A/N: Ok, guys, to be honest I would not sleep if I didn't post this chapter tonight, because I couldn't wait to write this ;)
Stella-of-the-Stars- For one more time, I thank you very much for your review :) I laughed with your enthusiasm about the concept of the chapter. I have to warn you, though, if you cry easily, then you'll sure have tears in your eyes.
Disclaimer: I don't own Lord of the Rings, but I own Sunglee.
Different sounds were heard from outside. Elves giving instructions, Dwarves arguing, Aragorn discussing with Gandalf about the rout they should follow, horses neighing. Sunglee could hear everything from her room. She was standing at the window, with her forehead resting on the glass. The sun had risen a few minutes ago, but it was still cold. She could feel the cold deep in her soul and nothing could comfort her. All the negative thoughts had returned: her worry about Frodo's fate and about Middle Earth, her sister's silence, her father's refusal to allow her to join the Fellowship, Legolas's departure. The tears escaped her eyes before Sunglee could prevent them. She was raised with training to fight, but now she would stay here, waiting desperate for news, waking up with the fear every morning.
Years ago, the last time Legolas had come to Imladris, they had gone for a ride with the horses. They were attacked by Orcs and Sunglee was seriously injured.
" 'Sunglee, listen to me' Legolas's voice was full with despair, 'you will be alright. I will take you back. You will be saved, I will not let you die, trust me' "
He had taken her on his horse and had ridden all the way back home. Days later, when she woke up, weak but alive, Arwen had told her that she was unconscious for five days and that Legolas had spent all of them next to her, caring for her, without sleeping and eating.
As she remembered the past, more tears appeared in Sunglee's beautiful eyes. She needed him like she needed to breathe in order to stay alive. She knew she should think that he was going on a quest that would save Middle Earth, but her heart ached. Mordor was very far and surely their way would not be without dangers, which meant that months would pass until they would meet again.
If we meet again.
A knock on the door startled her. Quickly she wiped away her tears and tried to speak calmly.
'Come in'
Rowena entered her room and curtsied. She noticed her lady's wet eyes, but she did not comment it.
'Prince Legolas wishes to speak with you, my lady'
Sunglee's heart flattered. From pain or joy, she could not know.
'Please, tell him to come in'
When Legolas went in Sunglee's room, she was as though she was waiting for him. In a few minutes he would leave with the Fellowship. The Elves would say goodbye to them and she had already prepared herself, wearing a silver dress and her hair falling down like always. For one more time he could not stop himself from looking at her, at her eerie beauty, at those velvet eyes. But as he stood opposite her in front of the window, he noticed that they were dark grey. He felt guilty for that, for he did not want to see her sad.
'Soon we will leave' he said, not knowing how to start, how to say the things he had in mind.
'I know'
A few moments passed in silence and then his princess, his life, the light in his darkness, the hope to his despair, spoke with a voice unknown to him.
'Why did you not defend me? You know me better than anyone else. You know I want to fight for my homeland, for those I love. You could convince my father'
How could Legolas tell her the truth? How could he explain that he agreed with Lord Elrond's decision, because he himself cared for her safety?
'Sunglee, you know very well what this mission is about. It is not simple. We will travel for months and in difficult conditions.'
'I do not care!' she said, her voice trembling. 'I do not endure staying here, without knowing what is going on, without knowing if you are alive or not!'
These last words. They spoke in his heart, just like her promise she would never leave him. Legolas's heart broke when he saw her ready to cry. He knew she was worried about him.
'Sunglee, calm down, aranel, I beg you. I understand your desire to join us, but, please, trust your father's decisions. It is not only the danger, it is the psychic exhaustion of the quest that is the worst. Besides…'
He cut off for a moment, hesitating. His shyness, his unknown destiny, his uncertainty were preventing him to continue. But finally he sighed, packed all his courage and took her hand in his. Sunglee looked at him. This was something he had never done before.
'Besides' said Legolas again 'do you not want me to have a reason to return here alive?'
Sunglee gasped. His words were beyond any misunderstanding. He loved her, this was the proof. Her own feelings overwhelmed her and everything she had been taught about being modest was forgotten.
'I want to have a reason to die for' she replied, looking right into his piercing, sea blue eyes. Legolas looked back at her, with emotion and love. He wished more than anything he could hug her, kiss her, show her what she was for him. But he did not want, for if he kissed her, the memory would haunt her as long he was missing and if he died the pain would kill her.
He put his right hand on his heart and lowered it slightly. She did the same. But then, instead of lowering their hands completely, like the male Elves used to, they put their hands on the other's left cheek. It was the greeting between an elven male and an elven maiden, the way to show mutual respect.
'Namaarie' whispered Sunglee, her eyes having a mixed color between light and dark grey. 'May all stars shine upon your path'
'Namaarie, Sunglee Anorwen' Legolas whispered back. 'May all blessings go with you'
And then, with a wild and desperate move, he took both of her hands and kissed them above the knuckles. This soft move, reflecting the love and pain both of them were feeling, was all Sunglee needed to make the tears spill again.
'Guren niniatha n'i lu n'i a-govenitham' she said.
Legolas pulled away, his eyes being suspiciously wet as well. He looked at her for a few minutes, wanting to imprint her image in his mind to keep him warm in the cold nights that were awaiting him, and then left quickly. Sunglee's gaze followed him, now the tears running down her face like rain drops, with a broken heart, but sure that the love she was feeling for Legolas was everything she ever wanted.
Elvish words/phrases used:
Aranel- Princess
Namaarie- Farewell
Guren niniatha n'i lu n'i a-govenitham- My heart shall weep until we meet again
A/N: Ah, here we are, another chapter has come to an end. It's dedicated especially to Stella-of-the-Stars, who loves Legolas/Sunglee so much, but also to you all generally. Awww, poor Legolas was almost ready to cry, sorry for that. Anyway, I will be waiting for your reviews and tomorrow evening you'll have the next chapter. Namaarie xx
