I'm so sorry for the lack of updating but things should be better now. I'm having a crazy amount of fun writing this, the ideas just keep comin almost faster then I can write them. Thanks for reading this!

Disclaimer: Nothing is mine

Chapter 4: Tell me where he is

Carly's apartment a week later

"Where is he?" Sam demanded, barreling in through the door causing Carly to shriek and jump a mile into the air. She put her hand on her chest to calm down her heartbeat and turned to Sam "Hey Sam."

Sam barely acknowledged her as she paced back and forth "Three weeks. He's never gone this long without seeing Ayden. And Ayden doesn't even really mind, he just says Daddy is doing something important."

Carly shrugged "Well here's an idea Einstein, maybe trust that he's actually doing something important."

Sam whirled around "Important Carly? Ayden and I used to be important, he said we were the most important things to him and then the dork goes off and gets all addicted to alcohol."

Carly shook her head "I know what he did Sam."

Sam dropped into a seat "I bet he's drinking even more know, forgets his days or whatever. Or he has a whole other life and he's trying to worm his way out of this one."

Neither of them heard the door open or Spencer walk in until he cleared his throat "Nice Sam, really. I actually tried convincing him that you didn't think disgustingly low of him, but apparently he was right, he really does know you better then anyone ."

Sam turned and glared at Spencer "Excuse me?"

Spencer crossed his arms "That dork your talking about. The one that you say has this whole new life, well your right. Wanna know what that is? Rehab Sam, that's what his new life is."

Sam blinked a few times and Carly spoke up "R-rehab?"

Spencer nodded "Yeah, rehab. To try and kick the alcohol habit. And I'm telling you, from what it looks like when I see him, it's hard for him."

Sam scoffed "Well it's his stupidity for turning to the alcohol to begin with."

She turned to head out the door, but froze when Spencer spoke up again "Yeah, let's just pretend we have no idea why he did that."

Still staring at the door she clenched her fists together "What the hell is that supposed to mean Shay?"

Spencer shrugged "Maybe I'm not going to say anything. You wouldn't really care either way would you Sam?" he turned to walk away but Sam lunged out and grabbed his arm "I'm going to ask you one more time. WHAT the HELL did you mean by that?"

Spencer yanked his arm out of her grasp "Where were you? After the accident when Freddie really needed you? When he was going out of his mind with the guilt of killing someone? You were his girlfriend for crying out loud Sam, you said you loved him more then anything. And you-" he turned and pointed to Carly "You always said he was your best friend and you'd always be there." he turned back to Sam again "He was always, ALWAYS there when you both needed him, and the ONE time he needs you, you completely abandon him."

Sam and Carly both stared at him quietly and he sighed "We tried. Gibby and I tried everything to help him, but it wasn't us he needed, and now you have the NERVE to stand there and say this was his fault. At least he's trying to get better, he said he was doing it for him, for Ayden...and for you Sam. He wants his life back. You weren't there for him then, but if you ever loved him, or love him or whatever...be there for him now."

He looked at both of them and shook his head, walking out of the apartment.

Sam and Carly turned and watched him leave. Carly sniffed "He's right. I never thought I'd say that about my brother, but he is..." she trailed off and then she wiped at her eyes "Wow, what kind of friend am I? He's never going to forgive me." she ran upstairs, leaving Sam alone, with her eyes still glued to the door.
"He'll never forgive me either." Sam whispered before scribbling a small note and running out of the house. She waited at the bus stop, checking her watch every minute until the bus showed up, and ran onto it with only one thing on her mind.

At the rehab center

"Freddie? Freddie where are you?"

Freddie looked down from where he was lounging on a tree branch and saw Kolby standing by the door. He laughed and jumped down, walking over to him "What's up?"

Kolby smiled when he saw him "I got your message that you wanted to move your session up to tomorrow?"

Freddie nodded and looked down at where he was playing with his sweater zipper nervously "Yeah, I'm having a rough time right now...I really want a drink and it's hard to distract myself."

Kolby frowned and nodded "Ok, first thing tomorrow come down to my office and we'll figure something out." he walked off and Freddie headed back to the tree, only he slumped down in front of it instead of climbing back up it. He looked down at his hands and saw that they were shaking. He sighed and shoved them into his pockets "This is harder than I thought, but I'm not gonna quit now."

Outside the rehab center

Sam stood outside the rehab center, staring at the door and occasionally moving to let other people by.

"Got a loved one in there?"

Sam turned to find the source of the voice and saw a brunette about a year or two older then her standing by the entrance. Sam nodded "You can say that I guess, but it's really complicated."

The girl laughed quietly and pushed herself off the wall "Your standing outside of a rehab center, it's common knowledge that it's complicated. So are you checking yourself in or going to visit someone?"

Sam sighed "I was going in to see someone..."

The girl nodded "But?"

"But I don't deserve to visit him. I think I'm partly the reason he's in there."

The girl walked up to her "Come with me."

Sam crossed her arms and arched a brow "Why?"

"Because I can help you. A few months ago I WAS you."

Sam looked at her closely before nodding and following her.

I know it's short, but I wanted to get a chapter up. Review and tell me you forgive me lol.