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We sat in comfortable silence for sometime with my head on his shoulder and his head on mine, still holding hands. Neither of us talked, we didn't need to, simply having my Danna with my and by my side was enough.
Some children and their parents showed up ruining the silence. So we both got up and started walking away "Where should we go, un?" I asked.
"How about your place? Whenever I get a hotel room I don't end up using it anyway. I'm always at yours, Shikamaru's, Kiba's, or Neji's place, now that he lives here." He said.
I nodded in agreement I didn't know Neji because he just moved here but he was friends with Sasori-danna, I blushed a little when I thought about his words.
"Aww, Dei you're so cute, we've been together since middle school, you don't need to be embarrassed about it." He said.
"I know we have but still. Its just that hearing it out loud makes it sound so... dirty." I spoke quietly. He chuckled and we kept walking.
About 30 minutes later we got to my apartment but decided to go visit our friend Kabuto because both Sasori and her were in town at the same time, which didn't happen often.
We were almost there when we saw Kabuto's boyfriend walking toward us. I waved at him and smiled. "Hi, Orochimaru. How are you"
"Umm okay I guess. We got into a fight so I left." He said slightly panicked. I noticed he was acting fidgety and over all anxious and paranoid. "So who is this?" He stated gesturing towards Danna.
"Ohh, sorry I forgot you haven't meet yet, this is Sasori-danna and Danna that's Orochimaru." I said. Sasori just nodded and Orochimaru did the same.
"Well I should go now, I might see you later." He said. We all head off to our destination, when I suddenly heard a gunshot. I looked to my side to see Sasori-danna on the ground bleeding. I got down on my knees and looked for Orochimaru but didn't see him any where. I put his head on my lap, pulled out my phone and called 911.
-End Flashback-
"I don't remember what happened after that other than bright lights until we got to the hospital" I said while crying and gripping the blanket as hard as I could.
-Continue Flashback-
We arrived at the hospital and doctors were rushing toward Sasori to take him to surgery. I'm crying and clinging to him as much as I could.
Shikamaru and Neji were at the hospital because he was Sasori's emergency contacts. He ran up to me when the doctor shout to get me away from him. He grabbed my waist and pulled on me as hard as he could.
I began to kick and scream out at him "Let me go! He's hurt! I need to Go!"
He refused to let go so, I struggled even more. Some one with long brown hair came over and helped him keep me still.
"Deidara, you know you'll only get in their way if you go right now!" Shikamaru yelled at me
I suddenly came to a realization 'He was right I can't do anything for him. After all of we've been through together I still can't do anything.'
My body went limp and the images of my Danna's bloody body on the ground were running through my mind. I started crying harder and grabbed the person closest to my reach (N/A -in this story that happened to be Neji) and cried into his chest.
I passed out from exhaustion and woke up in Shikamaru's arms on a double seat in the waiting room.
"I see you're awake." He said soothingly and probably trying to not make me cry any more.
I nodded and started crying again, at some point I ended up clothing his shirt and straddling his lap unconsciously. It was some time before a nurse walked in.
"Deidara, Shikamaru, and Neji?" She asked looking for us.
I shifted out of his lap and somehow stood up and walked over to her. I couldn't hear what she was saying, I was too worried about Sasori.
Shikamaru nudged me forward to fallow the nurse and I obed and followed her through a maze of halls.
We reached the room and she opened the door. My heart stopped, there were several machines in the room and tubes and needles sticking out of his body.
I walked in and sat in a chair decide him, I grabbed his hand and he woke up.
"Hey guys." He whispered. I started to cry again, he sounded so weak. "Thank you Shikamaru, Neji for everything. You're my best friends, and I couldn't be here without you." He paused and looked at me. "Can I speak with her alone?"
They both left the room and closed the door behind them.
"I love you, and you know that but, I don't know if I'll be here much longer.I wanted to say sorry for all I put you through. I-"
I cut him off before he could say anything else "You didn't do anything, I put myself in that situation, not you. You even tried to push me away from you." I shook my head and cried more.
He lifted his hand and wiped away my tears. "Don't cry. You're too beautiful for tears, love"
My tears suddenly stopped and my eyes went wide. The only other time he has ever called me love is when his grandma made him move to England with her and left for 2 years before he came back to visit.
