Chapter 6- Playing Doctor
Cosima's head shot up as she heard the car pull up. She rolled back from her computer to glance sideways out of the office's window. She saw Delphine hop out of the car and smiled. She turned back to her computer and hit the save button, shutting the top of her laptop. She stretched in her chair as the front door opened.
"We're home" Delphine called out.
Cosima slipped her slippers on, got to her feet, and walked in to the front entryway.
"Hey" she purred, rubbing her neck. She saw Charlotte, whose hair was now cut to just below her ears and parted in the middle. "I'm digging the locks, kiddo" she told the girl, reaching out to ruffle her newly cut hair.
"Thanks. It feels so light!" Charlotte noted "Wait until you see my new wardrobe."
Cosima looked up at Delphine and smiled. "A new wardrobe too, huh? Nice Maman you've got there" Cosima praised. "Hope I get a fashion show."
"Oh, you will. Tomorrow though? I'm going to Kira's tonight" Charlotte promised.
"Sure thing, kid" Cosima responded.
The youngest clone headed upstairs, taking the bags from Delphine to put them away.
"Well it looks like you two had a good time" Cosima cooed to her fiancée, leaning in for a kiss.
Delphine closed the gap and left a sweet kiss on Cosima's lips, taking a bite from her lower one and holding it as she pulled away.
"Mmmm. You know I did some shopping of my own earlier?" Cosima purred.
"Oh yeah? Where'd you go?" Delphine asked.
Cosima bit her bottom lip and looked Delphine up and down, checking her out "Remember those dreams I was telling you about?" she asked.
Delphine rolled her tongue between her bottom teeth and lip, the images from the dream Cosima had relayed to her now flooding her mind once again. She cleared her throat and nodded.
"Well there may or may not be a bag upstairs on the bed" Cosima teased, raising her eyebrows.
Delphine held up a bag from la Vie en Rose, letting it swing on a single finger "Well this may or may not go with that"
Cosima felt her jaw open, imagining what Delphine could have bought from there.
"After notre petit is at Félix', I am going to take really good care of you" Delphine promised, leaning in to give a slack jawed Cosima's neck a nibble before heading upstairs, leaving Cosima stunned and dripping wet.
Delphine skipped up the stairs, her belly full of the DavidsTea iced tea her and Charlotte had gotten at the mall. It was a great day already, and now there was the promise of indulging in Cosima's body tonight.
She pushed their bedroom door closed as she stepped in, seeing the bag on her side of the bed. It was plain grey. She ran to it, peeking inside to see a paddle, some silk scarves, and an empty package. She pulled the package out and saw that it once housed a feeldoe, but instead of a silicone toy in the plastic, there was a note in Cosima's distinct writing.
"I'm wearing it" it said.
Delphine groaned, feeling her juices pool and her clit twitch. She knew she had to keep this game going, get the last laugh. She stripped down and pulled on the black lace lingerie she'd bought earlier, pulling her clothing on overtop. She took the tag from the set and grabbed a pen from her bedside table, writing her own note on it. She headed back downstairs, where Cosima was dishing up slices of the pizza she'd made. Delphine made a point to keep a few portions of the dough in the freezer. Cosima wasn't much of a cook and sometimes Delphine didn't feel like it. This way, they didn't have to order in; Cosima could just roll the dough out and top it. That's what she'd done earlier. Charlotte was already sitting at the kitchen table, nibbling her pizza.
"Can Kira come spend the night tomorrow?" Charlotte asked
Cosima shrugged, turning to Delphine who nodded.
"Sure" Cosima told the girl turning back to her. "Oh, and let's get you registered for classes this weekend too, kid."
Charlotte nodded. Cosima handed Delphine a plate with a couple slices and Delphine kissed her cheek, handing her the tag. Cosima looked at her oddly but Delphine just went and took her place at the table.
"Did you talk to the principal at Bailey-Downs?" Charlotte asked.
Cosima opened the folded tag and looked down at it "Yeah, I umm…" she paused as she read it.
Three words in neatly written cursive, overtop of a picture of a blonde wearing black lace lingerie. The three words: "So am I"
Cosima forgot what she was saying.
Charlotte waited "You what…?"
Cosima looked up "What?"
"You were saying that you did something…Bailey-Downs...the principal…?" Charlotte reminded her.
Delphine chuckled under her breath and looked up to see Cosima shooting her daggers. They were going to have some epic love making that night after all of this teasing. Delphine winked at her and saw Cosima turn bright red, starting to adjust herself below the belt. Once everything seemed to be adjusted, Cosima looked back up at Charlotte who was waiting expectantly.
"Delphine and I are going to meet with your teacher Monday and go over the plan. You should come too. You know, get a say in your own education and all" Cosima suggested.
"Okay, yeah" she agreed taking another bite from her pizza.
