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Once the bar was closed the once silence of the place was now filled with moans and grunts. I panted hard as Forrest had me on all fours ramming into me from behind. I gripped the sheets below me as I felt his grips on my waist tighten. My hips moved back against his as he leaned over and wrapped his arms around my stomach thrusting harder moaning and grunting in my ear. His penis hit every spot inside me and I couldn't stop my loud moans from escaping me. His thrusts grew rougher and harder and I cried a bit as his movements and his hands gripping my breasts.

"You okay?" he whispered raggedly in my ear and before I could answer his hand moved between my legs rubbing my clit hard and I arched my back into his chest in reply.

"Oh god yes!" I replied feeling my body move in sync with his. I then felt my orgasm hit me hard and I hissed sharply before releasing a high moan and I felt Forrest hold me against his hips as I felt him release deep inside me. I panted hard and I felt him kiss the back of my neck and he pulled out and lied beside me pulling me close. I leaned in to him and smiled.

"You know you were pretty brave today." he said. I scoffed softly and shook my head.

"More like stupid. You and I both know such disrespect towards a white man is immediate death for a black person." I replied softly.

"Hey look at me." he said in a deep tone and I looked up at him with soft eyes only to be met with strong fearless eyes.

"As long as we are together no one here will hurt you." he replied in a low tone and he held my tighter as if to prove his point. "I love you and I would die for you."

His words were so calm and gentle but I could sense the strength behind it and I had never felt so loved in my life. I ran my fingers over his cheek and he leaned in to it and I shook my head.

"Sometimes…I wish I was white. I don't know where I belong in this world anymore. I don't want to on a line of black and white." I whispered. Forrest listened with soft caring eyes and placed his hand over mine and sighed.

"Eula, you are black surrounded by whites. The whole world is this way. You belong in both worlds." he said lightly and placed his forehead against mine. "You belong in my world."

I smiled and kissed him softly and looked back into his eyes before curling up into him. After thirty more minutes we got dressed and he drove me home. I wasn't shocked to see dad in his rocking chair with a cigar in his mouth and his shot gun in his hand. Once he saw me he smiled and once I was in the house he followed. Sunday was the only day I didn't work and I spent it with my brothers. They didn't work so we went into town and shopped for groceries. I was in a yellow sundress and my hair was in long pretty braids and then in one long braid. I had on white gloves and white shoes. In my hand was a small white list with everything momma needed. She needed flour and I looked around in an isle while Ray and Arliss looked for some other things. I found the flour and there was only one left and I grabbed for it then suddenly a smaller hand did as well, a white hand. I looked down to see a little white girl in a white dress with blue patterns on it. She had straw like hair and sadness was in her blue eyes.

"Edna did you find the flower idiot girl." I heard a rough female voice say and I winced and the girl tensed and looked back and then at me. She began to release the box of flour and I picked it up slowly and she began to turn away.

"No momma." she replied.

"WHAT!" the woman yelled. I winced at her tone and looked at the girl

"Pst." I whispered and she looked back at me and I smiled and held the flour out to her and her eyes sparkled and she took the flour and turned away.

"Yes momma!" she said with happiness. I smiled lovingly and then an annoying sound reached my ears.

"Mmm I didn't know a Negro with such hiss in her tone, could have a soft side." the voice was like a snake and I turned slowly to see Deputy Rakes leaning on the isle and he moved off it and moved towards me. I tensed a bit and looked away.

"I apologize, it is very out of character of me Deputy Rakes." I said softly. He let out a high pitched chuckle.

"Please call me Charlie and of course, Negros are slaves here and everywhere else. I have decided to put yesterday's incident in the pass for some information." he said in a sly tone and moved closer to me inspecting me. "What can you tell me about the bootlegging around here? The Bondurant's business?" I looked him over and shrugged.

"Why would they tell me anything?" I asked. He smirked and circled me and once he was behind me he leaned in and I could smell the deep cologne on him and I felt his lips at my ear.

"Because you are close to the Bondurants. They have let you in to their little circle." he said and then I felt his head pressed onto the side of my head and I felt as if something was sneaking up around my waist and I frowned and moved forward and turned to him.

"I know nothing of their work outside of the bar." I replied. He frowned slowly and moved back up to me almost menacingly.

"You know I can make some pretty horrible things happen to you and your family if you don't cooperate." he said darkly. I tensed at his words and then remembered that he didn't know my family was white. I licked my lips and glared up at him.

"I am a Kincaid. I bow down to no one. You want information you get it from someone else." I said and in seconds Arliss' large form crept up behind him and he looked down on the man whose eyes looked down and onto the side upon feeling someone creep up behind him. Ray was now at my side and he scowled down at Deputy Rakes. I could see the look of confusion on his face.

"Can I help you gentlemen?" he asked. Ray leaned back tilting his head.

"Yeah we want to know why you're messing with our sister." he said. I saw the look of shock on his face and I smiled and held my basket up in front of Ray who took it.

"Like I said...Charlie, we are Kincaids and we bow down to no one." I said and grinned. "Come let's go home boys."

And with that said we paid for our stuff and left quickly. I felt a large knot form in my stomach on the drive home. I was growing too confident with my tongue against white men and I knew I would have to tone it down before something bad happens to me or to my family.

"Eula who was that guy?" Ray asked. I frowned.

"A new deputy here to help put a stop to all the bootlegging." I replied. Arliss frowned.

"Guess we gotta stop our stuff then." he said. My eyes widened.

"You guys actually started a business, just the two of you?" I asked. Ray smirked.

"Yep. You and mom are the only ones who don't know. Dad helped us get started. We have our stuff high in the mountains, but you can't tell mom and we aren't going to stop because some city boy is prowling around." he explained. I smiled and couldn't believe we were having this conversation. I was happy that they were playing smart about all of this, not buying a bunch of stuff that could draw attention to them.

"What are you doing with the money ya'll make?" I asked. Arliss looked at me.

"Saving it and building up our future." Arliss said. I smiled almost sadly.

"Saving up to leave us?" I asked. The boys laughed.

"We would never leave you all behind. We're just planning for the future." he replied. I only nodded thinking they had a good thing going for them. My only thought was, what would I do with my life?