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Standing in the kitchen, I made a pot of coffee enough for three. Last night Bucky decided to stay another the night, he had stayed the night for three nights now. Each morning I would get a weird greeting from him, a kiss on the cheek, an extra-long hug, even a kiss on the forehead. Those times I just let it go, blaming it on him being away for so long, I didn't want to read into too deeply. If I did that I could just end up hurting myself in the process. Humming my favorite tune, I waited for the coffee to boil. Suddenly hands slipped around my waist and I was pulled against a hard chest. Knowing it couldn't be Steve, this man was much taller then I, I felt my body become stiff.

"Good morning doll."

"….morning Bucky." He nuzzles his nose into my neck, and at that moment I couldn't take the weird actions from him any longer.

"Okay what's going on with you Bucky?" I turn to him and push him away from me as I ask him.

"Nothing Arabella, I just missed you a lot."

"Right but you've missed me before and still have never hugged me like you did just now." He stared at me for a long moment and ran a hand through his hair contemplating something in his head. He sighed reached forward and grabbed my hands in his.

"Look Arabella, I did a lot of thinking while I was gone, and all my thoughts came back to you. You were always there for me throughout the years. When my mom died and when I get into trouble. And then you were there for me during my time in the field too. You always sent letters. I survived off of those letters, they were the only thing that kept me going. I just…I want to be with you. And I want you to wait for me, so when I come back we can start a life together. Because I really can't see myself committing to another girl the way I could commit to you" My eyes widened in shock, I never thought I would hear those words from his mouth, I had waited and dreamed about this moment for years. I felt myself become unsure of it. Could he be saying this because I was the first girl he saw when he came back? But then again he had six months to really think about all of this. Feelings stirred in my chest, the ones that I had suppressed for him. I stared at our hands joined together. Finally I looked up at him.

"Okay."

"What?"

"I'll be with you, and I'll wait for you." I told him in a timid voice. He smiled big at me and hugged me real tight. The coffee started to bubble, so I laughed and stepped toward the stove. I heard Bucky laugh with me, this morning was perfect.

Before we knew it had been almost the whole month. We all spent every moment together, Bucky acted extra sweet to me. Kissing me at every moment, turning all the other girls down, not even giving them a second glance. He took me on a picnic and a swim at the beach. To a movie and the diner multiple times, most of the time we'd bring Steve with us. Steve loved us together, saying that Bucky would officially be his brother. He always made me laugh when he said that. I thought about my older brother and found I was missing Steve greatly.

When we all went out on the town one night, Steve went and tried to join the army once again. Only this time he wasn't sad when he came back, they took him. I was completely devastated, I screamed at him and cried in his arms, asking how he could leave me like that. I didn't want to be all alone, and I didn't want him going to war and being in danger. He only held me and told me he was going to be fine, and that he would come back to me eventually. So he left a week later, he apologized to Bucky for not being able to sound more time with him, but he said he had a duty to his country. Bucky understood, it was one of the same reasons he had joined too. When we saw Steve off he held strong and stood tall as he was hauled off to training, by this time Bucky only had a week left, I was feeling it all at once. I just hoped that I wouldn't be alone in the end. When the end month came, I could feel my heart sink. I didn't want Bucky to leave me too. He and I were laying in the couch, handing entwined, and my head on his chest.

"Bucky I don't want you to go back."

"I know doll, I don't want to go back either. But I have to, I made a commitment to my country and I'm going to follow it through." My heart swelled at his words. I looked up at him, tears in my eyes. He used his free hand to catch them, and he kissed my cheeks.

"I love you James." He stilled.

"I love you too Arabella." I gave him a wide smile, and moved my head up to lock lips with him. Giggling when he put in hand in my hair. With foreheads pressed together, eyes staring into eyes, Bucky said words that I didn't know I was even ready for.

"Let's get married." I stared at him just for second to see if he was serious, there was determination in his eyes. So I agreed with pleasure, if he was going to leave me again, I wanted to be his wife before he left.

The ceremony was quick and small, perfect to me. Steve wasn't there, he had already left and although that upset me, I didn't let it stop me from marrying the man that I loved. We didn't have any family to join us, Mrs. Barnes had died two years ago from sickness much like my mother. We decided to get married the night before Bucky was due back on the ship. We loved our rushed little wedding, and when night came, we spent our last night together.

The next day he was due to leave. But this time was much harder than the last. Hugging him goodbye, kissing him with everything that I had, and standing alone as he got onto the ship. Waving him a goodbye once last time and him waving back too. Tears pouring down my face as he left me, not as my friend, but as my husband. This time I didn't leave the port once I couldn't see him anymore. I just stood there, watching the ship till I couldn't even see it anymore. Then I stood there longer. I had never felt as alone as I had in the moment. No Steve by my side. No Bucky. Just me. It was a terrifying feeling. But I couldn't even sob, I just stared; wondering if this feeling was going to be forever, and praying that they would both come home soon.

It had been a month since they both left, I hated the silence, and feeling cold. I couldn't eat much, nor did I have the desire too. I sent them both letters, and I only got a reply from my husband once. Lately I have been feeling eyes watching me, stalking me. I try to pay no mind to it and live normally, but it's becoming too much and I lock the deadbolt every time I step into my apartment.

Tonight something felt very off, so I made sure all the windows were locked. Every lock on the door pulled in. I even locked my own bedroom door too. I hid a kitchen knife under my pillow, clutching it in my hand tightly. I tried to sleep but I couldn't even close my eyes. Then I heard it. Each lock to the front door being opened, I tried to convince myself it was Steve, but I knew it couldn't be true, they wouldn't let him come back for at least another five months. I started to shake in fear, anticipation as I heard heavy footsteps coming closer to my bedroom door. I gripped the knife tighter. Eyes wide, never leaving my door. The lock clicked open, slowly the door was opened wide. A man whom id have never seen before stared me down. I tried to scream but my voice was caught in my throat. He made large, fast paced footsteps towards me. He reached over to grab my arm and I took the knife in my hand and sliced his chest. It wasn't deep, but it stunted him enough for me to be able to jump off the bed and try to run from the room. I wasn't fast enough, he grabbed me by my hair and yanked me down. He pulled my hair up forcing me to stand up to walk. He took me down stairs and threw me in a car parked just outside the building, it was the dead of night. No one else was around. I hit my head on the door of the car being thrown in, and I fought to stay awake. Soon darkness had taken over me.