Delphine smiled as Cosima walked back over to the table, taking a seat. Once she saw that the brunette was settled, the French woman made eye contact and missed her mouth with the pizza, smearing sauce all over her lips. She rolled her tongue out of clean up what she could.
Charlotte started laughing at her, but Cosima watched that tongue, feeling her cunt tighten around the bulb of the toy nestled inside of her. She watched, the tightness only increasing as Delphine used a single digit to clean the rest off of her cheek and sucked it into her mouth, using her tongue to get every last drop. Cosima breathed heavily, looking towards her pizza, trying to focus on it. Her mouth filled with the memory of Delphine's taste. Salty and sweet with a little bit of bite.
Delphine watched as Cosima struggled to sit still and decided to cut her some slack. She turned to Charlotte "Are you packed for tonight?"
Charlotte nodded "Kira said that Uncle Felix is gonna let us paint a wall!"
Delphine chuckled "Well your uncle Felix is a great artist. Make sure you get some pointers."
Charlotte nodded and turned to Cosima "Will you walk me over after dinner?"
"Sure, kiddo" Cosima confirmed.
Delphine was unable to hold in a laugh, imagining Cosima waddling down the street with that toy in her pants. She wondered if Felix would notice.
Charlotte turned to Delphine, putting a hand on her back "Are you losing it?"
It was Cosima's turn to laugh, trying not to spray the coke she was drinking out of her nose.
Delphine shook her head, and calmed her laughing. Charlotte looked between the two adults, so confused as they laughed. Then the women made contact. They each bit a lip. The laughing stopping.
"You guys are weird" Charlotte told them, returning her attention to her pizza.
"Yeah, yeah we are" Cosima confirmed.
Charlotte noticed the looks they were giving each other "Is this some weird sex thing that I don't understand yet?"
"Exactement" Delphine took her turn in confirming.
"I don't think I'll ever understand. I'm glad I'm going to Kira's tonight" Charlotte told them.
Cosima chuckled and winked at Delphine, grabbing her pizza and taking another bite.
As soon as they were done with dessert, Cosima walked Charlotte down to Felix's. It was a short walk and it wasn't long before she was banging on his door.
Felix swung it open "Hey! Monkey number 2, nice new do!" he called as Charlotte stepped up for a hug.
Kira ran to the door and took Charlotte's hand, pulling her in.
Cosima smiled at Felix "Hey Felix. Thanks again for watching them. They can't seem to get enough of each other"
"We all know what best friends are like" he told her, pulling her in to a hug. He quickly pulled away and looked at her crotch. "Mummy's packing." He crossed his arms and leaned against the doorframe, his tongue in his cheek.
Cosima turned bright red and leaned in, whispering "Is it obvious?"
He laughed "No, I just know what I'm looking for. Big night, huh?"
Coisma shrugged, contorting her face.
"Right, well I'll leave you too it. Make sure she fucks you right" Felix warns her.
She nods "She always does" Cosima leaned sideways to see the kids. "Hey Char, have fun tonight."
"I will. Enjoy your sex!" She called back.
Cosima turned bright red this time and Felix couldn't stop laughing.
"Oi! Little bit, that was genius!" he praised, closing the door and heading over to give her a high five as she giggled.
Cosima turned and started back home.
Delphine had candles lit throughout the room. A Bluetooth speaker was playing a slow, sexy playlist from her phone and she'd stripped down to her lingerie. She sprawled herself over the bed, waiting for Cosima.
Cosima walked in the door and immediately started stripping "Delphine?" she called out.
She ripped off her shirt, tore off her bra, and then tried to get her pants off as she climbed the steps, hopping on each foot for a moment, until the material was finally peeled from her body and left behind as the last crumb in the trail of clothing leading up the stairs.
"Delphine, you better be in that bedroom" Cosima called out, now naked of everything except the cock.
She stumbled in and stopped in her tracks. She gulped audibly and her mouth went dry. Delphine was there, sprawled out on the bed.
Cosima's eyes trailed Delphine's body as she slowly drank in the sight in front of her. Black, fine mesh covered Delphine's slender feet and continued upwards. Cosima started breathing heavy just above Delphine's knee, where her thighs started. She imagined nudging them apart. She could feel her heart beat pick up as her eyes scanned the lace detail at Delphine's mid-thigh, where the garter was holding the material in place. She bit her bottom lip, continuing up to Delphine's black lace-clad pussy. Her eyes stopped there for a moment, breathing heavy, and mouth now salivating. She needed this woman.
Her eyes continued their journey, drinking in her fiancée's toned, white stomach. She watched the muscles there ripple and move as Delphine breathed. Next, was the blonde's gorgeous, heaving chest. The material of the bra clung to her, giving the brunette teasing glimpses of skin between those two glorious mounds. Then, Cosima looked up to her face; that beautiful face, staring back at her with the same amount of longing she was sure that she radiated.
