Fury
One week later, the day before Christmas Eve…
It had been a week since they had lost Yelena Belova again, Zemo was still unable to be found. Fury was in his office and he was sitting tiredly in his chair. He had his head rested in his hands. He was working around the clock trying to find anything. The new Intel that Sharon and Allen required was interesting, but it was still inconclusive. The audio files didn't give much up except that ONI made another Captain America and that something happened when the last audio file was cut off as Noah was speaking. Fury didn't have access into ONI, only the United States government did, and Fury was supposed to be dead, so he couldn't really walk into the White House and talk to President Ellis. He was beginning to run out of options, he had Jane working on finding Yelena again. He was just waiting for something to happen, sucks when it's all he could do. Alexie was still in the holding cell. He won't even talk to him now, he would only speak to Captain America.
Steve and Natasha were at the facility for a day then they left, no one had seen them since, Fury figured they were in Roger's apartment. Wilson was back though, he seemed to be ready to get back to work. Barnes and Hill were still gone to, Fury had to work with the others, and Tony had become a little more involved in the operation, letting his expertise on technology to help work with the engineers to upgrade the Quinjets. Stark always found something to upgrade, Fury hadn't seen Parker since he talked to him on the Helicarrier. Fury didn't really know where to go from here, Rhodey had shown his interest in the Captain America that was created by ONI. Steve said that he didn't want to dig into national security, and Fury agreed. It would seem like the Avengers didn't trust the United States. Which he knew that Steve did trust them, he was still a captain in the army, he could back if he wanted to.
Steve knew where he was needed though, Fury looked up at the doors that were opening with a soft sliding of the door against the metal floor. Vision was walking in, Fury sat up in attention Vision never really talked to him, or anyone for that matter, usually just Wanda.
Vision took a seat and he had perfect posture "Director Fury" he said calmly
"Vision?"
Vision took a moment to speak "I understand that there is evidence that another Captain America was created"
"Yes, Agents Allen and Carter recovered audio files that suggest that ONI did create another Captain America"
"Then what happened to him?" Vision asked
"Maybe he never made it past the operation with the device"
"What if he did?"
"Then he either dies in the line of duty or is retired" Fury said
Vision nodded "That is what Captain Rogers said"
"Rogers is probably right"
"What if he isn't?"
Fury gave Vision a look "What are you suggesting Vision?"
Vision was silent and he lightly shrugged, a very human thing to do "That maybe we should investigate"
"I would advise that we don't" Fury said
"Why, because it would look questionable?"
"Yes"
"What if we told them the truth, that we think that it may be a danger?"
Fury leaned forward "Danger?"
Vision sighed "All I am saying Director is that sometimes we can look without permission"
"That may be, but Rogers doesn't want us to"
"What if Captain Rogers is wrong?" Vision asked
"Are you questioning his authority Vision?"
"No, he is very capable, but should this be decided by one man?"
Fury swallowed and sighed "I don't know Vision, he's done right so far. The only people that keep messing up is me and Stark"
"What if Captain Rogers messes up?"
"Then we get through it and move on. No one is perfect Vision, you do understand this?"
"Of course, but shouldn't we decide this together?"
"We could, but sometimes it doesn't work like that"
Vision nodded and smiled "Thank you for your time Director" he stood to leave.
Fury stood "Vision?" he called after him. Vison turned and looked back at him. "Sometimes we just have to follow orders" Fury added
Vision nodded and left the room, Fury slowly sat back down. That was the longest conversation that he ever had with Vision, it seems like he was starting to develop his own opinions. Very human, but something to watch out for.
Steve
The smell of eggs, bacon, sausage, hash browns, and freshly brewed coffee filled the apartment. Steve was standing at the stove and was cooking the food, well at least half of it, Natasha squeezed in there making the eggs and the bacon. Steve looked after the hash browns and the sausage, and of course the coffee. Natasha was smiling the entire time, funny how they could cook together. Steve chuckled when Natasha put butter on his nose. He gave her a kiss, Natasha chuckled as they were having a good morning. Natasha had the ring on her finger and hadn't taken it off for a week, she was liking it on her finger, and it annoyed her whenever she had to take it off. Steve saw that the hash browns were done, he turned that area of the stove off and started to divide them in half.
Natasha watched him as he evenly divided the hash browns onto two separate plates. She looked down his entire body and stared at his ass, which was being hugged by his boxers. She smirked and smacked him. Steve looked at her and chuckled "I'll get you for that one"
"Will you?" Natasha asked giggling
Steve saw that the eggs were done as well, he quickly moved them from the stove to the plate, he turned and he moved Natasha to the island and she was stuck there. Steve put his arms on either side of her and she was trapped between him and the island. Steve kissed her passionately, Natasha moaned slightly as she could feel his warmth from his skin transferring to hers. She moved her hands to his abs and slowly moved them down, going over the defined abs, she was addicted to them. Steve chuckled as she touched the edge of his ribs and it tickled slightly. He kissed her again "Easy Romanoff"
"What, can't take it?"
"Please let me eat"
"Fine" Natasha said and she gave him a quick peck on the lips and moved quickly and got out of her position. Steve looked at her and shook his head "I could have moved"
Natasha grabbed her plate and looked back at him "yeah and where would the fun be in that?"
Steve grabbed his plate of food and he began to eat, frankly he was eating faster than usual. Natasha looked at him "In a hurry?"
"Maybe" Steve said and finished his eggs.
