Authors Note: So heres a plot twist, it made me cry as I read Saras part, but thats because I was listening to a certain song, over and over again the whole time. So if you want to cry, listen to Lifehouse- Everything. It's actually like my theme song for this whole FanFic, so I do advise you listen to it, while reading Saras part too, even if you have to keep it on repeat, its worth the tears. Anyways, I do like this story alot, so this plot twist is going to make it longer, I hope you like it, Please REVIEW & ENJOY (:

Chapter 18: No One Undertands

Tegan POV:

I flutter my eyes and look at the ceiling, I blink a couple of times and the memories hit. Sara made love to me last night, she was inside me, in a way that no one has ever been before. I feel her shift in her sleep and I turn around on my side, facing her. Laying on her stomach, her beautiful naked body shining under the gloomy clouds. How have I been so lucky? What did I do to deserve her? Was this gods way of telling me, your suffereing is over, heres your angel to guide you. Whatever it is, I thank it, If it was Molly, I thank Molly, If it was my Dad, I thank my Dad, Im just so lucky to have her. Last night she made me forget everything, with the feeling of her lips, and the work of her fingers.

I look at her back, slowly rising and falling with each inhale and exhale, her face turned to me. Her mascaras smeared, her maroon lipstick is smeared all over her lips from kissing, her hair down and its natural waves flowing, her skin glowing. I felt the tears escape the corner of my eye, she made love to me. I bring my hand up from the sheets and place it on her spine, slowly tracing it up and down, she starts to stir but stays asleep, she reaches down into the sheets and grabs my hand, linking them together. I look down and see them, the way she was still sleep but held my hand tight. I rub my thumb on the back of her skin, feeling her soft flesh under mines. I hear a light knock on my door, then a light buzzing noise. I turn around, the buzzing stops, and I see a huge orange enevelope slide under my door. The footsteps of someone walking away fill my ears. I sits up and unlatch my hand from Saras, I hear her stir and stand up, the sorness between my legs have a little effect on me. I walk slowly over to the envelope and pick it up. I look it over, turning it around. I make my way back to the bed and see Sara laying on her side, eyes open looking at me. I smile at her and lay back down, she snuggles into me and kisses my jaw.

"Whats that?"

I kiss her forhead and she tangles our legs together, wraping her arms around my stomach.

"I don't know, someone slid it under the door."

She grabs it from my hands and I lean down to her placing kisses on her neck. She opens the little envelope flap and reaches in, grabbing the things inside and pulling them out. I look up at them and smile, our Winter Formal Pictures. She turns to me, and smiles big, I look at them as she holds them above our heads. I look at the side of her face, her eyes gleaming at the pictures, bottom lip in her mouth, I kiss her cheek, and she turns around. She puts the pictures back in the envelope and tosses them to the floor. She smiles and I lean over her, capturing her lips in a kiss, the sound of her moans filling the room. I climb between her legs, feeling her heat radiate onto my stomach. She places her hands on my sides and pulls me down onto her, laying my breasts on her stomach. I look at her and she pulls away, she brushes the bangs away from my face and searches my skin.

"I love you Sara . . ."

I whisper to her, I did. I loved her, their was no doubt in my mind anymore, I was head over hills, madly in love with her, she was my everything, it took me now to realize it. She grabs my face with both of her hands and pulls my body up smashing her lips into mines, the sound of our tongues, whimpers, moans,filling the room. I detach our lips and move my way down her jaw and to her neck, stopping to lick, suck, nip, and kiss her flesh. I make my way more down and take her nipple into my mouth, she arches into my body and I feel her nipple stiffen up, I gently nip at it and she whimpers.

"Tee please."

I nod and take my mouth to the other hard nipple, caressing it with my tongue, feeling it jolt under my tongue. I smile and tug on it lightly with my teeth, she moans and I look at her.

"Are you ready?"

