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Afterwards
Guard of Loneliness
Humanity. It confuses me. Is it really true that they feel things that are good? I thought all feelings were to be shunned but there is an ache inside of me telling me that there's something wrong. My heart burns. My head hurts. Haven't I lived this before? Emotions? Was I human once? If I was then say did I feel good? Antinomy looks like he feels things. Paradox acts like he feels things. Am I the only one devide of emotion? I don't think that's fair. After all emotion is the thing that makes humans dance properly. I swing with no meaning, no reason and I feel nothing. It's not fair. It's not fair and it hurts. I really hate my selfish personality. It's an eyesore. I'm an eyesore after all this. Humans are more flexible. Are more living. They have will. If I could remain clockwork and have will then that'd be the only life for me. I'm sorry after all. I should have listened then Antinomy. I should have listened to myself but no. I had to live. I wanted to live. Even though life for me has no meaning, no reason. It's just lonely. It's lonely because in desperation to stop emotions I blocked myself from the world. And for a very long time all I've been able to feel has been hate and pain and anger and now I just want to cry freely. I'm sorry.
Water pools on the ground. Water. Water's coming from my eyes. I've always wanted to cry. It was something I thought I couldn't do so I wanted to naturally. I want to dance in harmony as well. Oh I'm just an eyesore. Crying is painful, so painful it aches my chest. Are his arms still around me? How long has it been? Won't he get tired?
"Placido, are you alright now?" He asks.
It's of no concern to you how I feel. Why does he want to help me anyway? Delusions of love are weird. I hope they stop, for my sake. After all they might be contagious like the wet in my eyes. Humans are full of contagious diseases. And that's annoying. They spread things that make you ache.
"I guess." I sigh.
He lifts me up.
"Put me down." I whine with false aggression.
"No, we're going somewhere. Goodbye Paradox, see you soon." Antinomy laughs.
The tall blonde waves goodbye with one hand.
"Where are we going?" I ask.
"We're ascending." He informs me.
That's not fair. It's been made clear that I don't deserve it and besides I don't want it.
"You've learnt your lesson after all." He mentions.
What lesson is that? I stay silent despite wanting to know as it's none of my concern.
"You've learnt emotions after all. You're actually sorry."
Emotions. You mean this ache that makes me want to puke? Then I guess. Whatever though. I don't want emotions. I was better without them. So I'll gladly surrender them so I don't have to ascend. Ascension means that I'm human and I can't bear that. I don't know how to deal with that. Hope hurts.
"Come on." Antinomy laughs. "It'll be alright after all."
More colour then I have ever seen. Alright. Hope feel alright. Crying feels fine. I wonder what we'll see. I'm sorry.