Chapter 15- Psychosomatica
Delphine couldn't remember ever being this happy. She was seated at the table, pleasantly full from a good dinner. She could hear the kids laughing from the living room and Cosima's hand was firmly in hers. She smiled at the new feeling of the second ring on her finger. She sat back in her chair and smiled as she let the sounds of her family surround her.
"Hey, you okay?" Cosima asked, seeing the blonde with closed eyes.
Delphine nodded, keeping her eyes closed and basking in the feeling "I am the best I have ever been" she informed her new wife.
Cosima smiled at her, leaning in and kissing her cheek "I know exactly what you mean."
The doctor opened her eyes and reached up, cupping the brunette's face "This has been perfect. I am so very glad that we did this."
"Hey, I am game for any event where I get hummus, mac and cheese bites, pot roast, and cake all at once. We need to get married more often" she joked, shoving more hummus covered pita bread into her mouth.
Delphine's heart sung. She hadn't seen Cosima with an appetite like this in a long while "Well we will now have anniversaries to celebrate" she reminded the smaller woman.
Cosima giggled and patted Delphine's knee, leaning in for a quick kiss. The room hollered and applauded and she smiled as she chuckled "I thought we had finally gotten a moment. Boy was I wrong" she told her wife.
The brunette took this moment to look around, herself. The tables Alison had brought had been perfect for their space, allowing everyone the chance to sit and eat. They'd move a couple outside in a moment. And the spread was killer. They'd ordered from four different restaurants in the city, each of them picking a dish from each restaurant. It resulted in the most epically diverse menu. Cosima was fairly certain that Charlotte had exclusively eaten hummus covered mac and cheese bites and she'd had to remind her wife to tone down the mama bear today.
Her gaze then moved to the place they'd set for her late Dad. It had been Delphine's idea and it was perfect. His plate sat full of a selection carefully curated by Papa. The detail warmed her heart. And she closed her eyes to feel the love that had stayed with her all of these years; that warm safety that was her dad.
Cosima's attention turned to her father who was sitting with Annette and Mrs. S, as they had been all night. The parents had been sharing stories of their offspring non-stop all night, much to the chagrin of their children. Currently, Sarah and Felix were drinking scotch and seething at the group. Felix still hadn't forgiven Helm for the previous non disclosure of his sexuality. Cosima made a mental note to remind him that in a way he now had that gay uncle he'd always wanted.
"We should cut the cake soon" Delphine butted in to Cosima's thoughts.
The smaller woman nodded, already salivating at the dulce de leche layered devil's food cake "Yes please. I have been dreaming of this cake" she admitted, licking her lips.
Delphine laughed and rubbed her thigh "I know. If I need to hear you call "dulce de lece" out one more time during what I previously thought was a sex dream, I am going to sleep on the couch" she teased.
Cosima gave her new wife a fake grimace in jest.
"Come on, let's go get you your cake" the blonde told Cosima before she stood up.
Cosima followed, wheeling herself to the kitchen.
"They're cutting the cake! Hey everyone, it's cake time!" Alison called out, camera in hand.
Delphine blushed. She wasn't used to so many eyes on her. As she waited for the family to gather, she caught a glimpse of the slideshow her soccer mom sister-in-law had already put on the TV. The pictures were beautiful. As they scrolled through, she already knew which one she would blow up and put over their fireplace.
Charlotte, upon hearing that it was time for cake came running into the kitchen, jumping into Maman's arms.
Delphine giggled, catching her daughter and hoisting her up to watch. She sat Charlotte on the counter as she picked up the knife, smiling at her wife.
Cosima returned the smile and covered Delphine's hand with her own as together they cut the first slice of their wedding cake.
Delphine winked at her wife, picking up that first slice and biting her bottom lip as she knew exactly what to do with it. Cosima was already cutting more slices as the blonde giggled, bringing the cake up to meet her daughter's face.
The room gasped as Cosima laughed.
Charlotte's mouth hung open and she picked up a piece of the cake off her face and ate it "Oh wow. That's good cake"
Delphine chuckled "Yeah?"
"Oh yeah, do you want to try some Maman?" Charlotte asked, picking up a piece for her cheek and holding ti out.
Delphine reached down and took the piece between her teeth, moaning "Oh mon Dieu, you're…" she was cut off by a slice in her face, placed there by none other than her daughter.
The room errupted in a roar as Delphine continued to laugh, leaning in to give her daughter a kiss on the cheek. The blonde could hear Cosima laughing at the interaction.
"Oh yeah? You think this is funny?" she asked.
The brunette nodded and promptly got her own kiss, Delphine making sure to smoosh some cake onto her face.
Alison was already there with paper towels. She started cleaning off her niece's face first as the newlyweds started making out "Sweet baby Jesus, you would think that you were all children. Charlotte, close your eyes" she instructed.
Cosima was lost in a sea of dulce de leche Delphine, happily kissing the blonde anywhere there was cake.
