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Author Note: Poor Aki. Poor Yuusei. Poor Antinomy. If you found this by accident and think that despite my warnings nothing too bad will happen you are wrong. Leave now or forever hold your peace. You have been warned. Also looky look two chapters with the name suicide in them. Wonder if it's foreshadowing.
Afterwards
Sunset Love Suicide
Aw looks like this is going to be fun. I wonder what they think of me. I wonder. Divine seems cold and cruel but fuzzy and wet on the inside. Placido is firey and shiny of the outside and aw and aw he screams inside. I wonder if they gave their love away like I did. Maybe that's why we're all here. We gave out love away to people that wouldn't die in return. Would you mind if I just killed you. It was only out of love. Say one day his beauty would fade and be stained. Say maybe the answer could have been to strangle the life out of him right then. To freeze time perfectly. Aw well. Time to play. Time to play again. Wait what do memories look like? Are they like little pictures or like snowflakes? Are they white or black? Are they scratchy or smooth? How do I know I've found one? Do I just know? I fall flat on the ground right onto of a hard spike. I cry out. Sometimes things hurt. Aw.
"Get off the ground, we don't have time for you." Placido snarls.
Aw not fair. I fell. I think I found a memory though. I wonder whose it is. My vision distorts and a world full of colour is visible in front of me. Hey it's army and that black man he was with.
"Little brother, I didn't mean it." The black man whimpers.
"You had to have meant it Niisan, after all you did stab her six times!" Army screams.
"But brother-"
"No buts! I'm turning you in."
"Why? I thought we were brothers. Brothers never betray brothers, right?"
"You betrayed me!"
"I didn't do it for you."
"Then who did you do it for?"
"The Doctor."
"Uh, Rudger, how could you?"
"I'm, I'm sorry."
"If you were sorry then you wouldn't have done it."
"But I didn't know you liked her so much. Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because she's The Doctor's wife."
"That's why she had to go. But if you want we could build another version of her. A version of her just for you."
"You've gone insane Rudger."
"Rex, what do you mean?"
"I mean you've lost all control. You've just murdered an innocent woman because you fancied her husband, lied to me and then offered to build a clockwork that looks just like her for me."
"That's not insanity, that's seeing clearly. I wish to be happy. I wish for you to be happy as well and so I will build a new woman for you. Someone for you to adore and cherish. Someone for you to love because I love you that much. She was getting in the way of my happiness and she wouldn't help you with yours so she had to go."
"Rudger I am turning you in but because we are brothers I'll give you a head start. So go."
Rudger looks like he's in pain. Aw I know what's it's like that the ones you love won't appreciate all you have done for them. They want to fade and be stained even though it's painful. What we do is painful, it's painful but it can't be helped. The darker man holds tightly to his brother.
"No." He snarls.
"Rudger please be reasonable." Rex pleads.
"No, I won't go because that would prevent my happiness. I'll die. I'll die before having that taken away from me." Rudger rambles.
Aw insanity is something normal to me. Occasionally things become clear and colourful and all I can do is cry and cry for the things I lost is equal to the number of people Yuusei shared his love with.
"Would it be alright if I killed you too?" Rudger asks with a hoarse whisper.
"Don't be stupid. Even if you are gone I still have so much to live for." Rex mumbles back.
I smile. Poor thing. Even I desire happiness, even I had it. But he seems like he's never been happy.
"But Rex! Why don't you want to be with me?"
"Because I have too much to live for. So go."
The darker man takes off through the door with a pained expression.
The spike in my dislodges and my vision distorts again as everything turns gray again.
"I collected a memory!" I announce. "They look and feel like small spikes!"
Divine smiles as he holds a small spike in his hands. Placido has one jammed into his leg.
"We noticed." Placido sneers.
"Ah, what did you see by any chance Kiryu?" Divine asks.
"The dark man and army, their names are Rudger and Rex and they are brothers and apparently Rex is the younger one and he died later than Rudger. Also they killed some guy named the doctor's wife." I reply.
Placido laughs.
"Honestly compared to that kind of crap our lives seem normal!" He chuckles.
Aw Placido you stupid fuck. You have no idea who I am or what I've done do you? Would anyone care if I just killed you? Probably not.
"What did you two see?" I ask.
"Shh, it's a secret." Divine giggles.
He doesn't seem quite sane to me. Aw if you go among mad people then you must be mad yourself! Aw we are all mad here! Me and him and everyone else and probably you! Ha!
"Oh, I saw that time Antinomy betrayed our mission and took Fudou Yuusei." Placido snarls.
Antinomy? He took my Yuusei. I'll snap him. Divine's green eyes flash with anger at that as well. Aw Yuusei it seems like the number of people who hold a piece of you has increased. I should have died WITH you. Maybe if I had ended you before I grew attached I would have been spared the pain of sharing you. Everyone and everything has too much of you. There wasn't any, isn't any, left for me.