"I want you so badly" Cosima whispered over the air between them.
Delphine pulled the paddle out from behind her back and Cosima's knees went weak, her mind protesting.
"Have you been a bad girl?" Delphine asked.
Cosima shook her head "Another time" she whispered.
Delphine nodded and put the paddle away. Cosima walked over to her, getting on to the bed by tossing a leg over the blonde's hips and sitting back, onto her frame. She looked down at the beautifully long body sprawled beneath her.
"You are just so beautiful" Cosima whispered to her "I don't think I tell you enough."
Delphine smiled and reached for the silicone cock. She took a firm grip on it "Can I take this out? I want you tonight. The real you. I want to feel you move inside of me. This is fun and sexy, but maybe when we use the paddle?"
Cosima nodded and moaned as Delphine popped the bulb of the toy out of her, watching Cosima's body release it and her very swollen lips open up to let the cream-covered silicone bulb release from her body. Delphine couldn't help but marvel "Mon Dieu, that was…" she bit her lip and instead of continuing, she pulled Cosima down in to a bruising kiss.
Cosima braced herself on the bed with a hand, the other holding Delphine's cheek as she gave in to the kiss completely, pouring all of her emotions in to it.
Their lips glided against each other, all wet softness and friction. Delphine felt Cosima's tongue run over her lips and opened her mouth wide enough to meet it with her own. Every nerve in Delphine's body tingled as their tongues danced against each other. She opened her legs, and felt Cosima nestle her hips between them, laying her body against Delphine's. The French woman couldn't help but gasp at the shock of sensation that ran through her body. She trembled and Cosima broke their kiss.
"Oh fuck I forgot how great that feels" Cosima purred, burying her face in Delphine's neck as she felt the blonde's hands running up and down her bare back.
She kissed behind Delphine's ear, sending zappy signals directly to the doctor's clit. Cosima felt Delphine's hips start to pulse under her and moaned in to her ear. Delphine's nails turned to claws in her back, goosebumps erupting on her skin as her own nipples hardened.
Cosima smiled, noticing this as she kissed across Delphine's neck, stopping to give her a hickey. She sucked eagerly as Delphine bit her bottom lip and her breathing increased.
"Cosima" she moaned, her toes already curling.
Cosima reached around the back of the bra, wanting nothing more than the feast her eyes on her fiancée's chest. She looked up at Delphine as her hand stopped at the clasp "Can I?" she whispered.
"Please. I need you to touch me" Delphine answered back.
Cosima unclasped the bra, tossing it aside and closing her eyes against the sensation of their bare chests pressing together before lowering herself to run her tongue softly over a nipple.
Delphine gasped, her back arching. She was on fire. The rush of lubrication between her thighs only intensifying the swelling of her entire cunt. It was throbbing, begging to be touched. She could only imagine how sweet Cosima's tongue would feel on her aching clit.
Cosima pulled the nipple in to her mouth, gently sucking on it. She could feel Delphine's stomach tremble and knew the effect she was having on the woman. She let go of the nipple to make her way back up to Delphine's face. She was pulled right back down in to a kiss and flipped, finding herself on her back. She smiled up at Delphine, raising her arms over her head in a stretch.
"Mmm I love it when you top me" Cosima hummed.
Delphine smiled and raised an eyebrow "And I love the way you feel, writhing beneath me"
The brunette pulled her own bottom lip in to her mouth and could barely contain her body from writhing just at the mention. Delphine ever so gently ran a hand over Cosima's left breast, barely grazing the skin. This time, Cosima writhed, her whole body responding to the touch. She watched as Delphine slowly circled her nipple with a single digit, still keeping the pressure as light as possible.
Cosima whimpered, her body begging for more.
"Are you enjoying this?" Delphine asked.
Cosima nodded enthusiastically.
"So you would not want me to stop, would you?" Delphine asked.
Cosima shook her head. Delphine smiled wide and lowered her head to the brunette's ear.
"Do you want me inside of you?" she asked.
"Oh god, please Delphine. My body is begging for you" Cosima cried.
Delphine crushed her mouth in a kiss as she moved beside her fiancée's body while her hand trailed down Cosima's chest, to her stomach, and started playing with the small, well groomed patch of dark curls that peppered her mons. The young scientist eagerly opened her legs to the French doctor.
Delphine then moved her hand to the inside of Cosima's thigh, using a firm pressure as she took her time making her way to the source of the heat.
Cosima felt the tortuous pull, her mind begging Delphine's hand to slip just a little bit further. She was drenched and could smell her arousal from the pillow she had her head on. Both lips were curled in to her mouth as her back arched.
