Author's note: Hi guys i know it has been almost a year since I continued this story or any of them to be honest. I dont expect you to be happy with me but let me tell you everything that has been going on or at least a bit.
I moved back to my home town in Texas. I was a long time with no computer and it was difficult to update on my phone. I had a hard time adjusting for I am completely alone and with responsibilities I was not ready for. Anywho, I was in a dark place already because things weren't going as planned but in all of this mess I found the love of my life… or so i thought.
It was amazing. We were together at work (we work together) after work and every chance we had. I would do everything in my power to be with him. I sneaked him in to my room, I would sneak out and spend the night with him. It was like a movie where you do all kinds of crazy stuff for love.
It was amazing at first as every relationship right? We went to so many places and experienced so many things for the first time. It was perfect. Up until this last month at least. He started to distance himself from me and not in the way he would be short and give me less attention Little by Little… he ignored me for a week and a half, one day to another. I tried talking to him but never did I get a response. After this he started talking to me more because I found out I was pregnant. He said he missed me and my laugh… stuff like that. Since I was mad in love with this young man (he is 2 years younger than me, 19) I went back to him. Of course, if i had known he was back together with his ex girlfriend (who was also pregnant the first month of our relationship and then had an abortion) I would have never came back. Things were going great though he was being suspicious. I'm in love with this guy and there came a point I did not care who he was with as long as his heart belonged to me, I still feel this way. Worst mistake of my life.
A few weeks later I miscarried and it caused me to fall in a deep depression. He was there to comfort me and help me clean and finally start eating again but he was still with her. Today she called me because she found out he was playing us both. When she told me I had just gotten to work and it wasn't good. I had one of the worst anxiety attacks I've ever had (I suffer from anxiety) I started hyperventilating until I had to be carried out by one of my co workers unconcsious. Right now he is on a school trip to Europe… with her… and I'm here waiting for these ten days to pass so I can finally ask him. I dont know what to do honestly. I gave this guy everything. He was my first in everything and I dont know if I should leave him and not lose my dignity by fighting and making a scene or to ignore I ever found this out and live like we are okay.
Anyways… that is like a small part of all the bullshit I had going on. I am thinking in turning all the things I've gone through into a story on here. I dont know… would you guys like to read it? I'm sure you will all relate. Let me know! Anyways, I'm back on here you guys so expect this story to be continued real soon!
Thank you so much for your patience.
Xoxo
Daniela