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In the middle of the search around town for Jasper and Clarke, Bellamy received a phone call that he would say was a premonition of desolation. It was the hospital that called to inform him that something had happened to Clarke and his presence was needed. So you can imagine that he didn't waste any time arriving at the hospital and looked for anyone who could explain what had happened with his Princess. Unfortunately the first one he found was in fact Jasper, who he suspected had possibly everything to do with what happened to Clarke. So he walked up to Jasper in an angry pace and straight up growled, "What the hell happened?"
"I don't know!" Jasper exclaimed, clearly shaken up about the whole thing. His clothes were covered in blood and his hands were shaking like a leaf. Those signs alone made Bellamy fear for the worse. "It all happened so fast and before I knew it she was yelling that we should get down, then there was this gun shot and she went down with a bullet in her chest. The doctors are looking into now, but from the little they told me and the little I understood from what they were saying, it doesn't look good, Bellamy."
God, no, please don't let her die. Bellamy thought to himself as he came to realize that his entire world had frozen over, not breaking like he expected it would, especially after Clarke broke his heart by completely ending their relationship, but nevertheless the pain and worry was more than he had ever imagined it would feel. I can't lose her. Not like this, not when the last words we exchanged were words made in anger and hurt.
He wanted to blame everything on Jasper, after all if it hadn't been for him she wouldn't even been there when she got shot, but he knew that he wasn't entirely at fault either. It's not really Jasper's fault. It was the person, whoever he is, that shot her that is to blame for her current state. And as soon as I know anything more about Clarke's condition I will go and search for the one responsible for this and make him wish that he wasn't born.
And just as soon as those thoughts crossed his mind, Abby and Kane showed up at the waiting room. Bellamy knew that the next thing that was going to happen was not going to be pretty, especially considering how Clarke's mother always blamed him for everything that happened to her daughter including their estrangement that he had not directly been part of. Oh, boy, I can't wait to hear what she's going to say. I have a feeling that it goes somewhere along the lines that it's my fault and I might as well had pulled he trigger that caused her daughter's life at stake. "Dr. Griffin, Kane."
Dr. Griffin's response was a huge slap across his face, similar to the one that her daughter gave him just hours ago, but not as strong or painful. Only hot and sore, which was expected given the circumstances. Nevertheless he accepted her penalty as he for a short second lost balance, but regained it quickly just in time for Kane to take hold of Abby before she tried to kill him right there and then.
"This is all your fault!" Abby sneered, while fighting desperately to escape Kane's grasp even though resistance was futile. "It's your fault that her life is hanging on a thin line!"
Jasper was about to argue, explain that he was the one who put her in a dangerous situation and that he was the one to blame for Clarke fighting for her life, but Bellamy quickly intervened and stood before the younger man. He wasn't going to let him face Abby's wrath, especially when he was to blame for hurting her daughter before this happened. Jasper tried to talk him out of it, but Bellamy just shook his head, while giving him a side-glance to tell him that his mind was set and he wasn't to say anything.
Luckily for him, Abby didn't get the chance to verbally or physically attack him anymore, because the hospital staff told them all to quiet down or be thrown out because their shouting was disturbing the other patients. So they all separated into different chairs across from one another, him and Jasper on one side and Abby and Kane on the other, and resumed to wait for any words on Clarke's condition.
The land of unconsciousness, Limbo, the dream world or whatever the hell you are supposed to call the place where you go when your fate is hanging on a thin threat and you personally are unable to do anything about the outcome. That's where Clarke was, and frankly, she hated it even more than you could ever imagine. What do you expect when you have to stand on the sidelines and allow fate take charge with my life?
She has never been the one to allow things happen beyond her control, a better term for it is that she was a control freak through and through, but that wasn't something new or something she necessary felt ashamed about. She liked to have control over her life and make decisions and mistakes based on her own power than allowing anyone else try to force it on her. Ironic, really, considering the fact that she was such a control freak yet managed to make a total mess out of her life.
Nevertheless her thoughts and feelings were floating around in Limbo and she found herself staring at a reflection of herself, talking to her about the deepest thoughts and secrets she had locked away for so long and was dying to get out.
"Are you proud of yourself? For what you accomplished by lying and keeping secrets from Bellamy and everyone else you once considered important in your life?"
No, she could never be proud over it. In fact she despised who she had become, and she could never undo or earn anyone's forgiveness over it either since if she were given the choice again she would do it all over again. Just for the sake to keep her promise with Maya and to protect the people she loved and cared about in the whole entire world.