Natasha at her hash browns first, as usual. Steve saw that she was finished with her hash browns and he was on his last bit of food, the sausage. Steve quickly ate them and he saw that she was staring at him the entire time. Steve stood and took his plate to the sink and he looked back at her "Screw breakfast"
Natasha put her fork down, and stood as Steve rushed her and put his arms around her and kissed her neck. Natasha chuckled as his lips tickled slightly, she closed her eyes as she felt his hands move down her back and one grabbed her ass. Steve moaned as her hand grabbed him, he grabbed her thighs and pulled her up, she wrapped her legs around him in response, he walked her to the couch, he set her down at the top of it, her legs were still holding onto him. He pulled off his shirt and he put his hands on her arms and kissed her again. Natasha was surprised by the speed he was moving, maybe she should let him eat more often, or just motivate him. He did know how to move when he was motivated. Natasha was soon naked, her night gown was somewhere on the floor. She laughed when Steve pulled her back up and he moved her to the dining room table, he placed her down and he pushed her down onto her back. Natasha gasped as she felt his hands grab her breasts. She exhaled as she felt his hands move down her body. Steve placed his mouth on her breast and he kissed her and lightly sucked on her breast. Natasha moaned as the tickling pleasure made her heart rate jump suddenly and she felt her body getting hot. Steve kissed down her chest and her stomach. He moved his hand up as he moved his lips down. He kissed her stomach as he massaged her breasts again. Natasha looked at him but was then forced to put her head back and he kissed the top of her panties. She exhaled as she felt his lips move around her waist.
Steve put his hands on the sides of her panties and he pulled them off of her. Natasha felt herself become exposed and she could feel his breath tickle her skin and make her have goose bumps. She shivered slightly and she moaned as he placed his mouth on her and tasted her. Steve moved his hand around the back of her thighs and his fingers wrapped around her skin and he pulled her harder onto his mouth. He buried his face into her thighs, she gasped as she felt his tongue tease her, she was being pleasure by his lips as they touched her clitoris and his touch teased her slit. She placed her hand on the table and her other grabbed her own breast and lightly squeezed her nipple. Steve heard her moan loudly as he moved his tongue into her. He pulled her onto his mouth harder and she gasped. "Shit" was the only word that escaped her lips.
Steve took his mouth off of her, Natasha looked down at him disappointed. He looked up at her "Language" he said and he raised an eyebrow at her. Natasha chuckled "Rogers" she complained as she wanted his mouth back down there. Steve lightly licked her and she gasped, he smiled and he held back for a second and he placed his mouth back on her hard and she gasped louder, she yelled something in Russian. Steve looked at her and she was breathing heavily. Steve took his mouth off of her and did it again. Natasha moaned and she grabbed his hair and pushed him harder onto her. She moaned as she felt his mouth massage her.
Steve took his mouth away and she whimpered and he replaced it with his hand and he massaged her. Natasha moaned as she felt something else, Steve lightly rubbed himself against her opening. She twitched slightly as she felt it tease her. He placed himself into her and moved. She moaned as he went farther inside her. Steve closed his eyes and he felt the pleasure as her velvety folds pulled him deeper. He reluctantly moved his cock back out and thrusted back in. They both moaned, Natasha sat up and she kissed him and Steve thrusted into her faster. Steve moved his hands over her body and he groaned as she shifted and he went a little deeper. Natasha pulled herself off of him and she pushed him back, she moved and she got off the table. She walked toward him and she pushed him into a sitting position on the couch. She got to her knees and grabbed him and lightly stroked him.
Steve exhaled sharply as he felt her lips kiss the tip, she slowly placed her mouth onto him and she lightly sucked on him. Steve closed his eyes and he moaned as he felt her tongue go around him. He looked at her and he pulled him off. He pulled her onto him and he put himself back into her, she moaned as she placed her hands onto his shoulders. Steve put his hands on her waist and he moved her onto him harder, she moaned and kissed him as she rode him. Steve pushed himself off the couch and walked toward the bedroom. Natasha could feel him slightly moving in her and she shivered as she felt his hands move slightly which made her move and that made him move and it made her moan. She saw the bed coming into view and soon she was on it and she was being relentless as he fucked her. Steve moved his entire body and he moaned as she kissed his neck. Natasha moved her hands to his ass and pulled him in deeper, Steve moaned loudly and she noticed that he got a little closer because of it. Natasha could feel the want and need as much as he could. Everything was moving, the room was nothing but a blur. Steve was pushed onto his back and she put her hands onto his chest and she rode him faster.
Natasha was getting close, she breathing was becoming faster and she wanted to scream every time he went into her. She moaned as he moved his hands up her chest and grabbed her breasts. Steve was getting closer, the tickling feeling slowly building. Natasha leaned down and kissed him hard and moaned against his lips. Steve wrapped his arms around her and he moved in rhythm to her and he went into her deeper. Natasha moaned and she took her lips away from his and she moaned "I'm gonna…" the words were lost as he thrusted herder into her. Natasha felt a tingling feeling move down her body and she felt her climax take place and she shivered and she twitched on his cock and the fast movement made the pleasure almost too much. She moaned loudly from her orgasm and Steve came and he felt her pulsing around him and he moaned loudly as he emptied himself into her. Natasha fell onto his chest and she was breathing heavily, Steve swallowed and inhaled a much needed breath.
