body. I climb over her and lay down facing her. I lift her head up from her knees and place it into my chest, she clings to me, and I rub her wet hair. I feel her hot tears warming my chest as they slide down. I hold her, she shifts so shes on her back. She covers her eyes and cries silently to herself.
"Tegan."
She shakes her head and I sit up, I climb on top of her and straddle her waist. I lean down and grab her hands, trying to pry them from her face.
"Sara Im sorry . . ."
She says through breaths and cries, I tug on her hands and she shakes her head again.
"For what Tegan?"
She lets a whimper escape from her mouth.
"For fucking u-up the dance for you."
I shake my head and tug on her hands again.
"Tegan I don't care about the fucking dance, just look at me . . . please."
I make sure she hears the hurt in my voice, I want to see her tears, I want to see her watery eyes.
I pull on them gently one more time and they follow my hands. She looks at me, and I look at her, her tears sparkling under the moonlight. The sight of her makes my eyes water, I feel the tear slide out of the corner of my eye, it glides down my cheek and I feel it fall from my face, down to Tegans chest. Her nose starts to wiggle and I know she wants to cry more, I lean down and place a soft kiss on her cheek. She shutters, I kiss the corner of her lips, her body trembles. I hover over her face, and bring my hand up to her face, gently pushing back all her wet hair, sticking to her forhead. She looks at me, letting the tears fall freely. I lead down and attach my lips to hers. She kisses back, then I feel the small sobs in my mouth. I trail my lips down her chin, across her jawline, and down to her neck, lightly sucking on her pulse point. I feel her body move under mines and I lift my head back up to hers. I sit up and place my hands on the collar of her shirt. Her sobs have stopped, but her tears haven't their silently sliding down her cheek, with each blink. her eyes water more. I place my hands on the first button of her wet shirt, I slowly undo each button, until all of them are undone. I open up her shirt and look down to her body. I look at her and she places her hands on my waist. I lean down and kiss her, I wrap my arms around her neck and pull her body up with mines, so were sitting up. I put my hands on her shoulders and push off the wet material, letting it fall onto the bed. I pull away from her and see my lipsticks stains on her lips, smuged onto them. She looks into my eyes as I wrap my arms around her chest and take hold of her bra. She searches my face, I unclasp her bra and its pops out of my hands. I grab the straps from her shoulders and pull them down her arms, the tears come harder now, I can feel them fall from her face onto my thigh. I take her bra and toss it to the floor. I keep my eyes on hers as I wrap my arms around my own back and unclasps my bra, letting it fall from my chest. She looks down and stares at my chest, burning a picture of it in her brain. She looks up and blinks, a fresh batch of tears falling. She leans her head down and it falls to my chest, right on my breast plate. I run my fingers through her hair and she looks up at me. I needed to make her forget, I needed to make her not worry, I need her to let it all go.
"Let my fix you . . ."
I feel another tear slide down my cheek and she stares at me. I lean in and connect our lips, laying her back down on the bed. She kisses me and I can taste the salt from her tears on her lips. I pull away and look down, her bare, exposed chest, my nipple dangling above hers. I lean my head down, and close my eyes, placing my mouth on her nipple, for the first time. I hear her whimper as I swirl my tongue around her bud, hardening to my attention. I bring my other hand up and palm her left breasts, making her squirm under me. I nip at her bud and she chokes on a sob. I trail my kisses down her cleavage, licking all the salty sweat from dancing, off. I make my way down to her stomach, stopping to kiss and rub her skin, admire her. I circle her belly button with my tongue and she shutters, I kiss my way to the start of her pants, when I feel her hands on my head. I look up and she looks at me, tears still comming down her face.
"Sara . . . you don't have to."
I bring my hand up and start to undo her pants. She crys a little more and I start to pull her pants down, I pull them off her ankles and throw them to the floor. I look at her, only in black matching boyshorts. She needed this, she needed me to touch her, she needed me to feel her, to heal her. I get on my knees and look at her as she watches me loop my fingers under the elastic band of my undwerwear. I pull them down to my thighs and Tegan looks at my face, I pull them down my legs and toss them on the bed. She trails her eyes from mine down my neck, down my chest, down each breasts, down my cleavage, passed my stomach and to my trimmed patch of curls. Her eyes grow wide and I look at her. She raises her hips and starts to take off her underwear, she hesitates for a couple of seconds, I grab them for her, and slowly pull them down her legs, letting her know, just with this little action, that tonight she was going to be taken care of. I trail my eyes down her body, passed her lips, her neck, her breasts, her stomach, to her equally trimmed patch. I place my hands on her knees and slowly part them. I see her stomach start to breath rugged. I crawl my body over hers, hovering over her. She looks at me, and pushes my body down on hers, our bare skin touching for the first time, no bras, no underwear. She gasps when she feels our nipples touch and harden under eachother. She brings her hands up to my face and pushes all the the wet hair away from it.