She looks down to me and looks into my eyes, her chest heaving up and down, she places her hands on my shoulders and flips us, so im laying on my back. She straddles my waist, and leans down, she takes my bottom lip into her mouth and sucks on it, making my body spasm. She nods and I smile. Our weekend has begun, and so has the love making. I detach our lips and suck at her neck, hard, leaving behind the darkest marks. She giggles and I can't help but laugh. I lean down more and again, take her breast into my mouth, biting on it, sending shocks up her spine, making her arch her back, and throw her head back. I smirk as I suck on her nipple pulling it back and watching it snap back. She moans and grabs my hand from her her side, and squeezes it. I bring my other hand up from her side and place it on her stomach, I trail it down and come in contact with her trimmed mound. I cup her and feel my breathing starting to get rugged. She gasps and places both of her elbows on my shoulders, grabbing fistfulls of my hair, resting her forhead on mines, Her hot breath steaming over my lips, I take my middle finder and extend it, laying it on her clit. Her mouth flys open and I smile, the sight in front of me, one of the beautifullest I have ever seen. I start to slowly circle her clit, moving my finger in the number of little 8's. She gasps loud, and I connect our lips, she kisses me and our breathing comes out like motors on a car, hard and heavy. I feel her cum starting to soak my finger, making my strokes easier. She moans into my mouth and I slide my finger down her slit, stopping at her entrance. She nods and I look at her face as I slowly push 2 fingers inside of her. Her body jolting, shaking, convulsing, spassing, she was tight, tighter than ever. Her walls wraped around my fingers, begging me not to leave her, I push them all the way in, and she bites my lip, her moans traveling through my mouth. I pull back out and she winces.

"Does it hurt baby?"

I ask her, she nods her head, I start to pull them all the way out when she shakes her head.

"Please Tee don't stop . . . please."

I nod and she braces herself, I push back into her, and she tugs on my hair, she moans and takes my bottom lip back between her teeth. I start to pump in and out of her, and with each pull, she bites down on my lip harder, the taste of blood already present. I close my eyes and focus on her walls, their slowly clenching around my fingers, suddenly I feel her start to grind her hips into my hand, I look down, her stomach making the thrusting motions, she lets go of my lip and I attack her lips. She kisses me back and I can't help but trail my other hand to her butt, feeling the smooth skin under my palm.

"Tegan, it feel so good."

She whimpers, I nod my head, the feeling of her cum soaking my digits feeling oh so good. Her grinds start to get harder, and her walls are starting to clench tighter, shes on the verge. I want to taste her, I want to taste her all over. I stop thrusting and she shakes her head.

"No . . please Tegan."

I pull all the way out of her, and she starts to shake her head more. I lean up and kiss her lips sweetly.

"Get on your back."

She opens her eyes and whimpers lightly.

"Tee."

I smile and kiss her lips again. She gets off me, and lays down on the bed, on her back. I hover over her body and she looks at me, the look of pure lust taking over. I place a kiss on her lips, and start to create a trail down, I kiss down her cleavage, down her stomach, and over her curls. I spread her legs more, and look down. Her pink walls, covered in a shiny coat of cum, her folds soaked, I look at her and shes pleading me with her eyes. I reach out for her hand on the sheets, and lace our fingers together, resting them on her stomach. I lean down and take in her scent, the smell of Saras sex lingering around in my room, the cum dripping from her folds and falling to my sheets, little spots already forming. I lean in and place my tongue on her clit. She squeezes my hand and I smile, taking her clit between my lips and sucking on it gently.

"Oh god Tegan."

I feel her other hand grip my hair tightly and it drives me crazy, I lap at her and taste her juices for the first time, she was sweet, not bitter like Molly. I lick up and down, her body shaking under me. Her hips start to raise and I lower them back down, I want to make her last long. I gently take each fold into my mouth and suck on it, lightly biting it.

"Tegan please. . . I need to feel you . . . inside me."

I hear her moan out, I smile and lick all the way down to her entrance, I plunge my tongue into her and her legs shut close, locking me between her. I pull them apart and she tangles her fingers in my hair. I slowly plunge in and out of her, her hips slightly rising. I take my tongue out of her, and bring up my two fingers, I push them in her and she grips my hair tight. I lean my face down and slowly circle her clit with my tongue. I plunge my fingers in and out of her, the sound f her slick cum, sleeking against my fingers and her walls.