"Ah well hurry up. Time to go." Divine mentions.
I run off after a shine in the gray landscape. Another spike perhaps? I rush right into pain. I hit clockwork. I hit Rex's arm.
"I need that spike that you have in your hands." He states as he lifts me off the ground.
"Aw you don't." I chuckle.
He raises an eyebrow. He's keeping his feelings under wraps. Perhaps he thinks it's a different memory. Something more incriminating. Not his poor brother's.
"And what makes you think I don't?"
"The fact that you wouldn't have asked if it was really that important."
He frowns and takes it from me. Placido attempts to take it back. Ouch. My rival ends up with his head smashed against the ground until his nose breaks and bleeds. I don't have to help. There's no point in helping. I snatch the spike from the light man's hands and run off. Aw poor Placido. I trip and fall again. I really need better balance. A spike makes it's way into my stomach and my vision distorts again. Colour fills the space of my vision.
I wonder whose memories I'll be seeing. A young woman with light green hair is frowning beside a pale man with blonde hair. The man runs his fingers through his spikes.
"Carly, I can't be with you." He murmurs.
"But Jack, I'm sick! I'm sick. I just want you to visit my grave sometimes." Carly cries.
"Carly, please. I don't want you to die. This is foolish. I can't be with you and nothing can change that. Not life or death. So why are you giving your life away to that, thing?" Jack asks the girl.
I understand. These memories I am being shown. A lover that's too connected with other people to feel your adoration. A lover that refuses to die. One that won't take the flowers at a slashed price. It's not painful to die. Suicide is painless. Suicide is painless. Suicide is painless. Isn't that true? Why does the number of people that lovers are connected to always increase when you and I are supposed to be the apple of their eye. You and I alone. I feel so very connected with this Carly and that Rudger. I wonder if we all have the same predicament.
"I did it to slow death. I want to spend my last moments with you." Carly whimpers.
The sky in this image is blue and the grass is green. A tragedy of colour. Isn't it? Isn't it?
"I know. But I can't be with you and you alone. Three others also hold parts of my heart." Jack replies.
Selfish lovers. Always selfish. Would it be a sin to kill him? No Carly, no it wouldn't be.
"But Jack... it's taking my body and my soul. It's taking me for the sake of you. Why won't you even visit my grave? Why do you hate me?"
"Carly I don't hate you. I just can't be with you. We can be friends though."
"Stop this nonsense! I'll just leave."
"Leave? But why and where will you go?"
"My darker self is crying out for me to finally make the sacrifice. To surrender myself completely. And to think that I sold myself for the sake of you. You who has his heart connected to some many people that I had to fight just to get into it. To think that even now the number of people your heart yearns for has increased and I'm not one of them! And so I think that the two of us would be better off just dying here!"
"Oh God Carly, what have I done to you. I can't lose you. You can't lose yourself to this thing! Please Carly, please!"
"Buying me at a slashed price. To think that even now the number if people your heart is connected to has increased and I am still not one of them! I'll end it right now!"
My vision changes back to grey. Well then off I go yet again.
Placido and Divine have more spikes then me. I suppose they resisted the temptation to look at the memories after their first painful experiences. All together we have twelve. I wonder if I can get just one more. A sparkle is in the distance. I chase after it. My hands wrap around the small thing as the two that share my thoughts approach.
"I'll be taking that." Rudger laughs low and slow.
Does he really think he can hide the insanity? Everyone can see it. Everyone can see it. Everyone can see it.
"Neither of you will be!" Carly screams.
She throws herself with nails reaching for skin at myself and Rudger. He screams and backs up.
"What would Jack and the doctor think of this?" I ask with a wide smile.
Let's reopen wounds. Let's tear them apart. Let's open and lick the bitter sin.
"I see you found one of Rex's memories." Rudger smiles back.
Rex's memories?
"I forgot everything a long time ago." He smirks.
I remember what Crow said. 'If you have forgotten sins then we will liberate them.' This is so much fun. Aw, aw, aw I won.
"Liar." I snicker.
He looks shocked. Oh well. Carly gets her fingernails out of his skin and growls at me.
"I'll kill you Kyosuke!" She shrieks.
"You won't!' I laugh.
Rudger lies on the ground still shocked. Aw well. I move for the spike and Carly knocks me aside. Directly on it. I cry out. My vision reflects only colour.
"I love you." Whimpers the blue haired man to Yuusei.
"I love you as well." Yuusei smiles lopsidedly.
And that's all I am willing to see. The colour fades as I rip the spike from my body and run off. Carly looks frazzled as she is restrained by the blonde woman and bald man. Rudger is still laying there. Aw well that was fun.
