I'M NOT THAT EVIL SO I'M NOT GOING TO LET YOU WAIT FOR THIS CHAPTER. IT WAS A BIT HARD TO WRITE AND I CRIEDLIKE A BABY I HOPE YOU CAN FEEL WHAT I FELT WHILE WRITING IT. FOR THOSE OF YOU HOW HAVE LOST A LOVED ONE THIS WAY I'M SORRY I'VE BEEN THROUGH SOMETHING SIMILAR.

SO THERE ARE PICS AND SHIT ON MY PROFILE.

AND REMEMBER NOBODY ON HERE OWNS ANYTHING SO TWILIGHT ISN'T MINE NOR THE LYRICS THAT I'VE POSTED.

CHAPTER 6

After making Edward sit on the couch and texting Angie asking her where she was, I headed to my room to get the photo albums and the Kleenex I had in my bathroom. As I headed to the living room Angie text back and told me that she was staying with Ben her sweet and nerdy boyfriend. They're perfect for each other.

"Edward do you want something to drink?" I asked him as I headed to the kitchen for the glass of water I'd me needing if I was going to cry tonight.

"Um sure, do you have beer?" He asked.

"Yeah." I said grabbing my water and Edward's beer.

I had changed into my pj's and out of my dress so that if I fell asleep I would at least do it feeling comfortable.

When I entered the living room Edward is looking at the books that I left there last night there after reading a few chapter.

"Here you go." I say giving him the beer and he thanked me.

After getting my books in order, I give Edward the album and I put the Kleenex next to me.

"Is this going to explain who you are Bella and why you are always so sad?" He said with sadness in his eyes.

"Yes, open the album." And he did it. The first picture was a 5 year old Kristine holding a 3 week old Bella. I laughed because I had the weirdest hair ever.

"That's me 3 weeks old and my 5 year old sister, Kristine." I whisper and he continued to pass the pages of the album slowly and looking at every picture like he was looking for something. "You see I was this little devil next to my sister but she was the best sister ever. I really loved her… I still do." I said looking far away into memories.

"She always told me everything and when I say everything its everything. She told me she had had sex for the first time after doing it. I was 14 at the time it was just gross but she told me everything. And we were inseparable." I had started crying by now.

"February 7th, 2004 we went to an exclusive concert that was invite only and her boyfriend at the time Jacob who happens to be my best friend had 3 invitations to go and he gave then to us but he never made it, he was too busy with college; so we both made excuses to mom and dad to go, I told them I was having a sleep over with Angela and Kris told them she was going to La Push where Jake lives and we went together. Best concert ever, it was good and I got to meet my idol Sharon den Adel, she's a mezzo-soprano like me. So during the concert Kris had a few drinks and so she was a bit tipsy but she could still drive. It was really late and there was a storm falling so I started to worry but she didn't listen and she started driving really fast. I told her to lower the speed but she didn't and suddenly she lost control of the car and we crashed. A month later on her birthday, March 23, I woke up in a hospital bed. Mom and Dad were there but Kris wasn't. The doctors told me that it was a miracle that I was alive because during the crash, I broke my scull and they had to do very intensive surgery to repair the damage, I also had multiple mayor fractures in my legs, my spine was so badly harmed that it would be a miracle if I could walk again. And having said that, I couldn't even imagine in what share Kris was when she passed away. Even when they told me she died from the impact but I couldn't believe she was dead. The worst part of it was seeing Jake because I was actually helping him with everything so that he could propose to Kris on her birthday. He came that day and we both cried so hard that the doctors had to sedate me." I couldn't speak anymore because I was crying so hard; I couldn't even breathe.

"Bella please you don't have to tell me all this," he started saying but I interrupted. "Yes I do Edward because I need to go forward and I can't keep this pain in me no more, I just can't." I said grabbing a Kleenex and blowing my nose.

"Ok, but Bella please don't cry anymore it pains me to see you like this." He said grabbing me and hugging me hard and safely.

