FINAL AUTHORS NOTE FOR FIRST LOVE: Guys, what a journey it has been, emotional rollercoasters, love, and heartbreak. I hate that it ended so soon, but It had to be done. This is my favorite story that I have ever written & im pretty sure alot of people loved this story. I cried while writing this chapter, my mom had to tear me away from my computer. I hope that I don't disappoint you, the ending might but Im hoping you'll understand. I wanna thank everyone for reading this and reviewing, but most of all for loving it. I really enjoyed writing this story and Im truly going to miss it, maybe later on in the future, i could do a little sequel, but for now, Im writing new stories. The soundtrack for this chapter, I have decided to let you chose. I would recomend sad songs of course, but you listen to what you want for the start. I am going to tell you what I listened to, in case you would like to know and maybe listen to them. I listened to the theme song Lifehouse-Everything, Lifehouse-Broken, Lifehouse-Somewhere In Between, The Sundays- Wild horses, The Goo Goo Dolls- Let love In, Lenny Kravitz-Again & Can't Get You Out Of My Mind, El Perro Del Mar- From The Valley To The Stars, Tattle Tale-Glass Vase Cello Case, Kinnie Starr- Alright and Jane Siberry- Anytime. Again Thank you Everybody & ENJOY.

* I highly recomend you hear El Perro Del Mar, Tattle Tale, The Sundays, And All The Lifehouse Songs That I Mentioned. For the song Sara sings at the end, please pull it up, Its by DAVE MATHEWS BAND-CRASH INTO ME and read it with the lyrics. Also for the last scene, You MUST listen to STEVIE NICKS-CRYSTAL, Im going to put a little note for you to start it. Its gonna look like this. *STEVIE NICKS-CRYSTAL*

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Chapter 23: Even after Im Dead, I Still Wouldn't Leave You.

Sara POV:

I open my eyes and look at the ceiling, the sound of knocking waking me.I turn over to Tegan, her naked body wraped in her blankets. The knocking happens again and I hear my phone buzzing. I reach over to the nightstand and grab it, I look at the screen and feel my heart drop. It was Emy, I haven't talked to her in two days, I haven't even been to our apartment, I have really thought about her. The wave of guilt washes over me, I climb over Tegans sleeping figure and walk out of the room. I sit down on her tattoo chair and watch as the phone keeps ringing. Her picture, the picture of her as her Callder ID broke my heart, how could I have done this? Just drop her out of the blue, no explanation, no chance to fight, no signs, knowing her she was heartbroken. I hear 3 lazy knocks, I turn to the curtain and get up from the chair, I make my way to the curtain and pull it back slowly. The image kills me, Emy leaning against the glass door, crying, her eyes closed, as she pounds on the door. I take baby steps, afraid that if I rush, I would scare her into a seizure. When I get to the glass door, her eyes still closed, I lightly tap on the glass with my index finger. She opens her eyes and backs away from the door. She stands still, her body looking lifeless, she also looks like she hasn't slept since she found out. I reach down and slowly unlock the door, if I let her in, this could be it. I could lose her forever, never see her, never hold her, never be with her again, was I ready to give it all up? She helped me, of course Charlie and Paulie did too, but she helped me in a way that I couldn't ask my friends to do, she loved me, more than a friend, she loved me as a wife. The door clicks and I slowly pull it to me, the bell ringing. I look at her and she looks at me, her eyes trailing from mines down to my neck, then I realize, the dark hickeys Tegan gave me last night. I drop my head and hear her sniffle.

"Can we talk . . .?"

Her voice was so unfamiliar, it was low, cold, lifeless, and most of all broken. I bite my lip hard, I feel only the 1 percent of what shes feeling. I look up and nod. She drops her head and sniffles again.

"I'll wait for you out here, you should change."