"You knew, didn't you? The reason why your life was in danger since you arrived back in town? From the beginning or perhaps did you figure it out half-way there after the shooting back at Murphy's place?"
It was to be expected. If it had been just an act of revenge towards her then they would have made their presence known before they killed her, acknowledging that they were the people that she had hurt and ruined their lives to, so she figured out who was going after her and had now a chance in succeeding getting rid of her. It was only a matter of time before the fates decided which way she would end up, and with her track record she only feared it was going to go the other way around.
Then you will be reunited with all the people that you lost. Now, would that be so terrible? Or is it a crueler fate to be reunited with the living and come clean with about everything? With your decisions, your mistakes, and your loss?
Jasper knew that he had to come forth with the truth, with what really happened on the town bridge, Clarke's last words that she wanted him to tell Bellamy in case she didn't make it as well as the strange message she muttered before she lost consciousness. But could you blame him for being a little wary about spilling his guts?
Bellamy is going to go ape shit when he learns that I threatened Clarke with a gun to her head, especially since he partly blames me already for forcing her on that bridge in the first place. But he needs to hear it…God, damn it, Clarke. Why did you leave me to be the messenger?
There was still no news about Clarke, which could be interpreted as a good thing, right? But nevertheless the suspense and guilt was killing him from the inside. Hence why he finally took the courage and asked quietly to Bellamy, "Can we talk somewhere quiet? There is something you need to know and I don't think that you want an audience for what I'm about to tell you."
With a suspicious frown on his brows, Bellamy nodded and they both stood up from their chairs and walked a short distance away from the waiting room to talk. Once they were as alone as one could get in a hospital, Jasper took the plunge and dived in, but first had to have the reassurance that he wouldn't be killed and dumped in a ditch somewhere once he was done. "Okay, before I start promise me that you won't get mad until I'm finished."
"I promise." Bellamy answered, with clear suspicion written on his face. "Now, tell me, what is this really about?"
Jasper sighed heavily and then began explaining everything that had happened from the moment he showed up at Clarke's door till the shooting on the bridge. And just like he expected Bellamy went mad on a whole other level than he had ever witnessed before.
"HAVE YOU LITERALLY LOST YOU MIND?!" Bellamy exclaimed so loud that most of the people in the room turned to look at them with confusion and curiosity. But Bellamy quickly realized his mistake and lowered his voice and continued to sneer at him in anger, "What were you thinking? I should be arresting you right now, so please give me one reason why shouldn't be doing it. Other than Clarke wouldn't want me to!"
He's right. Other than Clarke, he has no reason or obligation to not do his job. Which is why I accept responsibility for the mess I caused.
"I can't give any reason," Jasper said defeated. "So I will accept whatever punishment you deem as acceptable, but please know that I never wanted her dead. I lost Maya, yes, but I would never want put such pain and suffering upon anyone else including Clarke and you."
Bellamy stared at him quietly, with arms crossed against his chest, possibly thinking over what he should do about the situation before he finally sighed and gave his tired answer. "All right, go and call Raven and Monty and tell them what has happened get them down here pronto. Knowing them, they would like to know what is going on with their friend."
Jasper blinked confused. That's it? No lectures or reprimanding? No throwing me in jail for attempted assault or murder or whatever the hell the charge is for waving an unlicensed gun around? Probably shouldn't mention that the gun is unlicensed, let alone doesn't even belong to me. "Okay…what will you do? Continue wait here for the doctor's along with Abby and Kane?"
Bellamy groaned in response, clearly not interested or looking forward to spending time with his ex-future-in-laws, especially after what happened earlier. "I'll check up on Octavia and Lincoln, to inform them what has happened to Clarke, even though it's more Lincoln who will care about it right than Octavia due to her estrangement with Clarke. Anyways, make the calls and then wait here. If the doctors show up before I get back call me and I'll be right there."
Jasper nodded and Bellamy was just about to leave when he remembered that he still haven't told him about Clarke's last words before she went under, quite literally. So he cleared his throat and called after Bellamy, "Clarke wanted me to tell you something. She wanted you to know that she was sorry for what she said and that she loves you."
His words clearly took Bellamy off guard, based on the shocked and broken facial expression, but didn't reply to his words instead he asked if she told him anything else. So Jasper gave him the weird message Clarke was babbling about, which didn't make any more sense to him now than it did when he first heard it. And it became clear that the message didn't make any sense to Bellamy either, but the older man didn't take time to worry about it now and Jasper had his own problems to deal with, since Monty and Raven wouldn't be thrilled to learn about Clarke or his role in the whole thing. So they went their separate ways and Jasper went to go and use the public phone.