"I want to. . ."
I lean down and place a trail of kisses on her jawline, I feel her hand slowly massage my head, I take my lips further, down her neck, and stopping at her chest. I lean down to the piece of skin that holds her heart under it, I place a kiss over it and she shutters. I look up to her and shes still silently crying, I take my hand and place it on her jaw, only to trail it, down her neck, passed her chest, down her stomach and on her crotch. She lets out a little gasp, I should be feeling nervous, but Im going off of what is supposed to feel natural. I take my fingers and trail them up and down her slit, making her breathing rugged, and her body tremble. I take my index finger and slowly start to rub her clit, tight slow circles, she grabs at the sheets, and her eyes close, the muscles in her neck popping out, the veins showing off. I lean down and take her nipple back into my mouth.
"Sara . . ."
It was my motivation, I bring my fingers down and stop at her soaked entrance, feeling her heat radiate onto my hand. I bring my head up and burry it into her neck, I let her hear my breathing, she brings her hands up and places them on my stomach, I lean into her more and whisper into her ear.
"I love you Tegan."
I slowly push my two fingers into her, and she starst to cry out, her hands grabing at the flesh on my stomach. With my fingers halfway in her, I circle them, trying my best to loosen her up, she was tight. Her body squirms under me, her crys of now pure pleasure filling the room. I push them in the rest of the way, stopping at my knuckles and feel her walls pulsing, clenching my fingers tight. I slowly pull them back out, and push them back in without hesitation. She wraps her arms around my back and I kiss her neck.
"Sa- Sar."
I nod my head and I know she needs more, she needs it faster, yet still as gentle. I make my thrust harder, and I remove my head from her neck and look at her. Her eyes closed, tears still comming out from them, her mouth open, her nose scrunching whenever I pull out. Shes beautiful, I feel her walls clenching faster, I feel her body start to shake underneath me, She wraps her legs around my waist, locking me in place with her ankles.
"Sara . . . Its hap- happening."
She whimpers out, her voice cracking a little. I lean down and kiss her lips, she kisses back and stops,her head flying back, her eyes rolling to the back of her head, the veins in her neck pulsing, the light sweat forming on her forhead. Her body convulses, and she comes all over my hand. I slow down my thrust to a stop, and keep my eyes on her, her chest rising at faliing at a fast pace. I keep my fingers inside her and place kisses all over her chest. After a couple of minutes, she lifts her head and looks at me, tears still there. I hover my face over hers, and slowly pull my fingers out of her, her facing wincing. I bring my fingers up to our faces, drops of cum falling to her body, leaving a trail. I bring them between our faces and she looks at me, she leans her body up and takes my fingers into her mouth, sucking on them, her tongue swishing around my sensative skin. I watch her, my lip throbbing to kiss her, to taste her. I pull my fingers out of her mouth and she she looks at me, we crash our lips together, the taste of her in her saliva makes my eyes roll back, she taste so sweet, so pure, so good. I moved my tongue around hers, trying to get all of her into my pulls away and brushes our noses together, I close my eyes and brush mines back. She brings her hands to my waist and slowly trails them down to my bum, making my mouth twitch.
"Tegan . . . don't, not yet."
She looks at me and I look at her and she looks confused, she looks hurt, all in one.
"You can have me for the whole weekend . . . let me have you tonight."
She nods her head and kisses me. I lay my body onto hers, and feel our hot skin touch eachothers. I pull away and rest my head onto her chest, hearing her heartbeat slow down to a normal pace. I reach my hand down to the bed, and lace our hands together, I bring them up and place them over her heart. I fixed her, she was no longer broken, I know because I seen the way she looked at me, like I was her life saver, like I made her forget. I kiss our hands, and feel her hand on my back, slowly rubbing up and down my spine. After a while of just laying on her, her chest slowly rising and falling, I feel her heart rate slow a little more, she was sleeping. I lift my head and see her face, turned to the side, her eyes closed, the tears stains on her cheek, I smiled weakly at the thought of tonight.
"I love you Tee. . ."