Since everyone loved the other one here's a new one while I'm at it. But this time it's me dying… yay! I also based this chapter on one of my favorite songs 'Flowers for a Ghost'. I don't own anything except myself and everyone else belongs to my nakama. Of course this is an AU so it's not really set anywhere.
There went another broken branch, of course she didn't care. All that really mattered is that she was outside in the beautiful forest. She was only nine, so why did these things even matter? Well for one, she was tired of being in the hospital constantly, the smell got to her nose, and now she even smelled like it.
She continued walking through the leaf traced road. She always loved moments where she was alone in, so when they finally let her out here she was more than happy to oblige.
But she never understood why. When they thought she wasn't paying attention they would talk about her illness behind her back. She would always know what they were talking about. She had discovered more about medical health ever since her parents had died. (1)
"She has an expected amount of less than a year to live." They would say with their usual composure, "It would be a miracle if she managed to live more than a decade."
She was scared. 'Not like this yet…I haven't even made a lot of friends, or met someone who I would love…' she would always think. Of course she would never tell anyone in her school, she had enough bullying as is… and her only friends had left her alone.
She had slowly begun to climb the tallest pine tree that she had seen in the entire forest. She had managed to get several cuts from branches but she still continued. She was already at half point until her fragile body demanded to stop. She wouldn't give up until she reached the top. The words kept repeating themselves. 'You can't give up just yet, if you did you would have just have everything; everything would be put to waste.' It chanted repeatedly.
She tiredly looked up from where she was...she finally reached the top of the tree.
The warmly colored sky, full of oranges, pinks and reds was not dim at all. The early autumn leaves blowing around the pleasantly warm sky.
She took out her bag and removed a small but delicate flower bud. 'It is known as a 'bleeding-heart' isn't it?' she thought quietly. Strange, it was almost ironic. She felt like her heart was bleeding out with emotions.
Small warm wet drops from the girl's eyes. Of course, she had to take more pain so others wouldn't handle it. It was like a trial. She hated everything about herself now; her long hair, her blue eyes, everything. What would be the point of having it?
"Why me…" the girl whimpered as more drops fell from her cheeks, "Why do I have to be only human…?"
Vanice woke up sturdy as ever. She looked towards her roommate across the room. Looking closer, she could see her see the other girls figure sprawled around the rather large mattress for one.
She gave a heavy sigh as she jumped off from her mattress onto the cold wooden floor. Before continuing she made a slight grunt as she slowly adjusted to the light the binds couldn't block out.
Quietly getting out of her room she saw the others playing on the console in the main room of the house. They were quietly whispering so they wouldn't get clonked in the head by an angry somebody who woke up with the ruckus.
"Hey you guys cook anything for breakfast yet?" she asked scoffing; she knew most of them couldn't cook to save their own lives.
She received many regretful sighs at once, and she let out a snort. "Of course, I should have expected from you guys."
Her nose wrinkled when she caught sniff at what the kitchen looked like. The cabinets were slightly singed and had black smoke still coming out of the stove.
"J-just what the hell did you guys do while I was asleep?!" Vani said shockingly.
Liz stood up in defense. "All I have to say is that…" she took a breath. "It was all Mele's fault." She said simply with no tone change.
Mele stood up with anger at the other girl "WHAT?!" she shrieked "I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU WERE GONNA TAKE THE BLAME!"
Liz stuck up her tongue, "Well bad mistake you did there."
Vani just stood there and used her powers to clean up the mess before anybody else saw. So in no time the kitchen looked good as new. "You guys should be graceful that the kitchen is now fireproof thanks to a certain somebody."
Paty soon walked in through the hallway. Her eyes half-lidded and she looked like she would like a cola or two.
Of course to the rescue, her crew gave her a cola before she could even make a complaint. She took a deep breath and chugged down the cola quickly as she could. (2)
Paty looked worriedly at the youngest crew member. Lately it was stressing to see how she was developing. Instead of gaining a couple of pounds due to her large appetite, she was constantly losing them. Her once light caramel skin was nothing but close to resembling a paper white. She had also developed very dark bags around her eyes.
They would often tell her to eat more, but they would regret it if she managed to empty the entire fridge in one go.
It would be all worthless in the end to them. But she would always be surprised when the girl would not be surprised much when she started her loss in her weight. Hell the girl was probably lighter than some of the textbooks at school.
But nevertheless she was always worried and she would ask the crew if they knew any more information about her. It was quite common now, but would result in a failure yet again.
Vani felt worse than ever. She could almost feel her own body trying to shut down against its own will. It just felt awful. Hopefully she could keep this façade for a while before going to the hospital for a check-up. She might regret the news, but she didn't want to scare her friends away. She couldn't just yet.
But it was too late.
Her body felt hotter and hotter, and she felt her own breath starting to hitch. Everyone looked at here worryingly.
"Don't worry guys! I just need to go somewhere…" she went off uncontinued as she ran towards a sprint at the door.
Paty wasn't happy with the girl, she saw how the girl was acting a while ago. But was she really alright?
You disappear with all your good intentions, and all I am is all I could not mention …
Vani rushed towards the hospital as quickly as she could. But her body was still fragile. She still couldn't believe it herself until at this point. From when she was nine she could never imagine being alive to be fourteen. Especially since the doctors said she herself wouldn't survive past a year, but a total of five years had passed since her last diagnoses.