"Tegan, it's ha- oh god."

I work my fingers faster and my tongue smoother, she starts to grind her hips into my face and I feel her walls clenching my fingers hard, making my thrust a little harder to do. Suddenly I hear a knock on my door, I lift my head up and stop my thrust. Sara whimpers and grabs my face with both of her hands. She pulls me up, I keep my fingers inside her and she shakes her head.

"Please don't stop."

I look at the door, the knocking continues, 3 hard knocks. Sara starts to grind her hips back into me and I nod, resting my head into her neck, she wraps her arms around my neck, and I pump in and out.

"Tegan, you in there?"

I hear Charlies voice and I lift my head. Sara kisses my neck and whimpers.

"Please don't answer it . . ."

I kiss her cheek and nod.

Charlie knocks again and I hear Saras voice

"Im gonna cum Tee. . ."

I nod and push in harder and faster, the knock happens again and she kisses my lips, her breath rugged. I look at her and she shuts her eyes tight.

"Tegannnn!"

She yells out into the air, I feel her cum ooze onto my hand and her body starts to shake. I lean down and kiss her weak body, limp from her first orgasm. She turns her head to the side and enjoys her high.

"Shit were sorry, we'll come back later!"

I hear Charlie yell through the door, I bury my face into Saras chest.

"I love you Sar."

I lift my head up and look at her, she turns her head slowly to me, and smiles weakly.

"I love you too."

I start to pull my fingers out of her, and move them to wipe them on the sheets, when Sara grabs my wrist. She brings my fingers to her face and licks them clean, I watch in shock, it was a beautiful thing to see her taste herself, to moan and look into my eyes. I pull my fingers from her mouth and attach my lips to hers. I taste her in her saliva, I gasp and she smiles. I pull away and look at her. I brush away the sweaty strand of hairs on her forhead and gaze into her eyes. She brings her hand up to my jaw and cups it, lowering me down to her, our lips centimeters apart. She brushes her nose against mines and I smile.

"Your my everything . . ."

I whisper to her, she smiles and kisses me. She wraps her arms around my chest and holds me as close to her as possible. I roll off her and we continue to kiss on our sides. She wraps her leg around my waist and I place my hand on her thigh, feeling her goosebumps under my hot skin. I rub them up and down and she pulls away.

"Thank you . . ."

I tell her, she pushes away the hair from my face and searches it.

"For what?"

I smile and place my hand on her breasts, lightly swirling my finger around it.

"Everything Sara, I need you so much. You've become my backbone, my purpose, my motivation, my . . . my First Love."

I look at her and see the tear fall.

"Im your First Love?"

I nod my head and she sniffles.

"Your that to me . . . and so much more."

She smiles and I bury my head into her neck, taking in her scent. I couldn't sleep without her, I couldn't function without her, I couldn't live without her, in a matter of 3 weeks, I managed to fall in love, not puppy love, in love. If she were to cry, I would feel it, If she were sick, I would feel it, everything she felt, i would feel. I was in love, and it felt like what everyone did hype it up to be, except better, because it was Sara. The whole day, we lied in bed, we talked, we kissed, we cuddled, we made-out, we talked some more, kissed some more, and cuddled some more. We were attached at the hip, never wanting to be torn apart from one another.

Sara POV:

That was 10 years ago, the memory is still fresh in my mind. After our beautiful weekend, Tegans dad told her,that Monday morning that her mother had passed away over the weekend from an overdose. I held Tegan that whole day, she stayed in my room and broke down, layer by layer. He also told her that they were moving back to L.A to take care of her two little brothers, the mom had custody over. When I found that out, I broke down, she wasn't the only one crying, it was me too. We spent the whole week together, we made love everyday, or ever chance we had, and when that day came, a week after the dance, I watched as she drove away with her dad to the airport. That morning we made love, the most scariest love ever, we knew we would never see eachother again, I cried as she pushed her fingers into me, She cried as I pushed them into her, and when her father knocked on her door to grab her things. I held her as tight as I could ever imagine, I didn't know I had that strength. I couldn't let her go, but I had to. When she drove off, she looked at me through the car window, her eyes were filled with tears, and mines were too. Paulie and Charlie stayed with me that weekend, they did't want me to be alone, I felt like I would have died if they weren't there. For 2 years I cried everyday, when Tegan would text me, when she would send me pictures of her at her house, or the little phone calls we had everyday, they weren't enough. Soon we stopped texting, the phone calls stopped, and the love had day of graduation, was the first time I took a picture and smiled, a genuine smile, I smiled because I had made it, I survived the rest of highschool without her by my side. I decided to stay in London. When I went to college, I met my Emy, she was smart, beautiful, funny, and she looked like Tegan. I never got over the love that Tegan and I had, it was so strong that I just could never let it go, I still haven't. Slowly though, Emy is making me fall in love with her more and more, the love she gives me is strong too, but it doesn't compare to Tegan. Every Feb 3, I sit down in my apartment, and I drink, red wine, beer, anything, that was the day Tegan first touched me, and that was the day my life completely changed, it was the day I found out what the true meaning of love is. I still wonder what Tegan looks like, I still imagine that Emys hands are hers, after 16 years, I never fully let her go.

Im sitting down in my apartment, its Feb 1st. Im sitting down on my favorite chair, watching as the rain beats down on my patio. I love the winter, I love the smell of cookies, the sound of the rain, the cuddling, but the nights when I was alone, I hated the rain, I hated winter in London. Todays one of those days. Emys a very famous Photographer, meaning she travels around, leaves me for days at a time, yea she calls, she texts, but sometimes I just want her to hold me at night, but shes not here. I never told Emy about Tegan, I didn't want to share a memory like that with her, not because I didn't want to hurt her, but because I didn't want to hurt myself, the thought of Tegan makes my heart desolve. I hear a knock on my door and I turn around, when the knock happens again, I stand up and make my way over to my door. I look throught the peep whole and smile. I open the door and see all my friends, Ronnie and Rodney, Lizzy and her husband Michael, and my two favorites Charlie and Paulie. I smiled at them and they look at me, I was in my pajamas, not prepared to see them today. Charlie and Paulie sigh, I move and they all walk into my apartment.

"Sara, lets get you fixed up."

I close my door and look at Paulie, she walks to me and takes me in her arms. My friends were fully aware of me, and what I go through, I've called them all during the middle of the lonely nights when I had no one, just to say that I missed Tegan. So they new around this time, that it was my time to mope around the house, drink a lot of red wine, fall asleep on the couch with my hand down my pants, I was so pathetic when Emy was gone.

Paulie grabs my hand and everyone takes their seat in the living room. We walk up my stairs and head down the hall to my room. Paulie lets me walk in first, I turn to her and she closes the door.

I feel the tear slip from my eye, I miss Tegan, I missed her touch, I miss the way we were inceperable, the way we were attached at the hip. She walks up to me, sighs and wraps her arms around my back. I lean into her and cry, this isn't the first time Paulie has had to hold me, shower me, change me, she does its all the time, it was a thing for her to come and check up on me, make sure I was still alive.

"Sara, its been 10 years . . . you have to move on."

I cling to her and she pulls away, grabbing my arm. She leans me to my bathroom, and starts the water. She helps me take off my clothes and I step into the shower. She washed my body, letting me do my private parts myself, and then turned off the water. She wraped my towel around my chest and helped me back to my room. I sit on my bed and watch as she grabs my clothes and stands me up.

"Sara, whens Emy comming back?"

I sigh and put my t-shirt on.

"5 days."

She shakes her head and grabs my pants, I step into them and pull them up.

"I hate leaving you when shes not here, your happy when your with her Sar, why can't you just accept that."

I sit down on my bed and look at the ground. She was right, when Emy was around, I was okay, not exactly happy, but I was stable, I smiled, I laughed, I was close to alive. But not because I was over Tegan, but because I didn't feel alone. When Emy was gone, I really felt alone, like I had no one.

"I know . . . but you have to understand Paulie."

"Understand what Sara? Look at you, Im gonna tell you what you told me, You look like shit, Your crying over the past, you never eat anymore, Sara I understand completely, you miss her, but its time to let go. Shes somewhere in the world, living, while your hear rotting away."