Natasha took a few deep breaths and she looked at him "Well, that was…too good"
"Too good?" he asked still out of breath
Natasha nodded "You're gonna need to do that again"
"That can be arranged" he moved in her again as he was ready for another round. Natasha gasped from the pleasure as she was still sensitive from her orgasm, she looked at him "God, you're unbelievable"
"Well you up for it?" he asked
Natasha gave him a look "Are you?" she asked
Steve moved her onto her back and he thrusted into her at a steady pace. She moaned as she was doing all the work, and she didn't mind "Yes you are" she moaned
Two more rounds later, the room was a wreck, well at least the bed was, the sheets were on the floor and the pillows were somewhere. Steve and Natasha were both lying on the mattress, they were glistening with sweat. Natasha was staring at him, Steve was staring right back. She put her hand on his face and he smirked and he held her hand there. Natasha inhaled deeply, she frowned slightly "Steve?"
"Yeah"
"Do you love me?"
Steve smiled "More than anything"
Natasha smirked and she blinked a few times before speaking again "Steve?"
"Yes dear" he said jokingly
Natasha smirked "Are you upset that we can't have kids?"
Steve's smile disappeared and he became serious, but he was still clam "A little"
"I know you've always wanted them"
"Nat, we've talked about this"
"I know, just, hypothetically if it was possible, what would you want?"
Steve sighed "It doesn't matter to me, boy or girl. Never really had a preference"
"I always wanted a boy" Natasha said softly
Steve sighed softly "Sorry"
"You have nothing to be sorry about, I'm the problem"
Steve shook his head "You are not the problem, Nat, try to see yourself as being something more than a problem, please"
Natasha smiled "Well you make me feel like I mean something"
"Well that's because you do"
Natasha was starting to become tearful "I just want one"
Steve nodded "I know"
Natasha wiped tears from her eyes before they fell down her cheeks "Steve do you know how it works?"
"How does what work?"
"The serum I was given?"
"No" he said
"Well it increased my white blood cell count, so I have an overabundance, like overkill abundance"
"Yeah, and it helps you be immune to poisons and diseases"
"It also keeps me from getting pregnant"
"Well, wait where are you going with this?"
Natasha shrugged "I don't know, maybe there's a way to lower it or something"
"Nat, sadly the serums that we have don't work like that"
Natasha nodded "I know" her eyes becoming filled with tears again
Steve gave her a sad smile and he wiped the tears from her cheeks "You deserve so much Natasha"
"I don't believe that"
"I know, but see I don't deserve you either"
"I know, you deserve better"
Steve shook his head "No, you're the one for me, not doubt about it. I was in the forties a few years ago, and I thought I had it all figured out, well then I got the serum and everything else changed. Peggy was what I hope I could have after the war, but I went under and when I came out, everything had changed. I am a man out of time, annoying as it is. I am happy that this happened."
"How, everything was pulled out from under you?"
"Yes it was, but I found my footing, and it's with the Avengers, I know what I have to do, but I never expected to fall in love again. I told myself that I would never fall in love again, but here I am; madly in love with a woman that I never would have met if I hadn't went into the ice"
"Steve"
He shook his head "No, Natasha you're the one I don't deserve, you deserve all this, you deserve the chance for a normal life. A guy like me, never gets the girl"
"Well that's a lie"
"I know, but how did the guy who didn't know how to dance, and could barely talk to woman and who would almost want to pass out climbing a flight of stairs too fast get a strong and independent woman like you?"
"I have no idea, but you did"
Steve smiled "yeah, well Nat, just think whenever you start to question yourself: how did I get here?"
Natasha nodded and she put her hand on his face and looked into those blue pools "God I love you"
Steve smiled "Natasha?"
"Yeah"
"If something happens that makes things go bad, really bad, don't follow me"
Natasha frowned "What?"
"If something happens that makes what I choose to do dangerous, do not follow me"
Natasha shook her head "Steve, I will follow you"
"Please don't"
"Why?"
"Because every time that something like that happens, people close to me get hurt"
"Steve, I will follow you"
Steve smiled "I know you will, but don't. If something happened to you, I couldn't live with myself"
"So what I choose the other side?"
"Yes, like you said before, not everyone agrees with me, I would lose for what's right?"
"I would lose for what's right to"
"I know you would, but promise me, when something like that happens, if it happens, you choose the other side"
Natasha looked at him "I can't promise that"
Steve smiled at her "You wouldn't be you if you said you would, Nat, if you do decide to follow me, keep yourself safe"
"You know I'll be right in the fight with you"
"I know, you can handle yourself"
"What if the side I choose makes me fight you?"
"Then its ok, in the end, you just make it through it alive"
"What about you?"
"I will try to do the same"
Natasha sighed "I can't change your mind can I?"
"No"
"I figured, well I hope it never happens"
"Me too"
The conversation ended there and Natasha was soon in the shower as Steve was cleaning up from what they did to the room. Once he had fixed the bed, he opened the closet and he looked at all the wrapped presents that they had accumulated during the week. He looked at the bathroom door as the shower turned off. Natasha walked out a few minutes later with a towel around her. Steve smiled at her "Hey uh…do we have enough?"
Natasha saw that he was standing at the closet where all the presents were "Yes, stop worrying Steve"
Steve nodded "I know, just, never bought something for a kid before"
Natasha smiled at his remark "Well I don't do it very often, well remember a lot of that is for Clint and Laura. There are only a few things for Cooper and Lila."
"And the outfit that you bought Nathaniel"
"Yeah, well that will be a surprise"
Steve looked at her and she stood behind him at the dresser. She dropped the towel and began to grab some clothes. Steve closed the closet, he walked over to the dresser; he rested his arm on it "Nat?"
