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Bellamy ran as fast as possible or at the very least as hospital regulations allowed him to run, and followed the path towards the waiting room where he left Jasper, Abby and Kane behind. His mind was so focused on his destination that he at first didn't take notice that Octavia was not far behind him, which caused him to raise his eyebrow in suspicion until he figured out the reason. And even though she didn't openly show it she was at least slightly concerned about Clarke despite their turbulent relationship, but the main reason she was tagging along with him was for his sake rather than Clarke's.

Which is fine because the chances are that I'll need her support in order to get through it. Bellamy thought to himself, trying to reason with that he needed to be strong for himself, for Clarke, hell even for Octavia no matter how much support neither of them felt they needed.

When they finally reached the waiting room the two doctors attending, Abby's faithful Jackson and her good friend Callie Cartwig, had just started to inform that the surgery was a success, and so in order to hear the rest of the news he approached them and listened in the background rather than announcing his presence, which Abby would have just flipped about just like she did earlier.

Jackson sighed, tired and exhaustion from the hours that had been put on saving Clarke's life. "But despite the success the surgery was the bullet did, however, hit very close to her heart, so now everything depends on Clarke and whether she can pull through it or not."

The news were life shattering, and it was a pure miracle that he didn't break down on the ground and sob like a little child, but Bellamy could feel that he could barely keep it together by the thought that there was still a chance he was going to lose Clarke. I always thought that the pain I felt when she left me was the worst excruciating pain I would ever experience, but I was wrong. This pain I'm feeling right now is sharing first place with Clarke breaking up our relationship entirely, but the pain of living in a world without her in it could possible top it. Especially since I not only would lose her and be left alone with angry words of regret on my conscience, but knowing that in her last moments she was thinking of me and that she still loved me despite everything.

No one dared to say what was really on their minds, but the fallen and broken facial expressions was pretty much self-explanatory.

"So can we see her?" Abby asked, anxious to meet her daughter again, especially after what happened during their last encounter where Clarke ran away from her. And this time is pretty much unable to do that. And I'm certain that she's still not ready to deal with her mom and is most definitely not going to like being forced and pushed into a corner and deal with her issues. I'm just a perfect example of that.

"One visitor at the time should be fine, but she will be unconscious and we don't know when she will wake up. So don't be alarmed when you come and see her." Callie said, keeping her gaze at everyone in the room until she really took notice of him and singled out her attention on him.

Bellamy didn't think much of it at first, with his thoughts purely focused on Clarke and that Abby didn't even ask to go first to see her daughter until she was already gone, leaving him and everyone else to watch her walk away with the stride of a queen. But when he did notice her strange interest in him he approached and attempted to joke with her, "I know I'm handsome, but you don't need to stare at me like you planning on drilling a hole through my head because of it."

Callie was embarrassed that she had been caught looking at him, acting all flustered and didn't want to look at him directly anymore, but something must have made her change her mind since she shook her head and said the last possible thing he expected her to say to him. "Sorry…can we talk? In private?"

He couldn't help but raising a suspicious eyebrow at her, never mind everyone else in the room who seemed also interested in why she would want to speak with him in private, but he shrugged his shoulders nonetheless. "Sure, lead the way."

She nodded and began walking away, him following closely behind as he tried desperately to ignore the worried and disapproving looks from his sister and her friends. I wonder what can be so important that she has to tell me in private?

Part of the job was to deliver bad news, which normally was associated with 'you-are-dying' speech, but the job she was about to do now had nothing with work obligations. Even though she wished more than anything that it was, because maybe then she could actually convince herself that was indeed she was doing was the right thing.

Callie escorted Bellamy Blake to her office, closing the door behind them in order to have the privacy for this particular conversation she didn't want to have but had to because she had promised Clarke a few years ago that she would. She could still remember that conversation that she wished more than anything that she didn't agree to.