Her voice was lower when she said it, I look down to my body and my eyes grow wide, I was in Tegans boxers and her wife beater. I close the door and turn around, my eyes looking around. The maroon walls, they slowly started to turn gray, I was lifeless, the color draining from my face, what was I going to say? What was I going to do? What was she going to say? Every question running through my mind. I slowly walk back, I open the curtain and walk to Tegans room. I walk in and smile, she was on her stomach, laying straight down, her face turned to the wall, where I was. I walk up to her and look at her body, her back, her bum, everything, she was where I wanted to be, If it ment me hurting Emy, I had to. Tegan made me happy, she made me alive back then, and now. I was a mess, I was always crying everyday, in the past 2 days, I haven't cried from pain, but from happiness, I want to cry from happiness now everyday. I bring my hand down to her back, using my index finger, tracing her mothers name on her back, the beautiful font running smoothly under my fingertips. I lean down and place a soft kiss on her Ink, the memory of me holding her that day she found out came to mind, I smiled against her skin. I stand back up straight and turn around, walking towards her closet. I look through her clothes and grab a pair of skinny jeans. I look through her shirt drawer and smile, the shock running through my spine. I pick up the old familiar maroon shirt, we had matching ones, I threw mines out, but she kept hers. I bite my lip and remember shopping with her that day. That was a good day, she looked at me like I was the most beautiful girl in the world, the same look she gave me last night. I pull off her wife beater and drop it to the floor, I pull down her boxers and stand naked. I turn around and grab my bra from the floor, I put it on and pull on her shirt, her scent bubbling me in. I reach for her pants and put them on, pulling them up my thin legs. I reach down and grab my maroon converse, slipping them on without socks. I turn around and walk to her nighstand, I look around for my phone and realize that I left it in the tattoo room. I start to head for the door when I realize I forgot something. I turn around and walk back to the bed, I lean down and place another kiss on Tegan, only this time on her head.

"I love you . . . I'll be back later . . . I promise."

I made a promise to come back, I wouldn't leave her, even if it hurt Emy bad, and I felt like the biggest asshole, I wouldn't leave Tegan, not after everything, and what she told me last night, I had to stay, we needed eachother for so long, If I were to leave, we would both surely die. I stand back up and head out the door, turning back one last time, burning the image of her in bed before I leave. I close her door, and walk to the tattoo chair, grabbing my phone. I walk to the curtain and slowly reach for it. I pull back the curtain and see Emy, still standing, her back faced me, looking out into the street. I sigh and slowly make my way to the door. When I open it, and the bell chimes, she drops her head and I feel my heart start to fall. I close the door and walk up behind her. Without looking she turns and walks over to her car, opening my door, I stand frozen, and she walks over to her side, getting in. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I open them and she turns the car on, I make my way to the open door and sit inside. I close the door and she turns up the volume on the radio. My heart finally dropped, the song she dedicated to me came on. It was the first song she ever sang to me over the phone, the first set of lyrics she ever resited to me, it was Lovesong By 311. I turned my head and looked out the window, she pulls onto the street and starts to drive where ever, I keep my eyes on the moving scenery, listening to the lyrics, remembering when she sang them to me. We were laying in bed on our 1 year aniversary, we just finished making love, and she wouldn't stop smiling. She was laying between my legs, her head on my chest, looking up at me. I had my hands in her hair and she was just gazing at me.

"However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you"

I look into her eyes, she ment everyone of those words. She sang that song to me on our 6 month aniversary, she told me it was her song to me. Now shes resiting the lyrics, without the music this time. I love her too, she was the only other person, that I dated, but that I actually loved, she didn't get all of my love though, that was still hidden away. But since Tegan, she has been the only one,shes staying too. I lean down and place a soft kiss on her lips, she smiles and crawls up my body, I wrap my arms around her and she tickles my sides, I laugh and she brushes her cheek against mines.

"I love you Sara, you mean so much to me, Your My Everything."

The memory of Tegan passes through my mind, it made my heart crack, Emy had said the words that my First Love had told me. It brought tears to my eyes, now matter how perfect a moment could be with her, I always had to think about Tegan, compare Emy to her. I pull away from her cheek and force a smile through my watery eyes.

"All I want to do is sleep today, with you."

It was true, I needed her to hold me, I needed her to make me forget. She kisses my cheek and rolled off me, I turned my back to her and she wraped her arms around my waist, pulling me into her, her patch of curls hitting my bum. I snuggle into her and started to compare again. Her hold wasn't like Tegans, hers didn't have a lot of meaning to it, it was a one way thing, she held me with her love, I sat there and thought about someone else, wishing it could be her, but knowing it wasn't. She brings her face into my neck and kisses my skin lightly.

"Happy Aniversary Hunny, I love you."

I could feel her lips curl on my skin, it sent a huge wave of guilt down to my heart.

"Happy Aniversary Emy, love you too."