"Hmm"
"You've heard about the Intel that Fury got a week ago?"
"About the other Captain America, yeah"
"Well, Rhodey asked me before that happened if we could investigate ONI for more Intel on it, I said no"
"Wise choice, if it was a kept secret, it most likely has National security written all over it"
"Yeah, well others think that we should investigate, well it's another Captain America"
"You feeling jealous?" she asked teasingly
Steve gave her a look "No, just what if I didn't make the right choice?"
"Well Steve, if you're wrong then you messed up and that's normal"
"I don't think everyone else will see it that way"
"If they don't then they don't understand that sometimes we make mistakes, look Stark made some and we've forgiven him, well most of them"
Steve nodded "I just wanted your opinion"
Natasha nodded as she put her bra on. Steve nodded and tapped the dresser a few times with his fingers and walked away. After she was dressed, it was later in the day when a knock came from the door. Steve was in the kitchen at the time and Natasha was sitting on the couch. She stood and walked to the door, she looked through the peep hole to see who it was, when she saw who it was, all the color from her face drained away. Steve was drying his hands off with a hand towel, he tossed it over his shoulder and it hung there, he walked toward her as she kept staring out of the peep hole. "Who is it?" He asked
When he didn't get a response from her, he frowned "Natasha?"
She couldn't move, her heart was racing and her feet were locked in place. She looked away from the peep hole and slowly turned around. Steve saw how she wasn't registering much and how her eyes seemed distant, she looked pale, well paler than she usually looked. Steve walked to the door and he looked through the peep hole and Bucky was standing outside the door. Natasha took a few weak steps away from the door, Steve looked at her "Nat, go to the bedroom"
Natasha nodded slightly and slowly walked to the bedroom, she had her hands on her arms as a way of comfort, but it wasn't comforting.
Steve watched as she disappeared into the hallway, he sighed and unlocked the door. He opened it and Bucky saw him and smiled. Steve returned the smile "Bucky"
"Hey, I was given leave from the boss and I decided to take the time to come by"
Steve held the door open, but he didn't open it wide for him to come in. Bucky noticed how Steve himself was welcoming, but the way he was holding the door half closed told him that he wasn't going to let him in. Bucky sighed "Natasha is here isn't she?"
Steve inhaled "Yeah, sorry, but not here"
Bucky nodded and he glanced past Steve and into the apartment "Well can you talk in the hallway?"
"Yeah"
"Let him in Steve" they both heard Natasha's distant voice say
Steve opened the door wide open and Bucky hesitantly walked into the apartment. He pulled off his coat and placed it on a chair next to the dining room table. "I don't want to be a nuisance" Bucky began to say
"It's ok Buck, just sit down" Steve said
Bucky nodded and took a seat and Steve pulled a chair out and took a seat along with him. Bucky was comfortable, but he was nervous, a little anxious actually. Steve heard Natasha slowly walking back through the hallway. He saw her come around the corner and she stayed there and leaned against the wall. She didn't say anything, but Steve saw that she had a hand out of view, he really hoped she didn't have a gun. He pushed the thought aside and looked at Bucky. "So, what is it you want to talk about?"
Bucky glanced back at Natasha and sighed nervously "I…I wanted to talk about Alexie"
"Yeah, well he's on the Helicarrier"
Bucky nodded "I know that, but have you interrogated him yet?"
Steve shook his head "No, I was going to after Christmas"
"Well I was wondering, not to get in the way of the big investigation, but would you mind if I interrogated him before you, you know just talk to him?"
"I don't see why not, Fury told me he won't talk to anyone though, he would only speak to me"
"Well I figured he would talk to me"
"You can try, so…" Steve said wanting to change the subject "How's Hill?"
"Good, we'll both be back a few days after Christmas, Gerald is making it hard to want to come back" he said with a chuckle
Steve slightly laughed "Is that it?"
Bucky nodded "Pretty much, and when did you want to get that drink?"
"Well, soon" Steve looked at Natasha, both her arms were crossed, she hadn't been holding a gun after all.
"How has the search for Yelena going?" Natasha asked with a calm but blunt voice
Bucky turned to look at her "Well they almost had her, but she got away. Not much more than that"
Natasha nodded "How about Zemo?"
"Elusive as ever"
Natasha nodded again and stayed quiet, Bucky swallowed "Well I'll get out of your hair, Merry Christmas"
Steve smiled and stood up along with Bucky "Merry Christmas to you to"
Steve walked Bucky to the door and they embraced "See you punk"
Steve chuckled "Just stay out of trouble"
Bucky smirked and the door closed, Steve locked it and turned around. Natasha was still leaning against the wall. "Well that could have been worse" he said
Natasha sighed, she had regained her normal color back "Not so bad" she walked back into the bedroom, Steve took a deep breath and walked back to the kitchen, he needed to finish washing the dishes.
Natasha was alone in the bedroom, the door was closed, but not locked. She was sitting Indian style on the bed. She had both her hands on her arms, she had her eyes closed. She was breathing slowly trying to get back to how she was before he showed up. She took a deep breath and she could remember being in the same room with him years back. The mansion was warm at least, but that didn't hide its cold nature. She was standing in a room and the Winter Soldier was standing by a table. Natasha inhaled sharply as she remembered what he said to her.