"Promise me…" Clarke asked, with eyes red from crying as well as fierce and almost frightening determination that showed that she was more than ready for a fight and was going to take no matter consequence that came with it. "Promise me that should there be an incident where my life is at stake or my life is hanging between life or death that you tell Bellamy about tonight. Whether I live or die, whether I am alive and conscious or not, you will tell him about this."

Callie sighed heavily, regretting more than anything that she agreed with Clarke back then, especially when she asked her to keep it a secret from everyone including her mother. This is really something Clarke should be telling, not me, heck she should have told him this three years ago when it happened rather than keep it locked up inside.

"You are probably wondering why I asked you here," Callie took a seat in her chair, expecting Bellamy to do the same, but remained standing looking down at her with crossed arms. She would wish that he was seated, especially for this conversation, but the warning would come sooner or later as this conversation prolonged.

"You could say that," Bellamy murmured. "What is so important that you couldn't tell me in front of the others?"

Doesn't walk around the bush. I can see why Clarke likes him so much. They are exactly the same. She thought as she realized that his question wasn't relevant at the moment, and that he would get his answer soon enough. "Around three years ago, just when the Mt. Weather incident happened, Clarke arrived at the hospital asking for medical attention. Only she snuck in and didn't want anyone else to know she was there and why."

Bellamy looked concerned, but the main emotion that was written on his face was confusion. Which was understandably, so she continued what she was saying. "The thing is, Bellamy…she came to me, completely beaten to a pulp."

There was a moment of dreary silence, followed by a shocked and angry exclamation from the younger man. "WHAT! Clarke had been attacked, and no one told me about it!"

She sighed once again, feeling the growing headache grow bigger and bigger for each minute as well as the lump in her throat that was threatening to choke her from within. "Yes, I don't know why she didn't want anyone to know about this at the time. I mean, with such bad injuries like hers I didn't think she could have been able to keep it a secret even if she tried to avoid everyone. She had a black eye, cuts and bruises from top till toe, a couple of broken or bruised ribs that should have made it difficult for her to breathe without feeling an incredible pain. But I guess it didn't matter since she left town shortly after she received medical attention."

The news didn't bring Bellamy's temper or concern down, not even a few notches, even though she didn't think it would have considering the things she heard from Abby about his protectiveness towards his sister and Clarke that Abby couldn't stand. The reason was stupid and frivolous, but Abby saw his protectiveness as a wall between her and her daughter despite the fact that it wasn't the case. "Why do I get the feeling that there is something more about this particular night? And whatever that feeling is, it is bad. Very bad."

"You're right," Callie confirmed. The lump seemed to have finally reached its choking point since she had a hard time to breathe and swallow without losing her composure. However she needed to tell him this, while remembering the image when she told Clarke three years ago. "That night Clarke also had a miscarriage."

After they finally managed to force Abby out of Clarke's room and simply allow the rest of them come and see her, Octavia told Raven and the others to see her next while she waited for Bellamy to get back. That was her official reason for not going and see her ex-friend, but once left alone she came to realize that wasn't the truth why she wouldn't go. We are not friends. I made sure of that when I ended our relationship, so I shouldn't care whether something happens to her or not, but still…why can't I stop feeling concern and fear for her life?

Octavia knew why and she hated the fact that it was true, especially when it had been Clarke herself who told her the reason back in the day when she told her about her estranged relationship with Wells before they made amends and he died shortly afterwards.

"Relationships are funny in a way. No matter how broken or estranged a relationship becomes, even if you grow to hate the other person or abandon them like they are piece of trash, you can't stop feeling something for that person. Whether it is love or not, a part of you will always care. It will never go away."

Clarke had been right. She hated her for leaving, even more so for breaking her brother's heart and decided to let those people die in Mt. Weather even though she could have saved them. But she still loved her friend despite the anger, the hurt and disappointment in her. Which is why she couldn't go into her room and check up on her because she had no right to see her with the role of friend when she was the one who ended things between them in the first place. I hold no responsibility as a friend to see her nor do I have the right to pretend that I do.

Just as that thought struck her mind, she noticed her brother enter the waiting room. A small smile meant to reassure him appeared on her face, but quickly fell when she took notice of her brother's state. He looked like a zombie, too broken and unresponsive to his surroundings, which she realized right away when she tried to make contact with him but couldn't.