That morning is still fresh to me, just like every memory with Tegan is fresh to me. I keep my eyes on the window, not wanting Emy to see the tears that are now streaming down my face. I look at the familiar buildings and remember this place, as she drives up the hill, I close my eyes. She had to take me here, the one place where she new I would remember the specific memories. I look down and see the city of london, getting smaller and smaller as we leave it. I keep my eyes closed and remember the image of Tegan this morning, she was my everything. I felt the car turn off and the break being lifted. I heard her muffle around then I heard the car door open and close. I drop my head and open them, I wipe the tears off my cheek and look up. She was sitting on the familiar rock, the huge rock that over looked London. She was just looking at the city, her body slouched, something she never did, in fact she hated it when I slouched, but there she was slouching. She had her head dropped and the winds blowing through her short brown locks, the gray cloud fitting the mood. I reach my hand for the door handle and pull on it, the door popping open. I climb out of the car, and close the door lightly. I look around, the small hilltop, I smile, she new I could not, not remember them, they were the begining of our relationship, I showed her this place, she fell in love with it, she brang me up here every weekend, that was until she got her job and started traveling, we haven't been her since, that was 3 years ago. I sigh and my smile fades, as I put one foot in front of the other, making my way over to her. She was wearing the olive green peacoat I got for her birthday 2 years ago, a pair of black denim jeans, a black and white stripped t-shirt and some black boots. I climb up the rock and sit down next to her, I look at the city and hear her sigh. I watch as the cars drive down the streets, the small tiny ant figures walking around, the small lights from stores, this was always my favorite place.

"This is where I realized I was in love with you . . ."

I look down and see her fiddling with her hands, moving her thumbs around eachother. Emy was always strong, she was never one to get nervous, If she did, she never showed it. It was finally showing, she was feeling ever sad emotion, every emotion to fit with a gloomy day. I look up to her and shes looking at the city still.

"I fell in love with you . . . on this hill top."

I feel my eyes start to water again, she never exactly told me when she fell in love with me, she always said she would tell me, if we made it past 5 years, ironic.

"The first time I touched you, in the backseat of my old car, thats when I fell in love with you Sara."

I feel my bones start to shake and my breathing becomes a workout for me.

"I always new that there was something wrong, that there was a part of you that I couldn't figure out, that I could never have or be apart of."

I look down to my knees and close my eyes, waiting for her to continue.

"It was your past . . . I couldn't be apart of your past."

I bite down on my lip, that was the one thing I denied her of, I never wanted her to hear about me being happy with Tegan, I wanted her to see me as the way I was when she met me, the way she made me feel.

"You made sure I never knew . . . you kept it from me, now I know everything."

My eyes grow wide and I feel the tears slip, no hesitation. I turn to her and she looks at me, directly in the eyes. Her cheeks soaking wet from her silent tears.

"Charlie told me . . . about you and Tegan, Sara."

I sigh and look up to the clouds, she knew. She knew what I felt, knowing Charlie, she told her straight out that I didn't love her like I love Tegan, and that made my eyes burn.

"Is she who you would picture in bed with you, was it her collar bones you would trace into mines, was it her that you wished I was?"

Theres was no hiding, I couldn't run, I couldn't not answer, she deserved to know. I have hidden away this part of me for to long, it was time that I actually told her. I nod my head and she drops hers.

"Say it."

I hear the hurt in her voice and It makes me flinch.

"She was the one I wished you were . . ."

I start to sob, I told her the truth, and instead of her breaking down, I felt my body slowly shut down.

"The nights you cried . . . were they for her too?"

Her voiced sounded calmer, and it made me start to worry, she was calming she wasn't nervous anymore, she was going ot be straight forward, I know it.

I nod my head and she turns to the side, the wind rushing past her, blowing her hair into her face.

"I thought they were for me . . . I thought you missed me so much, that you couldn't live without me."

I feel the knife go into my chest, she felt used. I didn't use her, I loved her too, if she would have never started traveling, I might have been okay now. I might have moved on from Tegan, slowly, but I would have moved on.

"Did you know she was comming back?"

I shake my head and a tear falls onto the back of my hand. I place my index finger over it and spread it around my skin, letting it soak up everything.

"You said you hated hickeys, you never let me suck on your skin."

