Kurosaki set a cup of tea on the coffee table in front of Yuki who nodded in thanks as the former took a seat on the couch across from her. "So what's going on with you and Kaname?" Kurosaki asked, wanting to know what's happening with her student.
Yuki took a sip of her tea before answering, "Well, I don't know where to begin, really." she said, looking down at her cup.
"Just say whatever comes to mind." Kurosaki said, taking a sip of her own tea.
Yuki took a deep breath and sighed before she began, "Lately, I've been trying to figure out my past...before Kaname saved me." she said, reminding Kurosaki of how she met the vampire.
Kurosaki nodded for her to continue, her golden brown orbs watching Yuki's expression, "But everytime I try to remember or find evidence about my past, something either blocks me or the information is destroyed instantly." she took another sip of her tea to calm herself.
Yuki looked down with a forlorn expression, "Recently, I found out that Kaname and I are somehow connected. Yet he refused to tell me because he believes that I will hate him when I discover the truth." she paused in order to regain her thoughts.
"And?" Kurosaki implored.
Yuki continued, "I agreed to be his lover, and he said that he would tell me the truth." she said, blushing in embarrassment, ready for Kurosaki to mock her.
Kurosaki remained silent, trying to comprehend Yuki's situation, "Hold on, let me see if I understand this correctly." she said leaning forward, her elbows on her thighs and her fingers laced together with her chin resting on them, "Your lifetime infatuation, who saved you on that snowy night when you were but a child, has kept an important part of your life from you, and has chosen now of all times to give it to you on the condition that you become his?" she summarized, narrowing her eyes at her pupil who nodded, "That about sums it up."
"Oh good, I don't want things getting too easy on me." Kurosaki commented dryly as she leaned back and asked, "What has he told you so far?"
Yuki shook her head as she gripped her cup, "Nothing. He said nothing; he won't tell me anything." she said, "There's more to what he's keeping from me...something deeper. I see it in his eyes whenever he's with me; there's so much sadness, it's like..." Yuki stopped, trying to figure out how to proceed before sighing, "I don't even know how to explain it anymore. And I'm not even sure if I make any sense right now." she looked down, feeling pitiful under her sensei's gaze.
Silence fell between the two, both master and pupil chose to be quiet until Kurosaki spoke, "Not all of us can make sense...when we are constantly at war with ourselves."
Yuki nodded in agreement, both of them taking a sip of their tea before Kurosaki asked, "Tell me Yuki, what does your heart tell you about Kaname?"
Yuki blushed before answering, "My heart tells me to trust him and that he will never hurt me."
Kurosaki asked another question, "But what does your mind tell you about your past?"
Yuki sighed, not really sure how to answer that one to be honest, "One side tells me to find out who I am and where I came from, but the other is telling me not to look back." she said, answering as best as she could.
Kurosaki sighed as she stroked Camelot who curled up in her lap, "It is always the mind and the heart that seem to be at odds with each other; always starting the war inside us." she stated, earning a confused look fro Yuki, "Pardon?"
Kurosaki closed her eyes, "It is quite difficult to know how to proceed and move forward in situations such as these when the mind and heart don't agree with one another." Kurosaki opened her eyes to stare at Yuki, "The Heart is where the emotions reside and help you connect with those around you. Yet the Mind holds all the information and makes the final decision when it comes to dangerous situations. Those two cannot seem to coexist with their different point of views when it comes to protecting the two components that house them."
"Uh, what two components?" Yuki wondered, not really understanding where this is going.
Kurosaki drank the rest of her tea and said, "The Soul and the Body, the two components that work as one to protect that person." she set down her now empty cup before leaning back, "You see Yuki, the Soul holds power to motivate the Body to do what needs to be done in order to survive while the Body provides the Soul as its vessel."
Yuki held up a hand, "Um, Sensei, not to be rude or anything, but what's the point of this conversation?"
Kurosaki looked at her student with a tired look and said, "The point is, Yuki, if your heart and mind don't sync up to one another, your soul will be in a constant state of imbalance and your body will not be able to take the strain. Especially when it comes to your powers as a soul reaper." she answered with a hidden edge to her voice before it softens, "But most of all, you have to figure out what you must do in this next chapter in your life regarding Kaname and your past."
Yuki's eyes widened when Kurosaki mentioned her problem, "I don't really know what to do anymore." she said, looking down.
Kurosaki held Camelot as she got up and made her way around the coffee table and sat beside Yuki who looked up in response. Kurosaki looked down at the shorter girl beside her, "Yuki, tell me, why do you want to find your past?"
Yuki opened her mouth to say something, but closed it immediately as she looked down, not really sure how to answer that.
