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Chapter 3
The third and final reason.
As the blood weeps from my arm I find my thoughts on naraku again. He as all I can think about anymore the only reason I want to continue on is to think about him but it's getting to my breaking point. The blood is still working but not removing the loneliness of my heart anymore. My friends….. They left me. I'm completely alone now. There is no one. They think I'm sick and need help but I refuse it I don't want it I hate the thought of it makes me sick and I want to cut again. Slowly I walk down the halls. I can hear my old friends laughing. And as pass them I hear them sigh I close my eyes and feel myself stopped. I'm somehow on the ground.
I had run into kouga.
"Watch were you're going you stupid little emo freak."
I stood and ran to the top floor. Kikyou calling after my retreating form. The last straw just pulled.
I took this every day and it was getting old. I couldn't take this much longer. I don't want to.
Seeing as how it wasn't going to stop I would have to stop this myself. I can't hold on.
I want naraku. I want my life. I want this to end. I want…. To be free. But for true freedom it never comes. For this to end, it won't. If I want my life I must start again. And for naraku I will see him again in the next few hours.
But as kikyou catches up I feel faint she doesn't yell at me as she holds me to her … no …. She just cry's with me.
"Kagome. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have abandoned you like I did I should have stayed and helped. When naraku died I should have told you. Kagome he had told me what dad had done to you. I'm so sorry for what happened."
I cried louder. He had cared so much and I was the one who left him alone in the dark.
I ran again as I reached the first floor. Running home from this life. Want this life over with.
Taking the knife I raise it to the inside of my elbow and drag it down in deep gashes. Then the other side.
I was going home. The third reason. Cutting may never be enough for some. And it wasn't for me.
( authors note: I wrote this for my best friend swore to write something for and now that I have I want my final promise to let her rest I peace now please let me know what you thought of my friends life)