I feel my heart slowly cracking down the middle, I knew she was right, everyone was right, they all said the same thing, they just never understood that I can't because I can't forget my First Love, My Everything.

I stand up and look at her, she sighs and grabs my hand, she leads me out of my room, down the stairs, and into my living room, where all my friends are. They all turn to me and smile.

"Feeling okay Sara?"

Rodney looks at me and I force a smile, for Paulie.

"Yea, I just needed to freshen up."

He nods and Paulie leads me to the couch where Charlie is. I sit down and watch as Charlie places her arms around Pualie, pulling her into her, just like Tegan used to with me. I fight back my tears and Lizzy smiles.

"Sara, Im having a birthday party for Andrew, wanna come?"

All my friends had moved on, Lizzy had two kids, a husband, a career. Ronnie and Rodney made it past highschool, married at 24, they have a house and a dog. Charlie and Paulie were engaged, their own loft, a pet cat, and that was it. They were living, and I was sitting At home 4 days out of the week, alone, without my girlfriend.

"Of course , when is it?"

She smiles at Michael and he looks at me.

"2 weeks, were gonna have it inside our house, Emy is always welcomed too."

I nod and look at the picture frame on the end table, Emys perky face in the metal frame. She made me happy, but most of all, when she was here, she made me forget.

"Thanks."

"So, I was thinking you guys, about our highschool reunion, everyones going."

Paulie looks at us and Lizzy smiles.

"I know Im so excited, I can't wait to see everyone."

While everyone talks, I look out to my patio, I just wanted to sit their and let the rain hit me. As the night went on, we all talked, we all laughed, we all hugged, we all drank, then by 1:20 in the morning, I was alone again. In my bed, letting the silent tears run down my face. Memories flash through my mind.

"Does is hurt baby?"

I trail my hands down my naked body, her hands were mine.

"Tegan, it feels so good."

I push 3 fingers into myself and gasp, the image of her on top of me taking over. I moan as I pump in and out of myself, feeling my fingers curl inside me. Minutes later, after cumming and screaming her name at the top of my lungs, I curl into a ball, pulling the blankets over my whole body. I was a mess, I cried, I cried until my tears couldn't come out anymore, I cried until I finally fell alseep.

I flutter my eyes open and look at the ceiling, memories of last night shake me head. When I feel the matress shift, I turn to my side and see Emy. My eyes grow wide as she looks right at me, fully clothed,smiling.

"Hey hunny."

I look at her in shock.

"When did you get back?"

She smiles and moves a piece of hair out of my face.

"Couple hours ago, I didn't want to wake you. They canceled my photoshoot so I caught the next flight."

I feel my loneliness drift away and she smiles and wraps her arms around my body, pulling me into her. I snuggle into her neck and she removes the covers from my body. I blush and she smiles. She leans down and takes my nipple into her mouth. I moan and place my fingers into her hair, lightly tugging on it. In the relationship, Emy was the top, I was the bottom, it was very rare that Emy let me touch her, only on special occassions, like my birthday, or christmas shit like that, but it killed me not to. When I would try she would shake her head, she loved pleasuring me, she just didn't like to recieve it as much.

She trails he kisses down my stomach and stops at my belly button. I look down at her and she smiles, I push her head down and she smashes into my core, licking at my slit up and down. I arch my back and feel my body shake a little. She plunges her tongue into me and I gasps, closing my legs on her face.

"Fuck Sara, everytime seriously?"

I feel her tongue stop and I look down, she shakes her head and pulls my legs apart, She holds them down and continues. I moan and my breath starts to heave. One thing Emy hated was having my legs close on her, she just hated it, but it was something I couldn't control. She keeps licking and plunges, I feel my walls tighten and I grab at the sheets.

"Im gonna cum Emy!"

She nods and I feel her plunge into me 2 more times, and I cum.

"Fuuhhhh."

