It took a long three days for Shawn to open his eyes again. When he did Henry was the first face he saw. Shawn tried to speak but he when nothing came out. He moved his fingers to his neck and felt that he still had the trach tube in. He looked at Henry with a worried look on his face and signed, "What happened and how long have I been out?"

Henry looked at his son sadly and began to tell him what happened, "Well son, your knee replacements went really well, you have achieved a childhood dream you are part robot now. But the knees aren't the only artificial part. When they tried to insert a ventilator your heart stopped and it would never get a right rhythm back so they had to put a pacemaker in. You have been out for 3 long days."

Shawn just looked at his father confused and then he touched the small raised area right above his heart. He leaned back into the pillows and closed his eyes. He signed, "When is this nightmare ever going to end?"

Henry rubbed Shawn's arm and tried to think of something to say but all he could do is remind him that he is not going through this alone. Shawn couldn't do anything but put his arm over his eyes and hide himself as he cried.

Shawn did remarkably well over the next week physically but everything that he had gone through was starting to take its toll on him emotionally. Shawn went through the motions of his exercises but you could tell his heart was not in them.

He would answer any questions you asked him but you were lucky if he answered you with one or two word signs. He was sleeping about 20 hours a day everyone who visited could tell that he was slowly fading away and everyone, including his doctors began to get worried.

One evening it was Lassiter's turn to sit with Shawn. When he arrived in Shawn's room it was difficult for Henry to leave him. He kissed Shawn's sleeping head and told him he would see him in the morning. He asked Lassiter to step outside with him and he told him that he was really worried about Shawn. He told Lassiter that he hadn't said two words to him all day. Lassiter told Henry, to "Go home and get some rest. Shawn is strong and he will be okay." Henry said, "I hope so Lassiter, I hope so."

Lassiter came in and took the chair that Henry vacated; he sat silently for a few minutes. Then he looked at Shawn and said, "Spencer, I know you are awake we need to talk, I know you are not asleep and don't pull any crap with me remember I know sign language too."

Shawn opened his eyes and turned his head toward Lassiter and shot him an evil look. He signed, "Leave me alone dog!" Lassiter angrily told Shawn, "My name is NOT dog!" Shawn rolled his eyes and finger spelled L-A-S-S-I-E. Lassiter said, "See that wasn't that hard now was it. Now listen Spencer, what the hell is going on with you. Your Dad said that you haven't said two words to him and he almost didn't leave because he was so worried about you."

Shawn just shook his head and signed, "Leave me alone L". Shawn tried to roll over to his other side, facing away from Lassiter but Lassiter stopped him, "You are going to talk to me, I am not going to let you keep this in any longer."

Shawn looked at Lassiter with tears and his eyes and signed, "Fine, you want to know what's wrong with me. I have been kidnapped, beaten and tortured and I have been in the hospital for a month, I have two artificial knees, I cant breath on my own and oh yeah I would be dead with out this thing in my chest. I am tired of fighting I just want to die; everyone would be better off without me. Now LEAVE ME ALONE"

Lassiter looked at Shawn with an incredulous look on his face, "I cannot believe you Spencer. Your father has spent the last month of his life crying and standing beside you. Not to mention the rest of your friends moving heaven and earth to be here with you and help you recover. Yes, you have had a really rough time of it, but that is not permission for you to give up. I thought you were better than that. No one has given up on you and they aren't going to let you give up on yourself. Do you hear me?"

Shawn looked at Lassiter with tears now streaming down his face. He signed, "I am just not getting better and I am tired, it isn't fair for Dad or any of you to be saddled with me anymore."

Lassiter got a tissue and wiped Shawn's eyes and then he said, " What wouldn't be fair is to make your Father and Juliet plan your funeral. What wouldn't be fair is the people that would suffer and die because you didn't get better and catch the people that hurt them, and it wouldn't be fair to me to have to work with a partner that is a shell of her former self because her stupid selfish boyfriend gave up. It wouldn't be fair to me to not make me come save your sorry ass from some stupid trouble you got yourself into. My point is you cannot give up, I know you have been more than most people could bare but you are strong and you are stubborn and damn it Spencer you are loved by too many people to give up. Do you hear me?"

By the time Lassiter was done Shawn was sobbing. He wouldn't even open his eyes he just cried. Then all of the sudden he exhaled really hard and his heart started to go crazy. The doctors came in and made Lassiter leave while they worked on Shawn.

Ten minutes later the doctor came out and said, "They got the heart rhythm steady again, they had to shock it back but he is doing fine now. The Doctor chided him to be careful not get him upset anymore." Lassiter thanked the doctor and then he set out to something that he would rather be shot then do and that is call Henry.

Henry picked up on the first ring and said, "Lassiter what is wrong with my son?" Lassiter sighed and said, "Well Henry his heart started to go crazy again tonight and the pacemaker couldn't restart the rhythm so they had to shock him back to a normal rhythm, he is doing fine now but I thought you would want to…." He was interrupted with a panicked, "I will be right there!"