Ok guys, here's another one for ya, thanks for still being interested. Nothing but the ideas are mine of course.

Chapter 9- What Am I Feeling?

At a small cafe the next day

"Hey Alyssa" Sam greeted as she walked through the doors and saw where Alyssa was sitting. She walked over and sat across from her, grabbing the menu and scanning it quickly. Alyssa looked up and waved "How was your first visit?"

Sam shrugged slightly "Was ok, we were actually being nice to one another, which I guess is an achievement all on it's own."

Alyssa nodded and when the waiter showed up they both gave their order "How did he look?"

"More like Freddie, like I told you on the phone. Seeing him made me remember...well not remember, because I never forgot...but it brought back everything that had made me fall in love with him to begin with."

She started looking around slightly and Alyssa touched her hand to get her attention again "Why is that such a bad thing?"

Sam blinked a few times "Who said I thought it was a bad thing? I just didn't expect it is all, I'm so used to seeing him all...different. I told him I was going to help him...be there for him."

Alyssa opened her mouth to say something, but smiled as the waiter brought their food and then nodded "How are you going to do that?"

Sam groaned and put her head against the table "I don't know."

She gave Sam a sympathetic look and pat her on the shoulder "You'll figure it out."

At Carly's house

"Gibby! Where are you?" Carly yelled out as she walked into the house.

Gibby came down the stairs with a book in his hand "Was upstairs reading, what's up?"

"I want to go see Freddie...not today maybe, but soon. And I, I want you there too." She said quietly, sitting down on the couch.

Gibby nodded and sat down beside her "Of course, whenever you want to go just say the word, we'll go see him together."

Carly smiled at him and took his hand "What if he doesn't want to see me? I wouldn't blame him, I haven't been the best friend to him, what if he hates me and..." she trailed off and looked at Gibby with a sniff.

He shook his head and put his arm around her "Freddie isn't like that, I don't think that kid could hate anyone even if he wanted too, if you start showing him that you're sorry and plan on sticking around I don't see the problem."

Carly went to say something but Gibby cut her off "BUT, if you don't plan on sticking around, don't bother going to see him at all, it's not fair to either of you."

Carly smiled a bit "I'm glad he had you and Spencer...at least you both tried to help him, which is more then I can say for Sam and I. I just feel so...Guilty about it."

"He'll see that." Gibby said with a smile "Don't worry so much" He kissed the top of her head and leaned back, just enjoying the quiet.

At the rehab center

Freddie opened the door to his room and dropped onto his bed "Why doesn't this feel like it's getting easier, it's still really hard and it's been more than a month" he groaned into his pillow. He must have fallen asleep because next thing he knew he was being jerked awake by his phone going off, signaling that he had a message.

"Hey it's Carly. I know Sam went to see you yesterday, mind if I come see you sometime soon, I think it's time I tried to fix our friendship."

Freddie had to re-read the message two more times before he believed what he was seeing, hesitating he looked around the room, remembering that Kolby had told him it was an easier process with people helping. And if he was honest with himself he missed Carly almost as much as he had missed Sam.

Nodding to himself he flipped his phone open and started typing.

"Sure, it was nice seeing Sam and it would be nice to see you too. Let me know when you're coming and I'll make sure I have no work or appointments that day."

Sending the message and putting his phone back beside his bed, Freddie lay back and looked at the ceiling. Maybe things can get better, he'll never get Sam back but maybe he can get his friends back...can he trust them and let them in?

I wanted to show all three of them this chapter, so you can see where they are all at at this stage. Hopefully you review and enjoy the chapter, love you all for reading