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Lilly's POV

I was laying down on the queen size bed that was put in my cell after I announced that I was pregnant. I also had twice as may visitor coming to check on my and the baby, but none of it could distract me from worrying about Loki out there fighting for our realm. I placed my hand on my stomach feeling the baby move. I tried to relax thinking of the oath that Thor said to me, that he would return Loki back to me and our baby but for some reason I had a bad feeling that something was about to go wrong. Just then I felt a sharp pain in my stomach and I whimpered, but it went away just as quickly as it came so I ignored it till it happened again this time it was worst. I struggled to get up and go to the wall and cry out for help but no one came.

I started to panic as I realized that there was something wrong with my baby, I called out again louder this time and still no one came. The pain was getting worst I couldn't take it, my knees gave out and I collapsed still calling out for help. I felt a gush of something wet between my legs and I finally understood what was happening, and that made me panic even more. I was in labor and I was going to ed up having this baby all by my self, that scared me even more because I didn't know how to have the baby. Loneliness started to creep in next to the fear and pain. What if I did something wrong? What if I hurt my baby? I tried to call out louder but the pain was so intense that I could barely utter a whisper. The pain was like my stomach was being set on fire, my mouth opened to scream but nothing came out, oh how I wish Loki was here he'd be able to call for help. I tried to focus on the stuff I was able to learn about child birth which is to keep breathing, it was hard with the pain but I did try to focus remembering that my baby's life was at stake right now and I needed to listen to my body and hope that I could give birth on my own.

I tried to sit up but that just made it worst, I could feel the sweat dripping down my face. I swallowed hard trying to stay conscience. I pulled up the skirt of my dress trying to use it to prop me up, at that time I felt a sudden urge to push and I listened to that and pushed. The pain intensified but I kept listening to my body praying that it would guild me through this safely. I pushes again a strangle scream was pushed through my teeth, at that moment I felt weak I wanted to give up and close my eyes to let the darkness drag me down to a place where there is no more pain and i'd be happy. But I remembered that I had to very important people waiting for me and I had to pull through this for them, so I continued to push with all my might. I was able to tell that the baby's head was emerging and I reached down to grab it, at the same time I was still pushing guiding the baby out. At that very moment

I knew that I could do this and that I will do this, I continued to push as the shoulders emerged I grabbed them as well. After a few more pushes the baby fell into my hands and I immediately picked her up and placed her on my chest. I looks at her then she was indeed a girl a beautiful baby girl, with thick black hair and beautiful green eyes. She didn't cry she just breathed quickly her eyes darting everywhere.

I used my skirt to cover the baby, attempting to keep her warm. At that point the darkness was getting stronger pushing me down, I tried to stay away but I was to tired to weak and the darkness eventually won over me. Everything just seemed to wash away, it was dark for a few minutes or maybe hours I couldn't tell, then there were colors . At first I couldn't make out the shapes they were making then they suddenly became clear, they were pictures or flashbacks most likely. There were images of me and Loki, me and my old family, memories that I tried to suppressed, seeing our daughter for the first time. And then there were images that I haven't encountered, Loki out there dead and left alone, our baby dying in my arms, me dying holding my baby. They all tangled together making no sense I suddenly really wanted to wake up, I tried to wake up but nothing was happening. I tried to scream for help but nothing came out, I started to panic I could't die my baby needs me but there was nothing I could do I started to cry this was then end no goodbye to the ones I love abandoning my baby so soon after her birth. This wasn't how I dreamt this would happen, this wasn't what I signed up for. But then a miracle happened and the darkness began to lighten, maybe I was wrong about dying maybe I was strong enough. The light became brighter and brighter and shapes started to form, first a bright like over head then the ceiling soon I was about to hear voices around me talking in urgent whispers. I could't make out what they we saying they were still so far away, but as more things became clear the voices got closer. Then I could hear the words they were saying and the things they said worried me.

"What are we going to tell her when she wakes up, this is going to kill her." A male voice said in a husky whisper. Was there something wrong with my baby, is Loki ok? I tried to ask but still no words came out.

"We must tell her as gently as possible, who knows how strong her spirt will be once she wakes." A women's voice answered back in a soothing motherly voice, I tried to remember who this was but my thoughts were so jumbled that I couldn't really think clearly.

"Have they brought him back?" The male asked. There was some shifting like someone moved.

"Yes, they've put him in the morgue." The female announce and it seemed at that moment everything clicked into place, Thor and Frigga were talking quietly out the hall and they were talking about someone in the morgue. At that moment I found my voice, and I was able to finally ask the question I wanted to so bad.

"Who is in the morgue?" I asked my voice still very week, they rushed into my room the moment they hear me talk. Frigga gently stroked my hair.

"Hello dear how are you feeling" She asked clearly dodging my question, that made me panic because she never keeps things from me.

"Where's my baby, where is Loki are they ok?" I ignored her question and pressed on mine, I saw her think about how to say something and I wanted to scream that she could tell me anything just don't make me wait a moment longer.

"Your baby is fine, but Loki is not." She said slowly, for some reason she was being careful in what she was saying, then Thor confirmed the one thing that broke my world.

"Sister, while battling to save me Loki got injured." He said, looking down not able to look me in my eyes.

"How bad?" I asked even though I knew the answer already but I needed to hear it said to me.

"We are not one hundred percent sure on the extent of his injuries." He tried to counter my question.

"How bad Thor!" I raised my voice irritated at their pity games trying to protect me. Tear were already falling with he uttered the words.

"Lilly, first let me apologize I broke my oath. I had no way to save him, it happened when he was saving my life. Lilly Loki is gone and I'm so sorry i-i don't know how to make this right." He eventually ran out of words to say to me, I felt like all my veins were filled with ice I couldn't breath right. I literally felt my heart rip into two, a strangled cry escaped my lips I clutched my hands to my chest trying to hold my heart together. My mind stopped thinking I was frozen as everything I knew came crashing down, it seemed to my like the world just got a little darker. My head wasn't letting me process things I was frozen in the one endless moment of horror and pain. It felt like hours before I could move Frigga and Thor stayed by my side once I was unfrozen I lunged at Thor.

"YOU PROMISED, YOU PROMISED ME YOU'D BRING HIM HOME. YOU LET HIM DIE YOU DESTROYED MY FAMILY, I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU." I screamed at him while tears fell and I waled on him with my hands trying to physically hurt him. Some time in the mix of hitting and screaming I had got out of bed and pushed him into a corner. My hitting became strong and soon I was causing him pain, in the back of my mind I heard Frigga call for help and then there were hand on my pulling me back which only pissed me off more.

"GET YOU FUCKING HANDS OFF OF MY, LET ME GO HE KILLED HIM ITS HIS FAULT ALL HIS FAULT. LET ME GO PLEASE JUST LET GO OF ME, please just let go." By the end they had my tied down to the bed and one nurse was filling a syringe with a cloudy liquid. At that time my anger felt from me leaving only a terrible pain in it's wake a pain that will never heal. I felt the needle go into my arm and soon my eyes became droopy and the room became blurred, the last thing I heard before I went under was Loki saying "I love you Lilly."

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