Yet living longer came with a price. Her skin started losing color and her body had stopped working with her at some points. She was scared, yet happy.
When she arrived at the hospital, she herself was tired. She was never used to running so far. But she didn't want to see her friends like this. But she knew what was going to happen.
Like who will bring me flowers when it's over, and who will give me comfort when it's cold…
She was on the verge of collapsing until the doctors had noticed her and took her to the Emergency Room as quickly as they could.
She felt her vision fading until it was all dark. She could only hear her own thoughts and regrets now… But she wondered if it was truly the end, she didn't want to leave just yet. She had to do something, but now she just felt worthless.
She took a plane to somewhere out in space, to start a life and maybe change the world…
Paty was extremely worried. I had been 2 hours since Vani had just urgently left the house for unknown reasons. She was reminded of how she first met the girl.
The huge group of friends was originally very small in numbers when she met her. But the girl wasn't as ravished back then either. Her clothing would contain blood and her skin was just as a sickly pale. In fact she wondered why she was so surprised on why the girl would become so tired. The girl worked just as much as they did and she was practically just a kid!
She felt a little bit pitiful now. What if what the girl was doing was just an act and she just ran away for good? That wasn't a good idea spawning all around her head. She was the boss wasn't she? Maybe she should have done something after all.
See I never meant for you to have to crawl, no I never meant to let you go at all…
She jumped out of her seat when her cell phone started to vibrate.
"Hello?" she asked worriedly without looking at the number. "Hello ma'am. Are you the guardian of Vanice?"
"Yes, yes I am." She replied simply. "This is Western Hospital; we have to report that Vanice has little time left. So we will ask you to please come here. Thank you."
Paty froze. 'A little... Oh dear Goda no…'she replied mentally as she heard the hospital hang up.
Oh, no oh, no don't ever say goodbye…
She quickly ran out the bedroom and into the living room. "Guys we need to go to the hospital!"
Everyone in the room looked confused at her. She looked okay, well other than the fact that she looked like she could have a complete panic attack at any given moment right now.
"No for me! Vani is in the hospital and if we don't go… she might… she might…" she mumbled.
"Vani? What's wrong with her?" Lian asked. "Yeah what is wrong with her? She was completely weird earlier this morning. I'm pretty sure that wasn't an act even though she is kind of twisty." Mele replied.
"Well whatever the case, I'll start the van." Liz said simply, "We need to go there quickly right?"
Paty gave a slow nod. "Okay then come on guys." Liz replied as she gave a slow sigh.
See my head aches from all this thinking…Feels like a ship… God, God knows I'm sinking…
Once they arrived at the hospital they expected nothing else bad to happen. They just wished that Vani would smile happily at them and give them a hug and say everything would be alright. Oh how they wished that.
Once Paty found the room a doctor exited the room. Apparently he was surprised so many people came. "Are you with Vanice?" he asked. Everyone nodded and a nervous Paty replied "She's family to us."
The doctor smiled. "She certainly didn't do anything wasteful for these years…" he whispered.
The others didn't know but when they let Vanice out for the hospital for her 'final moments' when she was ten they expected her to die. But she came back feeling better than ever. Then what happened to be a miracle happened, another year passed and she still seemed alright. So they had an idea to let Vanice free for the rest of the following years. They still didn't know why they had finally said it but they never regretted it.
Wonder what you do and where it is you stay, these questions like a whirlwind, they carry me away…
Vani felt awful. All she could see was black. But then she started to wonder if this was truly the end.
She was reminded of when her brother Ace died in a car crash in the beginning of May. (3) He was going to be a college freshman the following year. She felt so heart broken when he died. Her youngest brother went to live with her grandmother, who had yet lived so far away.
She was left alone.
Who will bring me flowers when it's over, and who will give me comfort when it's cold…
She felt like crying. She wanted to know what would happen if she did die, and would happen after that. She felt bad for her little brother. He would be a second grader now, and he would basically be all alone. Without a sister, brother or even parents to congratulate him or even to help him or make choices with his life, he would suffer even more than she did.
'If I were to die, he would suffer even more than I did of loneliness. But…'
Who will I belong to when the day just won't give in, and who will tell me how it ends and how it all begins…
'…He has more of a life than I ever had.'
Paty was blocked out of the room a few moments later. They were all crowded into a waiting room just for them. She could see the moon and the sun shining over the ocean nearby.
Everyone was doing their own thing. If you didn't know them, you would think that they didn't care. But secretly they all cared, and were all going to knock a door or two if they wouldn't let them see her.
It felt like forever until a nurse came in. They all wondered what happened. They were all going to smile if she was going to be okay.
"…Vanice passed away an hour ago." She said as she gave a small bow "I give you my condolences."
The news came crashing down to them. 'No… impossible, not her…'
Oh, no…Oh no, don't ever say goodbye
Paty, Lian and Mele were the only ones allowed in the room. They were only letting in 3 at a time.
Paty was about the begin crying when she saw Vani's face. She was smiling.
I'm only human, I said I'm only human.
Yes… this has to be my longest story written EVER.
A/N: (1) My parents never died. But my parental figures have. (2)Well since Cola has caffeine and Paty loves cola. I would think it makes suitable coffee.
(3) Yes I have a brother named Ace. He died on May 1st, 2007… I miss him.