Kurosaki sighed, facing forward, stroking Camelot's neck, "You search for the past in order to find a missing piece of yourself that you think is gone." Kurosaki surmised, making Yuki look up in surprise.
Kurosaki felt her gaze, "I'm right along those lines, aren't I?" she said, facing Yuki again.
Yuki nodded, not saying a word as Kurosaki continued, "Yuki, if Kaname was there for you before you lost your memory just as he is now, don't you think that might be your missing piece?" she said with soft eyes.
Yuki stayed silent, afraid of what may come out of her mouth, "I won't dictate how you live your life, everything, even up to this point, has been of your choosing. But if you keep chasing the past, how are you going to move into the future?" Kurosaki added, not taking her eyes off her student.
Yuki asked, "What do you mean?"
Kurosaki answered with wisdom, "The past cannot define who you are, stay in the present and prepare for whatever future you want to make for yourself." she looked in front of herself again, "If Kaname loves you like he says he does, don't doubt him, otherwise, you'll both get hurt in the end."
Yuki processed the words Kurosaki spoke and realized that she was right, lingering in the past has brought nothing but pain for her. Whenever she did try to remember, something terrifying would always happen and it would make Zero or Kaname worry. The thought of that made her heart clench knowing that she was hurting her loved ones.
She was brought out of her thoughts when Kurosaki brought an arm around her, snapping her attention back to Kurosaki who smiled softly at her and touched foreheads with her. An all too familiar gesture that showed affection. Starring straight into Yuki's eyes, Kurosaki said, "You're gonna be alright." Yuki nodded her head against Kurosaki's before the elder of the two gave the other an eskimo kiss, making Yuki giggle before they pulled away from each other.
Yuki wiped her tears, smiling up at her sensei who returned it ten fold before getting up, "Now that that's all cleared up, there's something I must show you." she said as she walked out of the living room and came back with present the size of her hand wrapped purple with a white ribbon.
Yuki gave Kurosaki a questioning gaze as the latter sat beside her once again and presented her with the decorative box, "Here." Kurosaki said with a smile as Yuki took it. and carefully unwrapped it to reveal a beautiful jeweled butterfly hair clip. Holding the hair clip in her hand, Yuki held her breath at the beauty of it before looking up at Kurosaki who still wore that smile.
Kurosaki grinned, showing her pearly white teeth, "Happy anniversary Yuki, it has officially been one year since you became a soul reaper. Congratulations pupil." she winked at Yuki whose eyes widened in realization, "Oh my god, it's really been one year?"
Kurosaki nodded, "Yep, you managed to survive my training without too many scars." she ruffled Yuki's hair who batted Kurosaki's hand away in mock-irritation, "But above all else, you are able to hold your own in a fight without my help. Very soon, there will be nothing left for me to teach you." Kurosaki said the last one quietly, almost sadly.
Yuki didn't hear that last part right, "Huh, say again?"
Kurosaki faked a smile, "It's nothing. You have truly grown up, I'm very proud of you." she said with pride as she looked at Yuki and offered, "Want me to help with the butterfly?" she said, referring to the hair clip in Yuki's hand.
Yuki nodded as she handed the clip to Kurosaki who carefully fastened the accessory to Yuki's hair before pulling back to assess her student, "How do I look?" Yuki asked, tilting her head to the side innocently.
Kurosaki smiled, "Like a butterfly ready to take flight." she said, making Yuki blush at that statement. Before Kurosaki could react, Yuki embraced her out of nowhere and buried her face into Kurosaki's chest. Responding as usual to the gesture, Kurosaki wrapped her arms around the younger girl.
Yuki closed her eyes, just basking in Kurosaki's comforting spiritual presence, "Thank you, for listening to me. You're one of my best friends and the greatest teacher ever." she said, tightening her hold on Kurosaki.
Kurosaki returned the gesture, "Oh stop. I'm also your therapist, your spiritual adviser, your confidant, your healer, and couples counselor. All rolled up into one, and I also own the 'The Kurosaki Candy Shop', where anything sweet is just for you." she added comically, making Yuki laugh at how random and unique Kurosaki's personality is.
As soon as they pulled away from each other, Kurosaki looked up at the clock and saw what time it was, "You should probably head back now." Yuki nodded, before getting up along with Kurosaki as they made their way out of the front of the shop.
Once outside, Camelot lept out of Kurosaki's arms and transformed into his lion form, waiting to receive his passenger. Yuki situated herself in Lion-Camelot's saddle before turning to Kurosaki who had her arms crossed and was leaning on one foot with a smile on her face, " Goodnight Yuki."
Yuki smiled back, "Goodnight Kurosaki." she said before Lion-Camelot took off into the sky, going back to Cross Academy.
Sorry there's no flashback. If you liked this chapter, please leave me a positive review so that I know that my writing isn't crap.
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