My eyes grow wide as I remember last night, I begged Tegan to mark me, to show that I was hers, to prove I was there to stay too. I bring my hand up to the two purple spots on my neck, directly over my pulse point. I close my eyes and feel Tegans tongue swirling around them, sucking on my spot.

Emy POV:

I just talked, I let everything from my mind go. She new I needed her to just listen for once, I don't need her to interrupt, I didn't want her to talk, not yet. I seen the hickeys on her neck, they were a dark purple, and I saw them this morning, the ones on her breasts, the dark purple showing through her thin material. I tried to give her them, she always said no, that they were like marking someones property, and she said she wasn't anyones property. But she let Tegan, she let Tegan brand her, she lets Tegan mark her territory.

I look down to my pocket, the small box just sitting in there.

Sara POV:

"Im sorry Emy . . ."

Was all I could say, it was the only set of words that kept passing through my mind. She looks up at the sky and the light roar of thunder makes me jump.

"Do you love me . . . did you ever love me?"

The memories, I said I loved her too, and I did. I ment every I love you to her, whether it was forced or just sprawled out naturally, I had to have felt love in order for me to say it.

"I do love you Emy . . .."

She hangs her head low and turns to me.

"Just not more than Tegan?"

I can't answer that, I already know that its a sure yes, but I couldn't tell her, not straight up.

"Right?"

She keeps her eyes on me and I stay quiet, I can see her getting frustrated, her hands clenching.

"God dammit Sara just say it! You've already hurt me! Just fucking say it! I want to hear it!"

"I LOVE HER MORE THAN YOU!"

Her body relaxes and I let my tears fall, streaming down my face, my sobs making me choke. She looks down and I continue.

"Is that what you wanted to hear? I love her Emy . . . I have since I was 16. She was the girl who broke me . . . and I've known since then . . . that she was the only one who could fix me. Shes the only person I can't seem to escape, shes my first and only love Emy. . ."

She bites her lip and more tears come out. She brings her hands to her face and cries into them. She thought she could handle it, but she couldn't. The tough eterior she had built up all these years, the strong side of her was weak, she was falling apart.

"Im sorry."

I hear her mumble into her hands. I wipe the tears from my face and reach my hand over, grabbing hers off her face.

"Why are you sorry?"

She looks at the city and shakes her head.

"I left you alone . . . I left you with a broken heart . . . I left you when you needed me, when you needed someone."

I shake my head and grab her wrists, pulling her into me, she buries her head into my neck and I lay my jaw on her head.

"You helped me more than anyone . . Emy you loved me, thats all I ever wanted . . . Its me who couldn't find it to love you back the way I love her."

She lifts her headup from my neck and rests her forhead to mines. I place my hands on the back of her head, and close my eyes, listening to her cry.

"I love you Emy, for everything you've done, for helping me, and now I need you to prove you love me, I need you to understand . . ."

I open my eyes and shes looking into my eyes, both of our eyes watery beyond puddles.

"I love you Sara . . . "

She leans in and places a kiss on my lips, the taste of cheep booze lingering onto mines. She pulls away and looks at me. She reaches down into her pocket and grabs something. I keep my eyes on her, never leaving them.

"I went yesterday . . . and got another one, . . . If you don't want it I understand."

She pulls away and brings up a red velvet box up to my face. My eyes start to stream again. She wanted to Marry me.

She opens the box and I look down to the sliver little band, plain and simple. I look up to her and shes looking down at it.

"I . . . had originally bought you a diamond band . . . but I just . . . I took that back and got you this. Im not asking you to Marry me anymore . . Im just asking you to do me one favor."

She takes the ring out and hands it to me, I hold it between my fingers and see the words written on the inside.

"Remember me . . ."

I smile and choke on a sob, she understood already, she just wanted me to remember her. I look at her and smile, nodding my head. She smiles weakly and brings her lips to my cheek.

"Always . . . please?"

I lean my forhead to hers and nod.

"Always Emy."

She smiles and reaches down, grabbing my hand. She pulls away and starts to stand up, pulling me up with her. We stand on the rock and she wraps her arms around me and hugs me tight.

"I'm always going to love you."

She kisses my head and I smile, the joy of her understanding. She pulls away and I look down, I smile as I put the ring on my finger, on my right hand. She smiles and starts to walk off the rock. I climb off the rock and we walk back to her car. When we get to our sides, I open my door and sit down in my seat. Emy stands, her lower body showing and I hear her whisper to the hill top.