My body goes limp and I turn my head to the side, enjoying my high. I feel her crawl up my body and smile at me, licking her lips. I turn to her and see my 16 year old Tegan, her little mullet, her labret, her hazel eyes, her thin eyebrows. I blink and see Emy again. She leans down and kisses me, her kisses weren't like Tegans, they were rushed, they were just different. She pulls away and smiles at me.

"Come with me to town, Im gonna go shopping, and I have to check out some new joint for Ink Magazine, they want me to take pictures of a new Tattoo shop."

I sigh and she shakes her head.

"You have to get out of the house Sara, when Im here you stay here, when Im not here you stay here. When was the last time you left the house?"

I look at her and shrug.

"2 weeks?"

She shakes her head and grabs my arms.

"Lets go, your going."

I let her sit me up and she walks to my closet, grabbing a maroon and white baseball shirt, some jeans, and my maroon converse. When Tegan left, maroon became my favorite color, I have tons of clothes with it, shoes with it, everything. She stands me up and changes me, I felt like a vegetable, I had someone to shower me, change me, just do everything for me. When she changed me, and combed my hair, she grabed her camera, keys and wallet. One thing Emy did was take her camera everywhere. It kind bugged me, but it was something she loved, so I didn't mind. We get into her car and she drives out of the parking lot and down the highway. Town was 20 minutes away, as we got onto the road, I reached for the CD player and poped in Now, Now- Thread album.

"You really like them huh?"

I nod and look out the window, the rain stopping, only the gray dark clouds taking over. When we pull into town she parks in front of a diner, and we gets off the car.

"I want you to eat something okay?"

"Emy Im not hungry."

I walk onto the sidewalk, and she grabs my hand, leading me up to the diner.

"You need to eat, your getting to skinny."

She opens the door and I realize that there is no winning with her.

"How many?"

The boy asks me.

"2"

He nods and grabs two menus.

"Follow me."

I walk behind Emy and look at everyone eat, their personal conversations, all in one room. We get to our table and I sit down, Emy sits across from me and hands me a menu. I take it and look through it.

"So, wanna know why the shoot got canceled?"

I look up from my menu and nod.

"The two models were sleeping together and had a huge breakup, so the called off the phototshoot."

She shakes her head and looks at her Menu.

"What are you gonna get?"

I ask her, she smiles and looks at her menu.

"A burger, you?"

I look around and find the only thing that looks good.

"A salad."

"No, get something with fat on it Sara."

"Emy I want a salad."

"You know I try to help you, your getting skinnier everyday Sara, you need to eat."

"How you never see me everyday Emy!?"

She looks down and then looks at me. I sigh and fold my menu back up, placing it on the table.

"Whats wrong with you, your not the same girl I fell in love with years ago Sar, you were fun, you were happy."

Thats was all true, I was happy because she was still in school. We were a young couple still enjoying the first years of a relationship, she was making me foget, I would have forgotten too, if she didn't start traveling around, leaving me alone with my thoughts and memories to haunt me.

"Im just . . . Im sorry Emy. Can we just forget this please, I just want to spend some time with you, now that your here okay?"

She smiles weakly and reaches over the table, linking our hands together.

"I love you Sara, please remember that."

I nod and the waitress comes.

"Hello, My name is Amy, I'll be your server today, can I get you started with some drinks?"

"2 cokes."

"Were ready to order as well."

She nods and looks at me.

"Can we have two cheeseburger specials."

I look at Emy and she smiles.

"Sure, that'll be all?"

I nod my head and hand her our menus. She walks away and I look at Emy.

"Thank you."

She whispers, I nod and squeeze her hand, before pulling it back to my lap.

"So whats the tattoo shop thing about?"

I ask her, she smiles and the waitress comes back with our drinks. She sets them down and walks away again.

"Well, Its for Ink, Its some Tattoo Shop, some girl opened up, shes supposed to be really good, so they want me to take pictures of her shop, and maybe of her giving someone a tattoo, but its not set yet, I have to accept it first, thats why I wanna go check it out."

"Where is it at?"

I ask her, taking a sip from my drink.

"Couple blocks down, we can walk right?"

I nod and she smiles.

"Whats the name of the Shop?"

She looks at me and makes a wierd face.

"Hart-y Tattoos."