A/N: I do not own Teen Wolf or any of it's characters.
9 Reasons Why
Video 4- Peter
Derek's phone buzzed a few seconds later and he didn't hesitate to start the video, everyone but Jackson looked at the screen, all wondering what Stiles would say about Peter Hale.
"Now I know what you are all thinking. What could he possibly have to say about Peter Hale? And you are all probably wrong in whatever you thinking I might say. I wanted to thank him." Everyone blanched at this and focused back on the screen where Stiles shrugged in answer.
"Don't worry I'm going to explain. Reason number one I want to thank Peter Hale, he bit Scott, and even though it made him an awful friend and made me ultimately lose him forever it also gave him the perfect life, the one he deserves. I may resent you Scott but I still love you, want you to be happy in everything that you do, and face it, before you got bit your life sucked." Scott chuckles slightly at this and everyone feels the mood lift some-what, used to this side of Stiles.
"Now look at you, you're super strong, got the girl, got the pack, have a purpose in life. You live for this pack Scott or so help me I will find a way to get back at you even if it's from the...Oh, you almost got me, almost told you what's going on before you're ready to hear it. Anyways, I want you to live for the pack, you need to help Isaac, Boyd, Jackson and Erica tame their wolves, help them find an anchor like you did with Allison. I need you to help Derek after... after all of this is over, I feel like maybe he's going to need it more than the rest of you." Stiles looks solemn for a minute then smiles again, they notice that he's walking through the Hale house, as if Peter will hear him.
"Second reason I want to thank Peter. He brought me Derek, well, kind of, in a way. Derek would have never come here if not for Peter, I know I know, he came for awful reasons but in the end he got a new family so...I hope that makes some of it worth it, even if only to ease the pain of loss. I'm not going to elaborate why this is so important, because your video will explain all of that Derek." Stiles smiles at the camera shyly and Derek feels his throat close up.
"The third reason I want to thank Peter is for making Derek an alpha, inadvertently, and therefore allowing him to create the pack. The pack that accepted me for being human and weak, not to mention having diarrhea of the mouth." Stiles smiles slightly and the pack chuckles in a fond way. "I know I can never be fully pack, not while I'm human anyways, but I was very close and that's all that mattered to me. That I belonged somewhere again, that I was needed, even if it wasn't because you particularly wanted me there." Stiles looked sad at this and Derek heard Isaac whine softly next to him, he put a strong arm around the boy's shoulders to try and comfort him.
"I loved being a part of the pack, it's the only place that has felt like home...in a while." Stiles smile slipped and he frowned at the camera. " I only wish it could have stayed that way. I know why I couldn't be there anymore, why you guys pushed me away. It even made since, I just...I just couldn't get the logic to match up with the loss I felt, it was like I was being rejected by my own family...again." Stiles eyes teared up and they all glanced around confusedly.
"Sorry, I promised myself I would stick to the positives on this one. I know that you guys only pushed me away to protect me, I'm too fragile, too human. I understand all of this, it's just..I was so happy, well as happy as I can be, and I wanted to hold onto it forever." They saw Stiles sigh and heard it through the speakers. "I wanted somewhere to go, I always went to you guys whenever things were bad, I may not have told you why I was there or what I wanted but it was like you understood that I just needed to be there and I was so grateful." Stiles looked longingly at the phone, as if he could see the pack he loved huddled around it.
"The final reason I wanted to thank Peter Hale was that he offered me the bite. If he wasn't a psycho I would have been very flattered, well, I was kind of flattered anyways." Stiles smiled longingly at the memory while everyone in the pack cried a chorus of 'whats' at the news.
"Oh, I never told anyone, so don't look at one another so accusingly. Peter offered me the bite, saying that I needed a reward for having done so well in tracking Derek when Kate had him chained to a wall. I remember, his hand was so warm as he had his mouth hovered over my wrist. All I could think about was how I could be powerful and strong, how I wouldn't need to be saved ever again, I could do the saving...I could be pack, I could be a part of something. At the last minute I pulled my arm away and said I didn't want it. He told me I was lying. I was, I wanted it so bad that it hurt, it just wasn't from the person I wanted it from." Stiles looked at the camera and his eyes were sad and filled with longing.
"Maybe I should have said yes, then maybe I could be pack for real, maybe I could be with you guys now instead of where I am. I was so honored and a bit giddy that this powerful Alpha was asking me to be pack, that he wanted me to be by his side. He saw me you know, the real me, the side I try to hide. It was like he could see right through me, and sometimes I wonder if you can do that Derek? See right through my mask, see what I'm really thinking, what I'm hiding." Stiles laughed coldly. Derek flinched and the rest of the pack looked at the screen in horror, realizing too late that they could have had Stiles as pack.
"I wondered about it, a lot actually, about where he was going to bite me. It was so different then where he bit Scott and from where Derek bit everyone else. I looked it up, found the answer. Peter wanted me for a mate, that's what the bite on the wrist or the neck means. I was kind of touched when I found out, that he had thought so highly of me. Stupid, I know, but flattering none the less." Stiles smiled ruefully and looked at the camera again, his face growing serious.
"The next one is for Erica." The screen went blank and everyone looked at Erika.
Erika's face had lost it's color and she was looking at Derek pleadingly. He shrugged half-heartedly as she took her phone out shakily.
"Would you have done it?" Jackson's voice made most of them jump and they looked towards him, Derek's eyes looking into his.
"Done what Jackson?" Derek's tone was cold and Jackson flinched slightly before raising his eyes and meeting his alphas head on.
"Would you have given him the bite? If he had asked." Jackson's voice was considering and Derek looked at the pack around him, the question in all of their eyes.
"You know he meant you, that Peter wasn't the one he wanted the bite from. He wanted it from you." Jackson's voice was hard and Derek glared in his direction.
"I would have done it. I was just waiting for him to ask." With that Derek turned to stare at the ground in anger and waited for Erika's phone to make some noise. The pack looked at him, considering their alphas mood, when no one spoke the question they were all wondering Jackson once again took it upon himself to ask.
"Why didn't you ask him? Like you did with the rest of the pack?" Derek growled lightly and red eyes met Jackson's golden ones.
"Stiles was different." That was his only response before the slight ringing went off on Erika's phone, she yelped lightly and the tapped on the screen to start the video.