"I love Jake and I love Kris but when they first started dating I was jealous because I used to have a crush on him. But then I saw how they looked at each other and I knew that they were in love. It was so sweet but then I's the one that killed their love. Even when I know that it wasn't my fault that she died I feel guilty because I could have done something." I said crying on his shoulder as he rubbed my head.

"After her death I couldn't look at Jake to his face, it was just too painful and after graduating from school I asked Angela if she wanted to live with me in Seattle and go to school together. And that's how I ended up here." I said looking at him. He's so beautiful and sweet. Sign. But I think that if he knows that my sister comes and talks to me in my dreams he will think I'm crazy and run away from me.

"Bella can I ask you something?" He said with a troubled looking on his face.

"Yeah." I said as I blow my nose and cleaned my face again.

"You look so happy in these pictures of you singing and dancing and Angela told me that you singing at the audition was so rare because you haven't sung since you were 16. All I could think about was why do you look so happy here," he said pointing at the picture of me singing when I was 14. "And so sad now when you sing?"

"Because Kris always encouraged me to sing because she loved to hear me do it and she always had my back." I said. I hadn't noticed until now that it had started raining and really hard and I started getting really scared.

"Bella are you ok?" He asks me.

"It's raining, every time it rains this hard I remember everything I lived that night and it's very painful." I said closing my eyes and snuggling into Edward's chest.

"It's ok Bella your safe with me." He said hugging me hard.

I was in a field or rather a meadow with a beautiful black dress. Far away I could see a beautiful blossomed tree and there was somebody there. When I got to the tree what I saw made me smile, it was Kristine in a beautiful white flowing dress and a beautiful white and violet lily behind her ear.

"Hey little sis." She said to me.

"Kris…" I say to her as I run up to her and hug her hard.

"Sis I love you and you should know that it was not your fault I am no longer in the world of the living." She said as she grabbed my hands.

"I know Kris but I feel guilty because I could have made you sit in the passenger seat while I drive." I said.

"Bella you must understand that it was my time to go," she started saying but I interrupted her.

"Did you know that Jake was going to propose?" I said as I saw her face fall with sadness.

"Yes I did but it was too late for me and I was not his soul mate sis, she will come along and you will be jealous of her. And sis do not mess it up with Edward he is a great man and he is here to stay." And she disappeared.

It's morning time now and I'm really warm. I fell asleep with Edward on the couch and he smells so good like some sort of spice and sweetness and something good that I can't put my finger on. I buried my face in his chest and inhaled.

"Are you smelling me?" He said with an amused tone.

"And what if I am?" I said looking up to see his beautiful green emerald color eyes.

"How do I smell?" He asked.

"Great." I said with a blush.

"Come on get up I'll make breakfast." He said with a chuckle as he pulled me with him to go to the kitchen.

We ended up making breakfast together and it felt oddly familiar, like it was meant to be that way. After what I told him last night I thought he would treat me differently but he doesn't and I love it and it makes me happy in a odd way to know that he accepts me the way I am.

"Bella, you there." He says to me as he waves my cell phone to my face. It was ringing. Shit. I grab it and answer it without looking at who it is.

"Hello." I said.

"Bella, sweetheart where are you?" It's my dad.

"Oh, um… dad I'm still home I'm sorry I totally forgot I was coming up today, let me just pack and I'll get on the road." I tell him.

"Oh, ok I was getting worried because you hadn't called yet and you normally do." He said.

"I know dad I'm sorry… um dad would you mind if I come with a friend?" I ask him looking at Edward.

"Guy or girl." He said. Over protective fool my father.

"He's name is Edward dad and I have to go bye, love you." I said as I hung up.

"Would you like to come with?" I ask him.

"To meet your parents? Ok, sure I'd love to." He said with a beautiful crooked smile.

