Chapter 21

Charlie's P.O.V

''what happened'' Heath bellowed as he came bounding down the hallway towards Casey's room,

Me and Brax stood there dumbfounded with what had happened, as Brax was saying his goodbye, Casey's machine started to go a little bit crazy, it was the best way to describe it, they started beeping and alarming as the room filled up with Dr's and nurses, Sid had also arrived by now,

''What's happening Sid'' Brax asked as the both of us were motioned to step outside,

''we're not sure but please give us some space''

I didn't give Brax a chance to argue, instead dragging him out, it was a good thing he wasn't reluctant because the job would be harder if he kicked up a fuss.

We stood outside and waited, giving them the space they required, at one point we had been staring through the windows until one of the nurses closed the blinds.

Brax was pacing up and down, not once stopping. At the same time Heath, followed by Ruby and Cheryl came, Sid had rushed out only to be stopped Brax,

''Sid, what's happening''

''Brax I can't stop, but Casey, he's fighting'' Sid told Brax and I saw the sigh of relief on his face.

''he's fighting'' Brax muttered under his breath...

-x-

Six days later...

Brax's P.O.V

Casey was slowly being brought out of his coma, he still hadn't been given the all clear but he had a 75% chance of survival and that was good enough for me.

I had been at the hospital since the day it happened and today was the first time I was leaving, I had left before to shower, get change of clothes but today I was leaving and not rushing to go back. I had something I needed to do first.

I walked to her door, I knew she was at home, I was thorough if nothing else, I rang the station prior to see if she was at work and they told me she had been on the night shift which indicated she would be here at home.

I knocked, once, there was no answer, twice, and again no answer, the third time I knocked I heard her shout,

''coming, hold your horses'' she opened the door. I gulped and swallowed hard, she was wearing a night slip and a silk robe which she was in the process of tying up as she saw who was at the door.

''Close your mouth Brax''

I just looked from top to bottom and then fixated my eyes on her face.

Charlie's P.O.V

The best feeling in the world is when you look at him, the one you truly love and he is already staring, not caring that you have bed hair or condiments of that tiny bit of mascara which always seems to remain.

Staring intently at each other like there was nothing in this world but the two of us, why was it when in front of him I always forget about everything else? Even though we had spent so many days together at the hospital, this was the first time we were completely alone.

''Can I come in?'' he asked breaking the silence.

''erm yeah but Angelo will be back soon'' I told him remembering Angelo would be back soon, Brax smiled his cheeky smile,

''What have you done?'' I instinctively asked knowing that smile meant something.

''I needed to come say thank you and I reckoned Angelo here wouldn't be appropriate so I might have sent some of the boys down to cause trouble'' he told me smugly,

''I shouldn't be happy but yeah it would have been awkward, thanks for coming and it's okay I would do it again anytime for any of my friends'' I emphasized the friends bit,

'' I was wondering if I could come in, we do have lots to talk about'' he asked already motioning to come in,

''depends are you going to behave''

''nup'' and he walked straight in, me moving aside.

''do you want something to drink'' I asked as I clicked the kettle on,

''erm something strong''

''well we only got red wine in''

''I figured, Angelo not have any real man drinks around the house''

''be nice'' ''what did you want to talk about?''

''I'm not sure you will want to hear it'' I looked at him like you will be surprised.

Brax's P.O.V

I moved towards her and she put her arms in front of me,

''Brax don't, you want to talk, fine talk but from over there'' she waved her arms to motion backwards.

''I want you back'' I stated simply,

''Brax too much has happened already''

''no Charlie nothing has even begun, stealing moments here and there does not build a relationship, that's what I want to do, build a relationship with you, just you''

She didn't speak; nothing just kept gazing left, right, down, anywhere but at me,

''Ever since I have met you, my life has gone into turmoil''

''what do you mean, ever since I met you'' she gimmicked,

''I quit work and I told the boys I'm out. Charlie I have lost nearly everything I stand for just to please you. I nearly lost my brother in all of this and I'm not about to lose you too''

''no Brax, you do not burden me with your mistakes, you cannot expect me to feel that whatever is happening to you is my fault because it isn't, you are guilty of your mistakes, not me''

I started to move towards her again and I knew she was getting affected by it,

''Brax committing mistakes has become part of your nature, come closer and again you will be making a mistake'' I ignored her and continued forward,

''you can push all you want Charlie, I am not going to back away''

''please Brax, it was all a mistake, we can't go back there''

''who said anything about going back Charlie, I'm talking about moving forwards''

I was inches from her and she pushed me out the way only for me to pin her against the other side against the wall,

''Brax move, I don't feel anything when I'm with you'' she said as her voice became low,

''You lie'' she didn't speak,

''if you feel nothing then why is it Charlie, there are beads of sweat on your forehead, there is fear in your eyes, why does it matter to you that I am this close to you, it shouldn't make a difference how my breath is hot on your skin'' I told her as I littered her face and neck with feathery kisses

''Brax please don't''

''don't what Charlie, come on, why you lowering your gaze, look at me, go on look at me''

''say something, go on I dare you'' I pushed her, ''you told me I meant nothing so why am I having this effect on you''

I moved back not wanting to continue because this women was stubborn, there was no way she would give in so easily, but I was sick of this cat and mouse chase that was going on. I would quite simply just wait in the wings ready to take her when she wants me.

''when all this is over, it will get better one day, and when that day comes I promise you Charlie I will be waiting, with baited breath and my arms ready for you because you mean to me more than just nothing''

No matter how we comprehend it, we will never understand life fully but I understand one thing and that is all I wanted to do was to experience life with her.

''and Charlie just for the record the sex was damn good but it did become more than that, in case you ever doubt what happened between us and my feelings for you, just remember I love you''

Charlie's P.O.V

Silence of impatience of longing has a strange melody, silence and waiting for something no one should experience because as I was finding out every breath I drew was shocking me.

Why didn't he understand there are compulsions, in life there are worldly customs we have to follow. Having an affair is not one of them. Falling in love with a criminal is not one of them. This was not life; this was a fantasy which would never come to life. His heart longs for me, something he can never have

For someone who was letting me go only to wait for me, he was doing a damn good job of being close as he still had me pinned against the wall.

''can you move I need to breathe'' I told him which he responded to by laughing,

''wow I tell you I love you and you want to breathe''

''would it help if I told you I love you too, because Brax there is no secret about it, I have fallen in love with you''

''it helps but they are words, I want to be able to show how much we love each other''

''I became crazy for you, lost in the thoughts of a stranger, you made me restless Brax and I don't know why but as they say heart rules over mind''

I thought about it and then thought about it again, I knew what I wanted and this time no matter what came in my way I would deal with it

''life with you doesn't seem to be an option, but life without you isn't an option either'' I saw his face break out into a smile, his lips crashed into mine, lifting me slightly off the ground, he whispered sweet nothings into my body, as I wrapped my arms around his neck and repeated how much I love him. In that moment I realised nothing mattered, nothing at all just me and him.

I love him more than anything and I was going to make this work.

-x-

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