Don't read if you don't want to be depressed. Sorry. Inspiration strikes sometimes and I can't refuse it.
Nat's POV
Love is for children. I owe him a debt. Her words to Loki. But was that really all it was? Was she marrying him because she thought it would make him happy and she would finally be free of her debt? Did she tell him she would spend the rest of her life with him, just so that she wouldn't have to feel obligated towards him anymore? Was that really all it was? Or was it because everyone had been hinting about it to them for weeks? Just because of all the hype? Hype?! What am I, buying a computer? Oh come on, Nat. Would you really lie to him like that? Just so that he could say that he was the happiest man in the world and the luckiest? Would you really commit to him like that if you didn't believe with all your heart that you actually loved him?
Odin's beard, I hope not. Odin's beard?! What the-? I've been talking to Thor too much. Ever since Coulson- No Nat. Not now. They had been getting ever closer since- recently. The past month had been, well, she had to be honest. It had been nice. She knew Barton- Clint better than anyone. But she had learned a lot about him, almost more than she wanted to know. But it was more than knowing him. It was more like… being part of him. They were like… what was the saying? Like peanut butter and jelly. Never one without the other. Even though they hadn't even gone on a date.
Woah. That was weird. Natasha never thought she'd hear herself talking about dating someone. Especially Barton. They had always been partners. But that was it. Partners that, well, became friends because it just happened, and not because they especially wanted to. They got to know each other so well, that it was only right they confide in each other occasionally. But when Clint had proposed, she was flattered, and after all she loved him, but in what way? As a brother? A father? A spouse? She had said yes, in her worst moments, only because she couldn't say no, and she could remove her debt to him. In her best moments, because she wouldn't mind spending the rest of her life with him, at the least, and at the most, she knew she loved him. Just not how she loved him. Her best moments, as it happened, were whenever she was with him. Her worst, when she wasn't. She couldn't decide.
Normally, she would go to him for help. But she couldn't, now. Not about this. Who then? Steve? No, he was clueless when it came to women. Bruce? Er…. No. Tony? God forbid. Thor? Ha. As if he could help. She was suddenly struck by a revelation. She had been so used to confiding in Clint and Coulson, she had completely forgotten she needn't always ask a guy about her problems. She had two wonderful women right there, just waiting to be asked for advice. Wonderful women?! Since when do you talk like that, Nat? She sighed, stood up, and left the room she was occupying in Stark Towers.
They were all gathered there for the time being, since the wedding was to be held in Central Park. She found Pepper and Jane lounging in the living room, chatting.
"Where are the guys?" Pepper and Jane looked up, startled. They still weren't used to her popping up without warning.
"Oh, they're downstairs at the big-screen TV watching football." Pepper informed her.
"All of them?" Natasha was incredulous.
"Yep. Even Steve." Replied Jane.
"Wow." Natasha was impressed. She swallowed. "So, can I ask you guys some advice?"
"Of course!" They exclaimed in unision. She sat down next to Pepper.
"Well, it's like this…"
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