"Goodbye Sara . . ."

I look down and close my eyes, I was thankful for her, I was so thankful for her. Now all I wanted to do, was go home, Tegan was my home. She climbs into the car and closes her door, turning on the car. I reach for her hand and link them together, she smiles and puts the car in reverse. The whole ride down the hill was silent, the whole ride back into town was silent, we were both okay. When she started driving down the street of Tegans shop,I felt my heart flutter. I could be with her now, I could be happy again, I could feel alive again. Emy parks the car and looks at me.

"I was wondering . . . If I could talk to Tegan, Im not going to hurt her I promise."

I look at the shop doors, still dark inside. I nod my head and she turns off the car. As I start to walk away, thinking Emys behind me, I hear her trunk open.

"Sara."

I turn around and shes holding 2 bags.

"Until we sort the whole thing out with the apartment, I know you should stay here, where you belong."

I smile and walk back to her, grabbing the two bags. She reaches back into the trunk and pulls out a familiar case, my old guitar case, I haven't seen it in years. I hid it away and stopped playing after highschool, but my fingers were already aching, because I knew my motivation, my inspiration was just behind 2 doors and a curtain. She closes her trunk and starst to walk next to me. I open the door and smile as the bell dings. She closes the door and follows me. I open the curtain and set my bags down on the floor. I turn over to Emy and she smiles weakly. I open the door and walk in. I smile when I see Tegan sitting at her desk, sketching out some tattoos. She looks at me and jumps up, running to me and wraping her arms around me. I smile and wrap my arms around her neck. She leans her forhead on mines and sighs.

"I thought you left me . . . ."

She whispers, I smile and shake my head.

"Never."

I lean in and place my lips on hers, she moans and deepens the kiss. My heart stops, my knees go weak, and my mind forgets everything. Her tongue massages mines, and I feel like I did years ago, as light as a feather. We both pull away and she brushe her nose to mines, I smile and close my eyes, the lust taking over.

"Where have you been?"

She whispers, then I remember Emy. I turn around and see Emy standing at the doorway, looking at us. She looks down and I hear Tegans breathing speed up.

"Emy . . ."

Tegan whispers. Emy looks back up and looks at Tegan.

"Can I talk to you Tegan?"

She says it calmly, Tegan unwraps her arms around me, and Emy walks in more. Tegan looks at me, then back to her, she nods and Emy looks at me.

"Do you mind if I talk to her alone?"

I look at Tegan and she smiles, letting me know she was fine. I shake my head and pull away from her. I turn around and head to the door, I close it and walk to her tattoo chair, sitting down, waiting.

Tegan POV:

Emy looks around and I stand awkwardly. What was she going to say? Was she going to attack me? She looks up and me and I can already see the water in her eyes.

"Do you mind if we sit?"

I shake my head and she sits down on the bed, she moves her legs and kicks the strap on, Sara and I forgot to put away. I take in a deep breath and she sighs.

"I understand . . ."

She says in a low voice,looking at her feet. She looks at me and I look at her. You could tell this wasn't easy for her, just a week ago, she had her girlfriend to herself, no worries. Now she was with me, I took Sara from her.

"Shes never kissed me like that before . . ."

She scoffs and I look down. When Sara and I kissed, my world stopped each time, when I was 16, and even now. She was the only one that I felt that with, not even Jenn. She looks down to the floor and reaches down. I watch her as she leans down and grabs the picture of Sara and I at Winter Formal 10 years ago. She looks at Sara and chokes on a sob, but still smiles.

"She looked so happy here . . . she looked healthy, she looked strong . . . she looks like she does now that shes with you . . ."

She sighs and I look down to the picture. She looked so happy, we were both smiling as we kissed. I smile at the memory.

"Tegan . . . I want you to know something."

I look at her and she looks at me dead in the eye.

"I love Sara, and I know that I can't compare to you . . . I see it. She kissed you like the world stopped and it was just you too, but I want you to know that if you ever hurt her again . . ."

I drop my head and look at the ground, I already new, but still listened.

"I want you to think about how much you don't deserve her . . . how much she deserves better, better than you and I. Shes been through alot, and I have watched her for years cry, I thought the tears were for me, but they were for you . . . Just please don't hurt her."