The sun had gone down and the stars and moon had turned on. The backyard was full of string lights and music. The kids were in and out of the pool, and on and off the dance floor. But right now, an epic water fight was in progress. Kira and Gemma had teamed up against Oscar and Charlotte.
Delphine watched this from her seat as she sipped a hot cocoa. She watched Cosima dance with her sisters, giggling at them. She'd taken a break from the dance floor, finding that she was quite tired. Cosima though, had found some kind of energizer bunny energy today. It had been a good day for all of them, but for her wife in particular. Her wife. There was no way not to smile at that.
Cosima wove her arms in the air to the music as Sarah leaned in to her, her breath laced with scotch.
"You know, I am so glad you took her name" Sarah yelled over the music.
"Yeah? Why?" Cosima asked.
"Because now, Geek Monkey gets turned into C.C." Sarah joked.
Cosima looked at her confused before she realized that they were her new initials. She stopped dancing and pouted at her sister. CC was not a nickname she was fond of "Sarah" she whined.
Sarah laughed "What? I like it"
Cosima continued to pout.
"Oh, stop your whining, CC" the Leda leader told her.
A wet body came and sat Delphine's her lap, covered in a towel. She smiled and hugged Charlotte to her, removing the girl's swim goggles from her forehead "Are you having fun, mon petit amour?" she asked.
Charlotte nodded, leaning in to her Maman "Today has been the best" she whispered and yawned.
Delphine chuckled "Uh oh. I think you and I might fall asleep before my first dance with Mummy" she joked.
The young clone nodded, closing her eyes and leaning further in to Maman. Delphine rocked her, reaching for a towel on the chair next to her and using it to cover the girl's legs to keep her warm. Delphine let the girl nap on her.
Annette saw this and walked over, sitting next to her daughter "Longue journée pour la petite. Long day for the little one" she told her daughter.
Delphine smiled and nodded "Oui. Les cousins sont tellement actifs. Yeah. The cousins are so active" the new bride answered her mother.
"Mais, ma belle je ne parlais pas de Charlotte. But my little one, I wasn't talking about Charlotte" Annette responded with a smile. "Je parlais à propos de l'autre petite. I was talking about the other little one."
Delphine gave her mother a confused look as she felt Charlotte nod off completely in her arms. "Et de qui exactement parle-tu, maman? Kira? And who exactly are you talking about, maman? Kira?" she asked.
Annette laughed "Mais non, Delphine. T'es enceinte.But no, Delphine. You're pregnant."
Delphine's mouth dropped in complete shock. Not even Helm knew about that. He knew they were working on a cure for Cosima using Delphine, but they had not told anyone outside of the sestras and Scott about the pregnancy. She guessed that maybe Sarah had told Cal or someone had figured out why she was not drinking at her own wedding. Maybe Cal had figured it out at her bachelorette party.
"Maman, on ne sait pas encore si je suis vraiment enceinte. Mais on essaye. Qui t'as dis? Maman, we don't' know yet if I'm really pregnant. But we're trying. Who told you?" the blonde asked, slightly peeved.
"Personne. Une maman connaît toujours. No one. A mother always knows" Annette replied with a smile. She rubbed her daughter's knee "Je suis si contente pour toi Delphine. T'as une belle famille et t'as déjà me donner deux belle filles. Je ne peux pas attendre de rencontrer la troisième. You have a beautiful family and you've already given me two beautiful girls. I cannot wait to meet the third."
Delphine smiled at her mother "Moi non plus, maman. Me neither, maman" the blonde whispered.
Cosima rolled over to the group and smiled, pouting out a lip at her sleeping daughter "She conked out already?" she asked.
Charlotte giggled and Delphine's eyes went wide "No" the girl told them "And Maman's pregnant?" she asked.
Cosima looked to Delphine and her mother "You told her?" she asked
"They thought I was asleep" Charlotte answered "Which I mean, I was, until I heard enceinte! I'm gonna be a big sister?" she asked.
"Shh. Shh. Charlotte. Lower your voice" Delphine chastised "We don't know yet. Mamie is getting a little ahead of herself."
"How far along are you?" Charlotte asked. "Is it the clone baby that's gonna cure Mummy?"
Delphine put her head in her hands and shook her head "Cosima, a little help?" she asked.
Cosima chuckled and patted Charlotte's tummy "How about we talk about this tomorrow? If you keep this secret and stop asking questions until tomorrow at breakfast, I'll make french toast, deal?"
"Deal!" Charlotte told her with a big smile.
"Good. Well someone's not tired anymore" the dreaded bride noted. She looked to her wife "Baby, you ready to dance with me?" she asked.
Delphine smiled and nodded, patting Charlotte's leg to ask her to get up. The kid listened, standing up to let Maman stand.
Donnie was waiting, mic in hand. Cosima nodded at him.
"Attention. I would like to call the newlyweds, Delphine and Cosima Cormier to the dance floor to share their first dance as a married couple" Donnie announced.
The dance floor cleared and the kids got out of the pool, wrapping themselves in towels to watch. Charlotte started pulling on her formal gear over her wet bathing suit, not wanting to miss out.