"You are improving"
"Well I've had a good teacher" she said with a smile
Winter Soldier took a quick drink from his glass and walked toward her, her heart fluttered as he got closer. He stood before her and he was holding the glass of vodka in his real hand. She got a little closer, he didn't show anything. He saw her though, her long red hair, her bangs, her ivory skin. He stood a little closer and they could feel each other's breath. She leaned a little and He kept his face cold, she placed her lips on his. He stared at her as she drew away. He cocked an eyebrow. He turned away from her and waked back over to the table and softly put his glass down. She frowned at him and took a few steps forward and he turned, making her freeze. He looked at her and his eyes showed nothing "What are you doing?"
She laughed nervously "I thought…I thought" she said her voice becoming quiet.
He walked forward and he got close again, she looked up at him. He looked into her eyes and he gave her no indication of what she showed before. He was doing what he was told, and he didn't like her anyway, maybe that wasn't true. "What you want Natalia is childish"
She stared at him, how could he say something like that? She swallowed and she moved her eyes around the room, she felt hurt, her chest ached. "I thought…" she began to say
"That what? That I would want to be with you, why would I want to be with you?"
She was silent and he smirked and nodded "This is training Natalia, nothing more, if you attempt to go there again I will kill you, you are not expected to fail, but you just did, you have a warning. Natalia, love is for children, it's just something that people do because they are weak and unable to handle anything, so they want someone with them. You don't need any of that, you don't want anything like that"
She nodded and her heart ached more, she wanted to cry, but she held back the tears.
Natasha opened her eyes and she was back in Steve's apartment, the warm and peaceful apartment. She looked around and she felt her throat tighten and she felt tears come to her eyes, she shut her eyes and the tears burned as she put her head in her hands. She silently sobbed as she could feel the pain from so long ago, still just as strong as the day it happened. She opened her eyes and tears flowed even faster down her cheeks. She was alone for about another second before Steve was at the door. He was staring at her "Nat?"
Natasha looked up at him and she went back to sobbing into her hands. Steve rushed forward and he sat down next to her. He put his hand on her back and he slowly put his arm around her. Natasha could feel the warmth from his touch, the comfort. She moved quickly and wrapped her arms around him and cried into his shoulder. Steve could feel her tears soaking his shirt, he pulled her even closer, Natasha moved slightly and she was on his lap holding onto him. Steve held her as she sobbed into his shoulder. Steve wished he knew what to do for her, but he didn't. Locked up Natasha he knew how to help, but straight out crying Natasha, he didn't see that often. He just held her, he spoke softly "Hey, its ok. I'm here"
Natasha sobbed a little harder once he said that, Steve closed his eyes and kept holding her. Natasha pushed away from him, Steve let her go and she stood up and walked over to the corner. She was breathing frantically, Steve stood and she saw him moving closer and she coward into the corner. Steve kept walking forward and he knelt down. Natasha had her eyes slammed shut and she was crying uncontrollably. Steve put his hand on her shoulder and she seemed to want to get away from him "Hey, you're not there anymore, you're right here, with me"
Natasha could hear his words, but they felt like lies, like all the other lies that had been told to her. "You're right here, in my apartment. I'm right here"
Natasha breathed shakily as she tried to picture Steve's apartment, she kept seeing all the things she had done and it wasn't working. Steve was about to freak out, he didn't know what to entirely do for her other than comfort her, he was like this in Red Room, he hoped he'd never feel this way again, but right now he just wanted her to not feel the pain.
Natasha moved through her memories frantically, trying to find anything to focus on to make her feel better. She thought back to a quiet evening in New York, the cool breeze and the rustling of leaves. She pictured a sunset and she was sitting on a bench with Steve, his arms were around her and they were the same way she remembered them, soft, and loving, no second agenda, just in the moment, no planning ahead, just here.
Natasha felt her heart slowly start to calm down and she was still crying, but she was able to open her eyes and see Steve's worried face with those puppy dog eyes. He gave her a comforting smile "hey" he said softly
Natasha felt tears pour down her face, she shot forward and put her arms around him, she didn't sob, but she held him tightly. Steve was on his knees and Natasha was in his arms, he held her close as she closed her eyes and fought the bad memories away. Steve closed his eyes and held her tight, she was almost choking him from her grip on him. He could feel her heart slowly becoming calm. Her breathing was slowly and deeper, less frantic and short like before. Natasha opened her eyes and she could only see the bedroom and Steve's blonde hair that was at the corner of her eye. She inhaled deeply and she felt better, she was back in the apartment. Steve helped her to her feet a few minutes later. He walked her over to the bed and sat her down. He walked over and grabbed his desk chair and pulled it over and set it down in front of her. He took a seat and she watched him the entire time, her eyes swollen and red. He leaned forward, resting his arms on his thighs. He took her hand in his, he looked at her "You ok?"
Natasha nodded slightly, her heart wasn't hammering, so yeah she felt better. Steve brought her hand to his mouth and kissed it, he moved his other hand up her arm and rested it against her cheek. He kept her hand in his, never loosening his grip. "It's because of Bucky isn't it?"
Natasha kept her eyes off of him in an introverted way and nodded. Steve sighed "Nat, I know what happened to you in Red Room, and what you did once you became Black Widow"
Natasha looked at him with glistening eyes "I know" she said through a quiet sob. Steve looked at her "You are more afraid of Bucky than Red Room, why?"