I nod my head and smile. I couldn't hurt her, not anymore, I needed her now, and she needed me, we needed eachother.

"Promise me you won't hurt her, promise me you'll make her . . . her again."

I look at Emy and see the pain, she knows she couldn't help Sara the way I can. I new I was the only one who could help her, I was the one who broke her.

"I promise you I will never hurt her again, I'll take care of her."

She smiles and reaches for my hand, she squeezes it and start to cry and smile at the same time.

"Thank you ."

I smile weakly at her and she stands up. She lets go of my hand and starts to walk for the door. She opens it and I hear her footsteps, then sobs and mumbles. I drop down my head and think about everything, I took Sara from Emy, but Emy was okay with it. I love Sara and I swear to god I will never hurt her, I won't leave her alone, I won't give her reason to not trust me, I will make sure she is taken care off, she deserves it, and I deserve to be the one she spends the rest of her life with. I hear the bell chime above my front door and hear footsteps. I look up and see Sara. She walks up to me and grabs my head, placing it on her stomach. I place my hands on her waist and she massages my scalp.

"I love you."

She whispers, I smile against her stomach and place a light kiss above her belly button. I feel her hands leave my head and suddenly, she starts to pull up her shirt. I pull back and she drops my t-shirt to the floor, she reaches around her back and her bra falls to the floor. I look at her as she moves down to her pants, she unbottons them and slides them down her legs. I look up and down her body, shes so beautiful. She gets on her knees and grabs the hem of my shirt, she pull off my wife beater, and tosses it to the bed. She motions for me to stand up and I do. She grabs my boxers and pulls them down my legs, I step out of them and she stands up. She brings her face centimeters away from mines and looks into my eyes. She looks down and grabs my hand, linking it with hers. She turns around and starts to walk towards the bathroom. I watch her body sway as she opens the door and walks to the shower. She bends down and turns on the water, letting the tub fill. I wrap my arms around her waist and she leans into my presence.

"I love you too."

I kiss her cheek and she smiles. She turns around and I look down, the purple spots on her breasts showing. I lean down and place a kiss on them, slowly swirling my tongue on them, letting her feel the meaning of it. She pulls away and climbs into the tub. She turns off the water and tugs on my hand. I step into the water and sit in front of her, my back against her chest. She kisses my neck and places her hands on my stomach.I lace our fingers together and she smiles. We sit there for a while, letting our skin wrinkle in the warm water. Sara grabs my shampoo and washes me, she washes my whole body, even my private areas. When Its my turn, I do the same thing, sometimes placing kisses on her body. When were all clean, she pulls the plug on the water and it starts to drain. I get out first and grab our towels, we dry eachother in silence, letting eachother focus. As she dries my arms, she goes slow, admiring my ink. She leans down and kisses my tree tattoo, I got it for my mom, I also have her name tattood on my back. She grabs my hand and leads me back out of my bathroom and to my bed. She sits down on the bed and looks up to me, She grabs my hand and pulls me closer to her, her chin on my stomach. I smile down at her, and she presses her lips to my stomach. My body shutters and I feel the tingles run up my spine. She grabs my other hand and lays down on the bed. She pulls me down and I lay on top of her, our legs dangling off the bed. She pushes the wet hair out of my face and cups my jaw.

"Im so in love with you."

She lets the first tear fall and I smile.

"Im so in love with you."

I tell her back. I lean up to her and kiss her lips. She moans and wraps her arms around my neck, the way she used too. I smile and push the wet hair sticking to her forhead back, she pulls away and looks at me. The moonlight lightly shining on her face, She brings her hand up to my cheek and I rub my cheek into her palm.

"How have I gone this long without you . . ."

She searches my face and smiles, more tears falling.

"Never leave me again . . . I wouldn't survive."

I feel my eyes water and I lean down and kiss her again, letting her know, that I wouldn't. Not only did I make promises to people that I wouldn't leave her, and to myself, but I just couldn't.

Sara POV:

Tegan pulls away and looks at me, her eyes watering up.

"Even after Im dead, I still wouldn't leave you . . ."

I crash my lips to hers and she moans. I feel her body start to shake and I smile. I move my thigh between her legs and she gasps, she continues to kiss me and situates her thigh between mines. It was my turn to break the kiss, I gasp loud and she sucks my bottom lip into her mouth. She sucks on it hard, making me whimper.