Delphine took Cosima's hand and directed them to the dance floor they'd laid overtop of the grass. Cosima stopped at the edge as the opening notes of The Scientist by Coldplay rang through the air.
"What's wrong?" Delphine asked
"Think you can hold me up?" the dreaded woman asked.
"Of course" came the reply.
Cosima smiled and used every ounce of strength to lift herself out of the chair, pulling the cannula off her head. She reached for Delphine as warm hands wrapped around her waist. Delphine pulled her in close.
The blonde walked them to the middle of the dance floor as she hugged her wife and sighed happily, burying her nose in Cosima's neck.
Cosima wrapped her arms around Delphine's neck and allowed herself to be swayed side to side by the love of her life. The stars were so bright tonight. She caught a glimpse of Charlotte watching them. She wanted this for her daughter. She wanted the small clone to grow up as happy and loved as she had been. She wished more than anything she could be there to see it, but she knew Delphine would fill in any gaps if she wasn't.
The brunette smiled, relaxing her head against Delphine's shoulder as she let the emotions from the day well up and fill her soul. Pure happiness was the only way to describe it. If she had to go, this was the day she needed to feel okay with that. One last party with her family, all of them. One last dance with her love. One last perfectly pure memory. One last really good day. It was more than a lot of people got. She felt so lucky to have been allowed it by her body and by the universe.
The song ended and everyone clapped for them. Delphine got Cosima back to her chair and helped her get the cannula back on before she kissed her sweetly.
"I will never forget our waltz under the stars, mon amour" Delphine whispered to her.
Cosima smiled and kissed her wife deeply before her father showed up, tapping Delphine's shoulder.
"Excuse me, but I would like a turn as well" he told her.
Delphine chuckled and motioned for him to take over, going to find her mother.
Helm smiled at his daughter "I don't think I've ever seen you this happy" he told her.
"That makes two of us. Now come on, let's get our boogie down" she told her father, reaching up and taking his hand.
Kira leaned in to Charlotte as they watched the brides dance with their parents "All of our aunties are really happy right now. I've never felt this before. Auntie Alison, my mummy, Auntie Helena, even Auntie Krystal" the girl told her cousin "But your mummy is so happy right now. She's so happy that she's a little bit sad."
Charlotte nodded and smiled at her parents. She knew what they were both thinking. It was a thought she'd been trying to put out of her mind all day "They're both a little sad. So am I" she admitted.
"Why?" Kira asked.
Charlotte smiled and shrugged "Mummy's dying."
Kira let that sink in as the song wrapped up. She watched her best friend walk over to her parents and get placed in Auntie Cosima's lap as a fast song started up.
Cosima hugged her daughter "Your turn to dance with me, kiddo" she told her kid, tickling her.
Charlotte giggled in Mummy's lap, wriggling around to try and get away from the tickling fingers.
Delphine carried Cosima across the threshold of their bedroom, just as she had into the house. The guests were gone and they were alone. She put her giggling wife down on their bed before she collapsed next to Cosima. Both were still in their dresses. She tried not to think about the mess in the backyard or downstairs. She felt Cosima's hand between her breasts, rubbing her cleavage as her wife's lips found her neck. She giggled.
"How do you still have energy?" she asked the brunette.
Cosima shrugged and moved to her ear, whispering in it "It's our wedding night, aren't we going to consummate our marriage, Dr. Cormier?" she purred.
Delphine giggled "Of course. I am just going to close my eyes for a minute first" she told her wife.
"Come on, Delphine. We're married now and Charlotte's with her cousins at Ali's, our parents took a two day trip to tour niagara; we're all alone in this big house" she told the blonde, rubbing across to a breast.
The doctor giggled "Ok, Mrs. Cormier, I have shut my eyes, now I devour you" she joked, rolling onto Cosima and blowing a raspberry on her neck.
The brunette giggled and bucked wildly under the familiar size of her wife. She wrapped both arms around Delphine's waist, pulling her body down to meet Cosima's own as she felt the blonde kiss across her neck to her cheek to finally meet her lips.
It was a sweet kiss of gliding soft lips that spoke volumes of emotions held between the two of them. Delphine broke the kiss first to open her eyes, waiting for Cosima to do the same. The moment the brunette's eyes fluttered open, she smiled at her wife.
"Je t'aime, mon amour" she whispered with all the sincerity she could muster at the moment.
Cosima closed her eyes and inhaled slowly, letting the air that those words were trapped on fill her tired, aching lungs. She was filled with a gentle warmth, basking in the beautiful feeling of the connection she had with this wonderful woman on top of her.
The brunette's eyes opened again to meet those striking hazel ones "I love you too" she whispered and leaned up, capturing Delphine's lips in a steaming hot kiss. Cosima wrapped her legs around her wife's hips, her hands moving to the dress' zipper and slowly pulling the metal down along it's track.