Natasha looked away from him and she felt another tear fall down her cheek. Did he really want to know what his best friend did all those years ago? She looked at him and he was sure in what he asked, and he was prepared for her answer, he expected nothing good. She hesitated and sighed, her eyes closed and more tears fell down her face. Steve lifted her chin and wiped the tears off her cheeks as he cupped them with his hands "Hey, it's ok, you can tell me" he said softly
Natasha nodded slightly and took a deep shaky breath. "I was fifteen when I first met him"
Steve kept one hand on her thigh and the other hand resumed to hold her hand. She spoke again "It was recommended…because I had a problem with keeping my emotions under control"
Steve listened to her words carefully as she continued to speak. She felt her throat tighten a little "So I had lessons with him, to be able to keep them nonexistent" She shuttered slightly and continued "It was like any other lesson I had been in, but the year I turned eighteen, the last year I was…nor…normal."
Steve kept his eyes on her and he tightened his grip on her hand to show that he was there, she returned the grip. She looked down at his hand holding hers, she looked back up at him with a deep breath. "I was actually arranged to be married that year to"
Steve remembered her telling him about how she was married once, but the man had died. She swallowed "I liked him of course, he was nice, loving, but I liked the Winter Soldier to, I don't know. Every day I had to seduce him, and he had to seduce me, it was…" she felt more tears coming to her eyes.
Steve put his hand on her face "Hey, it's ok." He said reassuringly
Natasha breathed and she felt like her chest was slowly constricting, a tightening was making her unable to say anything. She took a deep breath and she felt the tightening lessen, she hesitated to say anymore. "One day, I tried something, it uh…didn't end like I wanted. I was hurt, rejected, for the first time in my life. The one person I ever liked rejected me, then a month later I got married. He was nice, but then one day he left on a mission, and he didn't come back. I…was heartbroken, the other man that I liked was gone, and then just before I turned nineteen I was given the graduation. I lost everything, I had been beaten and rejected so many times. I was broken so many times, I became different, they made me the way they wanted me; uncaring, cold, no remorse, a monster. The Winter Soldier was one of the people that made me the way I was, and I hate him for it" she said with tears falling down her cheeks.
Steve's eyes were becoming wet with tears, but he held them back. He looked at her "So you were…"
"Abused? Yeah" she said and her eyes looked away from him.
Steve leaned forward a little more "What kind?"
Natasha looked at him and she closed her eyes "All of them, I messed up, I got beat. I showed an emotion, they broke me psychologically, I failed a sedu…seduction, they…" Natasha didn't say anything else. Steve saw that her lips was trembling. He pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her. She accepted the hug, she closed her eyes and breathed slowly, feeling the warmth from his body. She felt his heart beating against her chest. Steve looked at her "I'm sorry…I wish I could have gotten you out of that?"
"Me to, but it happened"
Steve sighed, they rested their foreheads against each other's. Natasha put her hand on his chest and felt his heart beating against her hand. He had his hands on her back and she moved her hands to his face. They sat there in silence, just being in each other's company. Steve looked at her "Nat?"
She looked at him and he spoke "Did Bucky ever…"
"No, he never touched me"
Steve nodded "I just…" he stopped talking and she looked at him "Steve?" He looked at her "It was a long time ago, I just want to move on"
Steve nodded "I'm here"
"Good, because I can't do any of this without you"
Steve pulled her close and she inhaled deeply, he kissed her lightly and she kissed him back. His lips were soft and somehow she could still taste spearmint.
Bucky
Bucky was in the Helicarrier, he was walking to Jane's lab and he was only going to be here for a little while before he went back to Austria. Hill was there with Gerald, she had given him permission to go see Steve, well she wanted to come to, but Gerald convinced her to stay. He was about to enter Jane's lab when the doors opened. Fury was walking out and he saw Bucky standing there. Fury stopped in his tracks "Barnes?"
"Nick"
Fury walked closer "I thought you were in Austria"
"Well I got a little time to leave, I'm going back tonight, I just needed to do something"
"Need any help?"
"Yeah I need to speak to Alexie"
Fury gave him a tested look "He won't talk to you"
Bucky nodded "He'll talk, just let me try"
Fury nodded "I'll go get him, see you in interrogation in five?"
"Yeah"
Fury walked past him and disappeared around the corner. Bucky looked at Jane, she was typing into a computer as usual. She saw him "Hey, how's the arm holding up?" He walked up to the table "It's as good as it was when you gave it to me"
Jane nodded "I do good work"
Bucky chuckled, he glanced at her computer and he saw a global search, "I see you're still looking for Yelena"
Jane looked at the computer "yeah, pain in the ass really" her head turned back to him "How's Hill?"
"Good, back in Austria. I came back for a day"
"So you want to spend the remainder of that day interrogating a man who won't talk to anyone, you're weird"
Bucky chuckled "I didn't know I was going for normal"
Jane smirked "Well I hope you get him to talk, um…have you heard about the other Captain America?"
"Yeah, interesting is all I can say"
Jane nodded "A little weird"
"Hmm"
Jane walked around the table and she came up to him and looked at him. He watched her and she gave him a hug, he was taken back by it at first. "It's good to see you Bucky"
"You to" Bucky said slightly uncomfortable
Jane let go of him "I guess that you've also heard that we haven't found Niko's body?"
"Yeah, another reason why I am here"
Jane nodded "I hope the bastard's dead"
"Me too"
"Well I think you better get to interrogation"
Bucky nodded, he was about to leave when he looked back at her "Hey Jane?"
"Yeah?"
"Have you gotten anything from the big guy?"
"Banner?"
"No, Thor?"
Jane nodded "Ah no, he's probably busy"
"How does that work?"
"I'm not entirely sure"
"So are you still you know, dating?"
"I guess, well it's more of a long distance relationship"
Bucky nodded "Just wondering"
Jane shrugged "Fury gets mad if you're late"
"Yes he does" Bucky said leaving in a hurry.