"Tell me you need me."

She lets go of my lip and I look at her. I grab her face and bring her lips close down to mines.

"I need you."

I tell her, she grinds her thigh into me and I throw my head back. She attacks my neck and sucks on it, creating more dark hickeys. She keeps grinding her thigh into me, putting the perfect amount of preasure on my clit. I wrap my arms around her neck and start to grind my thigh into her. She buries her head into my neck and we rub eachother, her cum coating my thigh, and my cum coating her thigh.

"Tell me you need me."

I whisper to her, needing to hear the words for myself now. She brings her mouth to my ear, and lets me hear her breathing.

"I . . . Need . . . You . . . Every Second . . . of Every . . . day."

She says between breaths, I bring my hands down and slowly palm her breasts, she gasps and buries her head again. I feel my walls slowly starting pulse. I want to drag us along for as long as I can. I stop thrusting and she whimpers. I place my hands on her back and flip us over, so Im on top of her, her thigh still between my legs, thrusting. I lean down and kiss her. She whimpers and I grab her bottom lip with my teeth. I tug on it gently and she smiles, her eyes rolling back. I sit up and straddle her waist, she looks at me and I smile. I bring both of my hands on her chest and trail them down onto her stomach. I massage her abbs,she giggles and I do too.

"Come here."

She smiles and I lean down on her, hovering my face over smiles and I kiss her teeth, she laughs and grabs my sides, laying me down on the bed next to her. I turn so Im facing her and she turns to me. I wrap my leg around her waist and she places her hand on my thigh, rubbing it. I feel her spread her cum and she smirks. She keeps rubbing it and I grab her wrists, I bring her fingers to my face and see her juices on her hand. I open my mouth and take her fingers into my mouth, licking each fingers clean, sucking on them. She watches me and I moan at her taste, she was the sweetest. She pulls her fingers out of my mouth and rests her forhead to mines. I brush my nose to hers and she smiles. She places her hand on my chest between my cleavage, I watch as her eyes follow her hand, slowly making their way down my body. When she gets to my mound she stops. I reach down and grab her hand, placing it on my clit. I close my eyes as she starts to slowly tease me. I bite my bottom lip and gasp when she pushes 3 fingers into me. She uses her other hand and pulls me into her, our heads pushed together. She slowly starts to pump in and put of me, doing little cirlular motions inside me. I bring my hand to her mound and cup her, she starts to breathe faster, her cum already dripping onto my finger tips. I skin the four play and spread her lips, pushing 3 fingers into her.

"Sara!"

She gasps and I crash our lips together. We both pump at a steady rhythm, both huffing and puffing.

"Tegan I . . . I want all of you."

She opens her eyes and I open mines. She looks at me and stops thrusting.

"Get on top of me."

She says, low and husky. I nod and she pulls out of me. My walls pulse, missing her fingers already. I climb onto her lap and straddle her waist. She places her hands on my kness and spreads them further apart, making me do the splits on her lap. I bring my hands up to her face and cup her jaw, bringing my forhead to hers.

"Are you sure you want all of me Sara?"

She whispers. I place a quick peck on her nose and nod.

"Every second of Everyday."

I resite her words to her, she nods and I feel the heat of her hand radiate onto my crotch. I cup her jaw tightly and feel her knuckles at my entrance.

"I love you Sar."

She pushes her fist into me and my mouth flies open.

"UGGGGGHHHHHH"

She places a kiss on my nose and I bury my head into her shoulder. I wrap my arms around her neck and hold on. She starts to slowly pump in and out of me, stopping at the start of her wrists. I gasps with each thrust a new wave of pleasure crashing over my body. She brings her other hand down and starts to circle my clit.

"Oh my god . . . Tegan Im not gonna last long."

I groan in frustration, her fist still making my body jolt.

"Then cum for me, don't hold back."

She kisses my cheek and I start to slowly grind against her fist, I raise my hips up and she keeps her fist in place. I start t ride her first, her finger never leaving my clit. I can hear the sound of my juices rubbing against her fist and my lips, turning me on even more. My walls start to clench and she notices.

"Cum baby."

I start to move faster and faster, boucing on her hand, she groans and I feel the first wave crash.

"Tegan Im cumming."