There was a time and place for everything, but if Bellamy or her mother had seen her right now she could only imagine that they would tell her making out with your boyfriend, while said boyfriend was lying in a hospital bed until he was cleared in the morning was not the right time or place to do it. Then again since when have I ever considered what my brother thought or what my mother would have thought about my personal relationships?
So she was sitting on the bed, kissing Lincoln like there was no tomorrow, which he most certainly didn't complain about, until someone open the door and rudely interrupted them.
"Oh my God! What the hell is this!"
Crap! Octavia thought as she pulled away and saw Bellamy standing there, shocked and most likely fighting the urge to punch Lincoln's eyes out for kissing his sister. Totally archaic if you ask me, I mean, in this day and age fathers or brothers aren't supposed to be that overprotective. Especially considering that in the past women were traded off to arranged marriages and such.
"Come on, Bell…you know what this is," Octavia said teasingly, with a slight hint of seriousness in her voice. "And don't dare try to punch him or give him an overprotective-brother-speech. I'm a grown woman. I can take care of myself. And besides, you were the one who proposed to Clarke when she was even younger than me right now."
Bellamy groaned, clearly didn't want to be reminded of his previous engagement, let alone let it be used as an argument against him.
"Fine." Bellamy answered begrudgingly. Then pointed a finger at Lincoln, and changed his demeanor to a more serious and threatening manner. "You and I will talk later about your relationship with my sister."
Lincoln didn't show it, but she could tell he had suddenly become slightly nervous by her brother. But nevertheless before he had chance to defend himself or even come up with a good excuse that probably wouldn't be satisfying her brother the slightest, Lincoln interrupted, realizing something important, "Wait, you and Clarke used to be engaged?"
"Yeah, what of it?" Bellamy asked defensive.
Lincoln shrugged his shoulders. "Nothing. I guess now I understand why Clarke wears that ring around her neck."
That comment made both her and Bellamy freeze on the spot, completely surprised and confused by his words.
"Ring? What ring?" The Blake siblings asked.
Is he telling me that Clarke kept her engagement ring after all these years? I thought she would have thrown it away or sold it for a good price. I don't get it. Why keep a memento of the past that she had desperately tried to run from?
"Ever since I met her Clarke has been wearing a necklace with a ring attached to it. I assumed that she had lost a husband since most married people wears their rings on their fingers, but she didn't tell me whether I was right or not. But I shrugged the idea when I saw she only dated women during the three years I came to know her, which is why I thought it was strange about you and her," Lincoln nodded his head in Bellamy's direction. "The way you two interacted with each other, acting at first with distance and only recently grown very intimate."
Octavia couldn't help groaning over that last implication. Sure, she accepted her brother's relationship with Clarke in the past, who wouldn't if it meant getting him off her back for once, but that thought really didn't sit well with her anymore considering the mess Clarke left behind three years ago.
Still after Lincoln mentioned Bellamy and Clarke recent reunion and interaction, Bellamy seemed to remember why he was visiting or in her case interrupting them and told them about Clarke's shooting. Lincoln responded almost instantly, quickly attempting to get out of bed to be by his friend's side, which she had to stop him from doing or at the very least until the doctors cleared him to be walking around.
After Octavia finally managed to convince Lincoln not to run off something seemed to have struck his mind when he went weirdly quiet one moment and the next turned his attention on Bellamy. "Wait…you said she mentioned Ares's frame?"
Her brother nodded his head, waiting for Lincoln to finish whatever he was thinking. "I think I know what she's talking about. But to make sure I'm right, we need to go back to the gallery."
Bellamy's cell phone rang; interrupting the conversation all together, and he answered it with a hint of distress in his voice like he was expecting the worse of news. Then quickly hung up and said, "That was Raven. She and Monty are here and told me that Clarke's just out of surgery. So I need to get back, but we'll talk about this later, okay?"
Lincoln nodded and Bellamy left the room shortly after that, leaving her and Lincoln alone in the room once again. However due to the circumstances Lincoln wanted her to go with Bellamy, support her brother who clearly needed it right now, and despite her issues with Clarke she agreed and ran out the door to catch up to him. Hoping that whatever the news was on her ex-friend's condition that her brother wouldn't lose his heart and lash out because of it.
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