Bucky arrived in the observation room, and Fury was standing close to the glass, he was staring at Alexie. "He has been quiet ever since I spoke to him"
Bucky stood next to Fury and looked at Alexie, he looked unkempt and scruffy "Well he is Russian"
"I thought he was British?"
"Kind of"
Fury sighed "Good luck"
"Thanks, record everything he says"
Fury nodded, Bucky left the room and he got to the door for the interrogation room, he put his hand on the door and he took a breath and pushed the door open. Alexie had his hands cuffed to the table, he saw Bucky walking in. he smiled and chuckled "Hello Barnes"
Bucky took a seat and rested his metal hand on the table and he looked at him "Alexie" he said calmly.
Alexie looked around "Nice place, the food is better than the Gulag's"
"What was the plan?" Bucky asked
Alexie looked at him "What plan?"
"The grand plan, Niko's plan?"
"Oh that plan, well I don't know"
"Are you telling me you helped Niko and you had no idea what he was planning?"
"Well of course I know what he was planning, but if you think I'm going to tell you, then you have another thing coming"
"I figured as much, is Niko dead?"
Alexie looked at him with raised eyebrows "You shot him"
"Yeah well we can't find his body"
Alexie chuckled "Niko is…Niko"
"Yeah I know, cut the shit Alexie, what was he planning?"
"I told you I wouldn't tell you"
"Ok then, did you ever hear of Captain America?"
Alexie frowned "The blonde boy, yeah"
"The other one?"
"Other one? Oh, that one" he said smiling
"Yes, that one"
Alexie sighed and he licked his lips "I don't think I'll tell you that either"
Bucky grabbed him by the collar and punched him twice. Alexie was stunned and his nose was bleeding and he shook his head "Wow, good hit"
Bucky was starting to get annoyed "Why did you help Niko?"
"He was my friend"
"That's all?"
"He saved my life, and after that he convinced me to help him, you know stop Red Room, take down the KGB"
"Yeah I know?"
Alexie looked at him "No you don't, you should remember me from back then"
"What do you mean back then?"
"In Red Room, I was there"
Bucky frowned "No you weren't"
"Well I guess Professor Grigor got rid of that memory" he said grinning "It's a good one"
Bucky frowned "I know that you're a dead man once Steve talks to you"
Alexie nodded "Ah yes, where is the big guy. Not scared is he?"
"He's taking his time"
"So you mean he's fucking Black Widow?"
Bucky glared at him and he arched an eyebrow at him and gave him a nod "Come on James, that doesn't make you at all jealous?"
"No"
"That's right you are fucking Hill, the S.H.I.E.L.D. Agent, what is with you and agents?"
Bucky blinked and slightly rolled his eyes "If you're trying to annoy me or get me to kill you. You're going to need to try harder"
Alexie smirked "I will spill the beans once blonde boy talks to me"
Bucky frowned "What was Niko's plan?" he said trying to get back on topic
Alexie chuckled "He has so much planned for you Barnes"
"You mean he had?"
"No, has"
"Are you telling me he's alive?"
Alexie saw Bucky's reaction "No, but his organization will carry out his good work"
Bucky leaned forward "Shadow Games is finished?"
Alexie laughed "You haven't' even seen the opening scene, this was just the trailers"
"What is it with you two making movie references?"
"More dramatic"
"Well it's also a good way to get killed"
Alexie chuckled "Just wait Barnes, you will beg before the end"
"Beg for what?"
"That's for you to find out"
Bucky stood up "Well you have been insightful"
Alexie watched Bucky turned to leave, he was at the door when Alexie spoke. "Barnes, you watch out for it, soon there won't be anything to hold onto, and you'll be lost"
"Have fun in hell Alexie, I'll join you later"
Alexie chuckled "I look forward to it"
Bucky entered the observation room, Fury looked at him "Well he talked"
"Yeah in a bunch of damn circles"
"Well at least we know that Niko may be alive"
Bucky sighed "I was hoping that he was dead"
"We still are"
Steve
It was late when Steve landed the Quinjet in the large building behind the hill. He flicked the switches and the Quinjet became quiet as the power slowly turned off. Natasha was standing behind him, she had her hand on his shoulder. "You ready?" she asked
Steve sighed "yeah, at least we have our own place right now"
The ramp opened and stopped as it touched the floor, Natasha grabbed the stack of present that was tied down and walked them down the ramp and set them down on a chair. Steve unhooked himself from the pilot's seat and walked toward the ramp. Natasha saw the sparring area to the right. She saw the secret rooms that were open. She walked over to them, she entered. She got to the bedroom and she saw a bottle of wine and a note. She grabbed the note and read: Hey Nat, hope you made it in ok, see you at breakfast, it'll be nice to see you both. Oh and please try not to ruin the room, I know you Steve like to get freaky. –Clint
Natasha smiled at the note and Steve walked in behind her "Well Barton sure didn't make us feel unwelcome"
Natasha turned around and had the bottle of wine in her hands "Well I guess we could have a little drink before bed"
Steve smirked "A drink and maybe" he got close and he looked down her body and checked her out "Something else"
Natasha moved her eyes down his body and she moved them back up and looked at him "Well we could have something on the side"
Steve smirked and he grabbed the two wine glasses that were sitting next to the bucket of ice that the bottle of wine had been in. Natasha pulled the cork out and she poured the wine into the glasses. He gave her glass and she took it, she placed the bottle back into the bucket of ice. Steve took a sip of his wine and he swallowed. Natasha took a sip and she swallowed, he watched as her neck shifted as she swallowed. He looked at her smooth ivory skin, her emerald eyes staring right back into him, seeing right through him. Natasha set her glass of wine down "I could never stick with wine"
Steve took a long gulp and wished it had an effect on him "Me to" he put the glass of wine down and he moved his hands around her and rested them on her back. She looked up at him and she smirked "Well, soldier boy. Take your favorite spy to bed"
"Yes ma'am"
Steve grabbed her thighs and pulled her up, she wrapped her leg around his waist to support herself. She could fell his breath against her neck as he walked her to the bed. Steve slowly placed her down. She laid back on the bed and he helped her take off her layers of shirts. He leaned over her and kissed up her stomach, Natasha started to pull his shirt up and she rubbed his abs as he kissed under her breasts. Steve leaned away and quickly pulled off his shirt and tossed it away. He kissed her hard and his tongue explored her mouth, he felt her hands moving down his back and he felt her grab his ass. He kissed her neck and she exhaled as his lips tickled and made her feel hot at the same time.