Delphine watched Cosima's expression carefully as she let her hand move to cover the woman's cunt. Her vulva was hot and so wet. Delphine's eyes fluttered and she held back her eagerness, wanting to draw this out. It had been so long for her. Cosima had Shay, but Delphine had not done this since Cosima. Her body was full of pent up sexual energy that was finally finding it's release. And that release was coming with a flood of emotions as she gently ran finger down Cosima's length.
"Merde! You are so wet" she gasped.
Cosima shook in anticipation "Please, Delphine. I need you inside of me" she pleaded.
Delphine nodded, kissing her deeply. She used two fingers to gently rub Cosima's clit as she positioned herself between Cosima's legs once again. She could feel the hard nub grazing against the pads of her fingers as the young scientist's body jolted in response.
Cosima only existed in her clit and lips at the moment. All feeling, all blood flow was directed to those areas. She was unconscious to the digging of her nails into Delphine's skin and the jerking of her body. Delphine's lips were everywhere. Cosima tried to keep up. She felt surrounded by the love of her life and it felt amazing. The muscles around her opening twitched in anticipation. Her clit was getting so very sensitive, and Delphine's lips on her own were driving her wild.
Delphine moved her mouth to Cosima's neck, licking her jawbone all the way to her ear. She gently sucked on the lobe before pulling back to look in to Cosima's eyes. She leaned in for a sweet, tender kiss as her fingers moved down to rest gently against the entrance to the smaller woman's body. She held Cosima's eyes with her own.
"Are you sure you're ready?" Delphine asked, needing confirmation.
Cosima smiled and nodded, leaning up to kiss Delphine softly before laying her head back down. Her eyebrows knit together "I trust you" she whispered to Delphine.
Delphine held her gaze as she slowly inserted a single finger in to Cosima. She watched as Cosima's mouth opened wide and her eyes stayed fixed. She felt her own mouth hang open and a shiver erupt in her body. Cosima was so warm, so wet, and so damn soft. She felt the brunette's walls hug her finger tightly. Their gaze never broke, even when Delphine was buried in that warm velvet to her knuckle.
"Merde!" Delphine cried.
"Oh fuck!" Cosima countered.
The young scientist pulled Delphine tightly to her, Delphine resting her forehead on Cosima's as she started to move.
"Oh fuck!" Cosima repeated. "Oh my God. Delphine!"
Delphine knew this body. It took her no time to find Cosima's favourite spot deep within her. She started to thrust her finger in and out, making sure to hit that spot every time.
Cosima couldn't control her reactions. Her abs were impossibly taut as everything in her body tightened. She trembled uncontrollably, grasping at the body above her. She managed to get a hand up to tangle in Delphine's hair. She massaged the taller woman's scalp, pulling her head in for more kisses. With each stroke, she felt her body try to hold on to Delphine, and then Delphine's finger push its way back through the tight walls. She needed more.
"More…please…Delphine…fuck!" Cosima trembled, shaking as her body responded.
Delphine nodded and kissed her cheek, pulling her finger out and bringing it to her mouth to suck it clean. Her eyes rolled in the back of her head. Cosima was delicious. She wanted to taste her so badly, but not as badly as she wanted to hold her. She sucked on the second finger before running them both down her fiancée's body, until they slipped between Cosima's labia majora to play with the slick wetness found all along her vulva.
Cosima captured Delphine's lips once again, kissing her deeply as she opened herself up to the woman in her bed. Sex with Delphine was unlike any other she'd ever had. There was this…undertone of warm comfort and safety. Delphine satisfied so much more than her physical needs. She closed her eyes and breathed in the smell of Delphine's skin, ran her tongue gently over the woman's lips, took a handful of hair, and ran her other one up Delphine's back.
When Delphine slid back in to her, Cosima felt her cunt stretch to accommodate the girth and it sent flashing lights behind her eyelids. Her back arched, bringing her body into Delphine's. Their skin slid against each other as Delphine started working in and out of Cosima's body once more. The brunette's senses were alive with everything Delphine.
Delphine was treated to the slight bounce of Cosima's breasts with every thrust. She relished the feeling of their nipples brushing against each other and sunk her weight down on to Cosima, crushing their chests together. Her fingers kept tirelessly thrusting in and out of the woman beneath her.
Cosima's entire body rolled as her hips took on a mind of their own, bucking up to meet Delphine's thrusts. The taller woman's weight on her was so welcome. She wrapped her arms firmly around Delphine's neck and moaned loudly, feeling her body start to coil, gearing up for the release. She kept kissing the woman, biting her lower lip gently, then quickly soothing it with her tongue.
Delphine could feel the change in Cosima's body. She knew that she was getting close to the edge. Using her thumb, Delphine rolled Cosima's clit with the pad of that finger, brushing against it with each thrust in.
Cosima's moan turned in to a higher pitched cry as she wrapped her legs around Delphine's waist, locking her feet in place. She finally broke their kiss, breathing heavily.
