"Wake up, wake up." I groan and rolled over only see a redhead staring down at me. "It's midnight." I sighed and sat up.

"So?"

"So, it's your birthday finally. Happy birthday." I gave a small smile in reply before trying to lay back down. "Oh no you don't." I groan.

"Lily, what is it now?"

"Sirius is downstairs. Alone. Go see if he's your soul mate." I shot her a glare. "Please. I want to know and I know you do too. Just use the excuse that you couldn't sleep." Lily was many things and stubborn was one of them. I knew there was no way out of this.

With a sigh I got up and brushed my hair neatly. "You're going downstairs in that." I frowned at Lily and looked down at my pjs. They were a pair of sweatpants and a too big of a size long sleeved shirt.

"It's comfy." I defended.

"Yeah and so not sexy. Here let's fine something better." Lily said as she began looking through my clothes. "What the hell?" She held up a nightgown that my mother forced me to bring. It was made of silk and had a tight bosom that showed off my petite breasts and it fell just to the middle of my thighs. It was spaghetti strapped and had a bikini like style top that was connected by the flowy skirt. It was a scarlet red and showed nicely against my pale skin.

I gave a sigh as Lily held it up. "My mom got it for me. Says she wanted me to look sexy for my soul mate." Lily's jaw dropped.

"You're mom got this for you?" I sighed.

"My mom... she's elegant and modest, but when it came to a veela's soul mate she is completely a horn dog. Says I need to look nice to fuck my mate." Lily almost choked on air as I told her this.

" . . She said that?" I sighed.

"Do you want me to wear it or not? If not get something else." Lily suddenly smiled devilish.

"Oh, you're so wearing this. Especially if Sirius is your soul mate." I glared at Lily before putting the cursive thing on. It defiantly showed my breasts off and was very sexy, but it showed a lot. "Perfect, now get down there."

"Lily-" I begin to argue, but she shushed me. I never actually thought she'd make me wear it. But here she was pushing me towards the stairs.

"Go, Ellie. I'll see you in a little bit." I bit my lip and went to go down, when Lily gasped and grab my hand. "Oh, wait I totally forgot something." I sighed and crossed my arms.

"What?"

"You so need something red for your lips. Make them look kissable." I shot a cold glare at her, but it was no use. Lily has gone mad. She grabbed a deep shade of red lip gloss that was also a bit sparkly. She put it on my lips, smiled, and then put on mascara, and did a shadowy look for my eyelids. "Perfect, now go." I glared at her, but forced myself to go downstairs. Lily was pure evil.

As I walked down I saw Sirius sitting on the couch and staring into the fire. "Couldn't sleep either?" I asked as I leaned against the doorway of the girl's dormitory, unaware that I actually made myself even more hotter looking.

"Yeah, what about y-y-you." He started stuttering as he saw me.

"What?" I put on a fake confused look, but froze as I realized what I was seeing. Sirius had a faint glow to him, as if I was seeing his aura or something, and as quick as it was there it suddenly disappeared. I had no doubt in mind that that was the sign.

"You look, uh..." Sirius looked flustered as he stared at me. He cleared his throat and mentioned to the seat beside him. "You wanna sit down." I shrugged and went and sat beside him. His eyes moved to my long legs as I curled them underneath me. I watched as he gulped, eyeing me over. "Do.. uh... Do you always dress like that for bed?" I frowned and tilted my head to the side.

"Like what?" I questioned. I could easily leave, but already my body was craving him and I desperate to get to know him. I realized it wasn't the fear of having a mate it was the fear of him not accepting me that truly scared me that and Peter, so... Anyways Sirius was the biggest player at school and it also made me very fearful of this soul mate bond that already formed.

"You look beautiful." Sirius suddenly burst out. I blushed.

"Thank you." He smiled nervously.

"But you probably already heard that before." I sighed and looked at the fire.

"All too many times." I sighed. It was also the thing I was scared of. That Sirius would like me for my looks and use me until he got board. I couldn't be sure with him and it scared me.

"I don't hate you." I looked over at him.

"What?"

"Back on the train you thought I hated you. I never hated you, Eleanor. I really never did. What I told you the first day we met was all true. I wasn't trying to get with you anything. I really did believe you were beautiful. I never meant for it to sound like a line or anything."

"Yes, but you could obviously tell I was getting annoyed. Why continue?" Sirius shrugged and looked into the fire.

"I thought that if I did then maybe you'd give me a chance." I frowned, but suddenly I became too aware of what Sirius suddenly was doing down here. By his feet were at least two empty bottles of fire whiskey and now I could smell how drunk he was.

"Sirius are you drunk?" I asked.

"You know, when you hit my brother... It was so hot. I wanted to kiss you soooo badly then, but then I saw my parents. I was so scared. I'm used to them hurting me. Ever since I was little I had the unforgivable curses on me, but you never have. You weren't used to the pain that they gave you. I was so scared that you would get hurt. Possibly even killed with how mad they looked." I reached out and placed a comforting hand on his arm.

"I'm okay though, Sirius. Really I am." He looked up at me and I saw tears in his eyes. Sirius had always cocky, stuck up, and irritating to me, but now he was letting his walls down. Showing me who really was. Broken.

"I thought I was going to loose you, Eleanor." I sighed and pulled him into my arms.

"Sirius please don't cry." I beg quietly.

"I can't loose you, Eleanor." He whispered softly to me. "I love you." My heart stopped at those words and my eyes widen.

"What?" I pulled away and looked at him.

"It's always been you." He sniffled. "All those girls... they weren't you. They couldn't take my heart ache away. They couldn't stop my jealousy when I saw all those guys near you. Couldn't stop me from wanting to just break down and cry. All I ever wanted was you, Eleanor." I sighed. To him say these words made me want to smile, but he was drunk. If Sirius was sober he would never ever want me to know this. He hated people seeing him weak and right now he was weak. I didn't want him to say this when he was drunk, so with a sigh I stood up.

"You need some sleep Sirius. You're drunk. Come on, lay down." I told him gently as I helped him lay on the couch. I slipped a blanket on him and smiled. "Get some sleep, Sirius."

"You're always so nice." I smiled and lean down, gently kissing his forehead.

"Just close your eyes and sleep." I whispered before pulling away. I waited until I heard his soft snores before heading back upstairs.

"Well?" Lily asked. I gave a sigh and look at her.

"What was said between Sirius and I stays just that. I'm sorry, but I can't tell you Lily."

"What?"

"Sirius was drunk, Lily. He wouldn't even want me to know what he told me if he was sober. I can't tell you. When Sirius gets up the nerve to tell me when he's sober then I'll tell you, but for now accept my wishes." Lily nod mutely. "And yes, he is my soul mate." I added before climbing into bed.

"Yes!"

"Shhh." Came the hissing of our other roommates.

"Sorry." Lily whispered before turning to me. "Yes!" She whispered yelled, causing me to roll my eyes.

"You're happy my soul mate is Sirius?"

"I always thought you two would be cute together if he wasn't so arrogant, cocky, and stuck up acting." I sighed and closed my eyes.

"It's just an act, Lily. i'm sure the real him is much more better." And with that I fell asleep.