I return to the building where Crow is. Divine and Placido are already there as are most of the others. Paradox, Rex and Rudger show up last without a single spike except for the on still embedded in the chest of the pale blonde.
"He won't remove it." Rudger mentions.
"Uh." Rex agrees.
Crow smiles.
"Well looks like Floor Four are the biggest sinners of us all. After all the biggest sinners always find the most spikes. However Kiryu's insanity prevented him from finding as many as he could have. The real winners are Floor Three. Z-ONE, Antinomy and Yeager are the real winners. Congrats on winning by accident guys! Now for the losers to pay the price." Crow laughs.
Placido scowls as does Divine as no one has happiness I'll laugh. I laugh and laugh. See happy. The world blurs as a memory is pulled from the screaming me.
"Yuusei if you loved me you'd be happy to die right beside me. The number of people that own you has increased and therefore the only answer is to release both of us from our chains." I say.
"Kiryu don't be unreasonable. My heart belongs to you." Yuusei replies.
False blue eyes. A smile that lies. How dare he. How dare he. It's not fair to me. It's not fair.
"I have given you everything I treasured. I even gave my body to you and only you. Was I merely being toyed with?" I growl deep.
"Kiryu stop." He says with steel.
How dare he. How dare he. How dare he. How dare he. How dare he. Buying me at a slashed price. How dare he. How dare he. Taking me at a slashed price. I have no doubts that he belongs to me even now he just can't see.
"Would it be alright if I just killed you?" I ask.
Kill him. Kill him so that he wouldn't be taken from me.
"Kiryu what's wrong with you?"
Selling my body for strength. The strength to stand. He was sick. So sick. Couldn't walk. Couldn't talk. No strength. I sold myself for this, these things that he took in vain and will I ever be repaid? He owes me his death as I sold my body for OUR strength.
"Aw Yuusei, I finally see clearly. You only want to reap the rewards of me selling my body. You are mine now though! You sold yourself at a slashed price and now you will be mine. The number of people that wish to be loved and to love you will decrease to me as it is I and I alone whom you should love! I am the only one that deserves your love! So I swear if you even dare to whimper and fawn over that Aki girl again then I will slit you from foot to throat!"
Divine's eyes gleam at the name Aki. I wonder. I wonder if the two have a history. Aw. Everything changes to show his memory. A magenta haired girl sobs and clings onto his chest. The two are bleeding intertwined, it might be loving if not for the expressions on their faces.
"Sh, Aki, no more tears. It's alright now." Divine murmurs.
"It hurts." She whimpers in a hoarse voice.
Was my Yuusei really taken in by her? Why? She's so plain. She's so blind.
"I know, I know." He mumbles.
"Does it get easier?"
"Yes."
"But how? It's so painful."
"It's painful but it can't be helped. The pain is a part of the nature of the thing. If it wasn't painful then what would it be? You'll learn to like it. You'll learn. I learnt."
"Why can't you be gentle?"
"Clearly you aren't listening. The pain is a part of the nature of it. Now hush and I'll hold you."
"Will you always hold me?"
"Yes my dear."
"Never let me go?"
"Never my dear."
"Lies."
"Maybe."
"Promise you'll ask next time?"
"Yes. I was in such a rage Aki; you ought to know not to bother me when I'm upset."
"Who made you upset?"
"Ah, a young man that needs to learn his place. At our-"
"Feet."
"Good girl."
Aw Divine's a rapist. How precious. I knew he was fucked up. He laughs too loud. He smiles too wide. Divine is staring calmly at the memory. Others in the room are whispering and sneering. I wave my tongue at him.
"You are no better Kiryu." He smiles, too wide. "Trying to kill your one and your only. I would never harm Aki as she loves me dearly enough to die willingly. More than Yuusei loved you."
"Yuusei loves me more than you could even comprehend." I snarl at him.
Placido looks amused.
"You stop that." I growl at him.
"Stop what?" He smirks.
I lunge for him and grab his hair. I smash him against the floor again and again. He's laughing at me. No one but me laughs here! A sharp kick to the stomach and then the face stops me. Divine is glaring at me.
"We are a team, if begrudgingly, so as we are a team it makes sense if we actually work together. How about this, I won't speak about Yuusei if you don't mention Aki." Divine suggests.
"Doesn't change the fact that you raped a girl cause even ones completely under your control won't do you." Placido smirks.
"I didn't rape Aki. That wasn't what that conversation was about. It was about me drawing out her psychic abilities on a whim. I would never hurt Aki." Divine frowns.
Aw, cute. His greatest sin is hurting his beloved. Wait, that can't be it. The memory continues. Divine grimaces.
"Aki?" Divine asks.
"Yes?" Aki asks back.
"I want you to use your abilities to kill Yuusei Fudo."