Delphine opened her eyes, looking down at Cosima. She noticed that hers were still closed. "Look at me, mon amour" she asked.
Cosima's eyes fluttered open to stare up in to Delphine's. Her cheeks were flush and her eyes looked like puddles, full of tears.
"Do you want me to stop?" Delphine asked, slowing down slightly.
Cosima shook her head "Please no. Happy tears" she confessed, followed quickly by a moan.
Cosima hadn't even known that they were there until she'd opened her eyes. She was just so full of emotion right now; tucked under Delphine, open wide to her, no walls or barriers. She felt completely exposed and completely safe. Delphine was everything. Delphine was everywhere. Delphine had her heart overflowing right now, spilling out of her body to cover the bed, carpet the floor, and paint the walls.
Delphine saw the complex tangle of emotions in Cosima's eyes. She watched them as she slowed her pace right down. She took care to hit that perfect spot with each long thrust, earning her a moan and a jolt of Cosima's body every time. She loved this. She loved being skin on skin with this woman. She loved being allowed inside of her. She loved that look Cosima gave her. Like she was the only one on the planet right now, and Cosima could see nothing else. That slight hint of a smile in the twinkle of those gorgeous brown orbs, even when they were filled with the rippling effect of tears threatening to fall.
One more thrust and Cosima held tightly to Delphine as her body flung itself over the edge.
"Oh fuck! Delphine, oh my fucking God!" she cried.
Delphine held her just as tightly, gently pulsing her fingers deep inside of the warm velvety walls.
Cosima's head shot back as contractions rippled through every muscle in her body. She went lightheaded as her cunt exploded in an earth shattering orgasm. She could feel Delphine's lips on her neck, mixed with the flashing lights and ringing in her whole body. She felt high. The best high she'd ever had. She could hear Delphine whispering to her but everything was slightly fuzzy. Her orgasm rolled on, as soon as it felt like it was ending, her body erupted again. She was trembling uncontrollably in Delphine's arms. Finally it stopped and her body went limp, her lips curving in to a smile as the tears that had been threatening to fall, fell.
Delphine pressed her lips to each tear that graced Cosima's cheek as she slowly pulled out, whipping the wetness on the hand towel she'd set on her nightstand. She ran the backs of her fingers across the crying woman's hair line and stared at her adoringly.
"I'm supposed to be the one who cries" Delphine whispered to her.
Cosima just reached up, pulling her close "I almost missed this. I can't believe that I almost missed this."
Delphine's heart shattered and she hugged the smaller woman fiercely "But you didn't. You're right here."
Cosima nodded, kissing Delphine's cheek gently.
Delphine swallowed hard, feeling impossibly guilty. Cosima had trusted her so openly and yet, she was still hiding something from her. It felt dirty.
Cosima felt the feeling return back to her limbs and started kissing Delphine's neck, eager to have Delphine feel what she just did. Delphine slowly pulled away, taking a hold of Cosima's hand that was on her face.
"Non. Cosima. I need to talk to you" Delphine told her, tears now filling her eyes.
The young scientist swelled with worry "Okay. What's up?" Cosima started playing with Delphine's hair.
Delphine took a deep breath "I've been…keeping something from you and it's not right. We should talk about it."
Cosima retreated in to herself, sitting up in front of Delphine and pulling the sheet around herself "Okay, umm…" she rubbed the back of her neck, feeling the sticky wetness between her thighs she took a deep breath and shook her head, a different kind of tears falling now "…I'm just gonna…clean up" she said, motioning around her crotch with a hand before standing up, keeping the sheet wrapped around her exposed body.
Delphine felt the sting. All that trust just went out the window. She silently stripped out of the lingerie, discarding it to the chair in the corner and pulled on a white tank top and a pair of boxers. She wiped the tears from her face with the back of her forearm and grabbed the hand towel off the nightstand. Blood. Not a lot, just a trace, mixed with Cosima's fluids smeared over the cloth. Delphine ripped the blankets off the bed and breathed a sigh of relief when there was no sign of more of it. Cosima was due to start anyways, so it wouldn't be that out of the ordinary. She plopped the bedding back on the bed, turned off the music, blew out all the candles, and finally knocked on the bathroom door.
"Yeah?" Cosima called from the shower.
Delphine cracked the door open, careful not to look in. Clearly, Cosima wanted privacy right now. "There was some blood. Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" she asked.
Cosima's first answer was going to be a snide comment, but instead she took a deep breath, determined to handle this maturely. She didn't know what Delphine had to tell her yet, but she wanted to make sure that Delphine actually ended up telling her. "No. I umm…I just started" she responded.
There was a pause.
"Okay. I'll be downstairs. I'll make us some tea. Meet me there when you're ready" Delphine's voice was barely a whisper. She was terrified about what this meant for them. "Take all the time you need."
The blonde closed the door and headed downstairs.