"Bellamy?" Octavia tried again, hoping with every might that she would get a response. "Talk to me…what happened with Callie?" I'm sure she is the reason for my brother's current state of mind.

Bellamy snapped back into reality again once she mentioned Callie, but still his demeanor didn't change, which she found even more concerning. To make things even worse, Raven showed up at this disturbing scene and asked the obvious question. "What's going on here? Is he okay?"

No. He's most definitely not okay. Octavia thought with distress. Isn't his whole being a sign that he is clearly not okay?

"Why didn't she tell me?" Bellamy finally spoke, which took both her and Raven off guard. His voice sounded completely broken, similar to the tone he used when he first learned that Clarke left town without saying anything.

"Tell you what?" Does he mean Callie or Clarke?

"She was pregnant back when Mt. Weather happened! And she never told me about it! No even when she lost the baby!" Bellamy exclaimed, completely out of control. But the confession alone was enough to that he didn't want to be around anyone at the moment, aside from Clarke, so he literally kicked out Monty from her room and locked the door behind him without so much as an explanation.

Octavia and Raven just stared at what had just happened, unable to comprehend what had just happened with Bellamy and that Clarke had been keeping a secret like that from them all. She knew that Bellamy wanted kids, hell he treated his own sister and her friends like they were his kids while Clarke acted as their mother. So why wouldn't she tell him she had been pregnant and that she lost the baby?

Octavia closed her eyes and sighed defeated, knowing exactly why she hadn't told Bellamy or anyone else for that matter. She didn't want to cause him pain and guilt for not protecting her and the baby. And she didn't want her friends to pity and feel sorry for her loss.

"I guess now I know what she meant," Raven said quietly, remorse lingering heavy on her voice. Octavia turned to look at her confused, while silently asking what she was talking about. "When she was terrified for letting Bellamy back and rekindle their former relationship, she told Lincoln and I that she couldn't lose another person she loved."

Octavia could agree on some extend that that's the reason why she had been pushing Bellamy away when she came back to town, but somehow she couldn't shake the feeling that there was indeed something more behind it. Possibly something that has to do with Mt. Weather?

The news had broken him. Shattered his heart completely, leaving him only with anger and frustration. No, I feel tired, exhausted even, but the easiest feelings to handle and comprehend are anger and frustration.

Bellamy wanted to yell and scream at Clarke, as she was lying there unconscious in the hospital bed, demanding to know why she hadn't told him before. But he knew the answer, because if their roles had been reversed he probably would have kept it secret too. Still that didn't mean the pain and the hurt didn't disappear, especially when Callie had told him that she had been given strict instructions to keep her pregnancy and miscarriage completely sealed from her medical files.

"I don't know the exact reason why, but she determined that no one was to know about it. In case the police or someone else got access to her medical file her secret would still be safe."

Bellamy couldn't breathe, let alone think, but somehow managed to ask the important question. "Why the secrecy?"

"Maybe she feared that someone learned about and could possibly use the information against her?"

His hand caressed her cheek. "You were afraid, but still you sacrificed everything to protect me from whatever was going on three years ago. I know now…and I'm sorry for being unable to help you when you needed me then and when you needed me now."

Clarke showed no response, which he expected, but still being near her presence helped him ease down. He leaned down, with his forehead resting against hers, and whispered softly, "When you wake up we are going to talk, about everything and then heal together like we should have done years ago. I promise you that we will find forgiveness and redemption, even if it's going to take years to do it, but right now I have to go and be strong enough solve the clues that you have given me that might reveal everything you kept hidden from everyone all these years. So, Princess, may we meet again."

Then he lifted his head up, only to lean down again to place a careful kiss on her lips, but quickly pulled back and left the room without any further goodbye.

But what he didn't realize before he left the room was that Clarke opened her eyes, silent tears streamed down her face and murmured with a heavy heart. "May we meet again…Bellamy."

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