After that Edward said that he was going to go home to pack a few things and to shower. So after he left, I went to my room and started packing what I needed. After my shower I put on a beautiful red, dark blue and white dress with a white jacket and light makeup.

When Edward came back with his stuff, I looked at the way he was dressed for the first and I liked what I saw. He looked good with jeans, Nike shoes and a button down light blue shirt and a black wife beater underneath. He looked good.

"I'm driving Edward so you can park the car in my garage spot in this building." I said to him as we made our way to my car a beautiful black 2011 Volvo C70.

Once he put his car in the parking garage, and we were in my car and that I had started driving did Edward ask me where we were going and of course I told him Forks.

After driving for 3 hours we finally made it to my mom and dad's home and funny thing, it's sunny today. As I get out of the car my mom comes running from the house and crashes into me until we're on the floor and she's laughing while I'm groaning.

"Mom get off." I say to her and as she helps me get off the wet ground.

"Bella sweetie, it's been too long." She says hugging me.

"I know mom but it's only been 2 months." I say to her but before I know it she's next to Edward.

"Well hello, I'm Renee and you are?" She asks him.

"Hello I'm Edward Cullen a friend of Bella it's nice to meet you." He said shaking her hand.

"Bells how are you?" My dad says to me.

"Daddy I've been good, how have you been?" I ask him.

"Good Bells, good." He says as he finally hugs me and whispering to my ear that he has missed me and that he loves me.

As we made our way into the house my mother started interrogating Edward with question about himself. For what I had heard, his family had a house on the outsides of Forks. After that I went to my room and unpacked my bag and put the cloths in the dresser, then I heading to the guest room which used to be Kris' room and I found Edward looking at a picture I thought was lost. The photo was a really old picture of my mom pregnant with me and Kris was hugging the huge belly of my mom's.

"Where did you find that?" I asked as I grabbed the picture from his hands.

"I was going to take a nap and I was adjusting the pillow when that picture fell out of it." He said.

"Thank you, I haven't seen this picture in so long." I said with a single tear rolling down my face.

"Bella please don't cry." Edward said with angst in his voice and he came and hugged me.

"I'll try. You know what we should do; we should go and have a tour of the town so you can get to know it better." I said grabbing his hand but I stopped short when I felt a very nice electric current that made my body tingle and that gave me butterflies in my belly.

"Did you feel that?" Edward asked.

"Yes." I whispered.

"That felt really nice." He said getting closer to me and looking into my eyes. They were amazing and beautiful and they looking into then it were like I'm looking directly into his soul and what I could see of it I love.

Do I love him? No but I sure am falling for him and hard. Would he love me back? I don't think so; I'm way too damaged for him. Why does he look at me like this, like I'm perfect?

"Because you are perfect Bella." He said grabbing my face as if he were going to kiss my lips because he looks at them before letting me go and kissing my cheek leaving a warm and tingling feeling on me.

"Come on Bella, show me your hometown." He says pulling me to the door but then I remember I left my cell phone in my room.

"I'll be right back I need to get my cell before we leave." I said running up the stairs ad in my room and getting my phone.

As I go down the stairs I can see Edward is looking at more pictures. He looks just gorgeous and perfect with his sex hair. I go up to him and blow a raspberry to his neck and he laughs.

"That's not nice B and you know it, especially since I'm the guest." He says.

"Your right but I'm not sorry you face was priceless." And funny thing is he stares at me so intensely that I almost in his beautiful green eyes. He started leaning into me as if going to kiss me but just before he does the bell rings and I have to yell that I would get it.

As I opened the door I tried to figure out who it may be but when I see him my heart fills with sadness.

"Hey Jake." I said as I hugged him.

SO AGAIN DOBLE THANKS TO MY BETA EDWAURDCULLEN123 SHE EDITED THIS CHAPTER AFTER I POST IT I'M SORRY.

SO YEAH A BIT OF A CLIFFY BUT IT'S ALL IN GOOD NATURE.

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