Cosima sobbed, leaning against the shower wall. She thought that they'd finally gotten over all of this. Everything had been so perfect. But it hadn't. This whole time, there was something else. Did Delphine just want another good fuck? Cosima felt incredibly used. The worst part was that she'd been so sure in that feeling of safety and warmth. She'd let her guard down and let herself fall in to it, floating on the backs of Delphine's promises and soft spoken words. She'd given herself completely over, in full trust and that was gone. Had it ever really been there? Was Delphine just a really good liar?
It couldn't be. It felt way too real. She felt it deep within her. Delphine had given everything for her and her sisters, for their daughter. She'd had the urge to pack a bag, but that dimmed as she softened, remembering the past few months. All those times she thought Delphine had betrayed her were illusions. It had only felt like betrayal.
The logician in her tried to reason with it, while her emotions raged with fear, anger, and hurt. She was so hurt.
Delphine sat on the couch, staring down at the coffee table covered in file folders: all of the science she and Scott had been working on this week. Everything had been ready. She was supposed to go get implanted tomorrow while Cosima thought she was at work. She'd quit the job she never started a few days ago when she'd realized how quickly everything was going to move. Walk in clinic work was stressful and long, it would be really tough on her body and she couldn't do that while pregnant. She ran a hand through her hair and took a sip of her tea, pulling her knees to her chest and covering herself with the blanket on the couch as she sobbed. She just prayed Cosima would stay.
The Frenchwoman stared at her cup of tea, untouched on the coffee table. Her life could very well come crashing down tonight. She dropped her head to her knees and cried.
Cosima watched from the bottom of the stairs, her heart aching to hold the woman but her brain telling her to run. She compromised, taking soft, slow steps that carried her towards the living room. She grabbed a blanket from the rack they kept, wrapping it around herself. She always shivered when she got emotional. She took a seat in their oversized arm chair, wrapping the blanket tightly around herself and sliding the elastic of her sweats over her feet to cover them.
Delphine looked over at her by rolling her head to the side, keeping it supported by her knee. Her face was tear-stained as her whole body shook in violent sobs. "I'm sorry" she cried quietly.
Cosima's bottom lip quivered "What did you do?" she asked. She didn't get an answer and so she added some volume and timber to her voice "What did you do, Delphine?"
The doctor shook her head "Nothing yet. Cosima, I'm so sorry. I should have talked to you sooner. Je suis si stupide."
Cosima scanned the file-covered coffee table, her nostrils flaring "What is this?" she asked, turning her head back to Delphine.
"Your cure" Delphine whimpered.
Now, Cosima felt her temple flare up. No shivers, she was hot. Her legs catapulted her upwards "YOU'VE HAD THIS ALL ALONG?" she screamed.
Delphine was shocked. How could Cosima think that? "No! Cosima, I've only been working on this since Sunday."
Cosima felt that cool her system slightly, but she shook her head, scowling "Why didn't you tell me?" she asked Delphine.
"Because I knew you wouldn't like it" Delphine admitted, reaching out and picking up a file. She handed it to Cosima. "Just read this" she whimpered, putting her forehead back in to her knees. "I never wanted to betray your trust. It's the only way Cosima."
Cosima scanned the contents of the file, her hands shaking as she did. The information flowed in to her and she felt her stomach react. She looked up to Delphine "You want to create another clone?" she asked.
Delphine nodded.
"The cord blood.." Cosima's eyes went wide as she dawned upon a realization "You were going to carry her. You were going to have Scott impregnate you behind my fucking back?" she spat, throwing the folder at her "FUCK YOU DELPHINE!" she cursed, shaking now "How many times do I have to tell you before you get it through your fucking skull, this is MY BODY, this is MY BIOLOGY! You don't get to make decisions for me" she yelled.
Delphine flared up now, instigated by the connotations "And what about Charlotte? Eh Cosima? What about Allison and MK? Tony? What about Danille Fournier and Katja? What about Jennifer and the millions of others? Is that YOUR decision?" Delphine rushed forward, taking Cosima's hands in her own and kneeling in front of her, looking up "This could be a cure for all of them; for all of your sisters."
"And what if it isn't?" Cosima countered, her tears flowing now. "Now there's another one of us who is sick with no answers. What do you do then?"
"What do we do now?" Delphine asked "Cosima, you are going to die if we do not do something soon. I can't let that happen" Delphine cried, her own tears falling.
Cosima pulled her hands away, turning away and covering her mouth as she sobbed.
Delphine's body sank until she was seated on her heels, staring at the carpet.
Long moments passed with no word or movement from either woman, save for the sobs.
"She'd have your eyes and your face" Delphine whispered, hugging herself. "A little Cosima, running around." She paused again, swallowing hard "I've never felt a joy like what I felt when Charlotte called me Maman."