"No, don't call me that. You left last time you did. You'll make it through this, you need to. We still haven't gotten married like we planned to. We haven't had a family yet. You can't leave yet... I love you. You can't die yet." By the end of my sentences I was crying as hard as I could.
"I know we haven't made what we planned... but I'm actually here to look for a house with you if you were okay with it." He paused "Granny died so there was nothing to keep me there anymore."
I gave a sad smile and kissed him lightly and started singing our song, "Your a mess, tingled with your confidence."
He continued the song, "You think you haven't sinned."
We both sang the rest of the song together " Well you're unstoppable, your walls are impassible.
Oh, I think that you're better off looking alone,
'Cause the boys that chase your hips can just go find their way home.
And at the end of the day you think to yourself,
"My body is a product being sold on a shelf."
Tell me I can change,
Tell me I can change.
Well, I know you lay in bed,
Contemplating your own death.
Well, just look at what you've done.
Don't you dare forget the sun, love!
(Don't forget!)
Cold white walls, keep you from your pad and pen.
You just wanna stab again.
I can't believe it's half this hard,
You never knew your mind was dark, no!
Well, I think you're better off looking alone,
'Cause the boys that chase your hips can just go find their way home.
You can dig so deep for scars,
You never knew your mind was dark.
Come on and breathe with me, oh!
Breathe with me, oh!
Well, I know you lay in bed,
Contemplating your own death.
Well, just look at what you've done.
Don't you dare forget the sun, love!
You look down on, me so casually,
In everything I know.
You look down on me, but not right on me.
Did I wreck this broken home?
Dear diary,
Life is trying me.
Can I get a sign?
Or a two of mine, a piece of mind.
Can I get a sign? (a sign)
Can I get a sign? (I know)
Well, I know you lay in bed,
Contemplating your own death.
Well, just look at what you've done.
Don't you dare forget the sun, love!
You look down on, me so casually,
In everything I know.
You look down on me, but not right on me.
Is it plain to see, that life is trying me?
Ohh, life is trying me!
Life is trying.
Can I think of something?
Gotta think of something!"
At the end of the song the heart rate monitor stopped and my Danna died.
-End Flashback-
I was crying the entire time I told the story and felt sick.
Neji was at my side trying to keep his composure. I noticed a tear escape his eyes, which he quickly wiped away.
No one knew what to say, I'm sure that's not what they thought I was going to say.
Neji blinked and put his hand over mine, "Would you like us to come back tomorrow?" He asked. He knew how much it must have hurt to say all of that.
I shook my head, "No, the rest is pretty simple to get through." I sighed.
Tsunade took my other hand reassuringly and nodded to me.
"After that I killed myself, but was brought back to life." I showed them my wrists. "And I was put on suicide watch for a few months. After I wasn't any more I went out and got as drunk as I could."
I shook my head lightly and chucked "That's the night I meet the Akatsuki."
Everyone paused for a moment "The Akatsuki... you mean THE Akatsuki?" Naruto asked.
I wasn't surprised they had heard of them, they were after all an infamous gang. "Yes, that is what I mean, un." I blushed a little. "I do kinda feel bad about how I meet them though, yeah."
They all got a confused look, "How did you meet them?" Gaara asked.
I sighed lightly, "I uhh... slept with one of the members. But I was drunk, depressed, and wanted to forget everything that happened." I explained. "So after that I was basically adopted by them, they don't judge me for what I do and I don't judge them... well except Hidan but that's because he's a Jashinist and I'm satanic, yeah." I said completely seriously.
They all nodded slowly, surprised on how I can talk about them so easily. "Okay so then what happened" Naruto asked kind of excited.
"About a week after that I meet on of the members little brother. You saw him earlier. He is in fact my supplier of sorts, being detectives I'm sure you can figure out what it is he supplies."
They all nodded, "we understand." Neji said.
I nodded and continued, "I eventually started doing 'services' for the members and some others and they would give me money and I would use most of the money on that substance. Eventually I had owed some people money and was sent to a rehab of sorts by a friend."