Steve leaned back up and he unbuckled his belt and pushed his pants down. He was in his boxers as he climbed back over her. Natasha kissed him and she lightly bit his neck as she felt his hands move over her body. Steve kissed her neck and moved down kissing her collar bone and he kissed both her breasts. He pulled Natasha off the bed slightly and unhooked her bra and pulled it off. He put his mouth around her breast and he lightly sucked on her nipple and flicked his tongue across it. Natasha closed her eyes and moaned from his lips and tongue making her feel good. He kissed down her stomach and he massaged her breasts with his hands as he moved further down her body. Natasha could feel his tongue getting closer to her waist and it make her ache with pleasure as she wanted him down there. He grabbed the edges of her pants and pulled them off, he kissed around her panties and he lightly bit them and pulled them away and let them snap back into place. Natasha exhaled as she became wet from the fact that he was so close, but wasn't there. Steve pulled her panties off and he held her legs up. He did one of her favorite things, he kissed and licked down each thigh, and it made her shiver and twitched slightly as she wanted him down there. He got closer and he could tell she was wet, there was a wet spot on the covers. He smirked "You're really wet"
Natasha moaned as she felt his breath against her opening. "It's your fault"
Steve smiled and he planted his mouth on her, she moaned and gasped. He moved his tongue over her slit and he lightly sucked on her with his lips. Why was he so good at that? She moaned as he moved his hands back up and grabbed her breasts. He took his mouth off of her and kissed her. Natasha could taste herself on his lips, he lightly rubbed something against her vagina and she opened her mouth slightly as she knew what it was. He moved slightly and he began to enter her, and he took himself away before he entered her. She moaned and whimpered in disappointment. "Don't tease me Rogers"
Steve smiled "What if I like teasing you?" he asked as he did it again. Natasha moaned "Steve, put it in" she said with a wanting that made her almost seem like she was begging. Steve entered her and he exhaled as he felt her all around him, she pulled him in deeper, she moaned as he moved deeper. He kissed her neck and she gasped and he thrusted into her and she moaned. He moved his hands down her body as he moved and she shivered from the soft touch from his fingers on her thigh. He kissed her passionately and he thrusted faster now and she moaned louder, she kissed his neck and she dug her nails into his back as he went deeper, he groaned in response. Natasha closed her eyes and just let go of everything, she just stayed in the moment, the pleasurable moment, and she never wanted to leave. Steve moved over and Natasha was on top now, she knew what he wanted. She pushed him down onto the bed and she rode him hard, he moaned as she moved up and down on his cock. She exhaled in pleasure as his hands moved up her stomach and grabbed her breasts and lightly squeezed her nipples. She closed her eyes and she moaned as he went in and out of her. Steve moved her onto her side and he slipped out of her, she wanted him back in there.
Natasha faced away from him and she felt his chest against her back. He angled himself and went inside her. She moaned as she felt him touch every part of her, he went even deeper than before and the fact that she had her legs close together made her tighter. He moaned as he felt her gripping him. He wasn't going to last long in this position, but it made her moan loudly, and Steve loved being able to smack his pelvis against her ass. Natasha felt his hand grab her breast and she moved her head back and felt his breath against her neck. Natasha arched her back and her ass pressed harder against his pelvis and he thrusted. She smiled as she got a loud groan of pleasure from him. "Come on Steve, cum"
Steve moaned loudly as he felt her pressing even harder against him. He moved his hand over her hip and put his fingers on her clitoris and rubbed in circular motions and lightly teased her. Natasha moaned and she was getting close. She smiled and she pressed harder into him, whenever he thought she couldn't get even more, she got more. He moaned and he was breathing heavily. Natasha wanted him to cum "Come on Steve, I want you" she moaned as she thrusted harder. He was getting close and it was almost unbearable to hold it back. Natasha was catching her breath "Come on Steve, cum inside me" she moaned
Steve groaned and he felt himself getting closer. Natasha could fell the wave of pleasure traveling down, she moaned as it began to crash. Steve grunted and he felt her pulsing around him as she came. Natasha moaned and he emptied himself into her, she felt the added warmth from his ejaculation. She shivered as she kept coming. Steve was breathing heavily as Natasha gave a satisfied laugh "Well, I could use a glass of wine now"
Steve chuckled "Well, I'm ready"
Natasha looked at him "Ready for what?"
Steve moved inside her and she moaned as she felt him inside her. "I love your stamina" Natasha said as he began to thrust faster.