Gleestuck
Episode 2
Season 1
==» Kanaya: Be thrown into the dumpster
You raise your hands in surrender and then for a moment you fly.
Your body meets the heap of trash with a soft crunch and football players around you explode with laughter. You don't see what's so funny.
This is why you hate mornings.
This is why you dread coming to school.
Sure the dumpster landing is soft enough. And sure you're usually able to clean whatever dregs may seep onto your possessions.
But the laughter hurts.
It shreds like the chainsaw you keep at home.
You're a strong troll and you know this, but after a while this grates on you.
About eighty percent of the time you can climb out of the dumpster with little more than a bruised pride and stained shirt.
But then there's that other twenty percent.
The other twenty percent of time where you just wonder why you showed up in the first place.
That twenty percent makes you think maybe it's not worth it showing up. Sometimes you think maybe life would be better if you hid out in your garden or in your craft room, sewing and harvesting, never thinking about school or even other living creatures.
Twenty percent of the time you wonder why you bother at all. It just feels futile. Everything. You wonder why you bother dressing nice if it's just going to be soiled. You wonder why you bother singing if you know it's just going to be ignored. You wonder why you bother living if it's just going to be miserable.
And sometimes, during that twenty percent of the time, you don't climb out of that dumpster immediately. Sometimes you just sit there wondering if that's where you belong. If they're right about you.
==» John: Say Hi to Dave