Delphine's tongue found Cosima's and danced with it eagerly between their two linked mouths. They teased each other, both smiling against the other's lips until their tongue kiss became a wrestling match and they broke apart, laughing.
Delphine placed a peck on her wife's lips as her body shook with the laughter and the brunette eagerly wrapped her arms around Delphine's neck, hugging her tightly. The blonde enjoyed the embrace, letting her body rest gently on top of Cosima's while she moaned into the smaller woman's neck.
Cosima loved this feeling. She was so light. She was so happy. Delphine was so tall and on top of her. She could feel the blonde's stomach tremble against her own through the fabric of their gowns with each laugh. It was turning her on and causing her own laughter to increase at the same time.
Still laughing, Delphine let a hand trail up Cosima's thigh. Dresses were great for this. She made eye contact with Cosima and raised her eyebrows "Do you want me to touch you?" she asked, her fingers gently dancing as she played twinkle twinkle little star on the brunette's inner thigh.
Cosima knit her eyebrows together, trying to figure out the pattern of her wife's finger taps. "What is that?" she asked.
Delphine snorted and rolled her lips over her teeth before she spoke "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" she admitted "It's the only song I know on the piano."
Cosima laughed "Sooooo sexy. And yes, I do want you to touch me, Doctor Cormier."
Delphine giggle and moved her hand up to rest on the outside of Cosima's underwear, feeling the wet heat waiting for her beneath the fabric. She moaned and kissed her wife's cheek "Should I keep playing it here?" she asked.
The brunette' head flew back as she laughed loudly and nodded, her eyes filling with tears.
Delphine started tapping her fingers in the pattern again. It was so good to see Cosima this happy and laughing. And she was so wet. Clearly the laughing was doing good things to her wife's desire.
Delphine suddenly needed to be kissing her wife and so lowered her mouth to Cosima's. The laughter slowed until it stopped and was replaced by Cosima's hands on her head, reaching for the clips keeping her hair up. Each one was plucked free and tossed aside (in the truly Cosima nature of throwing things on the floor) until Delphine felt her hair be fully let down. She smiled at the relaxed feeling it caused. A moment later hands were in it, tangling eagerly amidst the blonde curls.
Cosima moaned at the feeling of her hands in that familiar hair. She adored Delphine's curls. She loved how when they were down, they cascaded around their faces, shielding them from a world that isn't just the two of them. Even if for a moment, Cosima forgot about being sick and only saw Delphine. She existed solely in her own mind and attached to this woman's lips.
The blonde moved her hand, bringing her hips down between Cosima's to gently rock against her wife's still underwear-clad vulva. It seemed to be enough as she felt the moan elicited by the movement in her mouth. But this wasn't enough for her. She needed more. She needed skin. She needed to feel like if she tried hard enough, she could sink into Cosima through every pore on her body.
Delphine broke the kiss, sitting up on her knees and letting the spaghetti straps of her dress drop from both shoulders.
The smaller woman propped herself up on her elbows and smiled, watching her new wife shimmy out of her wedding dress and slowly reveal the blue lace bra and panty set that she knew must be new.
She observed in awe at the power and grace that was Delphine's body. She tried to imagine it growing larger and rounder as the blonde's pregnancy advanced. She imagined the way the stretch marks would creep across the woman's hips and belly and breasts. She watched in awe as her brain sent images of skin that hung a little more loosely on the tall frame and of a post-pregnancy belly with a little more padding than Delphine usually carried.
She watched as Delphine's body slowly wrinkled and sagged. And as she imagined the grey hair taking over the blonde curls, and the laugh lines spelling out each and every smile they'd shared, she couldn't help but wish that she wouldn't have to imagine it; that she could experience making love to Delphine's body in all of these stages. She smiled sadly at her wife.
Delphine watched the emotions play out on the smaller woman's face and grew concerned.
"Mon amour, what is going on inside your head?" she asked.
Cosima cracked a smile, being pulled from her thoughts "How very beautiful you are and how I…" her bottom lip quivered as she shrugged using a single shoulder "How I don't want to miss experiencing the depth of it in all of its forms"
Delphine closed her eyes and nodded. She sat down on Cosima's hips, putting a firm hand on the woman's belly, simply being present for her wife to feel this emotion.
Cosima took a slow breath in and out "How cruel is this world that we spend our lives building them and filling them with love, and these relationships, and all of this happiness, to only have it all stripped away in the end?" she asked.
Delphine thought about that for a moment. It was a feeling she'd been having a lot lately. What did this all mean, if we all just died anyways? So she gave Cosima the only answer she had come up with.
"It does not all get lost when we are gone" the blonde informed her wife. "You are not lost when you are gone. I will remember you" Delphine told her wife, her own bottom lip trembling as she let the tears fill her eyes "I will never let you be lost. Your sisters and their children will keep their super cool Auntie Cosima alive. Charlotte will keep us both alive. It is not all for nothing. Love is the reason we are here, and I believe that love is what keeps us here even after we are gone. And Cosima, you have so much of it and you love so deeply. You will never really leave" Delphine told her, stroking her cheek.
