Yeah guys, sorry, I know it's been a long time and I am really sorry, but College is buuuuuuuusy. I will try and finish all of my RP's as soon as possible, I have this one all planned out so this will probably be the first one to be finished. So yeah, I'm sorry and enjoy. (:

Ever since Bellatrix was a young girl she had wanted a son. She'd play mummies and Daddies with Andromeda and Narcissa when she was little, she'd be the mummy, Andromeda would be the Daddy and she'd always make Narcissa pretend to be a boy – not that she'd ever be caught dead admitting the great Bellatrix Lestrange once enjoyed such childish and innocent games even if it was many years ago.

In school, she'd always curl up in Rodolphus' arms, talking about the little family they would one day have. They had once decided that they would have three sons-purely so she could taunt her father about having three 'useless' daughters-and they would have cute little simple names like Billy, Percy and John to rebel against the apparent necessity for Blacks to have big extravagant names.

But years on from this all of these innocent childhood dreams and recent teenage plans seemed to be quickly slipping away from Bella. It was April 15th, a year after Bella's marriage to Rodolphus Lestrange, and she found herself sat in a healers office hearing news she wished she would never have to hear.

Absentmindedly rubbing her left arm where currently her magically concealed dark mark was emblazoned onto her skin she stared blankly at the Healer.

"W-What?" was the only word she could manage to utter as her mind worked frantically around the news.

"I'm sorry, Mrs Lestrange, but you have damage you see-along with other issues-and I cannot see you ever being able to have children. You can still try but there's only a 0.01% chance that you will ever be able to have a child." The healer looked to Bellatrix, clearly he had delivered sad news such as this in the past and had lost sympathy or feeling for many of the patients he saw, especially people he viewed to be stuck up snobs such as Bellatrix Lestrange.

Slowly the fragments slowly seemed to piece together in Bellatrix's mind, the years of beatings and sexual abuse, coupled with the incest that had been going on within the Black family for hundreds of years in order to keep their line pure had seemed to help blow yet another foul swoop in Bellatrix Lestranges life. Due to no fault of her own Bella found herself practically infertile.

"Mrs Lestrange? I'm sorry, but there's nothing else I can do for you and as you can probably tell by the vast amount of patients I have waiting outside I have many other people to see today so unless there's anything else I'm going to have to ask you to leave my office." The Healer looked down, trying to look busy signing papers.

Too shocked and upset to even notice the rudeness or uncaring tone the Healer portrayed to her, Bellatrix got up, nodding and disapparated to the edge of her large manors grounds.

She stopped and stared at the building for what seemed like hours, thinking. Thinking about how she had made sure her manor had had vast amounts of gardens and places to explore in the hope that one day she would fill the grounds with the sound of her future children's laughter and noise. Thinking of her recent plans and hints from The Dark Lord that he had hoped to one day have an heir and was planning to bestow that honour upon her, his most trusted, most loyal . . . But all that thinking did nothing now, because she knew it wouldn't be true, ever.

She had failed her lord, she had failed her husband, she had failed herself but worse of all she had done exactly what her father had predicted of her-became a worthless piece of shit-couldn't even give children to her husband to carry on her husbands family name, not even girls.

And as she slowly walked up to the dark looming manor she prepared herself for what she knew her so called loving husbands reaction of disappointment would be.

For the first time since she was a teenager, Bellatrix Lestrange cried herself to sleep that night

Sorry if that was a bit naff and I know it's short, I don't have a Beta at the moment but I hope you enjoyed it none the less. Reviews are love and the quicker I get reviews the quicker I upload. xxxxx