I signed to calm myself before continuing, "After I got out Karin Uzumaki, The uh... suppliers girlfriend. Kidnapped me, then after I woke up I was injected with something and the long hours of torture began."
I swallowed and tried not to vomit at what I was about to say next. Neji noticed my slight panic and ran his thumb across the back of my hand.
I looked down and continued once more, "After about 2 weeks of off and on torture, she blindfolded me then I got... Umm got..." I froze. I couldn't bring myself to say it, I still want to deny it happened.
"I know how hard it is to say, I know what you mean, you don't have to say it." Naruto said calmly.
I nodded slowly. "If you don't mind, I would like to sleep now." They all nodded and started walking out the door. "Thank you, for the juice, Naruto, Gaara."
They both nodded and everyone left the room.
I layed back down and fell asleep.
_ time lapse _
I woke up about an hour later, sweating and breathing heavy from a nightmare I can't remember. I calmed myself down and closed my eyes.
There was a knock at the door and I looked over. Tobi, Itachi, Konan, and pein were standing there. I tried to speak and tell them to come in but my throat was too dry and it simply cracked instead so, I closed my mouth.
Konan and tobi rushed in when they saw I was trying to speak but couldn't, Pein walked to the cafeteria to get some water, and Itachi just stood for a moment before walking in.
"Deidara-zempi, tobi was worried about you, where have you been? What happened to my zempi?" Tobi whined.
"Tobi stop asking so many questions. Deidara will be fine, she'll heal fast and will come home soon." Konan lectured. "Now will you tell us what 'damage has been done to you when Pein comes back?"
I nodded my head yes and heard Itachi sigh. I reached my hand out and motioned him to my side. He complied and walked over. I grabbed his hand and smiled lightly at him.
" Did... did he agree to your plan?" He asked quietly, putting his head down.
Pein walked in the room and handed me a bottle of water. I gratefully took it and drank nearly half of it and set it on the floor.
"Thank you, To answer your question yes, as long as his little 'friend' doesn't get hurt." I said calmly. He nodded in understanding, "I know how you must feel, but it was his choice and I promise I'll do everything I can to make sure he's not hurt either, yeah." I stated sympathetically.
He got a confused look on his face, "How would you know? You don't have any 'real' family.
I was taken back by his bluntness but not surprised at what he said. "I did have sisters, but they're... gone now, un." I whispered. Konan started crying, because she knew that if I hadn't told her no one else knew and I hadn't said anything about it.
"Why didn't you tell me? I... I could've..." She said whipping the tears from her eyes.
"It wouldn't have done any good. They're gone, un. There's nothing me or anyone else can do about it, yeah." I stated coldly and snapped slightly at the last sentence. She finished wiping her tears stayed silent.
Pein cleared his throat breaking the silence, "Now then, would you tell us what's wrong with you?" He asked slightly annoyed that he had to wait.
"Ohh, yeah... When I first got here to had parts of organs removed, stabs, cuts, broken ribs, punctured lung(s), a whole organ removed,... Ohh umm, lots of stitches, I also had a concussion, along with blood loss, starvation and dehydration, yeah." I said bluntly.
Everyone was slightly surprised at my sayings. I stared back blanky at everyone, "Un?... You all know how fast I heal, yeah. You also know how crazy that bitch who did this to me." I stated harshly.
Itachi caught that I avoided using her actual name and gave a look of understanding. "If you need us call, but we have to go for now." Pein stated. I wasn't surprised, he always had things to do.
"I will don't worry, I'll be fine." I said mostly talking to Konan.
"Awwww, but Pein-sama Tobi wants to stay." Tobi whined, my eye twitched slightly at how annoying he is.
"Tobi, won't zetsu and the others miss you?" I questioned trying to get him out of the room.
"Ohh, Deidara-zempi is right. I know, I'll come back tomorrow to visit." Tobi said happily.
"Bye, well see you tomorrow." Konan said leaving with Pein and Tobi.
"Please be careful." Itachi said, gesturing towards my plan for 'Karen'. I nodded and he left closing the door behind him. I felt thirsty again so I drank the rest of the water and went to sleep soon after.
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sooooooo... Sorry for the late up I was in washington for a wedding. Anyway hope you enjoyed :p