Cosima nodded and smiled up at her wife, reaching up to wipe the tears "Come here" she whispered.
Delphine lowered herself again, hugging her wife as they cried. She shifted off the smaller woman's frame and to the bed next to her. She pulled Cosima along, holding her closely as they cried together.
"I just love you so much and I'm going to miss our life together. You're going to have our baby and raise our kids and do all these great things, and grow old and I won't be there. And I really want to be there. I'll never get to see you old and grey. We'll never sip tea on the porch and talk for hours about the memories of our kids and grandkids. We'll never have that" Cosima sobbed.
Delphine nodded and smiled through her tears, playing with the baby hairs on the back of her wife's neck "But we will. Because there will not be a moment during any of it that I will not have you on my mind. And when Charlotte gets married, you will have a place set next to me. Every birthday, every Christmas, every graduation, you will be there. Je t'aime, Cosima. I love you in a way I never even thought possible."
Cosima nodded and held her wife close "Promise me you'll go easy on Charlotte. If I'm really with you, I should be there to balance you out" she reminded her partner, chuckling slightly through the tears.
Delphine nodded "Of course. What would Mummy do?" she offered.
They both laughed.
Cosima leaned over and kissed Delphine, letting their tears merge and fall together. The kiss was gentle and wet and salty and perfect. And when they pulled away, they kept their foreheads connected.
"Make love to me, Delphine. I want to feel you everywhere. I want to feel your light in every corner of my mind" Cosima whispered to her wife.
Delphine smiled and nodded, reaching back to unclasp her own bra before reaching behind Cosima to pull down the zipper on her dress. Cosima's hands found her bare back as she started to slide the material on her wife, down her body until it was far enough down that she could pull it completely off. The blonde stood and walked to the closet, carefully hanging it up and zipping it in to a garment bag.
The blonde turned back to her wife "Maybe one day, Charlotte will want to wear it" she informed the brunette before taking up her spot on the bed again.
Cosima's arms were instantly around her again and she leaned in to kiss the streaks of tears on those beautiful cheeks. Delphine unsnapped her wife's bra and tossed it aside.
Their bare torsos were together and both women sighed in unison at the overwhelming sensation that was being skin on skin together. Lips met again.
Cosima hooked both of her thumbs in the waistband of her underwear and pulled them down, using her feet to kick them off. She kissed her wife sweetly and softly as her fingers came to close around the girth of Delphine's wrist. She moved it towards her waiting heat.
"I need to feel you" the dreaded woman whispered.
Delphine nodded and complied, gasping at the feeling of her wife's vulva against her fingers.
Cosima's hand slipped up Delphine's arm to grab her bicep as the sweet contact of familiar fingers ran through her cunt lips. She gasped and tensed at the intensity of the sensation.
The blonde's mouth hung open. No matter how many times she touched Cosima, she was always surprised and in awe at how amazing it felt. The warm wetness of velvet skin against her finger tips was beautiful. It was so sweetly divine that she knew if there was a god, then she must be a woman.
With mouth still agape, Delphine met her wife's eyes. She felt Cosima tug at her underwear in question and she nodded, a moment later, feeling the material slide off her legs. She parted her thighs slightly and shuddered at the contact against her own heated core.
Lips found each other again and each woman started the gentle teasing of each other that they knew would escalate rather quickly. But for now, they took their time enjoying the sensations that accompanied being so close and so naked and so very married.
Cosima finally hit the point where she wanted more. She took a quick assessment of how she felt and made the decision to use her new found energy and strength to get on top of Delphine.
"Cosima, what are you…?" Delphine started.
"I'm okay. I want to do this. I want to have you like this" the brunette whispered to her wife.
Delphine smiled and nodded, reaching up to cup Cosima's cheek in her palm and smooth over the skin she found there with her thumb. After a moment, she guided the brunette's lips down to meet her own as she felt Cosima's hand dip down to collect some of the wetness her body had produced only to rub it over the entirety of her cunt.
"Mmmm…I am going to need you inside of me soon" Delphine whispered, letting her lips glide over Cosima's as she spoke.
"I was hoping so" the brunette replied, deepening the kiss.
Cosima replaced her hand on Delphine with her thigh as she moved up to pal the perfect round weight of the blonde's breast.
Delphine gasped, finding that all of this teasing had caused that part of her body to be extra sensitive. She poured against her wife's thigh.
"Mmm. You feel so good, Delphine" Cosima whimpered as she kissed the blonde's neck.
"I am very sensitive it seems" the doctor replied, her hands running up and down the smaller woman's back.
Cosima smiled, taking that information and lowering her face to do a little more with it.
Delphine knew what Cosima was about to do and her back was already arching in anticipation "Mon Dieu, ma femme!" she cried, slightly chuckling.
Cosima chuckled in response and kissed the soft flesh of her wife's breast, avoiding the nipple that had very quickly become erect.
