A/N: I do not own Teen Wolf or any of it's characters.

9 Reasons Why

Video 3- Jackson

Stiles looked at them through the phone and his eyes burned into them, they all felt the heat as he stared at them all, just breathing for a few seconds, as if getting his thoughts together.

"I have to be very quiet in this video." They all watched Stiles' mouth move slowly as he walked somewhere dark, his face barely visible, but his brown eyes seemed to glow in the moonlight and they could read his feelings from them. The mischievous glint in them made Jackson's knees feel weak in fear.

"I'm sure you have noticed that I am no longer in my room, that's very astute of you, no I am on the Hale property." They all flinched and made as if to get up and run there. " Now stop that, I said I'm here now, doesn't mean I am then. Or...whatever time it is for you guys so don't go off running. I simply had to get here to tell my next story, not Jackson's but the one after it." Stiles made himself comfortable on the forest floor and held the phone above his smiling face, the moon's glow lighting his pale skin so they could see.

"SO Jackson, are you ready for me?" Stiles paused as if waiting for something, Jackson just stared at the image on the screen, fear obvious in his scent. " Yeah, I didn't think so, I also have the feeling that Derek is holding the phone?" They all look at Derek in shock, Derek's eyebrows just scrunched together in worry. " Am I right or am I right? 'Course I am. You have always been a coward Jackson. Running from life, from Lydia, from friends, from your birth parents." Jackson flinched and Stiles' smiled cruelly. " Oooh, touched a nerve there didn't I? Well too bad, I don't have time for your feelings right now. I have to get some things out in the open about us, oh well, that just slipped out didn't it?" Stiles smiled mischievously again and Jackson went ramrod straight and everyone looked at him in confusion.

"Woopsie, I wasn't supposed to tell was I? About the date? Oh wow, these things just keep on coming don't they?" Jackson was muttering lightly under his breath and staring at the screen intently. "Oh yes, and what a perfect gentlemen you were, I was quite surprised really, everyone knows that you love Lydia. Woops, another secret out in the open there." Everyone stared at Jackson now as the words washed over them, Scott muttered 'date' under his breath in horror.

"My goodness, I just can't seem to stop myself, but this isn't even the best part. I was excited you know, about you asking me out. Don't ask me why, I knew you were an ass, but I was hoping maybe it was all an act, that maybe there was something else there, just under the surface. I always was an optimist. The date was wonderful of course, nice dinner, nice dessert, amazing kiss. Too bad it was my first huh Jackson? Too bad that I actually enjoyed myself, too bad that it was all a joke to you."

The stares became shocked and they looked between the screen and Jackson's mortified face.

"Oh yes, had a big laugh didn't you with your friends? I was surprised you didn't tell the pack about it, but then again maybe they would have been enraged for my honor, I doubt it but...maybe. Couldn't take that chance could you? 'Course not, you may be cruel but you are not stupid. Oh the laugh your friends had at me, the things they said to me. I know you heard them, I know you laughed with them and the whole time I just stood there and took it. Do you wonder why I took it? Why I didn't stand up for myself? Did you Jackson? Because I still wanted to protect you, still wanted to make sure not to hurt the pack, and you're a part of that pack. I didn't stand up for myself because I know something that you don't think I know. You liked the kiss just as much as I did." Stiles smiled into the camera beatifically.

Jackson felt tears come to his eyes and he wiped them quickly with his shirt sleeve, the rest of the pack were looking at him accusingly and Derek wouldn't look at him at all, his eyes were all for the screen, all for Stiles'.

"I took it, for you, because a piece of me will always cherish the fact that you gave me a great first kiss, even if it wasn't for the right reasons, it was still my first and you are still pack, still family. I didn't want to hurt you...How stupid." Stile's spat out the last words and glared through the screen into Jackson's skin.

"I wanted you Jackson, not because of your looks or your popularity, but because I saw you as family, as pack, and I saw that you were hurting. I just wanted to make you smile, really smile for once. Too bad, I got a kiss though, a real one. You know how I could tell it was real? Do you know how I knew you weren't faking that as well? Because you kissed me like you kiss Lydia. I've seen you kiss other people, watched the way your mouth moves and how your body reacts. I notice everything, with all of you, I notice everything. I noticed when you kiss Lydia that you held her face gently, keeping her from moving away from you, scared she would pull away. You curl your body protectively around her and you smile while you kiss her. Did you know that? That you smile? Well I do. And that's exactly how you kissed me, I remember because I can still taste you on my lips. I can still feel your body heat as you tried to protect me and kiss me at the same time. I could feel your smile against my lips and it was beautiful." Lydia let out and unexpected sob and turned away slightly. Jackson just stared at the phone blankly and his shoulders shook with pain.

"I loved you a little bit then...Only because you let me feel your smile. Still do, always will I suppose, but I had to let you know that it hurt, a lot more knowing that you still went through with the joke, even after I knew that you felt it too. I'll never forgive you for that, for adding on to all of this anger and regret inside of me. For giving me a taste of something that I can never have, for making me feel more alone than ever before." Stile's let his eyes close for a second then opened them again, they all gasped when all they saw was a deadness to the brown.

"I'm getting exhausted so I'll go right on to the next person. At first it wont make any since to you, but when you watch it you will understand. I'm going to send the next video to Derek's phone." Derek's shoulders stiffened in response only to unclench when Stiles' chuckled good naturedly, sounding almost like himself. "Don't worry sour wolf, this video isn't for you, it's just that I can't actually send it to this person because they're dead. You're the next best thing, considering he was your uncle. The next video is all about Peter Hale. Buckle up." The screen went blank.

Derek handed the phone back to Jackson without looking at him. Derek took out his own phone and sat on the ground to wait. The pack all crowded around him and took seats where they could watch the next video. Jackson stood off to the side and stared at the phone in his hand numbly until he situated himself where he stood, separate from the pack, but close enough to hear the next video. No one asked him to join, no one really wanted him to.