Chapter 20: Too Tired
"I'm never going to get into NYADA."
Nigel didn't think that you could be violent with pieces of lettuce but Kurt was managing it. "What happened to thinking positive?"
Kurt threw the mangled lettuce into a bowl. "That was easier when I thought I had a chance at the lead in West Side Story."
"What makes you think you don't'?"
Kurt leaned against the counter, and grimaced at Nigel. "I watched Blaine audition today. He was good." Kurt sighed. "He would probably be a better Tony."
Nigel brushed his fingers through Kurt's hair. "I'd sneak around my friends and family to be with you any time."
Kurt's smile was a ghost of itself. "Artie thinks I'm too effeminate to play Tony."
"Artie isn't the only judge."
Kurt shrugged. "I'll have to find another way to get into NYADA."
Nigel leaned back against the counter and pulled Kurt into his arms. "Kurt, you can do this. The Jets…it's the Jets, right?"
Kurt nodded.
"You certainly look the part. The Jets are an Anglo gang, and there is no one whiter than you."
Kurt laughed. "Yeah, and no one gayer."
"O.K. Yes, you're pretty obviously gay…"
"You think?"
"…but you don't have to change you. You're not going to be on stage, Tony is. Does the word ACTING mean anything to you?"
"Yes, smartass, I think I can grasp the basic concept."
"It's all up here." Nigel tapped Kurt's temple. "You see Tony in your mind, you feel what he feels. On stage you're not Kurt, you're Tony. We're not talking Tony Soprano here. We're talking a young man who had dreams, who wanted his life to be more than fighting. This Tony got out of the gang as soon as he could. I think you could be this Tony."
Kurt snorted. "You think I can do anything."
"Well, yes, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong here."
Kurt stared into Nigel's eyes, reading the certainty there. "Have I mentioned lately what a perfect boyfriend you are?"
After Nigel left, Kurt spent some serious time on Google. If there was an article out there on the West Side Story character of Tony, Kurt read it. By the time he went to bed, he felt that he knew Tony at least as intimately as he knew Finn, which should be good enough for his audition. He prepared a chunk of dialogue, and one of Tony's songs, and crawled into bed and turned out the light. He fell asleep, the way he usually did, with images of Nigel sketched on the back of his eyelids.
"Kurt, we're ready for you."
Kurt looked out at the rows of empty seats, at Artie, Coach Beiste, and Miss Pillsbury. He looked over their heads, to the back of the auditorium, and focused in until he found Tony.
As the last note echoed in the empty auditorium, Kurt morphed back into himself. Miss Pillsbury stood, clapping wildly with tears running down her face. Coach Beiste was grinning. Kurt zeroed in on Artie. He watched as Artie put two fingers to his lips and produced a series of shrill whistles.
"Thank you, Kurt. We'll make our decision and get back to you."
Nigel curled around Kurt. The kids were out with Claire, and the boys were enjoying the quiet together. Kurt was exhausted. Between worrying about NYADA and his audition for West Side Story, he hadn't been sleeping well. The room had darkened as rain fell against the windows.
Kurt moved Nigel's hand from his waist to his cock.
"I thought you were tired?"
"I'm tired. I'm not dead."
"Need a little more skin here, Kurt. More skin, less clothes."
Kurt snuggled into his pillow. "You do it. I'm too tired."
Nigel laughed. He hadn't seen Kurt like this since their ski trip, when Kurt had to get up in what he considered the middle of the night. He stripped Kurt, who was about as helpful as a rag doll. Nigel ditched his own clothes and settled behind Kurt again. He raised himself on one elbow so he could watch Kurt as he stroked him.
Kurt may have been tired, but his cock was wide awake. Kurt moaned and pressed his butt back into Nigel's hardening cock. He mumbled into his pillow.
"What?"
"Lube"
Nigel reached across Kurt and opened the drawer in his bedside table. He rooted around until his fingers touched the plastic bottle, and pulled it out. "Sensitive?"
"Not for me." Kurt stretched languidly, shimmying against Nigel. "It's for you." He turned his head, and looked back at Nigel. "Fuck me."
Nigel slicked his fingers. He nibbled on Kurt's shoulders while he circled his boyfriend's anus. He stroked over and around, and then entered. Kurt didn't do this very often, so Nigel started slow; one finger, then two. He kissed along the side of Kurt's neck, and nipped at his earlobe. When Kurt sighed, and pushed back onto his fingers, Nigel added a third finger. He searched for the sensitive patch of skin.
"Yes." Kurt breathed the word into the silence between them.
Nigel stretched Kurt open carefully, moving his fingers over the small bundle of nerves. He licked Kurt's neck, and dropped kisses and bites over his back and shoulders.
"Now, Nigel."
Kurt moved his top leg forward. He reached back and guided Nigel's cock, until the head rested against Kurt's entrance. Kurt pushed back slowly, until his ass touched Nigel's body, and Nigel was fully embedded. Nigel reached over Kurt's hip and closed his fist around his lover's cock. He stroked Kurt's length as he fucked him, long slow strokes both inside and out. Kurt reached back, splayed his fingers over Nigel's ass, and pulled him as close as possible.
"I hope you're not in a hurry." Nigel's breathing was rough, but he could still form full sentences. "I don't want this to end."
"Feels good." Kurt looked back over his shoulder. "Just like that. Don't stop."
Nigel leaned down to capture Kurt's mouth. "Pretty bossy for a bottom."
Kurt snorted. "Less taking, more fucking, Dennison." Obedient as always, Nigel gave Kurt exactly what he wanted.
Kurt turned in Nigel's arms, and wriggled until he was comfortably tucked against his boyfriend's shoulder. "Going to sleep now." His eyes were already closing.
Nigel rested his chin on Kurt's hair. "You're awfully cute when you're tired, very cuddly." Nigel trailed his hand along Kurt's back. "I may have to keep you sleep deprived!"
Kurt yawned, as he pulled Nigel's arm around his waist. "I'm cute all the time."