Delphine ached for her wife's mouth where she needed it. She took a handful of dreads and squeezed, her other hand rubbing down Cosima's back as her body responded intensely to not only the sensations Cosima was causing, but also to the knowledge that this woman who was making love to her was now her wife. It felt different somehow. She couldn't really explain it, but it felt so much warmer than usual.
As her mind started to drift in to why it felt different, Delphine was snapped back by Cosima's tongue finally circling her nipple. She jumped and yelped at the intensity of it.
Cosima stopped and looked up at her with wide eyes "You okay?"
Delphine nodded and laughed "That was…intense. Keep going" she urged.
The brunette smile and leaned up for a quick kiss. She moved back to the nipple and flicked her tongue over it, dragging it's width over the puckered flesh slowly. She felt Delphine shudder and reached down with her now free hand to play in the new wetness the blonde had expressed thanks to her ministrations.
Cosima sucked the nipple in to her mouth and felt the delicious rise of Delphine's lower back as she arched. She could hear Delphine's fast breathing and that mixing with the overabundance of wetness collected between her thighs, she had a new craving.
Delphine could feel her hips starting to buck as her body demanded release. She felt Cosima's mouth leave her nipple and cover her own. She whimpered into the brunette's mouth and broke it to communicate her need.
"I want your tongue on me" she whispered, staring Cosima in the eye.
Cosima chuckled "I was just thinking that. Your wish is my command" the brunette whispered back with a smile before she scaled down the long body and gently opened Delphine's knees.
Delphine let out a breathy exhale as she followed her wife's lead and spread her legs, letting the smaller woman lie between them. She could feel Cosima's breath cause an evaporative cooling effect on the wetness that coated her cunt lips and inner thighs.
And then that tongue reached out and slid up her entire length. The blonde felt her breath hitch at the feeling and her hips drove in to the bed as her hand moved to the back of Cosima's head. She felt her other hand be grasped and opened it to allow her wife to intertwine their fingers.
Cosima's tongue moved skillfully and knowingly along Delphine's body. The young scientist knew this woman inside and out. Sucking hanging cunt lips into her mouth and eliciting a gasp, she smiled.
Delphine's belly was slowly building with the familiar sensations of an impending orgasm. She could feel the delicious growth of the warm sparking tension in her abs. Cosima's tongue found her clit and she jumped, squeezing the brunette's hand. Mon Dieu was Cosima good at this.
The blonde lifted her ankles off the bed, draping her long legs over Cosima's shoulders and tilting her hips up to give her wife better access to all of her.
Cosima welcomed the new angle, it giving her a better vantage point from which to suck Delphine's entire vulva in to her mouth, which she of course did. Delphine tasted better than usual today. Her usual sweet tang was laced with notes of honey and a tartness Cosima had only ever tasted on her wife. She could feel Delphine getting close. She wanted to make this last though and so she slowed, letting Delphine's lips out of her mouth as she looked up at her wife.
"Do you want me inside?" Cosima asked, rubbing the now quivering belly right above her head.
Delphine nodded "Mon Dieu, yes. But I want your lips up here" she expressed.
Cosima obliged, moving up her wife's body to kiss her as two fingers pressed against the excessively wet entry. They slid in easily and the brunette was rewarded with a moan from her wife. She felt it reverberate through her own mouth as Delphine's hips bucked to take more of her fingers in. Finally Cosima was knuckle deep in her wife.
"You feel so fucking good, Delphine. Fuck. I will never get over how amazing this feels with you" she whispered, kissing the corner of her wife's mouth.
"Mon Dieu, Cosima. Please, make love to me" she begged, her thigh shaking with need. She wrapped her hands around the back of the brunette' neck and pulled her in to a deep, passionate kiss full of need.
Cosima slowly dragged her fingers out, feeling not only them coat in the thick cream that Delphine was now producing, but get gripped hard by her wife's cunt walls. Her clit twitched at the feeling and she knew that she was drenched and swollen. She slowly pushed back in and was rewarded with a gasp and yet another back arch from her wife. She slipped her free hand into the free space the arching of Delphine's back created between her body and the bed and let the warmth of her palm press to her wife's lower back.
Delphine felt surrounded by Cosima. The deliciously sweet and torturously slow tug and shove of the brunette's fingers fucking her was causing everything in her to tense and tremble. Every inch of her skin was so sensitive. Cosima's hand on her lower back was so warm and so stable. She felt shocks jump through her body between her wife's fingers inside of her and the hand on her back.
The blonde's lips stopped moving as she felt herself teeter on the edge. Her nails dug into Cosima's back as her legs wrapped around the smaller woman's waist. Her hips pulsed as the sensation in her stomach grew. Everything was so intense. It was like someone had turned the volume up on her emotions and sensations.
She erupted in a series of escalating shockwaves that cause white lights to dance behind her closed eyes.
Cosima felt the death grip Delphine had on her shoulders and pulsed gently inside of her. She felt the wetness of the blonde's tears on her neck as their kiss was broken and her wife buried her face into her neck. Delphine was grinding herself on the two fingers buried inside of her.