"Delphine, I don't want to have a child with you out of desperation. That's not right for her" Cosima reasoned softly, still not turning around. She knew that she couldn't face Delphine in her current state.
Delphine shook her head "I just want to have a child with you. Whether it's now, later, in the middle of a war. It might be selfish, but I want nothing more."
"You're right, that's really fucking selfish" Cosima cried.
Delphine closed her eyes, defeated. "Please, Cosima…"
Cosima shook her head "I need to sleep. Take the couch tonight" she instructed, heading upstairs.
Delphine let her body sink to the floor as she broke down, sobbing.
Cosima slammed the door to their bedroom and fell onto the bed, sobbing. Her phone rang and she noticed that she had a bunch of missed calls from Felix.
Every emotion was wiped from her body as fear for her daughter set it. She hastily dialed the number on the house phone.
"Mummy?" Charlotte cried from the other side.
"Charlotte! What's wrong?" she asked, already getting dressed.
"I don't know. Kira told me that you were hurting badly. Mummy, I want to come home" she pleaded.
Cosima let out a relieved breath and shook her head "I'm okay Char, Maman and I are just having a…very hard talk" she compensated
"Okay. Is Maman okay?" she asked.
Cosima sniffled "Yeah. I think she will be." She hated lying. She knew Delphine wasn't okay and that this was more than just a little fight, but there was nothing Charlotte could do. It was better for her to go back to having fun. Cosima didn't really know where she and Delphine stood…if this was it or not. She couldn't think. She was emotionally exhausted and just needed to sleep.
"Can we pick out my classes tomorrow?" Charlotte inquired, excitedly.
"Of course. Umm, I'm really tired tonight Char, I don't think I'm going to make it to brunch tomorrow. I'll let auntie Sarah know, but I thought you should have the heads up" the brunette informed her daughter.
"Alright mummy. Get some sleep. Can I say goodnight to Maman?" she asked.
"Yeah. Let me get her on the line for you" Cosima told her as she texted Delphine to pick up the house phone. "Goodnight little one. I love you."
"I love you too, mummy" Charlotte answered.
Delphine got the text and jumped to her feet, wiping her own tears. She grabbed the phone.
"Allo? Charlotte?" she aked.
Cosima hung up and she heard the click.
"Maman! I just called to say goodnight."
"Bon soir mon petit chou. Je t'aime à la lune et de retour. Goodnight my little cabbage. I love you to the moon and back." The blonde doctor cooed through her tears.
Charlotte giggled on the other line "Je t'aime aussi, Maman."
Charlotte hung up and so did Delphine. Delphine directed her body to the couch and curled up in the fetal position, not bothering to pull it out to its full size. She wrapped herself in the blanket Cosima had been wearing, clinging to her scent that still lingered on it.
Cosima stared at the ceiling, turning the evening around in her mind. Her body still felt so immensely satiated and she remembered the intensity and tenderness from the love making. Charlotte had called her mummy. That little voice had reached out and wrapped around her heart. Delphine was right, no joy could compare. She sat on that. She sat on Delphine's words, on her confession. She let it all stew. After a few hours, she knew that she needed to sleep and rolled over, pulling the duvet up under her chin.
The brunette tossed and turned for another hour or so. What was she really upset about? It turns out that Delphine hadn't held back during their long talk last week. But she was going to do this behind her back, had planned to. But then again, she hadn't. She'd told Cosima. Still, that sting of being left out of a big life changing decision was monumental. That's what she was mad about: not being included in that conversation. She was mad that for some reason Delphine thought that she could just make decisions for her. And she was absolutely pissed that Delphine would have Scott impregnate her.
Cosima sighed heavily. Still, she was glad that Delphine had told her. It showed that she was trying. It meant a lot to Cosima. She looked at the clock, seeing that it was already 3am. She stood up and headed downstairs.
Delphine was still curled up on the couch, quietly sobbing. Cosima walked over, pulling the straps on the couch to pull the rest of it up. Cosima slowly laid down next to Delphine. She curled up to the shaking form.
"Cosima, I…" she sobbed. Delphine's face was a mess of tears and snot.
Cosima shook her head "Let's just sleep" she told Delphine. "This doesn't mean that I'm not pissed."
The blonde nodded, turning in to Cosima's chest and crying in to it "Please don't leave me. Don't say it's over."
Cosima stroked her hair and gulped, flaring her nostrils as she fought the urge to simply kiss Delphine's face all over and tell her everything would be okay. She instead lowered her head to the couch and closed her eyes, rubbing her crying fiancée's back as she sobbed.
Charlotte and Kira were tucked in to their sleeping bags on Felix's floor. They'd been lying there for a while and were supposed to be asleep.
"Kira, are you awake?" Charlotte whispered over to her.
Kira sat up "Yeah. I can't sleep" she confessed.