"But why? He could be a valuable asset."
"Don't tell me you have developed feelings for him."
"I hav-"
"Liar. Liar. Liar. I can feel when you tell lies you know. I know you too well. Kill him. Kill him as I love you and he's only getting in the way and clouding your judgment and our love."
"Divine, no."
"No? NO!"
Someone has a temper on him.
"Do you not care for me as I care for you?"
"He says you're only using me. I didn't believe him then but now, I'm not sure."
"Not sure? You really think I'd use you? I'll, I'll, I'll kill him myself then Aki! To prove I love you! Is that your will? For me to do this on my own? Is it a test Aki?"
Someone's jumped of the slippery slope. When you go among mad people chances are you are mad as well. Not chances. You are mad! Always mad! I'm mad! He's mad! You! You're mad!
"You're scaring me." Aki whimpers.
Whimpering. What's with the whimpering? Why do they always whimper? Why do they always cry? Why?
"Aki, tell me why you hate me." He whimpers as well.
The girl looks at him with pity and terror. Isn't it a horrid thing to be hated? That's why you must find someone that will never leave and make sure they don't change. Even if you have to kill them.
"I do-"
"Get out. You have no place here any longer. Get out and go to your white knight and never return! Go! I'm a snake aren't I? A demon? A monster? And he'll save you. He'll save you and kill me because you hate me. I hate you too."
He's getting angrier. Still with the anger issues huh? Aw at least I get to see someone dead. He slaps her across the face. The girl looks horrified before running off. Carly walks in.
"What do you want!" Divine screams.
"You told me there was a cure for my illness and I would like it." Carly whimpers hiding her face.
"Ah yes your illness." Divine's face reveals no emotion.
Poor Carly.
"Come over here." He demands.
Divine walks her over to a chair beside the window.
"How desperate are you for this miracle cure?" He asks.
"A lot." She replies.
"Would you kill for it?"
"Kill? Kill who exactly?"
"Yuusei Fudou, he's hurting my heart."
"Yuusei?"
"I'll take that as a no."
Divine shoves her sharply out of the window.
Aw well that explains the whole preserve my life deal.
The scene changes yet again to show something else bitter. Placido holding fast to the blue-haired man that took my Yuusei.
"I am sick of you!" Placido hisses at him. "You betraying us for your filthy human feelings! They are obsolete! You are obsolete! You are such an eyesore!"
He lifts the blue haired man up by the collar.
"Placido." He growls at him.
"You don't scare me! You're weak and you want to avoid pain! You'll never know despair, just like I'll make sure you never know another human feeling!"
Placido smashes him against the wall. The blood sprays onto his face.
"Bleeding? You even bleed!" He hisses.
"What? Jealous?" The man laughs.
"Antinomy, say goodbye to all sensation! This is your end!"
Antinomy aw? I'll remember that."
"Goodbye all sensation." Antinomy chuckles.
"Don't make fun at me. You have no right!"
"Hurry it up Placido. I'm waiting to feel the sensations of death."
With a frown the misanthrope walks slowly over to the window. He smirks and smashes it in his former friend's head. Placido holds the other man over the window and throws him down. He smiles wide before shrieking as he's grabbed and pulled down by Antinomy.
Everything changes back.
"So your greatest sin's harming me Placido? Well I never knew you cared so much." Antinomy smirks.
Divine stands up and attempts to leave the room.
"No leaving." Crow says.
He points at the chair and Divine scowls and sits back down.
"Right so wanna hear a joke? Right, a sociopath, a psychopath and a misanthrope take a cab into the afterlife; stop me if you've heard this before, and the three of them see their sins, the things they regret most, and the sociopath regrets hurting his heart apparently by killing her best friend, the psychopath subconsciously doesn't want to hurt Yuusei emotionally and the misanthrope fell head over high heels for his half human companion. Oh yeah by the way the misanthrope's a clockwork. They buried these deep inside themselves and now they're just monsters. Funny right? Now here's the kicker, the can actually be redeemed. But only if they face the music. And by face I mean win and by music I mean game. Now the first round is just to see who we're dealing with. The others are to see who deserves redemption. Now ready for round two?" Crow taunts.
"Ah yes." Divine smiles.
"Right then. The next test is a test of forgiveness, remember?"
Everyone. Everyone has the same thing going on here. Love. Love makes you insane and cruel. Maybe it would have been better if there was no love at all. I wish I had never loved Yuusei as he didn't love me back. If he loved me he would have died with me. He hurts me. I merely wanted to preserve his beauty for all eternity. He's become stained with the love of others. The people he shared his heart with corrupted him. And now I'm alone. All because he was too close to everyone else. It would have been better if he had killed himself before that happened. Aw Yuusei. Wouldn't it have been alright if I had killed him?