"Let it all go, Delphine. I've got you. Ride it out. Experience every moment of this" Cosima purred into her wife's ear.
The words and tickle of Cosima's voice in her ear caused the fluttering in her stomach to intensify and her orgasm rise. Nothing had ever felt this exquisite. The fingers inside of her caused a white hot streak of lightning to surge through her body. She knew she was crying, how could she not?
Cosima felt her own tears sting her eyes. The intensity at which she knew Delphine was currently cumming radiated off her wife in waves and penetrated the brunette's skin. The grip of Delphine's orgasm, causing a slow eclipse of a beating heat in Cosima's body. Her heart fluttered and she reached behind her back to grab one of Delphine's hands, bringing it to her cunt. She needed to feel this, she needed to join her wife in the sweetest surrender and merging of their bodies.
Delphine felt her hand being guided. She didn't know how it was possible that she was still cumming, but she was. Her hands met Cosima's vulva and she felt the brunette push all fingers but two into her palm before placing the two remaining ones to her entrance.
"Please" the brunette whimpered.
Delphine took control, pressing in to her wife's cunt. She shook as the feeling of her fingers sliding through slick folds to reach even slicker walls and push past a myriad of ridges took her own orgasm to the next level.
Cosima moaned and let her breath fill her lungs and escape in short gasps as the build-up of Delphine's earth shattering orgasm came crashing down around her.
The blonde smiled as she felt Cosima join her and they released together. She used her hand to pull her in close and kiss her desperately.
They writhed in each other's arms, bodies sweaty and sliding against each other as their simultaneous orgasms took control of the moment. They kissed sloppily and lazily, neither able to fully concentrate on anything beyond the explosion of psychosomatic sensations coursing through their linked bodies.
Nothing had ever been so sweet.
Nothing had ever been so intense.
Nothing had ever been so perfect.
With one final shudder, they both wound down.
They both breathed hard.
Their hearts beat fast, kissing through their skin.
Lips dragged lazily over each other.
Tears merged and danced over cheeks pressed tightly together.
Hearts melted in chests as bodies recovered.
Cosima was the first to open her eyes. She watched Delphine's face as her wife attempted to recover her connection to reality. She leaned in and kissed a wet cheek.
Delphine smiled when she felt Cosima's soft, plump lips on her face. She opened her eyes and met the only ones she'd ever need to look into. She felt so safe and so loved and so secure. She leaned in, softly dragging her lips across Cosima's in the laziest of kisses, broken after a short time as she hugged Cosima close.
"Wow" Cosima whispered to her, running a hand up and down the dip of Delphine's spine as they laid intertwined.
Delphine nodded and closed her eyes, melting into the embrace. She felt Cosima's fingers wiggle inside of her still and laughed.
"Just checking that I still had feeling in them" Cosima informed her partner.
"Do you?" Delphine asked.
"Nope. And I don't care" the brunette replied, kissing her wife's forehead.
They stayed in the embrace, enjoying the afterglow and the serenity that came with it. Until Delphine kissed Cosima's temple and slowly pulled away.
"I have to pee" she whispered, giggling.
"I guess I have to untangle from you then, huh?" Cosima realized, scrunching her face in disproval.
Delphine pouted "I will be right back" she reassured.
"Fine. But you owe me like a million kisses" the brunette replied.
Delphine chuckled and left another kiss on Cosima's jawline "I do not think that, that will be a problem."
Cosima untangled herself from her wife, pulling out of her and rolling onto her back. She felt Delphine slip out of her as well and sighed at the tingling in her belly. She was kissed quickly before she felt Delphine's weight leave the bed.
The brunette stared at the ceiling, bringing an arm up to drape across her forehead as she smiled. She could not believe that this was her life. She heard Delphine in the bathroom and her smile grew.
Her mind went back to the blonde in her wedding dress. That first sight she'd gotten of Delphine would be with her forever. She inhaled deeply and slowly, thankful for the few moments she'd gotten today without her cannula. She knew she should put it back on, but she wanted to enjoy this.
Her body felt incredible. She smiled at the deeply satisfied bubble in her chest. Everything was still tingling.
Cosima felt Delphine's weight on the bed again and smiled.
"Hey babe, help me put my cannula back on?" the young scientist asked.
Delphine put a hand to her wife's belly "Are you feeling okay?" she asked.
Cosima smiled and nodded "Yeah. I just want to make sure I can cash in on those million kisses" she whispered.
The blonde chuckled and reached for the tubing on the nightstand. She draped herself over Cosima's body to reach the tank, turning on the valve. She brought the tube to her wife's face, placing it lovingly around her ears and gently inserting the tubes into Cosima's nose. She kissed the brunette's cheeks one at a time.
"Mind if I clean you up?" the blonde asked.
Cosima laughed and shook her head "Of course not. You know it's my favourite part" she reminded her wife.
Delphine smiled and nodded, leaving a quick peck on the brunette's lips before she lowered herself to lay between her legs.