Charlotte nodded, sitting up too. She scooted her sleeping back closer and they both laid back down, where they could hear each other whisper.
"I'm worried about mummy and maman" she confessed.
Kira nodded "What did they say when you talked to them?"
"That they had a fight but were okay" Charlotte informed her
"It didn't feel like it. Auntie Cosima felt broken" Kira told her cousin.
"Do you think they're gonna break up?" the young clone asked, a hitch in her voice.
"I don't know" Kira admitted, wrapping her arms around Charlotte in a hug.
Cosima woke up in Delphine's grasp and everything was perfect for one moment. Then the memories flooded back. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes again, enjoying the feeling of Delphine wrapped around her for just another couple of minutes. Boy did she miss their bed!
She extracted herself and covered Delphine's body with the blanket, making sure she didn't get cold. Cosima stood up, sniffling and wiping her face with the back of the sweater sleeve she was wearing. She walked in to the kitchen, starting to get a breakfast together.
Delphine woke up and immediately knew Cosima was not beside her. Her heart sank as she slowly sat up. The clattering of dishes came in to focus and she turned around to the kitchen to see Cosima pouring coffee. She ran a hand through her hair, ruffling it as she looked towards the kitchen table. French toast. The only thing Cosima could cook reliably well.
"How'd you sleep?" Cosima asked softly as she walked over to the table, putting the coffees next to their respective plates. Delphine took hers black, while Cosima preferred a little milk and sugar.
Delphine just shrugged and stood up "If you're having company over, I can go out."
Cosima shook her head "It's for you." The young scientist sighed and walked over to her, sitting on a bent leg to face her "Last night, my emotions were all…wonky. I'm sorry that I exploded. I'm still like super pissed at you, but I've had time to think about it." Cosima reached out and gently ran her index finger over Delphine's hand. "Charlotte called me mummy last night" she confessed.
Delphine let a grin grace her face "She is very brave"
"Yeah" Cosima responded "and it felt so fucking good. I…it reminded me of what you said: that it was the most joy you'd ever felt"
Delphine nodded and lifted her index finger to also play with Cosima's hand.
Cosima's bottom lip quivered as her eyes swelled with tears that fell immediately "It felt so good that you told me about this. It took me some time to realize that, but it does. It means the world."
Delphine pulled Cosima immediately in to a hug. Cosima squeezed her back. She held Cosima so close to her, keeping a gentle hand on her fiancée's head. After she felt Cosima settle down, she slowly pulled away.
"I'm also really mad that you were gonna let Scott do the deed. If anyone is going to get you pregnant, it should be me" Cosima half-joked, trying to lighten the mood.
Delphine let out a small chuckle "That's a deal"
Cosima took a firm grip on the blonde's forearm "But seriously, can we have a mature conversation about this over breakfast?"
Delphine nodded and wiped the tears from her face "Oui."
They both stood up and walked over to the table, taking their respective seats. They ate in silence for a few minutes until Cosima looked up.
"I think one of the reasons why I was so angry is that it's a big decision, even without all of the clone mumbo jumbo." She took a bite of her French toast. "Having a baby, Delphine…it's a lot"
Delphine finished the bite she was chewing and took a sip of coffee "You're right. I'm sorry. That is a decision I never even should have been thinking without talking to you."
Cosima chewed the inside of her lip, looking over Delphine's features "Is it really what you want? I mean, now?"
"Yes" Delphine's voice rang out clearly.
"Even if I wasn't sick, would you want that now?" Cosima inquired.
Delphine dropped her fork and shook her head "That is not fair."
"Alright. I guess." She took a deep breath and a long sip of her own coffee "I just don't want to do this for the wrong reasons"
"Can we be clear here? What are the wrong reasons, Cosima?" Delphine asked.
"Wanting this child so that I don't die instead of wanting this child because we want her" Cosima explained.
Delphine stood up and walked around the table. She kneeled, taking Cosima's hands. She'd been doing this a lot lately, but it seemed to get her point across to Cosima.
"Cosima, I want this child. Ever since we moved in here and have been Charlotte's parents, I have wanted to carry our child, to raise our child. Yes, she would save your life, but she would give my life so much joy. Charlotte could have a sister. I know that it is a lot sooner than we were planning, but the world has spat in the face of every plan we've made. Let's make someone beautiful together."
Cosima nodded "Okay. But I don't think that this is something just the two of us should decide. Like you said last night, it's not just my biology. If we're going to do this, then we need all the sestras we know of on board. That's how this is going to go down."
Delphine nodded. "That is completely fair" she reasoned, standing up and hugging Cosima.
"And for real, no Scott in your lady bits unless it's an emergency" Cosima reminded her.
Delphine smiled and kissed her cheek. "Only you get to play doctor with me" she stated, sitting back down to finish her meal.
"Well, I like the sounds of that Dr. Cormier" Cosima poked back.