She kisses my neck and I place my face in front of hers, wanting her to watch me cum. I open my eyes and she can see the pain and pleasure mixed onto my face. She leans in and kisses me, I slide my tongue in her mouth and feel my whole body start to go numb, I start to slow down and Tegan starts to thrust back into me. My groans turn into moans, she rubs my clit and I cum, all over her fist. My walls clench and her fist pushes out of me making my body weak. I callapse in her arms, my eyes rolling into the back of my head. She lays down and I rest my head on her chest. She brings her hands up to my hair and I feel my cheek stick to her chest, the sweat from both of us mixing.

After I catch my breath, and my body goes back to normal, I lift my head and look at Tegan. She has her eyes closed, her hand smoothing my hair, and her other hand on my back. I peel my body off hers and she opens her eyes looking up at me. I smiled at her and I try my best to sit up but wince, I was already new I wanted to give her the same pleasure but She shakes her head and pulls me back down, this time, my neck on her shoulder, our faces together.

"You have your whole life to touch me Sara . . . just let me have this night."

She says the words I said to her the night I first touched her. I feel the tear fall and she looks at me.

"Okay?"

I smile and nod. I listen to the sound of her heartbeat, it was making my eyes close. The sound of each thump, the way it went goo goom, made my eyes fall. But I didn't want to sleep alone, I fought the sleep and waited until I heard Tegan breathing Steady. When It finally happened, I reached down and grabbed her hand, linking it with mines. She was mines forever, she was never going to leave me.

Tegan POV:

I hear the most beautiful strum, the sound of guitar strings being tuned. I open my eyes and look up at the only thing thats there, the ceiling. I hear the now perfectly tuned strings, the sound so peaceful. I prop myself up on my elbows and look around, Sara was sitting on the floor, in the middle of the room, her guitar in her lap, naked. Her back facing me, I sit up and turn to her, watching her as she looks down into a little familiar old book. The book I seen her poetry in, they were lyrics? I smile when I hear the sound of a melody.

"You've got your ball
You've got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Who's got their claws
In you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
And sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you "

She was singing Dave Mathews Band -Crash Into Me. I smile and watch her, the way she strummed with grace, the way her voice naturally picthed itself, making the high notes swoop. She was singing with so much beauty, so much feeling.

"You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
Into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

If I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl
Close to me

Oh and you come crash
Into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boys dream.. In a boys dream

Oh I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted
The way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash
Into me. "

She drops her head down and I see her jot a couple things down. That was the most amazing cover of that song I had ever heard. She was amazing. She puts her pick into her mouth and picks up the book, shining the gloomy cloud light onto the book. She sets it back down on the floor and keeps writing. I climb off the bed slowly and walk behind her. I sit down quietly. I smile and wrap my arms around her waist, she leans into my presence, and I place a kiss on her back.

*STEVIE NICKS-CRYSTAL*

"That was beautiful . . ."

I say, placing kisses up and down her spine. She smiles and turns her head to the side to see me. She bites her lip and puts the guitar down. She turns her whole body around to me and wraps her legs around my back. Were skin on skin, I smile and she rests her forhead on mines.

"I love you Tegan ."

I smile and brush my nose against hers.

"How much?"

She smiles and cups my jaw.

"Too much."

I smile as she uses my words. I bring my cheek to hers, she rubs hers against mines and I whisper to her.

"So, what happens when the girl gets the girl shes always wanted?"

I was finally happy, I was waiting for this my whole life. I never thought I would see her again, I thought I would never be happy again, but here I am. Im with Sara, the only girl I have ever loved more than love itself. Looking back on my life, I would have loved to stay with her, but then If I didn't, we probably wouldn't be here, in this exact same time right now, we wouldn't be happy together, we wouldn't have a stronger love then we do now. Im glad that I want to spend the rest of my life with her, and Even after I die, Im never going to leave her, I wouldn't.

Sara POV:

My reality for once is better than my dreams, I have dreamed about this day my whole life, and it was never this perfect. I imagined rainbows and unicorns, a sweet reunion, but this is so much better. Were finally together, were finally one, the way we were suppossed to love is so much stronger, we have survived 10 years without eachother, now it was time for us to mend eachother, to re-stich ever single wound we had faced without eachother. It was time for us to finally be happy together, and we are.

I place a sweet peck on her lips and look her in the eyes.

"They live Happily Ever After."