The blonde moaned at the scent. She salivated in anticipation, getting closer and running her tongue over the very swollen lips of Cosima's vulva. She collected all the wetness she could, slipping between folds and lapping eagerly at everything left over from their lovemaking.
Cosima moaned at the overwhelmingly loving sensation that this always gave her. Delphine's tongue exploring every inch of her sensitive vulva was pure bliss. But what she really loved was the after clean up kiss.
Delphine finished, savoring every last drop before she moved up her wife's body and ran her tongue over her lips. She giggled, watching as Cosima stuck her tongue out and took the remnants off her wife's tongue. She pressed her lips to Cosima's and smiled into the kiss.
Cosima sighed happily, returning the exchange as she felt Delphine take hold of her hands on either side of her head. After she'd enjoyed every last taste, she broke the kiss and felt the exhaustion slide over her.
Delphine felt the change in her partner and smiled "Sleepy?" she asked.
Cosima nodded "Very much so" she responded.
The blonde nodded and pulled the duvet over them. She reached for the remote and turned off the light, snuggling up to Cosima's chest. Her hand palmed a breast, gently massaging it and enjoying the feeling as she looked up and kissed her wife.
Delphine broke the kiss and nuzzled their noses together.
"Today was the best day I've ever had" Cosima whispered in the darkness.
The blonde nodded and smiled "Moi aussi, mon amour. Me too, my love."
"Let's have more like it" the brunette replied.
"Everyday" Delphine whispered.
Cosima sighed and leaned down, kissing Delphine quickly "I love you, Delphine."
"Je t'aime aussi Cosima" the doctor replied.
Cosima rubbed her wife's back, loving the feeling of Delphine being curled up to her like this. It was so warm and so comfy. Their bed felt softer than it ever had. Delphine felt more perfect than ever. She still couldn't get over how happy she was, and despite her want to stay up and make love all night long, she was exhausted and she knew Delphine was as well.
They could always continue this in the morning after a good night's sleep. MMmm…breakfast in bed. She wondered if anyone would deliver to them naked in bed and chuckled at that idea.
"What is so funny?" Delphine asked, half asleep already. She rubbed Cosima's shaking belly.
"Do you they'll deliver a pizza to us naked in bed?" she asked.
"I think that if we get the right pizza guy, he'd not only deliver it to us, but would consider it his tip" Delphine joked in a sleepy voice.
Cosima laughed and nodded, running her hands through Delphine's hair.
"But we could also ask Alison to do it and laugh about that reaction for years to come" the blonde suggested.
"You are so bad, Dr. Cormier. And I love it" Cosima noted and punctuated it with a yawn.
Delphine patted a boob "Sleepy Cosima."
"Happy, sleepy Cosima" the dreaded woman replied. She yawned again "Goodnight, Delphine. I love you."
Delphine moved her head up to kiss the brunette "Bon soir, Cosima. Je t'aime aussi."
Delphine was fast asleep a moment later, snoring ever so gently against the brunette's chest. Cosima smiled and ran her fingers through her sleeping wife's hair.
Yeah, this was happiness.
Delphine's eyes fluttered open and she smiled, realizing that she was still snuggled up to her wife's chest. She could hear the steady, even breathing beneath her, permeated with that rasp that was uniquely Cosima's lungs.
She stretched and looked up. The brunette was still fast asleep. Delphine watched the serenity of her face for a moment before she leaned over her wife to check the oxygen tank's level. She still had another hour before it ran out.
The blonde took the time to prop herself up on an elbow, running a hand gently over Cosima's torso, simply enjoying the feeling of her skin as she drew lazy circles on her wife's tummy.
After fifteen minutes, she couldn't resist dropping a kiss on Cosima's cheek. She expected her wife's eyes to flutter open like they usually did, but when she pressed her lips to the warm skin, there was no reaction.
Delphine looked at her oddly. She ran a hand over Cosima's cheek.
"Cosima?" she whispered.
She gulped, moving her hand to her wife's shoulder and she gave the smaller woman a bit of a shake.
"Come on mon amour, let's order that breakfast. I will call Alison" she joked.
She waited, a realization setting in. She panted as the tears came and her mouth hung open, a hand coming up to over it.
"Cosima?"
A/N: Yeah. This one's late. It is also much longer than anticipated. I'm so sorry that I've been terrible at proofreading lately. I want to get these chapters up on time and am guessing that you guys would rather getting them quicker with more errors, than later with less.
I know, all the feels this chapter. I don't really have much to say about it.
I super appreciate all of you joining me on this roller coaster of a journey through this story. All of your comments, reviews, messages, kudos, and reads mean the world to me and keep encouraging me to be brave in putting this out there. These are emotions and worries that I have in everyday life. One of my biggest worries and fears is losing the woman I love. I frequently think about that day and wonder if all of the happy memories we make will be worth that kind of pain. I did not even realize it was working out like this, but this fic is allowing me to explore these feelings. So it's as much an emotional project for me as it is a creative and passionate one.
See you in the comments and/or next week.